The best thing in the world for him, the doctor had told me, would be a holiday. Fresh air. Sunshine. Lots of exercise.
I felt like a holiday myself. I had worked too hard, too long. I dont think there was any malice in my choice of the Lake District. It was an area I was fond of, familiar with, and had seen too little of since marrying Jan.
She took it badly. I dont think she really believed I would go at first. And when I suggested she should come too, she exploded.
You go with him, she said after a while. You take him off, your precious boy-friend. Ill make my own arrangements. Dont send me any cards. I wont be here to read them.
Sunshine, fresh air, peace and quiet suddenly seemed best of all things. I left the room without a word.
The following day Peter and I caught the train north.
THREE
The rain was beating down with tremendous violence now. The cars wipers could hardly cope. The windows steamed up. Nobody spoke. It was hard to believe we were in the same area as we had been for the past few days. Only the ease with which the earth was drinking up the downpour told of the sunshine we had enjoyed since the start of the week.
I had been beset by doubts and guilt feelings throughout the train journey, though Peters infectious excitement and delight had helped to convince me I was doing the right thing. But once we started the holiday proper, the perfect weather and the beauty of the landscape made London and Janet seem a thousand miles away.
I had booked rooms in an hotel south of Keswick overlooking Derwentwater. Our plan was to spend a few nights there, then to move on where the fancy took us. We had come equipped for walking and our belongings were all packed into a couple of large knapsacks of rather old-fashioned design. They went well with the walking-sticks and stout brogues we affected as a corrective to the pretensions of the lederhosen-and-climbing-boots brigade.
We quickly established a pattern, walking all day, taking a packed lunch with us, and returning to the hotel for dinner, followed by an hour in the bar. It seemed impossible that anything could interrupt the perfection of the weather or the even tenor of our existence.
Nothing did until our last night at the hotel, and that was more comic than disruptive. At least so it seemed in retrospect.
We got drunk. We had no intention of doing so. It just happened. Perhaps we were getting fitter and no longer felt the need to fall into bed well before ten.
The bar was crowded that night. The hotel itself was packed and there were also some drinkers from the youth hostel about a quarter of a mile down the road. Some of them looked very young to be there. I received a cheery wave from one blond-haired, open-faced lad of about eighteen. I recalled he and his friends had overtaken us coming down off Glaramara that afternoon. We had been resting by the track as the boys strode by, arrogant in their youthful fitness. I had to admit their shorts had certain advantages in this weather. They had obviously found us a little amusing and a line of laughter had drifted back up the fellside. At least they had had the courtesy to contain it till they were almost out of earshot.
I waved back and looked for a seat. A couple of girls stood up nearby, revealing very short shorts and these long, tanned, flawless, and somehow sexless legs that go with them.
Are you going? I asked politely.
One spoke to the other in a language I did not recognize. The other grinned and they moved away. I sat down and waited for Peter to fight his way from the bar with the drinks.
Where tomorrow, bwana? he asked. I rather fancy a bit of the briny. All these mountains can press rather close.
All right, I said equably. Well trot along to Seathwaite, scramble up Scafell and drop down into Eskdale. There well catch a train to the seaside.
A train? queried Peter. In the middle of nowhere? And what about our walking resolution?
This train is just like walking, I said firmly. And youll have had enough by the time we reach it. Lets have another drink.
This time we managed to catch the eye of one of the barwaiters. He was only a youngster. To my surprise, Peter seemed to know him.
Hello, Clive, he said. Bring us a couple of Scotches, will you? Harry, this is Clive. Hes reading Modern Languages at Bristol.
And when did you strike up that acquaintance? I asked after the boy had left us.
I have my methods, he said, smiling. But I got the impression he was taking careful note of my reactions.
We sat drinking till midnight. It wasnt till I stood up that I realized how drunk I was. Peter staggered against me and giggled.
Shall we dance? he said.
I wasnt that drunk.
Lets go to bed, I answered.
Dont rush me, he said.
I pushed him out of the door ahead of me.
