Once she was clean, he wrapped her in a thick, fluffy towel and wrapped a second around his waist, then carried her up to his bedroom.
He pulled on a pair of sweatpants and dressed her in one of his silk shirts, then tucked her into bed. As he climbed in the other side, she stirred, her dark lashes fluttering up weakly.
As he met that copper-ringed gaze, a sharp memory of other, malicious copper-ringed eyes rose in his mind, and the old hatred flared.
Her lashes swept down.
Skye He reached for her hand, curling his fingers gently around it. Dont fear me, little one. Youre safe tonight.
In answer, she rolled onto her side toward him and reached for him, her palm resting on his chest. The simple expression of need, of comfort, even from the man whod treated her as his enemy, moved him greatly.
As sleep reclaimed her, her hand slipped away, so he gathered her up and pulled her into his arms. Just as shed done in the cavern, she curled around his body, her head on his chest. Paenther held her against him, his arm tight around her, as pressure welled in his chest, a terrible tenderness that eased the rage that lived in his soul.
What exactly was he going to do with her? Even if she was, as he was beginning to suspect, nothing like Ancreta, she was still a powerful Mage. A witch controlled by a man without a soul.
If the Shaman was right about her cantric, she could turn on them without meaning to. Could he really risk the Ferals and their mission for her?
No. And yet
He knew deep down he would never allow anyone to hurt her again.
CHAPTER 11
For a few delicious moments, Skye thought she was dreaming, her body warm and comfortable, a hand rubbing her back with long, gentle strokes. A dream from another time. Another place. But the hand at her back wasnt her mothers. The sound beneath her ear was that of a strong, masculine heartbeat. And the scent that filled her nostrils was lush and male.
Paenthers.
She tensed, her mind scrambling to make sense of her situation. Beneath her cheek, she felt warm flesh, damp from long contact with her own. Clearly, shed been sleeping on his chest just as shed done in the caverns, except this time he was holding her.
How could this not be a dream? How was it possible that the dangerous Feral whod come close to raping her was now rubbing her back with a gentle touch? Even as the notion seemed ridiculous, the feeling of being cared for, even for a moment, was so sweet that it welled up until tears burned in her eyes.
She didnt want it to end. Trying not to move, she fought back the tears, not wanting to weep on his chest and give herself away. The memory of how she got there came back to her slowly. How shed sat in that prison cell knowing midnight would come, then felt the first invisible blade tear across her cheek. She shivered at the memory of what had come next.
The hand left her back to cup her head gently.
I know youre awake.
With a sigh, she lifted onto her elbow, swiping away the errant tears, feeling both awkward and wary. Why was he being nice to her now when hed come so close to hurting her before?
Pushing herself up until she was sitting beside him, she avoided his gaze, instead taking in his long legs encased in soft gray pants, and the hard, muscular planes of his bare chest. She studied the golden armband curling around his arm before finally lifting her gaze to his face.
The moment she did, their gazes locked. Paenthers body tensed, something harsh and ugly flaring in his eyes.
Skye flinched and turned her head against the blow, an instinctive move. Her heart began to thud.
Skye. His voice was low and pained. Im not going to hurt you. But when she felt him move, her heart raced faster. She squeezed her eyes closed, fighting against the instinct Birik had beaten into her, and forced herself to turn back to him.
He was sitting up, now. Too close. But there was no violence in his expression. Of course, there was rarely any in Biriks, either, before he struck her.
With a low sound of self-disgust, Paenther turned away and climbed from the bed, padding to the window with the quick, sinuous grace of a jungle cat. He stared out the glass, his hands fisted on the window frame.
I saw the copper in your eyes, and for one moment, it took me by surprise, Skye. Ive had some bad experiences with Mage eyes. But Im not going to hurt you.
Unless you decide Im your enemy.
Paenther didnt reply to that. He didnt have to. They both knew it was true.
