And so it is with Gabrielle.
She has reached over a quarter of a century.
Her nature is as passionate as that of a daughter of the south, and her early nurturing has been as wild and free as an Arabs; but no mans hand had struck the keynote of feeling until Lord Delaval put in an appearance on the scene.
He came, he saw, he conquered; and Gabrielle fell down at once, helplessly and hopelessly, to worship him.
CHAPTER II.
FLIRTATION
What the years mean how time dies, and is not slain,
How love grows, and laughs, and cries and wanes again,
These were things she came to know and take the measure,
When her play was played out so for one mans pleasure.
Gabrielles cheeks grow crimson and her eyes glitter with pleasure, that for a little while they two will be alone, with no stranger to intermeddle with their joy, as she watches Lord Delaval approach nearer and nearer and finally step over the sill of the casement.
There is always a peculiar directness, an odd sort of intimacy in his manner towards her, whenever they are thrown alone together, that produces at once a most unconventional effect.
Now, as he walks up towards the sofa where she sits, the orthodox smile of greeting is lacking on his handsome face, the ordinary hand-clasp is unoffered, and Gabrielle does not even attempt to rise from her nest of downy cushions, while her face droops away a little from his gaze.
There is just a softer gleam in the big black eyes, a quick, nervous pressure of the even white teeth on the full, red underlip, and these are the only signs that she recognises his presence on the scene.
But Lord Delaval confident and complacent requires no spoken welcome. He has come in not knowing who he may find in the room, but finding Gabrielle, is ready, faute de mieux, to make love to her in the underhand way that does not compromise a man, and passes away an hour.
Ever since Babys marriage to Archibald Hamilton had been hinted at by Lady Beranger, and he had suspected Zais weakness for the popular actor, he had insinuated a passion, if he had not one, for Gabrielle. It may be that her evident liking for him, and her undeniable personal attraction, had touched him; but probably it was only a selfish gratification he is given to seeking.
I am so glad to find you alone. I wanted to see you so much, he says in a quiet outspoken fashion, that to a girl who hates what she terms the insincerity and shams of society is, in itself, fascinating.
You wanted to see me, and you are glad to find me alone! she repeats, then, to cover the nervousness his proximity always brings, she adds flippantly:
Really, Lord Delaval, if Lady Beranger heard you she would drop at such a breach of the convenances.
Possibly, he answers coolly, but hang the convenances. Dont you know that there are times in every fellows life when he comes into collision with the conventionalities, and either breaks them, or else risks being broken by keeping them? So long as I can run with my Juggurnauth, alias Society, I am content, but I cannot throw myself before it and get mangled. Do you know I rather fancied I had a chance of finding you alone here, and so I determined to make chance a certainty?
Gabrielle gives him a quick glance of surprise, while her heart throbs faster than it has ever done before in the six-and-twenty years she has lived.
Lord Delaval has often looked love at her hinted at love, but he has never gone as far as this.
She has met him by appointment once or twice; still, nothing has been said to make her believe he really cared for her.
Now she reddens like a rose, and feels a nervous tremor run through her, and yet his manner is scarcely like a lovers. There is, in fact, nothing in what he says that could not pass as the ordinary talk of Society, yet the conversation seems lifted out from an ordinary atmosphere. They two, Lord Delaval and herself, are alone, and he talks to her just as if they were disembodied spirits. There are men occasionally in this world who have the power of bringing a woman they approach into direct contact with their own natures. They have a special gift of penetration, and one feels that in whatever relation one meets them, it is sustained by ones real self towards an equally real individuality on the other side.
Lord Delaval always makes Gabrielle feel this, and his intense manner adds to the feeling, but, with the supreme wilfulness of her nature, she refuses to yield to the magnetic influence he has over her without, at any rate, a struggle.
You can have nothing to say to me, Lord Delaval, that all the world and the worlds wife cannot hear. Are you mistaking me by chance for Zai? she asks, carelessly, but she has no control over her features, and the excitement of his presence lends them a flashing, bewildering beauty, that positively dazzles him pro tem.!