Can I help? asked Clive from the bar, a look of concern on his face.
No, thanks. My God! Whats that?
It was the dinner-gong being struck with unprecedented violence. The air seemed to shake against my ear-drums.
J. Arthur Rank presents! cried Peter, and brought down the hammer once more.
I forget the exact content of our interview with the manager, a small, fleshy-faced man named Stirling. I remember walking side by side with Peter up towards what looked like a great poppy-field of faces, red with indignation, which peered down from the hotels two landings.
I laughed myself to sleep.
I think our fragile state in the morning might have induced us to spend another day in Borrowdale after all, but now it seemed politic to leave. We paid our bill, shouldered our knapsacks, and strode away with great dignity. Once out of sight of the hotel, however, we laughed so much we had to sit by the roadside till we recovered.
Then we set off in real earnest, to cover as much ground as we could while the sun was still relatively low. It was obviously going to be another very hot day. Soon we had removed our jackets and tied them, rolled, to our knapsacks. After only half an hour I had suggested that we should abandon our notion of going up Scafell and should merely admire it from afar. Our plan was to go up Styhead, cut across to Sprinkling Tarn and thence via Esk Hause to drop down into Eskdale.
We stopped for a rest. Ahead towered the immense crags of Great End, above us to the right was the stony sharpness of Great Gable. Welay back and looked behind us down into Borrowdale. Far below I could see the minute figures of half a dozen other walkers. A bird sang violently overhead for a minute, then was silent.
Peter stood up and peered down the slope, shading his eyes with one of his extraordinarily large hands.
Cant you rest? I asked.
No, he said, and moved between me and the sun. For a second he seemed strangely menacing. Then quite close I heard the sound of boot on stone. Peter swung round. Approaching us were the blond-headed boy and his friends. They passed quite close.
Hello again, I said. Warm enough for you?
Yes indeed, he said.
Peter said nothing and watched them out of sight. He obviously wasnt going to settle, so I stood up and put my knapsack on.
Come on, I said.
Yes indeed, he said.
Peter said nothing and watched them out of sight. He obviously wasnt going to settle, so I stood up and put my knapsack on.
Come on, I said.
We didnt stop again till we reached the top of the Hause (the top, as far as we were concerned, being the lowest point at which we could cross!), where we rested again before the descent which I knew could be more strenuous than climbing up. Peter regarded it as a kind of bonus, however, and let out little cries of excitement as he rushed away in front of me, carried on by his own weight and momentum.
I shouted at him to be careful, then laughed at myself for sounding like an old woman.
But when he got out of sight and I hadnt caught up with him a few minutes later, I began to shout again.
Over here, came a voice from my left.
There was still no sign of Peter and a faint stirring of worry began in my stomach, and suddenly it churned violently as I caught sight of his knapsack, abandoned on the ground.
I ran up to it. It was near the edge of a deep, narrow, precipitous gully with a dried-up stream bed at the bottom. From about thirty feet down, Peters face looked back up at me. For a second I thought he had fallen, but almost immediately realized what he was doing. Just below him, apparently wedged in a crack in the rock-face was a sheep, its trapped legs bent at an angle that made me sick to see. It rolled its head up at Peter and let out a rattling bleat.
For Gods sake, Peter! I said. Come back up! Well tell someone when we get down the valley.
He looked undecided, then turned as if to start climbing. The sheep, disturbed perhaps by the movement though I must say it looked horrifyingly like a start of protest against our leaving twisted sharply, half freed itself and fell outwards, its hideously broken foreleg now revealed plainly, dangling like a broken branch held only by the bark.
I turned away. When I looked back Peter was beside the animal, bending over it with a thick-bladed bowie-knife (the object of much amusement earlier) in his hand.
For Gods sake, Peter! I called again.
I cant just leave it! he snarled and stabbed down. The beast struggled violently, a great spurt of blood jetted out and ran up Peters arm, then it went dreadfully slack.
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, said Peter, leaning back against the rockface and taking great gulps of air.
Now, please, Peter, please come up.