Paenther turned and met Skyes gaze, but remained by the window, giving her space. Inside him, the old rage started to rush back in, a rage hed thought had been permanently carved into his soul until a delicate Mage witch made it disappear every time she slept curled around his body. It had happened in the cavern and again last night. Hed woken a short while ago feeling almost at peace.
But the respite hadnt lasted last time, and it wasnt lasting this time either. Almost as soon as she sat up, the peace had started to fade. As always, he gathered the fury in an iron grip and bound it within his icy control. The last thing he wanted to do was frighten her more.
Even from here, he could hear her heart pounding like it was trying to escape her chest. Hed scared her with the flash of hatred he hadnt even given voice to. A hatred that hadnt been meant for her. And shed reacted with a look in her eyes like the one shed had the night Birik had crashed into the room and beaten her half to death.
Why did he punish you with the cutting? he asked quietly even though he was certain he knew.
Because I didnt perform the moon ritual.
The sacrifice?
She nodded, drawing up her knees and wrapping her arms tight around them as if she could protect herself that way. In the middle of his large bed, dwarfed by his shirt, she looked small and terribly fragile.
How often does he make you perform that ritual?
Every night. Her tone was bleak.
Every night?
I find the animals during the day, and he kills them at midnight while I raise the power he wants.
He felt his fists tightening and forced himself to loosen his hands. The thought of her riding that white-haired bastard as shed ridden him made his skin crawl with something akin to jealousy. But the thought of him taking her like that at eight made him crazy.
Has he always been yoursexual partner?
Her body jerked. No. Sex has never been part of that ritual. Not until you came. Usually, I just dance.
The rush of relief nearly weakened his knees. Thank the goddess.
She looked at him, her gaze probing. Uncertain. Why?
How long have you been doing that ritual for him?
Since I got there.
Since you were eight?
Yes.
Thats why.
She stared at him, then looked away, as if suddenly fascinated by the paintings on his wall. There was something about her, a sudden brittleness that made him feel like the wrong word would make her shatter.
And he knew.
He hurt you anyway, didnt he? When you were young. She didnt react, and he didnt push. You dont have to tell me, Skye. I just want to understand you better.
Slowly, she turned back to him, in her eyes a strange mixture of pain and strength. She met his gaze, held it, as if trying to comprehend him instead.
Why do you want to understand me? Why are you being nice to me now when you nearly raped me last night? She didnt have to say the words for him to hear them.
Paenther pushed away from the window and leaned his shoulder against the wall, crossing his arms over his chest.
Youve been a contradiction to me from the start. The forthright siren with the sad eyes who led me into the woods, took me into her body, then enthralled me. The gentle witch who was beaten bloody for not forcing herself on me. My instincts have told me all along that you werent like the other witches Ive known. That you were innocent. Thats why I couldnt hurt you, even though the part of me that has always hated the Mage wanted to.
He looked up at the ceiling, remembering last night with a crushing ache. When I saw the cuts, Skye When he looked down, he found her watching him with an odd combination of wariness and tears in her eyes. When I saw the cuts, I knew my instincts were right. Whatever else you might be, you were every bit as much a captive of that place as I was. I judged you without knowing you. I saw the copper rings around your irises and expected the worst from you. And even when I didnt get it, I chalked it up to enthrallment or subterfuge.
He shrugged. For the first time, Im listening, Skye. I want to know who you are. And Ill try my damndest to judge you on that and not your race.
The edges of wariness in her expression softened. She brushed away the single tear that had escaped her eye while he spoke and met his gaze. The first time he raped me was two weeks after he took me from my mother.
Goddess. Im sorry. He suddenly wasnt sure he wanted to hear this after all, but he wouldnt turn away from her now. Not after hed begged her to talk to him. Why did she let him take you?
She tried to hide me, but I wouldnt let her.
You wanted to go with him?
No. She released her legs, digging her fingers into her hair and raking it back. Going with him was the last thing I wanted. Her words were hot and vehement. I dont know how he found out I was an enchantress, but he just showed up one day. I detested him on sight. Even then, I think I sensed he was without a soul. He told me to come to him, and I refused, so he grabbed me. One of my dogs attacked him. A small one, unfortunately. The big dogs were all outside.
