Dont get shitty. Flood got up quickly. Lets go out and get drunksee if we can get arrested or something.
Ive got an early class tomorrow. Raphael turned back to his book.
Talk to me, goddammit! Flood said irritably, snatching the book from Raphaels hands. What the hell are you reading, anyway?
Kierkegaard. Raphael reached for his book.
The Sickness unto Death, Flood read. Now theres a cheery little tide. What class is this for?
Raphael shrugged. It came up in a discussion. I thought I ought to look into it.
You mean its not even required? Flood demanded incredulously, tossing the book back. Thats disgusting, Raphael, disgusting.
Different strokes, Raphael said, finding his place again and settling back to his reading. Flood sat watching him, his black eyes as hard as agates.
And then there was the problem of the girl. She sat across the room from him in one of his afternoon classes, and Raphael found his eyes frequently drawn to her face. It was not that she was exceptionally beautiful, for she was not. Her face was slightly angular with strong bones, and she was quite tall with a coltish legginess that made her seem somehow very young. Her voice, however, was a deep, rich contralto with a vibrance, a quality, that stirred Raphael immeasurably each time she spoke. But she spoke infrequently. Sometimes a week would pass without a word from her. While others in the class talked endlessly, arguing, discussing, pushing themselves forward, she would sit quietly, taking occasional notes and now and then stirring restlessly as Raphaels gaze became warmly obvious.
He began to try to challenge herto force her to speak. He frequently said things he did not actually believe, hoping to lever her into discussion. He did not even care what she said, but merely yearned for the sound of that voice, that rich, vibrant sound that seemed somehow to plunge directly into the center of his being. She began, in time, to return his glances, but she still seldom spoke, and the infrequency of her speech left him frustratedeven angry with himself for his absurd fascination. Her name, he discovered, was Marilyn Hamilton, and she lived off campus. Beyond that, he was able to find out very little about her.
Youre Taylor, arent you? a large, bulky man with a huge black beard asked him one afternoon as he came out of the library.
Right, Raphael replied.
Names Wallace Pierson. The big man held out his hand. I understand youve played a little football.
Some. Raphael shifted his books so that he could shake the mans hand.
Wereuhtrying to put together a team, Pierson said, seeming almost apologetic. Nothing very formal. Wondered if you might be interested.
Intramural?
No, not exactly. Pierson laughed. Its just for the hell of it, really. You see, theres a Quaker college across townGeorge Fox. They have a sort of a teampretty low-key. They sent us an invitation. We thought it might be sort of interesting. He fell in beside Raphael and they walked across the broad lawn toward the dormitories.
I havent got the kind of time it takes for practice, Raphael told him.
Who has? Were not really planning to make a big thing out of it-just a few afternoons so that we can get familiar with each othernot embarrass ourselves too badly.
Thats not the way to win football games.
Win? Pierson seemed startled. Hell, Taylor, we werent planning to winjust play. Good God, man, you could get expelled for winningoveremphasis and all that jazz. We just thought it might be kind of interesting to play, thats all.
Raphael laughed. Thats the Reed spirit.
Sure. Pierson grinned. If we can hold them to ten touchdowns, itll be a moral victory, wont it?
Ill think it over.
Wed appreciate it. Were a little thin in the backfield. We thought wed get together about four or so this afternoonsee if there are enough of us to make a team. Drop on down if youd like.
Whens the game?
Friday.
Three days? You plan to put a team together in three days? Pierson shrugged. Were not really very serious about it. I can see that. Ill think it over.
Okay, the bearded man said. Maybe well see you at four then.
Maybe.
But of course he did play. The memory of so many afternoons was still strong, and he had, he finally admitted, missed the excitement, the challenge, the chance to hurl himself wholly into violent physical activity.
Pierson, despite his bulk, played quarterback, and the great black beard protruding from the face mask of his helmet made the whole affair seem ludicrous. On the day of the game their plays were at best rudimentary, and they lost ground quite steadily. The small cluster of students who had gathered to watch the game cheered ironically each time they were thrown for a loss.
