Im sorry, he murmured. Youre probably still tender there.
Its not that. I just dont want you to know all my secrets. She rubbed her cheek against the slight roughness of his. I worked hard to hide those stitches.
He slid his hand under her heavy hair around to the nape of her neck. I want to know all your secrets.
Now she was getting embarrassed. She could feel her face flushing. This was all sonot like her. She didnt kiss strange men in public places.
All I could think about, all night long, was kissing you, he tried again. I know its probably too much, too fast, but
She took his face between her hands, stood on her toes and kissed him again. She didnt want to talk yet. She didnt want mere words to pull her back into the real world.
He groaned low in his throat, wrapped his arms around her, as if sheltering her from prying eyes, and deepened the kiss for a few precious seconds before abruptly ending it.
He was breathing hard. Seemingly with some effort, he set her away from him. Damn, darlin, thats some potent kiss you got there.
Likewise. Willow wasnt a hundred percent in control of herself, even now when she wasnt wrapped in his arms.
If we werent here in the middle of the VFW hall
Willow covered her face. Dont say it. Though it was true and she knew it. If they were in private, he wouldnt stop at a kiss. And she wouldnt want him to.
Her brain injury must have been more extensive than she thought. She was completely insane, certifiably!
Sorry. He brushed a strand of hair from her cheek, tucked it behind her ear. I didnt mean to overwhelm you. Its just that Ive pictured this moment for such a long time
You have?
I think about you a lot. Probably too much to be good for me.
Willow would have loved to be able to tell him shed thought about him, too, that shed noticed him, that shed hoped he would ask her out or that she might be brave enough to ask him out.
But she hadnt thought about any guy in that way for a long time. Not since her sophomore year at University of Texas, when shed finally been out from under her parents control for the first time everand away from curious, small-town eyes. Shed gone a little bit wild, dating a whole slew of guys in some misguided effort to wipe memories of Cal Chandler out of her mind.
Shed been intrigued with some of them, and shed tried her best to transform mild interest into wild attraction. But shed never wanted any of them enough to sleep with them. Cal was the only one shed ever loved enough to risk sex with, and look what a disaster that had turned into.
Then her class work had become more demanding, and shed given up on guys altogetherwith some relief. She was glad to not have to worry about sex anymore.
This isnt how I wanted to start things with us, Willow.
She raised her eyebrows. How did you want to start?
With a date. A nice, normal date. Could we do that? Could we start over?
There were a zillion reasons for her to say no, starting with the fact she didnt know who he was. She had to get ready for her move to Dallas. She had to unscramble her brains.
But there was one, overriding reason to say yes. That kiss. Shed never experienced anything like it. Not even Cals kisses, much as shed loved him, had made her want to rip off her clothes and offer herself like some pagan sacrifice. What if this was the sort of chemistry that happened only once in a lifetime? Could she just walk away from that?
Im moving to Dallas in five weeks, she said. You do understand that, right?
Willow. You dont always have to think about what happens five weeks from now. Or even one week from now. How about just thinking through tomorrow? Going out to dinner with me. Just a simple date.
Well, when he put it that way Okay, she heard herself saying.
Ill pick you up at your grandmothers at seven. Well go to the Party Barge.
Sounds fun. Willow suppressed the giddy laughter that threatened. The Party Barge. It was a big barge that cruised Town Lake on weekends. Patrons dressed up, ate prime rib and danced to live big-band music. When shed been in high school, she and Cal had talked about going there for her twenty-first birthday, when she could legally order a cocktail. It had seemed an impossibly sophisticated and expensive evening out for a couple of dreamy kids.
Well, her twenty-first birthday had come and gone a long time ago, and shed never been to the Party Barge.
Suddenly, Willow realized she was standing behind the ivy curtain all alone. Her mystery man had vanished while shed been momentarily lost in her adolescent fantasy. Thats what she got for thinking about Cal when shed had a flesh-and-blood man within reach.
She checked to be sure her clothes were in orderthat shed ripped them off only in her imaginationthen slipped out of the sheltered alcove. No one seemed to be paying her any mind, thank heavens. She made a beeline for the bathroom, where she straightened her hair and wiped off her smeared lipstick. Her face was still flushed, her eyes a little brighter than usual, but probably no one would notice that.