She wrapped her arms tight around her legs again, pulling into herself. He killed her with his magic.
Again, Im sorry.
She shrugged one slender shoulder. It was probably a good thing. It told me all I needed to know about him. That night, the leader of our clan, the archsorcerer, told my mother I had to go with him. Birik was too powerful, too dangerous to attempt to cross. But after I went to bed, my mother came to me and told me to run. Id befriended a human girl a couple of years before in the neighborhood on the other side of the woods and had played with her a couple of times. She wanted me to go there, thinking the humans might hide me.
Skye shook her head, meeting his gaze with remembered fear in her eyes. But I was afraid Birik would destroy my friend and her family as hed destroyed my dog. And he would have, I know that now. So I hid in the woods by the house that night so my mother wouldnt try to take me away and endanger herself. When morning came, I went to Birik and told him I was ready to go.
She turned her head, pressing her cheek to her knees. I dont know if my mother ever forgave me for that. Her voice was soft and low, as if she were speaking to herself. She was so upset.
She forgave you. Whether or not she understood why you did it, she never blamed you, Skye. She only wanted to protect you.
Skye lifted her head to look at him, her mouth turning wry, a glimmer of thanks in her eyes. I hope youre right. I dont know if I saved anyone in the end. My entire clan may be soulless by now.
You never saw your mother again?
No. I never heard from any of them. They disappeared from my life. Ive often dreamed of escaping Birik and going back, but I dont know where they are.
She pulled her knees closer to her chest, her eyes taking on a faraway look. After we left my clan, Birik took me to the caverns and taught me the chant and the dance of the enchantress that raised my power. They were kind of fun, though I didnt like dancing without clothes on. It was too cold, but he insisted I be sky-clad. Then he took me outside and told me to call the animals. Dozens came. In hindsight, I think it made him angry that I could call them so easily when all he could call were snakes. But he selected a beautiful doe and her fawn, and we led them back into the cavern. I was happy. Id been scared and lonely, and the creatures comforted me. He promised me I could bring them to watch me dance that night.
His stomach rolled. He slaughtered them in front of you.
Her mouth compressed, and she nodded. I went crazy. I refused to dance. I tried to run away, but he beat me. Every night he dragged me back to the ritual cavern, but I refused. He tried one thing after another to punish me. He ripped me out of the plush little room his people had prepared for me and locked me in the cell where you were chained. Then he took away my clothes and stopped feeding me, but still I refused to dance.
Finally, one night, hed had it with me. He grabbed me by my hair and dragged me all the way up the stairs to the room where he held the rituals, the stone stairs tearing up my bare back. But I still wouldnt do what he wanted, so he threw me to the floor, followed me down, and raped me. Then he ordered the sorcerers to do the same, one after another, and they did. For hours.
Paenthers scalp crawled with horror at what shed endured. Fury pounded in his ears, his teeth bared as he imagined ripping every one of those bastards apart with his panthers fangs.
After each rape, he told me to dance, and I refused. My creatures were standing there, watching me. For them, I never gave in.
He stared at her, in awe of her courage, her sheer determination. At eight. You were a stubborn little thing.
To his amazement, she smiled. It was a small smile. A lopsided one that didnt reach those sad eyes, but it was a smile all the same.
That night I chopped off my hair so he could never again drag me up the stairs. Ive never let it grow long since. For all his power, he couldnt make me dance, and it infuriated him. He chained me in that cell, like he chained you, and used me for weeks, promising it would stop when I danced. Finally, one of his sorcerers came up with the idea of the cantric.
Putting it in your heart like that could have killed you.
I was of no use to him the way things were. With the cantric in my heart, the battle was no longer between him and me. It was mine alone. Every night She closed her eyes on a shudder.
He tried to image that child, that stubborn, determined little girl, suffering that cutting, and it almost brought him to his knees. Is that the only punishment?