Hand it off to me, Raphael suggested to Pierson in the huddle on their third series of plays when they were trailing 13-0. If you try that keeper play one more time, that left tackle of theirs is going to scramble your brains for you.
Gladly, Pierson agreed, puffing.
Which way are you going? one of the linemen asked Raphael.
I havent decided yet, Raphael said, and broke out of the huddle.
After the snap Pierson handed him the ball, and Raphael angled at the opposing line. He sidestepped a clumsy tackle, found a hole, and broke through. The afternoon sun was very bright, and his cleats dug satisfyingly into the turf. He reversed direction, outran two tacklers, and scored quite easily.
A thin cheer went up from the spectators.
In time his excellence even became embarrassing. He began to permit himself to be tackled simply to prevent the score from getting completely one-sided. More and more of the students drifted down to watch.
On the last play of the game, knowing that it was the last play and knowing that he would probably never play again, Raphael hurled himself up and intercepted an opponents pass deep in his own end zone. Then, simply for the joy of it, he ran directly into the clot of players massed at the goal line. Dodging, feinting, sidestepping with perfect coordination, he ran through the other team. Once past the line, he deliberately ran at each member of the backfield, giving all in turn a clear shot at him and evading them at the last instant.
The wind burned in his throat, and he felt the soaring exhilaration that came from the perfect functioning of his body. Then, after running the full length of the field and having offered himself to every member of the opposing team, he ran into the end zone, leaped high into the air, and slammed the ball down on the turf so violently that it bounced twenty feet straight up. When he came down, he fell onto his back, laughing for sheer joy.
iv
On the Saturday morning after the football game Raphael was stiff and sore. His body was out of condition, and his muscles reacted to the exertion and bruising contact of the game. He still felt good, though.
Flood was up early, which was unusual, since he normally slept late on weekends. Come along, football hero, he said to Raphael, rise and shine. His eyes glittered brightly.
Flood was up early, which was unusual, since he normally slept late on weekends. Come along, football hero, he said to Raphael, rise and shine. His eyes glittered brightly.
Raphael groaned and rolled over in bed.
Quickly, quickly, Flood commanded, snapping his fingers.
Whats got you all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed this morning? Raphael demanded sourly.
Today we go a-visiting, Flood said exuberantly. Today I carry the conquering hero to visit the queen.
Some other time. Raphael laid one arm across his eyes. Im in no condition for queens today.
I wouldnt touch that line with a ten-foot poleor a nine-foot Hungarian either. You might as well get up. Im not going to let you sleep away your day of triumph.
Shit! Raphael threw off the covers.
My God! Flood recoiled from the sight of the huge bruises and welts on Raphaels body. You mean to tell me you let yourself get in that condition for fun?
Raphael sat up and glanced at the bruises. Theyll go away. What were you babbling about?
We go to visit the fair Isabel, Flood declaimed, whose hair is like the night, whose skin is like milk, and whose gazongas come way out to here. He gestured exaggeratedly in front of his chest. Shes an old schoolmate of my aunts, a fallen woman, cast out by her family, living in shame and obscurity by the shores of scenic Lake Oswego some miles to the south. She and I are kindred spirits, since both of us offend our families by our very existence. Shes invited us to spend the weekend, so up, my archangel. Put on your wings and halo, and I will deliver you into the hands of the temptress.
Isnt it a little early for all the bullshit? Raphael asked, climbing stiffly to his feet and picking up his towel. Im going to hit the showers. He padded out of the room and down the hall to the bathroom.
After a hot shower his sore muscles felt better, and he was in a better humor as he dressed. There was no withstanding Flood when he set his mind to something, and finally Raphael gave in. Twenty minutes later they were packed and southbound on the freeway in Floods small, fast, red Triumph.
Just exactly who is this lady were visiting? Raphael asked.
I told you, Flood replied.
This time why dont you clear away all the underbrush and give me something coherent.
The ladys name is Isabel Drake. She went to school with my aunt, which makes her practically a member of the family.
