They were standing very close, marooned together in a hushed circle of awareness. The hustle and bustle of the airport faded into insignificance and there was only Mal, sliding his hands up her bare arms to her shoulders to cup her throat and tilt her face up to his. Very slowly he lowered his head, until his mouth was just brushing hers. Poised on the brink of release, Copper closed her eyes in delicious anticipation, and then the terrible, tantalising waiting was over. Mal secured her against him, his lips possessing hers in a kiss that was fierce and hard and yet achingly sweet.
Copper felt all her doubts dissolve in a golden rush of enchantment. Her hands crept up his chest and coiled around his neck as she abandoned herself to the swirl of sensation that carried her up out of time. It was bliss to feel his arms around her, to cling to the hard strength of his body and let the warmth of his mouth vanquish any last, lingering thoughts of resistance so utterly that when she sensed Mal begin to draw away, she couldn’t prevent a murmur of protest. He stopped it with another kiss, softer this time and briefer, and then another, briefer still, until the green eyes opened languorously and Copper found herself back on earth.
Mal smiled at her dazzled expression. ‘Hello,’ he said, obedient to Brett’s instructions.
‘Dad, I’ve got a pink dress!’ Megan tugged at his shirt, bored by the way they were just standing there looking at each other. She had much more exciting things to report.
Copper blinked and gave a rather shaky laugh, certain that she ought to be grateful for Megan’s interruption. Take it lightly, she told herself frantically. It wasn’t a real kiss. Mal had just been pretending because Brett was there. She had just been pretending too.
Hadn’t she?
Her legs felt as if they belonged to another body entirely, and, acting or not, she was pathetically glad when Mal took her hand again. His clasp was calming, invigorating, indescribably reassuring.
‘A pink dress?’ he was saying to Megan, holding out his other hand to her. ‘That sounds very smart.’
‘Yes, and I’ve got a friend called Kathryn,’ Megan informed him importantly. She skipped along beside them as Brett followed with the bags. ‘I’m going to play with her this afternoon.’
‘I hope you don’t mind?’ Copper moistened her lips, amazed to find that she sounded quite normal. ‘I know you haven’t seen Megan for a while, but she’s had such a lovely time playing with my cousin’s little girl.’
‘No, I don’t mind,’ said Mal as they reached the car that Copper had borrowed from her father. ‘I’m going to be taking Megan out tomorrow, while you and your mother do whatever it is women do before weddings, so I was hoping for a chance to get you on your own today.’
‘Oh?’ Hoping she didn’t sound too pleased, Copper concentrated on digging into her bag for the car key.
Megan had run around the side of the car to pull on a doorhandle. Mal glanced back at Brett, who had been diverted by a pretty girl who wanted directions, and lowered his’ voice. ‘I’ve arranged for a legal office here to draw up a contract for us,’ he said, and Copper’s fingers clenched around the key. ‘Today will be our only chance to sign it before the wedding.’
‘Fine,’ said Copper in a tight voice, feeling a fool for allowing herself even a moment’s dream that he might want to see her for herself. Well, what had she expected?
That one kiss would make any difference to Mal? He could hardly have found a better way of reminding her that their marriage was strictly business as far as he was concerned.
Megan chattered excitedly all the way back to the house and Copper was glad to concentrate on driving and on fighting down the wash of bitter disappointment. She was nervous, too, about Mal’s first meeting with her mother, who had always been very fond of Glyn and who was less convinced than her father that Copper wasn’t making a terrible mistake.
But she had forgotten how charming Mal could be when he tried. In a remarkably short space of time her mother was treating the two brothers like the sons she had never had, and by the time she had embarked on the most embarrassing stories from Copper’s childhood Copper decided that she would prefer signing the contract after all.
Dan Copley, correctly interpreting her anguished glance, hastened to change the subject. ‘I’m afraid that you’re going to have to face a family party this evening, but we thought you and Caroline might like some time alone together this afternoon as you haven’t seen each other for some time.’
‘Sounds good to me,’ said Mal. Glancing at his watch, he got to his feet. ‘Brett and I are booked into a hotel in the city centre, so we’d better go and check in. Why don’t you come with us, Copper, and I’ll take you out to lunch?’
Copper smiled stiffly, knowing that as soon as he had got rid of Brett Mal would be whisking her off not to a romantic restaurant but to a lawyer’s office, where they would sign three years of their lives away to a loveless marriage.
It didn’t take long. Briefed by Mal from Birraminda, the admirably discreet lawyer had drawn up a concise document setting out exactly the terms of the coldblooded deal they had agreed. Copper bent her head over the contract, pretending to read it through, but her eyes were shimmering with tears and when she signed her name it seemed to waver over the page.
