House of Echoes - Barbara Erskine 10 стр.


The envelope with the French stamp had slipped between some old bills in a faded green cardboard wallet. Joss stared down at it for a moment, registering the slanted handwriting, the faded violet ink. The post mark, she noted was Paris and the year it was posted 1979. Inside was one flimsy sheet of paper.

Ma chère Laura As you see I did not reach home yesterday as I intended. My appointment was postponed until tomorrow. I shall ring you afterwards. Take care of yourself, my dear lady. My prayers are with you.

Joss squinted at the paper more closely. The signature was an indecipherable squiggle. Screwing up her eyes she tried to make out the first letter. P? B? Sighing, she laid the paper down. There was no address.

So, what are you up to? Luke had come into the room so quietly she had not heard him.

Startled she looked up. Sorting through the desk.

He was dressed like her in several old sweaters; over them the stained overalls and the woollen scarf did nothing to hide how cold he was. He rubbed his oily hands together. Feel like some coffee? I need to thaw out.

Yes please. She was pushing the papers together in a heap on the carpet in front of her when the telephone rang. Mrs Grant? The voice was unfamiliar; female; elderly. I understand you have been trying to reach me. My name is Mary Sutton.

Joss felt a leap of excitement. Thats right, Mrs Sutton

Miss, dear. Miss Sutton. The voice the other end was suddenly prim. I do not answer my door to strangers, you understand. But now I know who you are you may come and see me. I have something which may interest you.

Now? Joss was taken aback.

Thats right. It is here, now.

Right. Ill come over now. Joss shrugged as she hung up. A somewhat peremptory Miss Sutton wishes to see me now. Ill take a rain check on the coffee, Luke, and go before she changes her mind. She says she has something for me. Will you watch Tom Tom?

OK. Luke leaned across and kissed her cheek. See you later then.

This time when Joss knocked at the cottage door on the green it opened almost immediately. Mary Sutton was a small wizened woman with wispy white hair, caught back in a knot on the top of her head. Her narrow, birdlike face was framed by heavy tortoiseshell spectacles.

Joss was shown into a small neat front room which smelled strongly of old baking and long dead flowers. A heavy brown oil cloth covered the table on which was a small notebook. It was identical to the one Joss had found in her mothers desk. Her eyes were glued to it as she took the proffered seat on an upright chair near the window.

After several long seconds of silent scrutiny the solemn face before her broke suddenly into a huge beam. You may call me Mary, my dear, as your mother did. Mary turned away and began to pour out tea which had been laid ready on a tray on the sideboard. I looked after you when you were very small. It was I who gave you to the adoption people when they came to collect you. She blinked hard through her pebble lenses. Your mother could not bring herself to be there. She walked in the fields down by the river until you had gone.

Joss stared at her aghast, trapped into silence by the lump in her throat. Behind the glasses the old ladys eyes, magnified into huge half globes, were brimming with tears.

Why did she give me away? It was several minutes before Joss could bring herself to ask. She accepted the tea cup with shaking hands and put it down hastily on the edge of the table. Her eyes had returned from Marys face to the notebook.

It was not because she didnt love you, my dear. On the contrary, she did it because she loved you so much. Mary sat down and pulled her skirt tightly over her knees, tucking the voluminous fabric under her bony legs. The others had died, you see. She thought if you stayed at Belheddon, you would die too.

The others? Josss mouth was dry.

Sammy and George. Your brothers.

Sammy? Joss stared at her. She had gone cold all over.

What dear? Mary frowned. What did you say?

You looked after them? My brothers? Joss whispered.

Mary nodded. Since they were born. She gave a wistful little smile. Little rascals they were, both of them. So like their father. Your mother adored them. It nearly broke her when she lost them. First Sammy, then Georgie. It was too much for any woman to bear.

How old were they when they died? Josss fingers were clenched in her lap.

Sammy was seven, near as makes no difference. Georgie was born a year after that, in 1954, and he died on his eighth birthday, bless him.

How? Josss whisper was almost inaudible.

Terrible. Both of them. Sammy had been collecting tadpoles. They found him in the lake. There was a long silence. When Georgie died it was nearly the end of your mother.

