The girl was silent, considering her options. I hate this baby. I do not care if it lives. But I want to live.
Alex nodded briskly. Then the baby must come out of you.
Katie watched as he pulled out a scalpel, clamps and what she recognized as suture materials. He spread a towel on the ground under the girl and another beside himself.
How are we going to keep her quiet? she asked.
If were lucky, shell pass out fast.
Thats not encouraging.
Since were being so democratic about this, ask her, he suggested. Ill try to time the incision for during an artillery barrage. Shell have to do the rest.
Katie spoke briefly to the girl. Determination entered the girls eyes, and Katie thought that she was more scared than the girl at this point. The girl twisted a length of her burka and told Katie to hold it in her mouth for her when the time came.
Ready? Alex murmured from his crouched position between the girls legs. The girls grotesquely distended belly, now bared to the cold air, was pale in the darkness. How on earth was Alex going to do a C-section in these conditions?
The girl put the gag in her mouth, and Katie grasped the ends of it, her entire body shaking with terror. The girl wasnt shaking much less.
Next explosion, Alex murmured, scalpel poised.
Kaboom!
Alex slashed. The girl screamed. The night lit up and blood spouted black and wet from the girls belly. A second slash, and the girl thrashed wildly.
Hold her down, Alex ground out. Placentas separating. Shes hemorrhaging.
Katie leaned on the cloth gag, pinning the girls head to the ground. A knee across the girls shoulders helped hold her in place, while Alex knelt on the girls thighs. He worked fast, and Katie did her level best not to look at the gore unfolding.
Instead, she stared into the girls panicked, animalistic eyes. All humanity drained out of the girl as she screamed against the gag again and again. And then, just like that, the girl went limp. Her eyes glazed over.
Is she dead? Katie fumbled under the girls jaw for a pulse.
Thank God, Alex breathed. He worked even faster, hacking the baby free of its mothers body.
Katie was shocked at how fast Alex had the baby out. Thirty seconds, maybe, all told. A lifetime for that poor girl, though.
I cant find a pulse, she told him frantically.
First things first, he snapped. Gotta get the kid breathing.
The baby let out a wail that he quickly muffled with a hand over its mouth. Alex shoved the baby at her fast. Keep it quiet.
Like she had the first idea how to silence a newborn infant? The baby was slippery with blood and white, greasy gook. Quickly, she wrapped the child in the spare towel Alex had laid out and slipped the child down inside her coat for warmth, which was a trick while keeping a hand over the crying childs mouth. She hoped she wasnt suffocating the poor thing. What a hell of a way to be born.
Hold the flashlight, Alex ordered.
She didnt have three hands, for crying out loud. But he was probably doing the work of three surgeons right now, so she didnt complain. Kneeling awkwardly, she kept the babys mouth covered as it slid farther down in her coat and held the flashlight in her free hand where Alex pointed it.
He worked frantically on the mother, his hands flying.
Hows she doing?
Bleeding all over the place. Im losing her, he gritted out.
Another round of gunfire from nearby made Katie jump and the baby cry even louder. She made hushing noises into her coat even though she doubted they would have any effect on the squalling infant.
Alex started to swear in a steady stream under his breath, and in the light of the next mortar, his face looked gray. She risked a glance down. There was blood everywhere. A huge pool of it lay under the girl. The formerly white towel was now black with it. And where Alexs hands worked inside the girl, his fingers disappeared in a flowing puddle of it. Streams of blood trickled down the girls belly unchecked. Katie had never seen so much blood in all her life.
Listen for a heartbeat, he ordered.
She laid her head on the girls chest. The rib cage did not rise, and she heard only the swish of her own blood in her ear. God, she hated silence. But then a barrage of gunfire made it too loud for her to hear a thing, and that was worse. She hunted again, frantically, for a pulse under the girls jaw. Nothing.
Tears welling in her eyes, she shook her head at Alex.
He continued to work in grim silence for several more minutes. But finally he went still. He stared down at the girls body bleakly. And then all he said in a terrible, agonized whisper was, Turn off the flashlight.
Her second hand freed, she turned to the business of quieting the crying infant. She maneuvered the hot little bundle inside her coat until it lay across her, the babys head on her left breast. She remembered hearing somewhere that the sound of heartbeats calmed babies. It took a few moments, but it worked.
