All my love!!!!!!
Ted От Лены
Hello
I will try to explaine again your my point. I don't know do you need it or it is only waste time? You told me in phone conversation it is my problem. You know it will be only my problem when you will not love me and when we will not depend from each other. Now I am your wife, love you and you love me. If I am wrong, let me know.
First thing…you offeneded me with your attutide to me, you did same bad things twice during a one week (I mean didn't call me or write me that you will be so late at home). From it I can see you had good time with your cool friends in the restaraunts, night bars and even didn't think about me. You didn't think I can be very worry about you when you are not home untill 5.00a.m. Now it is good lesson for me, I know if you are not at home late night, nothing happened with you, all is o'k with you…you only have great time with your theatre friends untill morning. From this situation I understood you forgot all what promiced me last week when we had serious conversation with you about same situation. So I can see you can't held your words which you promise. I don't know how about states but here in Russia we consider that people go to the night clubs or to drink, or to find woman (man) and of course to have fun. What is your interest there? Explain me is it usual theatre life? And everybody from theatre like to spend every night after every show in the restraunt? I didn't meet people from theatre so close before, tell me it is tradition to spend nights together after every play? I don't think you will change when I come to you, you are adult person and you are as you are.
Second thing I felt very uncomfortable that my mom was here and could see all. She saw I was very fruestrued with this situation and I was ashamed of it, that my sweet Ted who loves me very much, can't live without me spends nights in the night clubs. If you feel you like such life more, may be you are not ready to live with me together. Because family is very responcible thing and has some wise limits. You knew about it when we told with you before marriage. I thought we had similar images about life together.
Another thing… I was upset becouse you even didn't understand you hurted me so much. I am feeling depressed all last days.
I am not going to be "your mom" and tell what you need do, what no. You can do what you want, what you consider is right for you. I will do what is right for me. Now I don't need your records about your days and nights. I don't know will be you able to understand me after all what I wrote. I still as stupid love you and only for this reason I explained you all. If I didn't love you it didn't matter for me what with you, where you are and with whom.
Nichka,
Глава 8
4 июля 2000 г. 04:20
Они сидели в аэропорту. Ждали объявления на посадку. Лена снова села рядом с Олегом. Взяла его под руку. Крепко прижималась, словно это он улетал, а она не хотела его отпускать. И сидевшая напротив теща с трудом скрывала свое удивление. Дети тихо сидели чуть в сторонке. Было тягостно. Все молчали.
И потом когда объявили посадку Лена долго не хотела уходить, мол, посидим еще… А когда все-таки подошли к дверям, она попрощалась со всеми, расплакавшись, с Олегом — последним… И дети тоже сами не свои… и Валентина Федоровна и Леша… А потом они вошли внутрь и Олег долго еще ловил их глазами в проеме двери. А потом они стояли втроем и ждали когда пассажиры сядут в самолет, наблюдая в окно. Валентина Федоровна плакала, Леша тоже вытирался платком — по мужски, украдкой и молча…
Они видели как автобус, сделав крюк, медленно подкатился к самолету. Пассажиры вышли на летное поле и столпились у трапа. И Олег все пытался разглядеть в предутренних сумерках в этой толпе маленькие фигурки своих детей и Лены.
А потом все дела утряслись и пассажиры стали подниматься в самолет по очереди, навсегда скрываясь в его недрах.
Светало.
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1982. Зима. Ночь после танцев. Продолжение прогулки.
Шел третий час ночи. Снег приятно хрустел под ногами, на улице было по прежнему пусто. На Красном проспекте выключили свет. Но все равно было светло и уютно в лунных лучах. Они по прежнему шли и о чем-то увлеченно разговаривали, даже и не пытаясь останавливать совсем редкие в это время машины.
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От Тэда
My most treasured Yelena,
I am sorry that I forgot twice to call you. Of course it was very stupid of me. I regret very much that you worried about me and that you felt bad that your mom could see that.
You are mistaken when you imagine that I live wild night life, and you do not speak honestly when you say that you believe I will always do the same. You have known me for two and a half years. I do not appreciate it when you choose to forget everything about me except the last thing which offended you. It is no way to show love.
Again… I wish that you will understand that I am very sorry for not calling you when I stayed out late two nights ago. I hope that eventually you will be able to remember who I am and what I am like as a person.