He fixes his deep blue eyes on her with an expression of fervid admiration, and her lids fall beneath the passion of his glance, but she lifts them bravely, and meets his gaze full.
You really look as if you thought I did not mean what I say!
And no more you do, ma belle, he answers quietly. Outside the sun shines down furiously; the air is warm as an Indian summer. Up and down, up and down, the butterflies skim over the flowers, and a lazy rose-twig gives an inert tap on the window pane. Gabrielle does not reply. She feels shy, and as shyness is foreign to her, it is not only an uncomfortable, but a painful sensation.
You snubbed Aylmer last evening, he says.
Yes! she answers laconically.
But why? Did you forget how many good things he has to offer you? Most women would jump at such a match.
Soit! but I dont, she answers indifferently.
Of course not, he tells her. I know you better than you know yourself no one will ever know you as well as I do and, still more, Gabrielle, no one will ever love you as I love you! No, dont start!
For she rises from her seat, feelings of various kinds surge over her, and she clasps her fingers tightly together.
Gabrielle, I have been longing to tell you this, he goes on, in a concentrated voice, which has a deal of suppressed passion in it; I see no reason for denying myself the expression of what is strong within me. I dont want you to tell me that you love me, for I should hate to evoke from your sweet lips words that your heart doesnt force through them, in spite of convenances! I only want you to listen to me when, instead of dilating on the beauty of the weather, and so forth, I lay bare my heart to you.
Gabrielle believes he is laughing at her, and the belief lashes her into fury.
Please, Lord Delaval, reserve your amusement for some one else. I am not of sufficiently elevated position for you to waste your breath on. Do you forget that Lady Beranger looks on me as a sort of social pariah, and almost a gutter-girl! she flares out scornfully, her lips trembling, and looking doubly tempting in their wrath.
Perhaps Lord Delaval, with his worship for pretty things, feels their increased attraction, for as his eyes fall on them, his manner grows really more impassioned. He moves closer to her side on the sofa, but she averts her head, and piques him by a feigned coldness.
I cant see your face, Gabrielle! And I want to see it while I talk to you, he pleads quite tenderly.
The tone touches her, not because she credits its sincerity, but because she has never dreamed that he could ever speak to her thus.
Gabrielle, do you believe in affinities?
I believe in sympathy, she answers, wondering what he is going to say now.
I am a firm believer in affinities, and dont believe in the possibility of love existing between two persons devoid of affinity. Tell me, Gabrielle! do you follow me at all?
She makes a slight gesture of assent, but she doesnt in the slightest comprehend what he is driving at. No matter, he is close besides her. If she likes, she can touch him, and this is enough to put this impassioned child of Eve into a fever of delight.
I dont believe that anyone can give another anything that does not belong to that other. He may withhold it to a certain degree, but it must be given in the end. Perfect love is when one meets someone to whom one can give all, and from whom one desires all.
Imperfect affinities are all that most people in our world know of love, and, Gabrielle, Belgravia is horribly ignorant, do you know? Being so, they call a part of such and such a thing the whole, and demand allegiance of ones whole nature to a feeling that belongs to, and feeds but a small part of it! Now, Gabrielle my beautiful, tempting Gabrielle! you and I have this in common, that we hate sham, and never pretend to fine sentimental feelings unless we possess them. Isnt it true?
Lord Delaval bends over her till his face nearly touches hers, and he smiles conceitedly as he notices how rosy red the cheek near him grows by his proximity.
I knew when I first saw you that you and I were exactly alike in our ideas and feelings. Somehow I felt it directly we spoke. I knew that you would never give to any man that which was not his for you are dreadfully proud and cold and hard at the core, and when I found out, a day or two ago, that unconsciously I had learned to love you do you hear me? to love you with my whole being when I found out that nothing short of an entire surrender of your soul of yourself would satisfy me, I trembled at the vision of bliss or torture that possibly lies before me look at me, Gabrielle!