Joss stared at her speechlessly as, shaking her head, Mary sipped at her tea. They found him at the bottom of the cellar steps, you see. He knew he was never allowed down there, and Mr Philip, he had the cellar keys. They were still there, locked in his desk. She sighed. Sorrows long gone, my dear. You must not grieve over them. Your mother would not have wanted that. She reached for the notebook and took it off the table, holding it on her lap with little gentle stroking movements of her fingers. Ive kept this all these years. Its right you should have them. Your mothers poems. Still she didnt release the volume, holding it close as if she could not bear to part with it.

You must have loved her very much, Joss said at last. She found there were tears in her eyes.

Mary made no response, continuing to stroke the notebook quietly.

Did you did you know the French gentleman who came here? She studied the old ladys face. There was a slight pursing of the lips, no more.

I knew him.

What was he like?

Your mother was fond of him.

I dont even know his name.

Mary looked up at last. This at least was something she seemed able to divulge without reservation. Paul Deauville. He was an art dealer. He travelled the world I understand.

Did he live in Paris?

He did.

And my mother went to live with him?

A definite frisson almost a shudder. He took your mother away from Belheddon.

Do you think he made her happy?

Mary met Josss eye and held it steady through the grotesquely magnifying lenses of her glasses. I hope so, my dear. I never heard from her again after she left.

As if she were afraid she had said too much Mary clamped her lips shut, and after several more perfunctory attempts at questioning her Joss rose to leave. It was only as she turned to walk through the front door into the blinding frosty sunlight that Mary at last relinquished the notebook.

Take care of it. There is so little of her left. The old lady caught her arm.

I will. Joss hesitated. Mary, will you come and see us? I should like you to meet my little boy, Tom.

No. Mary shook her head. No, my dear. Ill not come to the house if you dont mind. Best not. With that she stepped back into the shadows of her narrow front hall and closed the door almost in Josss face.

The graves were there, beyond her fathers. Quite overgrown now, she hadnt seen the two small white cross headstones side by side in the nettles under the tree. She stood looking down at them for a long time. Samuel John and George Philip. Someone had left a small bowl of white chrysanthemums on each. Joss smiled through her tears. Mary at least had never forgotten them.

The graves were there, beyond her fathers. Quite overgrown now, she hadnt seen the two small white cross headstones side by side in the nettles under the tree. She stood looking down at them for a long time. Samuel John and George Philip. Someone had left a small bowl of white chrysanthemums on each. Joss smiled through her tears. Mary at least had never forgotten them.

Luke and Tom were busy in the coach house when she got home. With one look at their happy oily faces she left them to their mechanical endeavours and clutching the notebook retreated to the study. The sunshine through the window had warmed the room, and she smiled a little to herself as she stooped and throwing on some logs, coaxed the fire back into life. In a few moments it would be almost bearable. Curling up on the arm chair in the corner she opened the notebook at the first page. Laura Manners Commonplace Book. The inscription in the flyleaf of this notebook was in the same flamboyant hand as that in the other. She glanced at the first few pages and felt a sharp pang of disappointment. She had assumed her mother would have written the poems herself, but these were bits and pieces copied out from many authors a collection obviously of her favourite poems and pieces of prose. There was Keatss ode To Autumn, a couple of Shakespeare sonnets, some Byron, Grays Elegy.

Slowly, page after page she leafed through, reading a few lines here and there, trying to form a picture of her mothers taste and education from the words on the page. Romantic; eclectic, occasionally obscure. There were lines from Racine and Dante in the original French and Italian, a small verse from Schiller. She was something of a linguist then. There were even Latin epigrams. Then suddenly the mood of the book changed. Stuck between two pages was a single sheet, old and torn, very frail, held in place by tape which had discoloured badly. It was an India paper page, torn, Joss guessed from a Roman Missal. On it, in English and in Latin, was a prayer for the blessing of Holy Water.

I do this that the evil spirit may be driven away from thee, and that thou mayest banish the enemys power entirely, uprooting and casting out the enemy himself with all his rebel angels

so that whatsoever in the homes of the faithful or elsewhere shall have been sprinkled with it may be delivered from everything unclean and hurtful. Let no breath of contagion hover there, no taint of corruption. May all the wiles of the lurking enemy come to nothing, and may anything that threatens the safety or peace of those who dwell there be put to flight by the sprinkling of this water

Joss stared round, letting the book fall into her lap, realising she had been reading the words out loud. The house was very silent.