Nothing in all the world will cause me to abandon you! Of course we want your health to be good. To live a long and happy life. But never fear that I will refuse you if some part of your health is not good. Here, when we take the vows of marriage we say, "I promise to love and cherish you in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, in good times and bad, until death parts us." I don't know what we swore to in the Russian wedding ceremony because I did not understand any of what was said. However, when I placed the ring on your finger and whispered, "with this ring, I thee wed"… my intention was (and still is) to love you through all things. "In sickness and in health." You are mine and I am yours… we are joined in love and nothing will keep us apart so long as the spark of life and love still lives in us.
I believe we will have a long and happy life together. But no matter what happens, I will be here for you and we will face all together. Da? Of course da!
Write me about your business with selling the apartment and buying tickets. I will be very happy when you have tickets!!!!!!!
Let me know what you find out about this passport stuff and I will tell you about flight information.
I will try to call the realtor today and see if she has any more info on houses. I am waiting to here from the appraiser… but if I don't here from him in the next couple days I will schedule an appraisal with someone else.
Love ya!!!!!!!
Ted От Лены
Hello Theodore Earl St.Mane!..LOL
It is funny…will you always call me now Yelena when you be angry with me? My day went good. After pleasant conversation with you I went to wash dishes and very soon Irina came to visit me. She brought presents for me and Alena and congrulated us with past women's holiday. I presented gift her also. We drink tea with cake and told, told, told a lot. It was good time because I didn't see her from time when I came from Moscow…we only told by phone. She went to home 7.30p.m and I with Alena acompany her to the bus. Then I with Alena went to the post office to pay phone bills and bought in the store food for supper. Just now we finished supper which I cooked very fast. All is o'k here. I hope you will have good day also.
Yelena.
Эпилог
1982. Зима.
Было 5 часов утра, когда они наконец-то подошли к дому номер 31 по улице Объединения. Поднялись на 5-й этаж. Он потихоньку чтобы не будить родителей открыл дверь своим ключом. В квартире было тихо. Он прикрыл дверь в коридоре и включил свет. Она тоже осторожно вошла. Потихоньку, стараясь не шуметь, разделись.
— Ну как ты себя чувствуешь? — шепотом спросил он, слегка обнимая ее за плечи.
— Ноги замерзли, — также шепотом ответила она, чуть прижавшись к нему.
— Что будем делать? — спросил он. — Горячий чай или в ванну ноги греть?
— Лучше в ванну, — сказала она.
Он набрал немного горячей воды.
— Отвернись, — попросила она. Он отвернулся. Она сняла джинсы, оставшись в одной длинной кофте. Осторожно вступила в ванну, придерживаясь за его плечо, присела на ее край, подстелив полотенце.
— Горячо, — тихо воскликнула она.
— Так и должно быть, — сказал он поворачиваясь. — Ноги скоро привыкнут. Ну а я на кухню. Что-нибудь там пока приготовлю. Может у отца коньяк еще найдется.
— Мне одной скучно будет, — улыбнулась она, слегка придержав его за руку. — Побудь со мной.
— Ну тогда подвинься, — улыбнулся он. — Мои ноги тоже замерзли.
Они долго и страстно целовались в ночной тишине спящего дома, лаская друг друга и не замечая что вода в ванне остывает..
А потом… она вдруг широко открыла свои большие глаза и посмотрела на него так что Олегу вдруг стало жарко.
— Подожди, — произнесла она несвойственным ей голосом и, привстав, повернулась к нему, положив руки ему на плечи.
Он непроизвольно прижал ее покрепче.
— Я люблю тебя Олежа, — говорила она.
— И я тебя, — отвечал он в сильном волнении.
— Я буду любить тебя вечно-вечно… — все также судорожно говорила она, чуть поднимая свою кофту. — Мне хорошо с тобой. Мы будем вместе всю жизнь… и никогда не надоедим друг другу… ведь правда?
— Конечно, — отвечал он, лаская ее обнаженное тело, и глаза его сами собой закрывались…
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4 июля 2000 г. 05:10
Самолет неторопливо приготовился, разбежался, и, сначала низко-низко над землей, а потом забирая все выше и выше, быстро превратился в маленькую точку и исчез в спокойном и чистом солнечном небе…
Они улетели…
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От Тэда
Hello My Love,
Thank you for your call! It was wonderful to hear you and talk with you! It is great to hear happiness in your voice!
I also wish that you were here with me to sleep on my shoulder. I love you very much!