Suddenly, her fatigue caught up with her again. Shed definitely overdone it today. This was her first real outing since coming home from the hospital. The surge of adrenaline brought on by the dance and kiss had dwindled, leaving her feeling a bit washed-out.
She would find Nana and go home, where she could sit quietly and think about her date tomorrow. She was pretty sure that was all she would be able to think about.
Nana was sitting at their table, fanning herself with a paper fan she kept folded in her purse. She looked up when Willow approached.
Oh, there you are. I wondered where youd got to. Are you about ready to go?
I was just going to ask you the same thing. Willow picked up her purse and tucked her cheat sheet index cards inside. She would throw them away when she got home. Once everyone changed clothes, they would be useless and she would have to start over.
Oh, dear, youre feeling all right, arent you? Nana asked, concern wrinkling her brow. You look a little flushed.
Leave it to Nana, with her eagle eyes, to notice. Im fine. Its a little warm in here. Um, Nana, did you happen to notice who I was dancing with a little while ago?
Nanas eyes sparkled mischievously. No. Who was it?
Willow groaned. I was hoping youd tell me. Are you sure you didnt see? We were dancing to Patsy Cline.
A slow song, huh? Nana was clearly amused.
This isnt funny. I told him Id go out with him, and then I She lowered her voice to a whisper. I kissed him. And I dont know who he is.
Nana shrugged helplessly. Im sorry, sweetheart. I was doing a bit of dancing myself and I guess I just lost track of you. So youre going on a date with him? When? Wheres he taking you?
Tomorrow, the Party Barge. Oh, Nana, what if hes someone totally inappropriate? Someone Id never in a million years go out with? What if hes married or dating one of my friends?
Then he would try to see you on the sly. He wouldnt take you out on a date and certainly not to such a public place.
Nana had a point.
Youre worrying for nothing. Nana patted Willows arm as they headed for the exit. The bride and groom had already left for their honeymoon. Willow supposed there were people she should say goodnight to, but she would have to summon up names again and she really didnt have the energy. So she just waved at anyone who made eye contact.
Youre worrying for nothing. Nana patted Willows arm as they headed for the exit. The bride and groom had already left for their honeymoon. Willow supposed there were people she should say goodnight to, but she would have to summon up names again and she really didnt have the energy. So she just waved at anyone who made eye contact.
Soon they were safely in Nanas car, a twenty-year-old Ford Taurus she kept in immaculate condition.
Cottonwood is full of nice young men, Nana said as she pulled out of the parking lot. Maybe your mystery man was that nice sheriffs deputy, Luke Rheems. Hes handsome and eligible and I noticed him watching you.
Or he might have been Orville, the garbage man.
I think you would have noticed if he was missing several teeth. Anyway, he was young, wasnt he?
Willow shrugged. Age is one of those qualities I have trouble with. I can tell a child from an old man, but those ages in between tend to look a lot alike. Oh, Nana, what if hes someone I have nothing in common with?
You wont know until you spend time with him.
How can I go out with a man, Willow tried again, if I dont know his name?
That stumped Nana for a moment. Then she got a decisive look on her face. This isnt a problem. When he comes to pick you up tomorrow, Ill be there to greet him. Before you leave, Ill have a private word with you and Ill tell you who he is. Then youll at least be able to call him by his name.
What if you dont know him?
Then hell introduce himself and the problem will be solved another way. Willow, darling, you spend way too much time worrying. It will all work out. I mean, whats the worst that could happen? You admit to him that you have a bit of a problem recognizing faces
No! I cant tell him that. I cant tell anyone that. Then it would get all over town, and people would feel sorry for me even as theyre avoiding me
Oh, Willow, Nana said. Like I said, you worry too much.
CAL WAS MORE NERVOUS about his date with Willow than he could ever remember being. He still couldnt believe shed agreed to go out with him. Or that hed kissed her. Or that shed kissed him back.
And what a kiss. It wasnt like he remembered from five years ago. Hed always enjoyed kissing Willow, of course. Shed been shy about it at first, very inexperienced. Shed confessed that he was only the third boy shed ever kissed, and the first two had been just little pecks. But hed persevered, and pretty soon they were making out every chance they gotany time they could escape the watchful eyes of her overprotective parents.
