With Wade gone, Charlie was now his chief advisor on climate. Actually Charlie and Wade functioned as a sort of tag-team telecommuting advisor, both of them part-time, Charlie calling in every day, dropping by every week; Wade calling in every week, and dropping by every month. It worked because Phil didnt always need them for help when environmental issues came up. You guys have educated me, he would tell them. I can take this on my own. So dont worry, stay at the South Pole, stay in Bethesda. Ill let you know how it went.
That would have been fine with Charlie, if only Phil had always done what Charlie and Wade advised. But Phil had pressures from many directions, and he had his own opinions. So there were divergences. Like most congresspeople, he thought he knew better than his staff how to get things done; and because he got to vote and they didnt, in effect he was right.
On Thursday at 10 A.M., when the Khembalis had their twenty minutes with Phil, Charlie was very interested to see how it would go, but that morning he had to attend a Washington Press Club appearance by a scientist from the Heritage Foundation who was claiming rapidly rising temperatures would be good for agriculture. Assisting in the destruction of such peoples pseudoarguments was important work, which Charlie was happy to do; but on this day he wanted to be there when Phil saw the Khembalis, so when the press conference was over and Charlies quiver empty, he hustled back and arrived right at 10:20. He hurried up the stairs to Phils offices on the third floor. At 10:23 A.M., Phil ushered the Khembalis out of his corner office, chatting with them cheerfully. Yes, thanks, of course, Id love totalk to Evelyn about setting up a time.
The Khembalis looked pleased. Sridar looked impassive but faintly amused, as he often did.
Just as he was leaving, Phil spotted Charlie and stopped. Charlie! Good to see you at last!
Grinning hugely, he came back and shook his blushing staffers hand. So you laughed in the Presidents face! He turned to the Khembalis: This man burst out laughing in the Presidents face! Ive always wanted to do that!
The Khembalis nodded neutrally.
So what did it feel like? Phil asked Charlie. And how did it go over?
Charlie, still blushing, said, Well, it felt involuntary, to tell the truth. Like a sneeze. Joe was really tickling me. And as far as I could tell, it went over okay. The President looked pleased. He was trying to make me laugh, so when I did, he laughed too.
Yeah I bet, because at that point he had you.
Well, yes. Anyway he laughed, and then Joe woke up and we had to get a bottle in him before the Secret Service guys did something rash.
Phil laughed and then shook his head, growing more serious. Well, its too bad, I guess. But what could you do. You were ambushed. He loves to do that. Hopefully it wont cost us. It might even help. But Im late, Ive got to go. You hang in there. And he put a hand to Charlies arm, said good-bye again to the Khembalis, and hustled out the door.
The Khembalis gathered around Charlie, looking cheerful. Where is Joe? How is it he is not with you?
I really couldnt bring him to this thing I was at, so my friend Asta from Gymboree is looking after him. Actually I have to get back to him soon, checking his watch. But come on, tell me how it went.
They all followed Charlie into his cubicle by the stairwell, stuffing it with their maroon robes (they had dressed formally for Phil, Charlie noted) and their strong brown faces. They still looked pleased.
Well? Charlie said.
It went very well, Drepung said, and nodded happily. He asked us many questions about Khembalung. He visited Khembalung seven years ago, and met Padma and others at that time. He was very interested, very sympathetic. And best of all, he told us he would help us.
He did? Thats great! What did he say, exactly?
Drepung squinted, remembering. He saidIll see what I can do.
Sucandra and Padma nodded, confirming this.
Those were his exact words? Charlie asked.
Yes. Ill see what I can do.
Charlie and Sridar exchanged a glance. Who was going to tell them?
Sridar said carefully, Those were indeed his exact words, thus passing the ball to Charlie.
Charlie sighed.
Whats wrong? Drepung asked.
Well Charlie glanced at Sridar again.
Tell them, Sridar said.
Charlie said, What you have to understand is that no congressperson likes to say no.
No?
No. They dont.
They never say no, Sridar clarified.
Never?
Never.
They like to say yes, Charlie explained. People come to them, asking for thingsfavors, votesconsideration of one kind or another. When they say yes, people go away happy. Everyone is happy.