I dont quite follow that, but let it pass.
We have very extended families in Grosse Pointe.
Okay.
Helps us avoid contact with the riffraff. All right.
Avoiding contact with the riffraff is a major concern in Grosse Pointe.
All right, I said. Do I digress?
Of course you do, but Im used to that. All right. MissMrs.Drake is a distant friend of your familys, a lady of middle years who happens to live in the area, and this is by way of a courtesy call, right?
Flood laughed. Shell love that, he hooted. Mrs. Drakedefinitely Mrs.made, when she was quite young, an excellent marriage and an even better divorce. Shes a lady of means now. The aunt I referred to is my fathers youngest sister, so Isabel is maybe thirty at mosthardly what youd call of middle years. And as far as courtesy calls go, youll soon discover that the term is wildly inappropriate. Isabel Drake is probably who they had in mind when they invented the word fascinating.
Why did you call her a fallen woman?
Thats a tale of dark passion and illicit lust, Raphael, hardly suitable for your tender ears.
Try me. If there are subjects I shouldnt talk about, Id like to know in advance.
Besides which, youre panting to hear the details, right? Flood smirked.
Pant, pant, Raphael said dryly. Get on with it, Damon. Youre going to tell me about it anyway; nothing could stop you. I could have your mouth bricked up, and youd still tell me.
Flood laughed. All right, Raphael. Shortly after her divorce, Isabel conceived a passion for the husband of one of her cousins, a vapid, colorless girl of no lasting significance. There was a flaming affair which quite rapidly approached the status of a public scandal. The man in question was also of no lasting significancesome semipresentable shithead the cousins family had bought for her. Anyhow, there were all the usual lurid developmentsgossip, people falling over themselves to tell the poor cousin what Isabel was up to. She attempted suicide, of course.
Youre kidding.
Not a bit of it. Sleeping pills, the tragic suicide note, all of it. Anyhow, there was a separation, and the poor klutz informed Isabel that he was ready to divorce the cousin and make an honest woman of her. Isabel, who was getting bored with the whole thing at that point, laughed in his face. She was not about to give up that alimony for anybody, much less some cretin who couldnt function outside the bedroom. He got huffy about it all and stormed out, but when he tried to go back to the cousin, she told him to buzz off. He took to drinking and made a special point of telling everyone in all the bars about Isabels bedroom habitsin great detail. In rime the rest of the family hinted around that theyd all be a lot happier if shed take up residence a long, long way from Grosse Pointe, and finally she did.
Dont the rich have anything better to do?
Thats the whole point of being rich, Flood replied, turning off the freeway. It leaves you free to pursue diversions other than money.
You know, I think you made all that up, Damon. I think youre putting me on.
Would I put you on? Flood laughed. If you thought Id swallow it, yes.
The home of Isabel Drake was a chalet-style house set in a grove of fir trees near the shores of the lake. It was about ten-thirty when Floods small red sports car stopped on the curving gravel drive in front of the house, and morning sun filtered down through the trees with that overripe golden quality that, more than anything, speaks of autumn.
Flood bounced from the car with unusual energy, went up the wooden steps to the wide porch that stretched across the front of the house, and rang the bell. Come along, Raphael, he said over his shoulder.
Somewhat painfully, his muscles stiffened again from the ride, Raphael climbed from the car and started up the steps to the porch.
The docr opened, and a small woman looked out inquiringly. She was short, perhaps just over five feet tall, and she wore jeans and a loose-fitting cambric shirt of the kind Raphael had seen mill workers back home wear. Her hair was quite dark and caught at the back of her neck by a red bandanna. The skin of her face and throat was very white, and her figure under the loose shirt was full. She had a smudge of pale green paint on one cheek. Junior, she said in an exasperated tone. Her voice was rich and melodious. You said noon.
Sorry, Bel. We got away early. He grinned down at her.
Im a mess, she protested, glancing down at the front of her shirt. She was holding two long, pencillike paintbrushes in her right hand. You always do this to me, Junior.