Alex shook himself out of wherever hed gone mentally and crawled to the edge of the crevasse. Weve got to get out of here.
What about her? Katie glanced down at the corpse of the girl whod been so brave and angry and determined to live.
We have to leave her.
Every cell in Katies being protested the notion of just abandoning the girl here like a discarded hunk of meat. Thankfully, Alex crawled back to the girls side. Gently, he closed her eyelids before pulling the end of her burka across her face. He covered the bloody mess that had been the girls belly with a towel and arranged the girls robes over it all.
He placed his hand over the girls heart and murmured barely loud enough for Katie to hear, Rest in peace, and be with whatever God you worshipped in life.
The tears overflowed from Katies eyes then, and she sucked back a sob. She was shocked when strong arms wrapped around her, dragging her up against a hard body. Between them was the hot bump of an infant torn from its mothers dying body. Katie didnt even know what sex it was. A hand pushed her face down onto his shoulder; his own face was buried in her hair. He shuddered against her while she cried into his neck.
But as the ominous thwocking of a helicopter became audible in the distance, he stilled and muttered into her hair, If you want that baby to live, grieve later. Follow me now. Fast and silent.
CHAPTER FOUR
THE NEXT HOUR was a nightmare. The mountain was no less steep at the top than at the bottom, and the baby fussed occasionally, sending her into a cold panic as she tried frantically to shush the newborn. It didnt help matters that the battle raging below grew more intense as the night wore on. And who knew what lay over the mountain peak?
Alex was grim and silent, focused intently on finding a route up the mountain. He was quick to lend her a helping hand, though, or to haul her up over a particularly rough patch. As shed correctly guessed, he was deceptively strong. And when her strength lagged and her will to go on faltered, he was indomitable.
And there was always that intense hug to think about. It had been more than simple comfort. He had let her inside his guard for just a minute. Made a human connection with her. Maybe even needed her for a second there.
Alex murmured from ahead, Stay low. Were cresting the mountain. We dont want our silhouettes visible below.
She crawled across the open peak and huddled in the lee of a boulder just over the crest beside Alex.
Hows the baby? he asked.
Alive. It moves around now and then.
Let me see it, Alex muttered.
She unzipped her coat and lifted the infant out. In a flash of mortar fire, she saw it was a baby girl. Said baby girl took immediate and loud umbrage at being exposed to the sharp chill, however, and started to squall.
Alex pulled a clean towel out of his pack and swaddled the infant in it after a fast examination. Thoughtfully, he passed the baby back to her, and Katie slipped the child back in her coat. It took a minute or so, but the baby quieted in the warm and dark next to Katies heart.
We have to get food for her, Katie whispered.
She can go a day or two without eating, actually, Alex replied. Most babies dont take in much nourishment in their first twenty-four hours.
Huh. Live and learn. What about us?
He shrugged. Were another matter. Well need water before long.
Any bright ideas about what to do next? she asked.
Go downhill for a while.
She liked that idea a whole lot better than continuing to scale mountain peaks in the dark. With no climbing gear. And a baby stuffed down her coat.
Trying to stay oriented as to where they were, she pictured the map of this region theyd been showed in the D.U. offices. Another village lay at the head of this valley. Its name was something like Ghan or Ghun. She couldnt remember exactly. No telling if it was another Karshani clan village or belonged to some other clan entirely. As likely as not, the neighbors hated each others guts.
This side of the mountain was more a slope than a cliff, mostly made treacherous by loose, rolling gravel. She made much of the descent sliding on her butt; before long, they stood at the bottom of a narrow valley in deep darkness.
Alex shocked her by brushing off the seat of her jeans and finishing off by giving her ass the briefest of squeezes. So brief she wasnt sure if shed imagined it or not. But not so brief that her breathing didnt accelerate sharply.
Altitude getting to you? he murmured.
Yeah, right. Altitude. Gee, I dont know, she whispered back. Maybe I should feel your butt and see if a sudden case of altitude sickness overcomes you.
I dare you.