Exorcizo te, in nomine Dei Patris omnipotentis, et in nomine Jesu Christi Filii ejus, Domine nostri, et in virtute Spiritus Sancti

The devil himself lives here

Alan Fairchilds words echoed through her head.

For several minutes she sat staring into space then, closing the notebook she stood up and going to the desk, she reached for the phone.

David Tregarron was in the staff room marking test papers when her call was put through.

So, how is life in the outback, Jocelyn? His booming voice seemed to echo round the room.

Quite a strain actually. She frowned. The words had come spontaneously, accurately, instead of the easier platitude she had framed in her head. I hope you can come and see us soon. She sounded so much more desperate than she had intended. David, would you do me a favour? When you are next in the British Library reading room would you look up Belheddon for me and see if you can find anything about its history?

There was a slight pause as he tried to interpret her tone. Of course I will. From what you said before it sounds like a wonderful old place. Im looking forward to my first visit.

So am I. She heard the fervour in her voice with surprise. Id like to know what the name means.

Belheddon? That sounds fairly straightforward. Bel beautiful, of course, or if the name is much older it might come from a Celtic derivation, like the Irish, which if I remember it rightly, has much the same meaning as Aber in Wales or Scotland the mouth of a river. Or it could come from the old gods Bel, you remember Beltane, or Baal from the Bible who came to represent the devil himself. Then I think heddon means heather or a temple on a heathery hill or some such

What did you say? Josss voice was sharp.

A temple

No, before that. About the devil.

Well, its just a possibility I suppose. Rather romantic really. Perhaps the original site housed a temple.

Theres a local legend, David, that the devil lives here. Her voice was strangely thin and harsh.

And you sound afraid rather than amused. Oh, come on Joss. Youre not letting the credulous yokels get to you, are you? The jovial manner had dropped away abruptly. You dont believe in any of this, surely?

Of course not. She laughed. Id just like to know why the house has this reputation. It is a bit sort of dramatic!

Well, I suppose it is on dark nights with the wind howling round. I must say, I cant wait to come and see it. There was a pause. I dont suppose I could look in this weekend, could I? I know its getting awfully near Christmas but terms practically over. I can look a few things up for you; find a few books, perhaps?

She laughed, extraordinarily pleased. Of course you can come! That would be wonderful. One thing we are not short of is space, providing you pack enough warm clothes. Its like the Arctic here.

When Luke came in, carrying a filthy small boy, both of them cold and terribly pleased with themselves Joss was smiling to herself as she stirred a huge pan of soup. Davids coming up the day after tomorrow.

Great. Luke held Tom under one arm over the sink and reached for the Swarfega. It will be nice to see him. Hell bring news no doubt of dear old London and civilisation. He chuckled, smearing green goo all over his small sons hands as Tom crowed with delight. Luke glanced at her over the sticky curls. Hes not going to make you feel youre missing out, is he? Rural stagnation instead of academia.

She shook her head. Nope. If I want to get back into it, I can always start some kind of research project with the prospect of a book in about a thousand years time. Or something less academic and more lucrative. The book David suggested I have a go at, perhaps. I might just have a chat to him about that. The idea had in fact been growing on her.

Reaching for the pepper mill she ground it over the soup, stirred, put down the wooden spoon and sat down at the kitchen table. You havent asked how I got on with Mary Sutton.

Luke raised an eyebrow. I could see it was good and bad when you came back. Want to tell me now?

Both my little brothers died here, Luke. In accidents.

She was looking at Tom, suddenly aching to hold him. How could her mother have borne to lose two boys?

Nothing will happen to Tom Tom, Joss. Luke could always read her mind. He changed the subject adroitly. Listen, talking about Tom Tom and your writing what do you think of the idea of asking Lyn if shed like to come and help you look after him. As a sort of proper job. Drying Toms hands he posted the little boy in Josss direction with a gentle slap on the behind.

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