‘Here’s your copy,’ said Mal as they left. ‘You’d better keep it safe.’
The day seemed hot and very bright after the air-conditioned cool of the office building, and Copper was glad of the excuse to hide her eyes with sunglasses. ‘Can you keep mine until after the wedding?’ she asked, rejoicing at the coolness in her voice. ‘I don’t want Mum or Dad finding it by mistake and knowing just what price I’m paying for our business to succeed.’
‘If that’s what you want.’ Mal’s face closed and he tucked the two contracts into his top pocket. ‘Well, shall we go and have some lunch, since that’s what we’re supposed to be doing?’
They walked in strained silence down to the Torrens and along to a restaurant that overlooked the river, its tables shaded beneath a vine-covered pergola. Mal had changed at the hotel, and now, in light moleskin trousers and a pale blue washed cotton shirt, he looked casual and stylish and somehow unfamiliar. Copper had expected him to look out of place in the city, and it was oddly disconcerting to find him instead as at home in this cosmopolitan setting as he was riding Red under the huge outback sky.
Mal took the contracts out of his pocket and laid them on the table between them, where they lay taunting Copper in their pristine white envelopes. She tried not to look at them and fiddled with her fork as Mal dealt with the waiters, only lifting her head in surprise when he closed the wine list and coolly ordered a bottle of the best champagne.
‘We are getting married the day after tomorrow,’ he explained, in answer to her unspoken question.
‘I know, but
well, we don’t need to pretend when we’re on our own, do we?’ said Copper with some difficulty.
‘No, but your parents might well ask you about your lunch, and I think they would expect us to have champagne, don’t you?’
‘I don’t think they need any more convincing,’ she said, concentrating on crumbling a roll between her fingers. ‘Mum thought it was a bit sudden at first, but it helped that Dad had already met you, and he didn’t seem to think there was anything odd about it at all. And they’ve both loved having Megan, so they feel as if you’re part of the family already.’ There were crumbs all over the tablecloth by now, and she brushed them into a careful pile. ‘I don’t think it’s even occurred to them that we’re not exactly what we’re pretending to be.’
‘Brett’s the same,’ said Mal. ‘He’s accepted the whole idea without question.’
Copper smiled painfully. ‘We must be better actors than we think we are.’
There was a tiny pause. Was Mal remembering that kiss at the airport this morning? Or was he thinking of the contract, with its brisk specification that they should both behave in an appropriate manner whenever they were with other people?
‘I suppose we must be,’ he said at last.
The wine waiter was hovering, opening the champagne with a flourish. Copper could see the other diners smiling at the scene, obviously thinking that they were lovers, and she wanted to stand up and shout at them that it wasn’t true, Mal didn’t love her, it was all just for show and it meant nothing, nothing!
But she couldn’t do that. She watched the bubbles fizzing in her glass and reminded herself about the successful business she would run and how happy her father was to know that his beloved project was going ahead. Her mind skittered to Mal, to the warmth of his mouth and the hardness of his hands, before she forced it back to the agreement they had made.
‘Well
‘ She smiled bravely and lifted her glass. ‘To our deal!’
Mal hesitated a moment, then touched his glass to hers. ‘To our deal,’ he said evenly.
There was a jarring silence as their eyes met and held, and then Copper managed to look away. She put her glass down on the white tablecloth rather unsteadily and tried desperately to think of something to say, but all she wanted to do was to snatch up those contracts lying there so mockingly and tear them into tiny pieces.
It was Mal who spoke first, anyway. ‘So,’ he said, ‘how’s it been going?’
‘Not too badly.’ Copper seized on the subject. Anything was better than that awful, jangling silence. ‘I’m afraid the wedding’s going to be bigger than we wanted, though. My mother’s spent the last twenty-seven years looking forward to my wedding, and she’s not going to be done out of it now.’ She sighed. ‘I kept telling her that we both wanted the ceremony to be simple, with just a quiet party afterwards, but every time I turn round she’s invited someone else and the celebrations are getting more and more elaborate.’
‘I’d have thought all the organisation would have appealed to someone with your business instincts,’ said Mal indifferently. Nobody would guess that they were discussing his own wedding, Copper thought with a flash of resentment.
She turned the stem of her glass between her fingers. A couple were strolling along the riverbank opposite, hand in hand, absorbed in each other. Copper watched them with wistful green eyes. It had been a difficult two weeks. The strain of trying to keep her mother’s plans under control had been bad enough, but far worse had been the effort of acting the part of the happiest girl in the world the whole time.