Hed been crazy for her, just about as horny as an eighteen-year-old boy could get. But hed never gotten the idea that Willow was similarly inflamed. She went through the motions and her technique improved. But Cal never sensed that she was getting carried away.
Last night at the wedding, however, had been a whole nother story. The woman had been on fire, just as hed been. Maybe that was the difference between the girl hed fallen in love with and the woman shed become. The girl had kissed him because she loved him and wanted to please him. The woman had kissed him because shed wanted to.
He wondered what else about Willow had changed. She was taller and shed filled out slightly, though she still had that reed-slim body and waist-length hair that haunted his dreams. But had she changed inside? Could he push his outdated memories of Willow into the past where they belonged and fall in love with the woman shed become?
He looked forward to finding out.
Her grandmothers house looked the same as it always did when he pulled up out front. The large, two-story frame house, almost a hundred years old, had a wide, inviting front porch with a swing. The front yard was practically overrun with roses in every color, blooming like crazy. Willow had grown up in Mooresville, on the other side of Town Lake. Her parents owned the bank there, and they both worked there full-time. So Willow had spent summers living with Clea.
Clea Marsden was the perfect grandmother. She baked cookies and made fresh lemonade and sewed quilts and grew roses. But she was a modern thinker and a lot more liberal than Willows parents. While Willows parents had disapproved of her romance with Cal because of the age difference, Clea had encouraged it. Shed told Cal once that she could tell from the very beginning that the two of them belonged together. So Cal had run tame at Cleas big, homey house all summer long.
Even after Willow had broken up with him, Cal had stayed close to Clea. He did odd jobs for her now, fixing little things around the house, checking the oil and tire pressure in her car, mowing the lawn. Shed been a widow for a long time, and she was pretty self-sufficient, but everyone needed help now and then.
Now it was seven oclock on the nose. Willow had always valued punctuality, so Cal had made sure he wouldnt be late. With one final glance in the rearview mirror, he got out and headed for the door, his stomach tumbling with nerves. Those werent butterflies in there; it felt more like a herd of rhinoceros.
He rang the bell. Heard footsteps. Swallowed, his mouth suddenly full of cotton. The door opened, and Clea stood there, a pleasant, welcoming smile on her face. Her smile faltered a moment when she recognized Cal, but then it returned, even bigger than before. Had Willow not told her grandmother to expect him?
Come in, come in, Cal. Its so good to see you. Willows just finishing her hairshell be down in a minute. She showed him into the living room, where a plate of cookies sat invitingly on the coffee table. Would you like a cookie?
Cal groaned. Are those your oatmeal peanut-butter cookies?
Mmm-hmm. Just baked them this afternoon.
I dont want to spoil myokay, just one. He couldnt resist. He took a cookie and bit into it, savoring the sweet, rich taste that brought back a thousand memories. He and Willow used to pack picnic lunches and hike into the woods that ran through the back of the Hardison Ranch. They would spread out a quilt by the creek, gorge themselves on fried chicken and potato salad and at least half a dozen cookies each, then swim in the creek.
Clea disappeared briefly, and when she returned, she had her purse in her hand. I hope you wont think Im rude, but I have bingo tonight. You kids have fun! She waved and disappeared again. Moments later, Cal heard the back door open and close.
Less than a minute after Cleas departure, Cal heard another door open and close, then footsteps coming down the stairs.
He bounced to his feet just as Willow entered the living room. She looked like a goddess in a white gauzy summer dress. It wasnt short or clingy or low-cut, but Cal found it sexy as hell, the way it gently conformed to her breasts and the curve of her hip. Her dainty feet were encased in high-heeled white sandals, and shed woven her long hair up into a sophisticated twist of some kind.
Hi, she said with a shy smile.
Hi, yourself. You look gorgeous.
She looked around. Wheres Nana?
Oh, she said she had to go to bingo.
A look of panic overtook Willows face. What? You mean shes gone?
Yeah. Is something wrong?
Willow headed for the kitchen. Cal followed, curious as to why her grandmothers departure would upset Willow. Was Clea in ill health? Willow opened the back door, stared out, then slowly shut it. She turned toward Cal, looking very upset indeed.