His phone beeped again, and he pulled the earplugs out of his pocket and stuck them in his ears, clicked the set on.
Hello.
Hey Charlie, I dont want to bug you, but are you and Joe okay?
Oh yeah, thanks Roy. Thanks for checking back in, I forgot to call you.
So you found him.
Yeah I found him, but I had to stop him running into traffic, and he was upset and I forgot to call back.
Hey, thats okay. Its just that I was wondering, you know, if you could finish off this draft with me.
I guess. Charlie sighed. To tell the truth, Roy boy, Im not so sure how well this work-at-home thing is going for me these days.
Oh youre doing fine. Youre Phils gold standard. But look, if now isnt a good time
No no, Joes asleep on my back. Its fine. Im still just kind of freaked out.
Sure, I can imagine. Listen we can do it later, although I must say we do need to get this thing staffed out soon or else Phil might get caught short. Dr Strangelove this was their name for the Presidents science advisor has been asking to see our draft too.
I know, okay talk to me. I can tell you what I think anyway.
So for a while as he walked he listened to Roy read sentences from his draft, and then discussed with him the whys and wherefores, and possible revisions. Roy had been Phils chief of staff ever since Wade Norton hit the road and became an advisor in absentia, and after years of staffing for the House Resources committee (called the Environment committee until the Gingrich Congress renamed it), he was deeply knowledgeable, and sharp too; one of Charlies favourite people. And Charlie himself was so steeped now in the climate bill that he could see it all in his head, indeed it helped him now just to hear it, without the print before him to distract him. As if someone were telling him a bedtime story.
Eventually, however, some question of Roys couldnt be resolved without the text before him. Sorry. Ill call you back when I get home.
Okay but dont forget, we need to get this finished.
I wont.
They clicked off.
His walk home took him south, down the west edge of the Bethesda Metro district, an urban neighbourhood of restaurants and apartment blocks, all ringing the hole in the ground out of which people and money fountained so prodigiously, changing everything: streets rerouted, neighbourhoods redeveloped, a whole clutch of skyscrapers bursting up through the canopy and establishing another purely urban zone in the endless hardwood forest.
He stopped in at Second Story Books, the biggest and best of the areas several used bookstores. It was a matter of habit only; he had visited it so often with Joe asleep on his back that he had memorized the stock, and was reduced to checking the hidden books in the inner rows, or alphabetizing sections that he liked. No one in the supremely arrogant and slovenly shop cared what he did there. It was soothing in that sense.
Finally he gave up trying to pretend he felt normal, and walked past the auto dealer and home. There it was a tough call whether to take the baby backpack off and hope not to wake Joe prematurely, or just to keep him on his back and work from the bench he had put by his desk for this very purpose. The discomfort of Joes weight was more than compensated for by the quiet, and so as usual he kept Joe snoozing on his back.
When he had his material open, and had read up on tidal power generation cost/benefit figures from the UN study on same, he called Roy back, and they got the job finished. The revised draft was ready for Phil to review, and in a pinch could be shown to Senator Winston or Dr Strangelove.
Thanks Charlie. That looks good.
I like it too. Itll be interesting to see what Phil says about it. I wonder if were hanging him too far out there.
I think hell be okay, but I wonder what Winstons staff will say.
Theyll have a cow.
Its true. Theyre worse than Winston himself. A bunch of Sir Humphreys if I ever saw one.
I dont know, I think theyre just fundamentalist know-nothings.
True, but well show them.
I hope.
Charles my man, youre sounding tired. I suppose the Joe is about to wake up.
Yeah.
Unrelenting eh?
Yeah.
But you are the man, you are the greatest Mr Mom inside the Beltway!
Charlie laughed. And all that competition.
Roy laughed too, pleased to be able to cheer Charlie up. Well its an accomplishment anyway.
Thats nice of you to say. Most people dont notice. Its just something weird that I do.
Well thats true too. But people dont know what it entails.
No they dont. The only ones who know are real moms, but they dont think I count.
Youd think theyd be the ones who would.
Well, in a way theyre right. Theres no reason me doing it should be anything special. It may just be me wanting some strokes. Its turned out to be harder than I thought it would be. A real psychic shock.