I didn't tell you very well about my show on the phone. I guess there is not much to tell. The show is good. It has some parts which I think are not so good and mostly because of poor direction by Greg. The set is beautiful! There is music and dancing in the show which is very cool. Most of the costumes are good with only one or two being goofy. lol I am happy with my costume as the bad guy. I will get a picture of myself in costume so I can show you.
I am still thinking about our phone conversation this morning. I love you very much and I feel so very good with you! It has been a long time for us to be apart, my new wife. lol I want to share my love with you. I want to feel you close to me and to talk and laugh with you everyday!
I am glad that Sereja liked his graduation present. I am looking forward to seeing Sereja and Aluna again! I hope your mom is well. I want very much to learn pa-ruskie so I can talk with her!
I think August could be okay for a wedding, but only if you are okay with simple wedding. Weddings are expensive and take much planning. Also, during summer months many, many people marry, so churches and other facilities are often very busy. We can try to do all in August if you want. I like the idea to do this sooner and not later… but I also want that we can enjoy this wedding and not be stressed out about it. What do you think? It will be fun to plan this wedding together! da?*S*
I am very glad that you did all wisely and reserved tickets for the 3rd! I am disappointed that you will not see me in this play but I am very happy that you will be here soon and that you and the children will be here for your first 4th of July in the United States!
I will work now. I hope you will sleep well and that all will be good for you.
Love ya!!!!!!
Ted От Лены
Hello my Love! Thank you for the idea to write our love story. First time I didn't know what the language I should use: russian or english and decided to use both. But when I wrote I discovered all is on english. It is funny, but I can explain that. Perhaps my mind got used to think in english and I didn't feel trouble to express myself on this language.
First time when I met online one man from TN and he told me his story how he met russian gal in internet and now they want to marry, I thought: "Wow! Cool! It is so unusual!" But now two years later I know how many people found each other through internet, they opened each other and found their love. I saw many such couples in the american embassy. So internet is very popular place for meeting people from different countries. And now we are not unusual couple, but we went own way of understanding and learning each other to our Love.
The beginning of story…I got a computer few months ago in the summer of 1997 and first time I couldn't talk free in english. I could only asked people questions like what is your name, how old are you, where are you from? And to keep conversation sometimes I wrote some answers and questions on paper and used in need time. I was very excited of new opportunity to meet foreign people and I introduced, introduced with many different people. But this communication wasn't really interesting for me, because people I met were passive and they didn't interest my country, culture of Russia, of me…all conversations kept on my questions to them. I got simple answers from them and when I stopped to ask something the conversation became boring. Although they were glad to exchange with me e-mails, especially after geting my picture. Also there was such part of people who wanted to decide their sexy problems by talking durty sexy conversations. I understood fast it is not what I want to find in the communication with people, it is not interesting for me.
And in one day, it was 16 of November 1997, Sunday (for me) my friend Irina came to visit me and I showed her possibilities of internet and how it is cool. When she left me in the middle of day may be 3.00 p.m I decided to spend time in Yahoo chat because it was bored. And when I came online one guy began to introduce with me. It was Forest. I wrote as I did before simple information about him… Ted, 34y.o, Rochester, 180lbs, 5'8". It is funny but more later I saw he did same thing, he wrote short notes about women. I can understand him, because he as I had many contacts with women and it was useful don't mix people and don't be in silly situation…lol. When we began to talk with him I didn't like his profession video/producer/director. I knew people from art are not serious, not responsible, so I didn't expect from this meeting nothing interesting. We exchanged with him e-mails I got photo from him in same day, it was moment from show with Ted, Coralee and Ray. When I got pic I thought: "O, my god, again ugly fat guy with beard sent me pic"..lol and I asked Sergey to read note to this letter to know certainly who is who. I couldn't believe I got photo from handsome guy. I sent him my photo back. What Ted thought when he got my first picture we should ask him. Then we began to write each other every day. At first it was letters about our countries, about cultures and our families. It was letters of friends. I noticed Ted is very clever person and it is interesting with him, he can tell many interesting things and also he was interesting of me, of my world around me. He told me he was separated and wasn't ready to have new serious relationship, his heart was sick of last marriages. In this time he had enought women around him Terie (I noticed on pic of Thangiving he was in wedding ring, although he told me that decided to divorce with her.), Deb, Lori…and may be others which I don't know…lol