Oh, it was so on. She stepped right up behind him and slipped her hands down the waistband of his jeans. He lurched in shock as she slid her palms between his briefs and the denim and cupped strong, well-defined male cheeks that abruptly went rock hard.
Not bad, Doctor. Not bad at all.
He whipped around, effectively yanking her hands out of his pants, and stared down at her. Enveloped in darkness and lust that rolled off him like sin, it crossed her mind that, perchance, she was playing with fire by messing with this man.
Think before you go there with me, he rasped. Im not one of your milk-toast college boys.
The warning in his voice was clear. Although what, exactly, he was warning her about, she wasnt sure. That he wouldnt stand for mind games from her? Or that his tastes were darker than the average college co-eds? Or maybe that getting involved with him would be an all-or-nothing proposition.
Was she prepared to go there with him? How far beyond her experience would he take her? Just how intense would sex with him be? Turned on and scared in equal measure, she let out a careful breath as he turned and stalked off into the night.
Shed wanted to be taken seriously. To be treated like an adult. For everyone to quit seeing a sweet, naive kid when they looked at her. But how much innocence was she willing to lose? If she didnt miss her guess, being with Alex Peters could cost her damn near all of hers.
Theyd been hiking for maybe an hour when the baby commenced crying and nothing she could do would quiet the poor little thing.
Alex muttered, Shes hungry. Nursing after birth is an instinctive imperative. We probably wont shut her up shy of feeding her something.
Any suggestions as to what to feed her?
Actually, yes. He slid his pack off his shoulders and rummaged in it, emerging with an IV bag. He poked a pinhole in one corner of it while she opened her coat and maneuvered the infant close to the opening while keeping the baby mostly inside the garments warmth.
They tried unsuccessfully to squeeze some of the IV fluid into the childs mouth, but the baby wouldnt swallow it and only squalled louder.
Weve got to quiet her down, Alex bit out. Once the artillery fire stops, people for miles around will hear her screaming.
Any ideas? Katie asked, frantically rocking the furious baby.
She needs to suck to trigger her swallowing reflex.
I already tried getting her to suck my finger as a makeshift pacifier and she wouldnt do it.
She needs to suckle. As in a female breast. He threw her an expectant look.
Katie stared. News flash, Doctor. My equipment is not currently in service for milk production.
She doesnt need to get any milk. She just needs a breast to suck. Once shes sucking strongly, then we can squirt some IV fluid into her mouth and shell swallow it.
An embarrassed impulse to refuse speared through her gut at the same time intellectual certainty that she would do it rolled through her brain. She tried unsuccessfully to juggle the baby and her coat and her shirt, until Alexs big, warm hands slipped inside her coat and took the baby. Awkwardly, she raised her shirt, baring her bra, which happened to be lacy and white and practically glowed in the dark.
Not very practical lingerie for Zaghastan, he murmured in amusement.
The bastard sounded like he was enjoying the view a little too much. She glanced up, irritated, and muttered, I wasnt expecting to show it to anyone while I was here.
So you wear sexy lingerie entirely to please yourself? Thats encouraging.
How so? she blurted. She wished the words back as soon as they left her mouth.
You struck me as too...virginal...for that naughty bra. Im glad to see I underestimated you.
Her gaze narrowed at the faint challenge simmering in his voice. She reached for the edge of her bra cup and slowly, deliberately, pulled it down. Alexs gaze riveted on her flesh as the swell of her breast and its rosy nipple were revealed. His gaze flared like an arc welder, and her pulse spiked hard in response.
Without comment, he eased the infant to her breast. The baby was too mad or too inexperienced or both to know what to do, however.
I apologize, he muttered.
For what?
For this. He reached in front of the infants mouth with his fingers and pinched her nipple. Hard. She jumped and would have squawked were they not in the middle of a war zone. Involuntarily, her back arched into his hand, trying unsuccessfully to ease the sharp pressure.
Oww, she breathed.
He let go and made a small sound of satisfaction. Better.
She ventured a look down and realized her nipple now jutted out, swollen and full.
Rub it on the babys face. Across her mouth, he instructed.
She did so, stunned at how erotic it was to be doing this in front of him. Without warning, the baby latched on and gave a tug that shot sensations all the way to her groin. Oh! she gasped.