He turned without demur and began to climb towards me, his face white and set. Most of the strength seemed to have left his limbs and by the time he reached the slight overhang at the top of the gully, I began seriously to doubt whether he could make it without help.
I lay down, leaned forward, took one of his hands in mine and began to pull. He seemed a dead weight.
I was so immersed in what I was doing that when a voice spoke in my ear I almost let go.
Hello, it said. Want a hand?
I turned my head and my nose almost brushed against a remarkably fine pair of breasts. Or the nearer one at least. They were covered only by a flimsy bra over which they strained voluptuously.
The girl reached over the edge of the gully and seized Peters other hand.
Heave ho! she said.
Whether it was the extra pulling power of the girls hands or the attraction of the rest of her, I dont know, but Peter popped up like a jack-in-the-box.
He sat there, getting his breath back, and I stood up to thank our helper. But surprises were not over. There were two of them. I realized at once they were the foreign girls whose seats we had taken in the bar the previous night. But their legs were no longer the eye-catching feature. Above their mini-shorts, all they wore were their bras. They had a small haversack with them and I could see their blouses tucked through the straps.
They both wore their hair long and might almost have been twins. The only instant way I saw of separating them was that Peters saviour wore a white bra and the other a deep blue one.
I must have stared too hard at the difference for suddenly White-bra giggled and put her hands up to her breasts. She was obviously nearer sixteen than the twenty-five her figure could have claimed. I noticed with a start her right hand had blood on it. From the sheep by the way of Peter, whose left arm was caked with a dusty red.
He stood up now.
Are you all right? the girl asked sympathetically.
Yes, thank you, dear, said Peter. It was very gracious of you to help.
He solemnly kissed her hand. White-bra giggled again and said something to Blue-bra in the language I had heard the previous night. Blue-bra giggled back.
I must have looked puzzled.
Olgas my pen-friend, from Sweden, White-bra explained.
A fine country, said Peter, who had never been anywhere near it. Thank you both again, for the help you have given me, and the spiritual stimulus you have given this old gentleman here.
Well, youre fully recovered, I thought, and set about dragging him away before his whimsy took him too far. He saw what I was at and strode ahead with a broad grin on his face. I murmured my own thanks and set off after him. After fifty yards or so, I glanced back and waved.
They waved back, two arms over four circles; two blue, two white.
I smiled at the thought of the odd impression they must have of us, and hoped we wouldnt meet them again.
It was a hope the realization of which was never to give me any pleasure.
FOUR
We stopped twice more on our descent into Eskdale, the first time to eat the stringy ham sandwiches Stirling had probably picked personally to go into our packed lunch. To wash them down I had a super-sized flask which I had filled with iced lager by courtesy of Peters waiter. I mentioned this.
Clive? he said. That was nice of him especially when we were in such disgrace.
We laughed once more at the memory. Peter seemed to have recovered completely from the episode with the sheep.
Our second halt was in the valley. We had diverted slightly to have a look at Cam Spout as it poured down from Mickledore and had followed the stream down to Esk Falls where it mingled with another which came trickling down from Bowfell. Here the track levelled out and we were able to take our ease after the exertions of the steep descent. Eventually we reached a spot where the waters broadened into a pool about a dozen feet across. Peter decided he wanted to bathe. There was no one around, but I dont think it would have mattered if there had been. Quite unselfconsciously he took off his clothes and stepped in.
Come on in, he said. The waters lovely.
Prudence, or prudery, made me hesitate a moment. Then my clothes were off and I leapt in beside him.
Peter flung a handful of water at me with a laugh and next minute we were engaged in a splashing match which soon degenerated into a wrestling match. Eventually, half drowned, we relaxed again and let the sun warm all that was uncovered by the water. My eyes were closed, but suddenly I sensed a shadow on my skin and looking up I saw a man standing on the bank. He was dressed for walking and looked an imposing figure as he tood there, my angle of view making him seem taller than he was. His broad sunburnt face and thick grey-red beard added to the general impression of forcefulness and power. I was sure I had seen him before.