Votes, Sridar expanded. They say yes and it means votes. Sometimes one yes can mean fifty thousand votes. So they just keep saying yes.
Thats true, Charlie admitted. Some say yes no matter what they really mean. Others, like our Senator Chase, are more honest.
Without, however, actually ever saying no, Sridar added.
In effect they only answer the questions they can say yes to. The other questions they avoid in one way or another.
Right, Drepung said. But he said
He said, Ill see what I can do.
Drepung frowned. So that means no?
Well, you know, in circumstances where they cant get out of answering the question in some other way
Yes! Sridar interrupted. It means no.
Well Charlie tried to temporize.
Come on, Charlie. Sridar shook his head. You know its true. Its true for all of them. Yes means maybe; Ill see what I can do means no. It means, not a chance. It means, I cant believe youre asking me this question, but since you are, this is how I will say no.
He will not help us? Drepung asked.
He will if he sees a way that will work, Charlie declared. Ill keep on him about it.
Drepung said, Youll see what you can do.
Yesbut I mean really.
Sridar smiled sardonically at Charlies discomfiture. And Phils the most environmentally aware senator of all, isnt that right Charlie?
Well, yeah. Thats definitely true.
The Khembalis pondered this. Drepung was now frowning.
We too will see what we can do, he said.
CHAPTER 6
THE CAPITAL IN SCIENCE
Robot submarines cruise the depths, doing oceanography. Finally oceanographers have almost as much data as meteorologists. Among other things they monitor a deep layer of relatively warm water that flows from the Atlantic into the Arctic (ALTEX, the Atlantic Layer Tracking Experiment).
But they are not as good at it as the whales. White beluga whales, living their lives in the open ocean, have been fitted with sensors for recording temperature, salinity, and nitrate content, matched with a GPS record and a depth meter. Up and down in the blue world they sport, diving deep into the black realm below, coming back up for air, recording data all the while. Casper the Friendly Ghost, Whitey Ford, The Woman in White, Moby Dick, all the rest: they swim to their own desires, up and down endlessly within their immense territories, fast and supple, continuous and thorough, capable of great depths, pale flickers in the blackest blue, the bluest black. Then back up for air. Our cousins. White whales help us to know this world. The data they are collecting make it clear that the Atlantics deep warm layer is attenuating. And so the Gulf Stream is slowing down.
The rest of Franks stay in San Diego was a troubled time. The encounter with Marta had put him in a black mood that he could not shake.
He tried to look for a place to live when he returned in the fall, checking out some real estate pages in the paper, but it was discouraging. He saw that he would have to rent an apartment first, and take the time to look before trying to buy something. It was going to be hard, maybe impossible, to find a house he both liked and could afford. He had some financial problems. And it took a very considerable income to buy a house in north San Diego these days. He and Marta had bought a perfect couples bungalow in Cardiff, but they had sold it when they split, adding greatly to the acrimony. Now the region was more expensive than a mere professor could afford. Extra income would be essential.
So he looked at some rentals in North County, and then in the afternoons he went to the empty office on campus, meeting with two postdocs who were still working for him in his absence. He also talked with the department chair about what classes he would teach in the fall. It was all very tiresome.
And worse than tiresome, when a letter appeared in his department mailbox from the UCSD Technology Transfer Office. Pulse quickening, he ripped it open and scanned it, then got on the phone.
Hi Delphina, its Frank Vanderwal here. Ive just gotten a letter from your review committee, can you please tell me what this is about?
Oh hello, Dr. Vanderwal. Let me see the oversight committee on faculty outside income wanted to ask you about some income you received from stock in Torrey Pines Generique. Anything over two thousand dollars a year has to be reported, and they didnt hear anything from you.
Im at NSF this year, all my stocks are in a blind trust. I dont know anything about it.
Oh, thats right, isnt it. Maybe just a second. Here it is. Maybe they knew that. Im not sure. Im looking at their memo here ah. Theyve been informed youre going to be rejoining Torrey Pines when you get back, and
Wait, what? How the hell could they hear that?
I dont know
Because it isnt true! Ive been talking to colleagues at Torrey Pines, but all that is private. So how could they possibly have heard that?