No, though I dont know what all he loaded into it. I shouldnt have been able to leave the mountain. Every time Ive tried in the past, Ive hit a wall at the outer warding, then been consumed by so much pain I couldnt move. I dont know how you got me out of there.
You were unconscious. If you suffered, I didnt know it. His brows drew down as another thought occurred to him. How did you get down to the Market? Did the warding extend that far?
Only recently. After Vhyper arrived, Birik became intrigued with the idea of seeing what kind of power I could draw from Ferals. Vhyper and I created sparks between us, but they werent the right kind.
Something coiled in his chest. Did Vhyper hurt you?
No, not really. He kissed me, and I hated it. Ive never had an affinity for snakes, nor for the soulless.
Hes not soulless. The words came out hot and fast. But as he watched Skye visibly tense, he forced himself to calm his voice. His soul is still there. And Im going to find a way to free him.
She met his gaze. I hope you do.
Paenther nodded once. He would. Anyway he prompted.
Anyway, Vhyper assured Birik other Ferals would come. He knew youd come looking for him. So Birik extended the warding to include the Market. A fleeting smile flickered across her face. It was the first time since I was a child that Id been able to touch the outside world. I spent two days in that place, watching the television, looking at the magazines, and drooling over the junk food before the day you finally arrived.
Drooling? You didnt buy any?
I didnt have any money.
That simple statement told so much, confirming that she didnt have the power of a witch, to control the mind of a human and take what she wanted. Then again, he suspected she wouldnt have taken even if shed been able to. Stealing wasnt in her nature any more than the slaughtering of innocent creatures. He wasnt sure how he knew that, but hed bet money on it.
How did Vhyper know Id wind up at the Market?
Its the only public building on the mountain.
Paenther considered that. I wont send you back there.
I dont want you to. The strength in her eyes hardened. I meant what I said to Lyon. I wont be used to free more Daemons. Fire leaped in her blue-and-copper eyes as she released her legs and rose to her knees. Im not your enemy, Paenther. Im not the enemy of any of your people. I hate Birik. I hate what hes doing, and Ill do anything to help you stop him. Anything. I know you can never completely trust me, but trust me in this. Please?
He pushed away from the wall and went to her, as drawn to the fire of her conviction as to the woman herself. She didnt back away when he sat on the edge of the bed in front of her, mere inches from her knees.
I do trust you. He reached for her hand and took it in his. But I want you to trust me, too. Trust me when I tell you I dont hurt women, not without certain cause. His thumb brushed the back of her hand, his fingers, caressing the soft flesh of her palm, sending tendrils of excitement snaking along the edge of his flesh. It may take me a while to get past the copper in your eyes. Its been a symbol of all Ive distrusted for too long to forget easily.
With his free hand, he reached for her face, glad she didnt turn away. As he slid his fingers along the silken line of her jaw, awareness rippled through the air between them. But I wont hurt you, Skye.
To his surprise, she lifted her hand, her soft palm mirroring his, sliding along the edge of his jaw. Her eyes softened and glistened, tightening the band of tenderness around his heart.
No matter what happens, she said softly, her fingers lifting to stroke his cheek, making him ache with the need to take her into his arms. No matter what you ultimately have to do with me, I want you to know youre the finest man Ive ever met.
He wanted to object. The only thing he intended to ultimately do with her was protect her. But he couldnt make that promise. Not when there were still so many unknowns about her role in all this.
Besides, her words made his conscience rebel. How can you think that when Ive hurt you? Not only had he torn a chunk from her arm, but hed scared them both by what hed almost done to her in the prison.
You never hurt me without reason. Never for the fun of it. Her fingers slid into his hair, sliding through the locks, making him want to purr. Even when you scared me, even when I thought you were going to hurt me downstairs, I understood why. What I did to you, capturing you, was reprehensible.
You didnt have a choice.
