Нагой обед [Naked Lunch] - Берроуз Уильям Сьюард 12 стр.


He crawls under the bed, finds thechocolate and

crams it into his mouth with both hands.

"Jesus! These ID's got no class to them."

Benwaycallsover theattendant whois sittingat one

end of the ward reading a book of J. M. Barrie's plays.

"GetthesefuckingID'souta here.It's abring down

already. Bad for the tourist business."

"What should I do with them?"

"HowinthefuckshouldIknow?I'm ascientist. A

purescientist.Justgetthem outahere. Idon't hafta

look at them is all. They constitute an albatross."

"But what? Where?"

"Properchannels.BuzztheDistrictCoordinatoror

whateverhecallshimself...newtitleeveryweek.

Doubt if he exists."

DoctorBenwaypausesatthedoorandlooksback at

the IND's. "Our failures," he says. "Well,it's allin the

day's work."

"Do they ever come back?"

"Theydon'tcomeback,won'tcome back,once they're

gone,"Benwaysingssoftly."Nowthiswardhassome

innarest.'

Thepatientsstandingroupstalking andspitting on

the floor. Junk hangs in the air like a grey haze.

"Aheart-warmingsight,"saysBenway,"thosejunkies

standingaroundwaitingfortheMan.Sixmonthsago

theywereallschizophrenic.Someofthemhadn't been

out of bed for years. Now lookat them.In allthe course

ofmypractices,Ihaveneverseenaschizophrenic

junky,andjunkiesaremostlyoftheschizophysical

type.Wanttocureanybodyofanything,findout who

doesn't have it. So who don't got it'? Junkies don't got it.

Oh,incidentally,there'sanareainBoliviawithno

psychosis. Right sanefolk inthem hills.Like toget in

there, me, before it is loused up byliteracy, advertising,

TVanddrive-ins.Makeastudystrictlyfrommeta-

bolism:diet,useofdrugsandalcohol, sex,etc. Who

careswhattheythink?Samenonsenseeverybody thinks,

I daresay.

"Andwhydon'tjunkiesgotschizophrenia?Don't

knowyet.Aschizophreniccanignore hungerand starve

to death if heisn't fed.No onecan ignoreheroin with-

drawal. The fact of addiction imposes contact.

"Butthat'sonlyoneangle.Mescaline,LSD6, deteri-

oratedadrenaline,harmalinecanproduceanapproxi-

mat~schizophrenia.

Thebest stuffis extractedfrom the

blood ofschizos; soschizophrenia islikely adrug psy-

chosis.Theygotametabolicconnection,aMan Within

youmightsay.( Interested readersare referredto Ap-

pendix. )

"Intheterminalstageof schizophreniathe backbrain

ispermanentlydepressed,and thefront brainis almost

withoutcontentsince thefront brainis onlyactive in

response to backbrain stimulation.

"Morphinecallsforth theantidote ofbackbrain stimu-

lationsimilartoschizosubstance.(Notesimilarity

betweenwithdrawalsyndromeandintoxicationwith

Yage or LSD6.) Eventualresult ofjunk use-- especially

trueof heroinaddiction wherelarge dosesare available

totheaddict--ispermanentbackbraindepression and

astatemuchliketerminal schizophrenia:complete lack

of affect, autism,virtual absenceof cerebralevent. The

addictcanspendeighthourslooking ata wall.He is

consciousofhissurroundings,huttheyhavenoemo-

tionalconnotationandinconsequencenointerest. Re-

memberingaperiodofheavyaddictionislike playing

backataperecordingofeventsexperiencedby the

front brain alone. Flat statements of external events. 'I

went to thestore andbought somebrown sugar.I came

home andate halfthe box.I tooka threegrain shot

etc.' Completeabsence ofnostalgia inthese memories.

However,assoon asjunk intakefalls belowpar, the

withdrawal substance floods the body.

"If all pleasure is relieffrom tension,junk affords

relief from the whole life process, indisconnecting the

hypothalamus,whichisthecenterofpsychic energy

and libido.

"Someofmylearnedcolleagues(nameless assholes)

havesuggestedthatjunkderivesitseuphoric effect

from direct stimulationof theorgasm center.It seems

moreprobablethatjunksuspendsthe wholecycle of

tension, discharge and rest. Theorgasm hasno function

inthejunky.Boredom, whichalways indicatesan un-

dischargedtension,never troublesthe addict.He can

look at his shoe for eighthours. Heis onlyroused to

action when the hourglass of junk runs out."

Atthefarend ofthe wardan attendantthrows up

an iron shutter and lets out a hog call. The junkies rush

up grunting and squealing.

"Wiseguy,"saysBenway."Norespectforhuman

dignity. Now I'll showyou themild deviantand crimi-

nalward. Yes,a criminalis amild devianthere.

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