I said, I dont know. Delphina was getting tired of his indignation. No doubt her job put her at the wrong end of a lot of indignation.
He said, Come on, Delphina. We went over all this when I helped start Torrey Pines, and I havent forgotten. Faculty are allowed to spend up to twenty percent of work time on outside consulting. Whatever I make doing that is mine, it only has to be reported. So even if I did go back to Torrey Pines, whats wrong with that? I wouldnt be joining their board, and I wouldnt use more than twenty percent of my time!
Thats good
And most of it happens in my head anyway, so even if I did spend more time on it, how are you going to know? Are you going to read my mind?
Delphina sighed. Of course we cant read your mind. In the end its an honor system. Obviously. We ask people whats going on when we see things in the financial reports, to remind them what the rules are.
I dont appreciate the implications of that. Tell the oversight committee what the situation is on my stocks, and ask them to do their research properly before they bother people.
All right. Sorry about that. She did not seem perturbed.
Frank went out for a walk around the campus. Usually this soothed him, but now he was too upset. Who had told the oversight committee that he was planning to rejoin Torrey Pines? And why? Would somebody at Torrey Pines have made a call? Only Derek knew for sure, and he wouldnt do it.
But others must have heard about it. Or could have deduced his intention after his visit. That had been only a few days before, but enough time had passed for someone to make a call. Sam Houston, maybe, wanting to stay head science advisor?
Or Marta?
Disturbed at the thought, at all these machinations, he found himself wishing he were back in D.C. That was shocking, because when he was in D.C. he was always desperate to return to San Diego, biding his time until his return, at which point his real life would recommence. But it was undeniable; here he was in San Diego, and he wanted to be in D.C. Something was seriously wrong.
Part of it must have been the fact that he was not really back in his San Diego life, but only previewing it. He didnt have a home, he was still on leave, his days were not quite full. That left him wandering a bit, as he was now. And that was unlike him.
Okaywhat would he do with free time if he lived here?
He would go surfing.
Good idea. His possessions were stowed in a storage unit in Encinitas, so he drove there and got his surfing gear, then returned to the parking lot at Cardiff reef, at the south end of Cardiff-by-the-Sea. A few minutes observation while he pulled on his long-john wetsuit (getting too small for him) revealed that an ebb tide and a south swell were combining for some good waves, breaking at the outermost reef. There was a little crowd of surfers and bodyboarders out there.
Happy at the sight, Frank walked into the water, which was very cool for midsummer, just as they all said. It never got as warm as it used to. But it felt so good now that he ran out and dove through a wave, whooping as he emerged. He sat in the water and pulled on his booties, velcroed the ankle strap of the board cord to him, took off paddling. The ocean tasted like home.
Cardiff reef was a very familiar break to him, and nothing had changed. He had often surfed here with Marta, but that had little to do with it. The waves were eternal, and Cardiff reef with its point break was like an old friend who always said the same things. He was home. This was what made San Diego his homenot the people or the jobs or the unaffordable houses, but this experience of being in the ocean, which for so many years of his youth had been the central experience of his life, everything else colorless by comparison, until he had discovered climbing.
As he paddled, caught waves, and rode the lefts in long ecstatic seconds, and then worked to get back outside, he wondered again about this strangely powerful feeling of salt water as home. There must be an evolutionary reason for such joy at being cast forward by a wave. Whatever; it was a lot of fun. And made him feel vastly better.
Then it was time to go. He took one last ride, and rather than kicking out when the fast part was over, rode the broken wave straight in toward the shore.
He lay in the shallows and let the hissing whitewater shove him around. Back and forth, ebb and flow. Grooming by ocean.
Are you okay?
He jerked his head up. It was Marta, on her way out.
Oh, hi. Yeah Im okay.
Whats this, stalking me now?
No, then realizing this might be a little bit true: No!
He stared at her, getting angry. She stared back.
Im just catching some waves, he said, mouth tight. Youve got no reason to say such a thing to me.
No? Then why did you ask me out the other day?
A mistake, obviously. I thought it might do some good to talk.
Last year, maybe. But you didnt want to then. You didnt want to so much that you ran off to NSF instead. Now its too late. So just leave me alone, Frank.
I am!
Leave me alone.