She looked away, even as her fingers dug more deeply into his hair as if she needed to anchor herself. Her eyes, when they looked up again, were deep wells of regret. I did have a choice, though. I almost told you to run that day, the day I led you into the woods. I was terrified of what would happen to you if I captured you. Birik had assured me Id be able to keep my Feral, that he didnt mean to kill you, but I knew hed do whatever he wanted. His word means nothing. But I also knew that if I let you go, Birik would only capture another Feral for me.
Her gentle thumb stroked his cheek. Her fingers moved, their tips trailing across his mouth, sending tendrils of lush excitement heating his blood. Her gaze flicked back to his, her eyes luminous, reflecting the heat he felt in his own.
I didnt want another Feral, Paenther. I wanted you. It was selfishness that made me lead you into the woods that day. I wanted you inside me. And I wanted to keep you.
Her admission probably should have angered him, but all it did was inflame him more. Because the truth was, from the moment he first laid eyes on her, hed wanted her, too. His hands slid into her soft hair and he pulled her to him and kissed her, a tender kiss meant to cherish instead of dominate. A kiss he wanted to share instead of take.
His lips moved over hers slowly, sensuously, as he savored the heady brush of flesh against sensitive flesh. When her tongue darted out, he nipped it lightly then stroked it with his own, pulling it into his mouth. Passion erupted, stealing his breath. He needed her beneath him, her legs spread. And it would be so easy. So easy because he knew exactly what she wore under that shirt of his. Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
With a few deft strokes of his fingers he could make her want him as badly as he wanted her. She was his prisoner, now. He held all the power.
And for that reason, he held back. He wouldnt take advantage of her. Not when so many already had.
But, goddess, he wanted. His mouth opened fully over hers, his tongue sweeping inside her mouth, drinking the taste of raindrops. Her soft hands slid around his neck and into his hair as she kissed him back, her tongue quick and strong, parrying every thrust.
His breath became ragged, lifting in time with hers until they both sounded like theyd been running hard and fast. He thought hed happily drown in the taste of her, in the scent of violets.
Her hand slipped down to his bare chest, her touch almost rough as it grazed his nipple, then lifted to his shoulder and down his arm, caressing his skin, molding the muscle beneath her hand.
Over and over, he told himself this was just a kiss. Just a kiss. But the heat built, second by second. If there had been power orbs in the room, theyd have been spitting with light. What was it about her that sent his passion spiraling into orbit and had him flaming like the sun?
His hand moved down to slide over one small, perfect breast. Her nipple pebbled, pressing against his palm through the silk of the shirt. His body surged, hard and throbbing with need. Take it slow. But he had to touch her. He had to feel that flesh beneath his palm.
Knowing better than to reach under her shirt if he wanted to retain any scrap of sanity at all, he unbuttoned her from the top instead, two buttons, then three, until his hand slipped freely inside. As his palm cupped that perfect mound, he gripped the back of her head with his other hand and kissed her hard, desperately, inhaling her. Needing her.
The feel of her hand on his shaft jerked him out of his insanity even as it threatened to send him over the edge for good.
With a strength born of all hed watched her suffer, he forced himself to let go of her and take gentle hold of her wrists, pulling her hands to his mouth.
She looked at him, her eyes searching his, heat and uncertainty swirling in their depths as he kissed her palms, one after the other.
You dont want me touching you there? she asked, no feigned innocence in her eyes. Her uncertainty was all too real.
Im not going to take advantage of you.
Her delicate brows drew together. How does my touching you mean youre taking advantage?
He squeezed her hands softly. Youve had to give yourself to too many people, for too many years.
Thats not true. Ive never given myself to anyone. Others have taken. But youre the only one Ive ever wanted, Paenther. The only one Ive ever touched like that.
Her words tightened the band around his chest and only inflamed his desire more.
She pulled her hands from his, then rose to her knees and cupped his face, looking down at him from her slight advantage. Her eyes held soft vulnerability and raging heat.
Do you want me? she asked huskily.
He gripped her waist because he couldnt keep his hands off her. Thats not the issue.
I think it is. Your bodys ready for me, Paenther. I felt it. But I wont push you. I know how you feel about the Mage.