There is a quiet command in his voice which she never attempts to resist. To everyone else sharp, caustic, cold, and full of sneers, to this man she is the humblest of slaves; his, to do with as he wills. A daughter of Belgravia, with Lady Berangers worldly-wise notions dinned into her ears, and with worldly, ambitious women examples for her in daily life of this man she wants nothing, only himself; to gain his love, and above all, to be let to love him, she would fling all other considerations to the four winds without a murmur or a regret.
In a sort of maze, she lifts up a pair of big, incredulous black eyes to him now eyes so soft and wistful so filled with newborn light that no one would believe they belonged to Gabrielle Beranger.
She forgets everything but him and the giant fact that he is hers. In spite of her peculiar nature and practical turn, she has pictured, like most of her sex, a paradise of love about this man, and lost in the golden vision of Loves paradise gained, she lets her usual scepticism slip out of her mind, and only knows that Lord Delaval, whom she has worshipped for three years with the feverish fierceness of her Bedouin nature, is wooing her strangely and abruptly, but in the sweetest, subtlest way that a man can woo. Gabrielle is sharp as a needle, yet it never crosses her brain in her lovesick frenzy that real feeling is not eloquent in expression, and that when a man really craves anything and trembles lest he should not grasp it, flowers of rhetoric are usually denied to his tongue.
She sits spellbound, with drooping lids. Literally nothing seems to live in her, save a vivid sense of his words, and the intensity of their meaning. Her keen intelligence is lulled to sleep, her habit of doubting is dead, pro tem. She does not try to subject his protestations to any analytical process; they only seem to float through her mind in a kind of soft mist, and she sits white now and silent, and feeling, as she thinks she can never feel again, content, almost in a dream, and yet full, awfully full, of an intensified vitality.
I want to tell you, Gabrielle, Lord Delaval says very low, while his audacious arm steals round her magnificent shoulders and her crimson cheek is pillowed on his breast, that I love you as no one has ever loved you, and that I am determined to win from you all that I wish! I have never been baulked yet, if I determined to reach anything. If I preserve my will intact, I shall not accept anything but the whole from you, the whole, sweetheart do you hear? Of your heart and soul and body I will have all all! or die unsatisfied. My hope to gain all this is by knowledge of your nature. It is you you that I love, not a part of you, not an ideal being of you, not what you represent to other mens eyes, but what you are with your thousand imperfections, even blots. Nothing, Gabrielle, will change me towards you, for I have only given you what is yours by the law of affinity, and you, Gabrielle well, I defy you to say that you are not wholly and solely mine.
It is masterful wooing this, insolent in fact, and it would revolt most women. Zai and even Baby, with her fast proclivities, would not understand it, and it would jar on their thoroughbred natures, but Gabrielle likes it.
The whole thing fascinates her a visible shiver runs over her. Lord Delaval feels the shiver, and his arm draws her more closely to him, while the ghost of a cynical smile crosses his mouth. He stoops his head and looks full into her eyes, and then his lips rest upon hers, long and passionately, while her heart beats as wildly as a bird in the grasp of a fowler.
Luckily for her she has been partially imbued with a respect for Lady Berangers beloved convenances and bienséances. Luckily for her, Belgravian morals, though they may be lax, are too worldly-wise not to know a limit.
Even while Lord Delavals kiss lingers on her mouth she pulls herself away from him, angry with herself that she has allowed that long passionate caress, and yet feeling that she would have been more than mortal if she had resisted it. But she resolves to sift him, au fond, to find out at once if in truth the man is only laughing at her or whether, oh blessed thought, she has caught his errant fancy or love as she calls it.
Lord Delaval! she says, in a voice in which pride and shame mingle strangely together, because I am a woman, with a womans weak nature, do you believe me to be a fool? Do you think for a moment I deceive myself or let your words deceive me? Only last night you flirted horribly with Zai. Before, it was in Babys ear you whispered your soft nothings. It was Babys hand I have seen you furtively clasp. I know therefore that the love you profess for me is all stuff and nonsense! that playing with womens feelings is delicious food for your vanity. But why you should pick me out, why I should be a butt for you, I am sure I cant guess! I dont care to believe that because I am what Lady Beranger thinks me, that you want to insult me!