‘I wouldn’t have minded if it had been for a real wedding,’ she said. ‘But all the pretence gets tiring after a while, and it seems stupid to go to so much effort when you and I know the whole thing’s just a charade.’
Mal’s eyes were shuttered, expressionless. ‘It’ll soon be over,’ was all he said.
‘It won’t be over for another three years,’ said Copper bleakly, and he put down his glass.
‘Are you trying to tell me that you’re having second thoughts?’
She looked deliberately down at the contracts. ‘It’s too late for that now, isn’t it? We’ve signed on the dotted line.’
‘We’re not married yet,’ Mal pointed out impassively. ‘It’s not too late for you to change your mind.’
‘And find somewhere else to set up the project? No.’ Copper shook her head, avoiding his eye. How could she change her mind now, when her father was better, when Megan was thrilled at the prospect of being a bridesmaid? When cancelling the wedding would mean saying goodbye to Mal and never seeing Birraminda again? She smoothed the cloth over the table. ‘No, don’t take any notice of me. I’m just
‘
‘Nervous?’ he suggested.
‘Nervous?’ she tried to scoff. ‘Of course I’m not nervous!’ She picked up her glass and made to drain it, only to discover that it was empty. Feeling foolish, she set it back on the table and tried to meet Mal’s gaze confidently, but her defiance collapsed at one look from those shrewd brown eyes. ‘Oh, all right, I am nervous!’ she admitted crossly. ‘If you must know, I’m absolutely terrified!’
‘About the wedding?’
‘About everything! We hardly know each other and yet in two days’ time we’re going to be married.’ She flicked the white envelopes with her hand. ‘It’s all very well to talk about contracts, but a piece of paper isn’t going to help us live together, is it?’
‘At least you know what to expect out of the marriage,’ said Mal, watching her over the rim of his glass.
‘I know which jobs you’ll expect me to do every day, yes, but I don’t know how we’re going to get on, or whether I’ll be able to cope living in the outback, or what it will be like suddenly becoming mother to a four-year-old
or anything!’ Copper finished despairingly.
‘You’ve been living in the outback with Megan for nearly two months,’ said Mal reasonably. ‘And as for us getting on
well, we’ve got on in the past and I don’t see any reason why we shouldn’t do the same again-particularly as neither of us has any illusions about the other or any false expectations about what the other one really wants. And if it’s a disaster at least you’ll know that you’re not trapped and that your life isn’t going to change for ever. When three years is up, you’ll have established your new business. You’ll be able to come home to Adelaide, sit back and reap the benefits, and simply carry on as you were before.’
Copper tried to imagine walking away from Birraminda, from Megan, from Mal, and trying to pretend that they had never existed. She couldn’t do it now. How would she be able to do it in three years’ time? ‘Somehow I don’t think things will be the same,’ she said sadly.
The first course arrived just then, immaculately presented on huge white plates, and as if at a signal the tension was broken. For the rest of the meal they kept the conversation carefully impersonal, and Copper was even able to relax slightly as she listened to the news from Birraminda and told Mal in her turn how excited Megan had been with everything she had seen and done.
It was only when they were drinking coffee that Mal brought the conversation back to their marriage. ‘By the way,’ he said casually, ‘I’ve booked a hotel in the hills for Saturday night.’
Copper put her cup down into its saucer and looked at him blankly. ‘What for?’
He raised an eyebrow. ‘For our honeymoon, of course.’
‘But
I thought we would be going straight back to Birraminda!’
“The wedding’s not until five o’clock,’ Mal pointed out patiently. ‘By the time we get away it’ll be much too late to fly back that night. We’ll pick up Megan and Brett in the morning and go then. It’s not a problem, is it?’
‘No,’ said Copper quickly. ‘No, of course not.’ Stupidly, she had never thought about a honeymoon. She had somehow assumed that they would spend their first night at Birraminda, where it would be so much easier to remember just why they were married. ‘I just thought
Aren’t you very busy at the moment?’
‘One night isn’t going to make much difference,’ said Mal with a dry look.
It might not make a difference to him, but Copper knew that it was going to make a big difference to her! It was the night she was going to share a bed with Mal for the first time, the night she had to decide whether to lie stiffly by his side or to swallow her pride and succumb to the desire that seeped through her body whenever she thought about it. Copper had no idea whether she would ever find the courage to ask him to make love to her. Perhaps Mal would make things easy for her, she thought hopefully. He might take her in his arms and let passion sweep them up to a place where pride counted for nothing and no words were necessary