He tightened his grip on her. It has nothing to do with your being Mage. I want you, little witch. Im throbbing for want of you. I just think we should take it slower. You deserve that.
Her expression softened, and she leaned forward and kissed him lightly on the cheek, her arms curving around his neck as she turned and brushed her cheek to his, like a creature starved for touch. Exactly what she was, he realized.
He pulled her tight against him.
I want what we had in the woods that day, before you knew what I was. Her words, against his ear, were but a whisper. She was starting to tremble. Its never been like that before. Or since. I want you to touch me like that again.
She pulled back where she could face him, looking into his eyes with a trust and a tenderness that slew him. Please, Paenther? We may never get this chance again. And I need to be close to you.
She was shooting his good intentions to hell, but he was beginning to understand. Yes, shed been used, but the worst thing Birik had done to her was isolate her. From kindness and comfort. From tenderness and touch. Shed had her animals, briefly, before they were slaughtered each night. But shed lacked the touch of her own kind.
He remembered the way shed crawled up beside him on the stone slab. Even after hed attacked her and torn a chunk from her arm, shed curled around him in sleep. Shed almost never been in that room that she hadnt been touching him.
She might not be Feral, with his own animal need for physical contact, but she was more at one with the animal world than most. And she clearly hungered for that contact.
With him.
The softness toward her expanded inside him, swelling, giving birth to a tenderness he wasnt sure he could contain. Without a doubt, she was casting a spell over him, weaving a net around his heart. A net he wasnt entirely sure he wanted to escape.
You want me, he murmured against her temple. His hand slid down her hip, to the hem of the shirt that covered her.
Yes, Paenther. Yes.
His fingers curved around her warm thigh, then started a soft, sensual climb to her heat.
CHAPTER 12
Skye curled her hands behind Paenthers neck as his warm fingers slid up her bare thigh and curved around her hip. Shed begged him to touch her again, to take her in the most basic way. Her body quaked with anticipation even as her heart swelled with a raw affection for this man who had so many reasons to hate her yet treated her with more caring, more gentleness, than anyone since her mother.
She pulled back, her gaze caressing the strong lines of his face, those high cheekbones and the feral slashes across his eye, then dipped to his mouth. Her own lips parted, longing to feel his again.
As if reading her mind, he leaned forward. She met him halfway, melding her mouth with his, shoving her tongue into his mouth even as he shoved his into hers. She craved his kiss and his touch. Three times hed come inside her, but only one of those times had he been free to touch her. Only that time in the woods when shed captured him, and it had all happened too fast.
Lift up, he murmured against her mouth, as his hands gripped her hips on either side and lifted her off her heels.
Skye pulled back from his kiss, watching his dark, passion-filled eyes.
Spread your knees for me, Beauty. Let me touch you.
Thick, damp heat gathered low inside her as she did what he asked, her gaze locked on his as she curved her hands over the thick muscles of his bare shoulders to steady herself. She held on to him as his hand traveled from her hip to her stomach, then slowly down.
As her breath caught with frantic anticipation, his other hand slid inside her shirt and covered her breast, setting fire to the sparks already consuming her. She gasped, her fingers digging into his shoulders as his own finger and thumb plucked at her nipple, drawing hot gasps of pleasure from her throat until she was leaning into his touch, silently begging for more.
The hand on her stomach slid down into her curls before sliding lower, straight to the source of her heat. As a single finger teased the hot core of her pleasure, her hands slid into his hair, and she grabbed his head, holding on against the torrent of sensation. His finger stroked between her legs, flicking the center of her heat over and over until she was moaning and rocking against his hand. Then his finger slid deep inside her, curling against her inner walls, circling the edges of her sheath, around and around, harder, faster, until she felt she was spinning in the eye of a storm.
Paenther.
A second finger dove inside her, both shoving deeper still as she pressed her hips down, groaning with pleasure.
Paenthers head dipped, his mouth on her breast. No one had ever touched her like this. No one had ever tried to give her pleasure at all. No one but Paenther.