Because
Well, I was thirty-eight when Nick arrived, and I had been doing exactly what I wanted ever since I was eighteen. Twenty years of white male American freedom, just like what you have, young man, and then Nick arrived and suddenly I was at the command of a speechless mad tyrant. I mean, think about it. Tonight you can go wherever you want to, go out and have some fun, right?
Thats right, Im going to go to a party for some new folks at Brookings, supposed to be wild.
All right, dont rub it in. Because Im going to be in the same room Ive been in every night for the past seven years, more or less.
So by now youre used to it, right?
Well, yes. Thats true. It was harder with Nick, when I could remember what freedom was.
You have morphed into momhood.
Yeah. But morphing hurts, baby, just like in The X-Men. I remember the first Mothers Day after Nick was born, I was most deep into the shock of it, and Anna had to be away that day, maybe to visit her mom, I cant remember, and I was trying to get Nick to take a bottle and he was refusing it as usual. And I suddenly realized I would never be free again for the whole rest of my life, but that as a non-Mom I was never going to get a day to honour my efforts, because Fathers Day is not what this stuff is about, and Nick was whipping his head around even though he was in desperate need of a bottle, and I freaked out, Roy. I freaked out and threw that bottle down.
You threw it?
Yeah, I slung it down and it hit at the wrong angle or something and just exploded. The baggie broke and the milk shot up and sprayed all over the room. I couldnt believe one bottle could hold that much. Even now when Im cleaning the living room I come across little white dots of dried milk here and there, like on the mantelpiece or the windowsill. Another little reminder of my Mothers Day freak-out.
Ha. The morph moment. Well Charlie, you are indeed a pathetic specimen of American manhood, yearning for your own Mothers Day card, but just hang in there only seventeen more years and youll be free again!
Oh fuckyouverymuch! By then I wont want to be.
Ha. The morph moment. Well Charlie, you are indeed a pathetic specimen of American manhood, yearning for your own Mothers Day card, but just hang in there only seventeen more years and youll be free again!
Oh fuckyouverymuch! By then I wont want to be.
Even now you dont wanna be. You love it, you know you do. But listen I gotta go Phils here bye.
Bye.
After talking with Charlie, Anna got absorbed in work in her usual manner, and might well have forgotten her lunch date with the people from Khembalung; but because this was a perpetual problem of hers, she had set her watch alarm for one oclock, and when it beeped she saved and went downstairs. She could see through the front window that the new embassys staff was still unpacking, releasing visible clouds of dust or incense smoke into the air. The young monk she had spoken to and his most elderly companion sat on the floor inspecting a box containing necklaces and the like.
They noticed her and looked up curiously, then the younger one nodded, remembering her from the morning conversation after their ceremony.
Still interested in some pizza? Anna asked. If pizza is okay?
Oh yes, the young one said. The two men got to their feet, the old man in several distinct moves; one leg was stiff. We love pizza. The old man nodded politely, glancing at his young assistant, who said something to him rapidly, in a language that while not guttural did seem mostly to be generated at the back of the mouth.
As they crossed the atrium to Pizzeria Uno Anna said uncertainly, Do you eat pizza where you come from?
The younger man smiled. No. But in Nepal I have eaten pizza in tea houses.
Are you vegetarian?
No. Tibetan Buddhism has never been vegetarian. There were not enough vegetables.
So you are Tibetans! But I thought you said you were an island nation?
We are. But originally we came from Tibet. The old ones, like Rudra Cakrin here, left when the Chinese took over. The rest of us were born in India, or on Khembalung itself.
I see.
They entered the restaurant, where big booths were walled by high wooden partitions. The three of them sat in one, Anna across from the two men.
I am Drepung, the young man said, and the rimpoche here, our ambassador to America, is Gyatso Sonam Rudra Cakrin.
Im Anna Quibler, Anna said, and shook hands with each of them. The mens hands were heavily callused.
Their waiter appeared. She did not appear to notice the unusual garb of the men, but took their orders with sublime indifference. After a quick muttered consultation, Drepung asked Anna for suggestions, and in the end they ordered a combination pizza with everything on it.
Anna sipped her water. Tell me more about Khembalung, and about your new embassy.
Drepung nodded. I wish Rudra Cakrin himself could tell you, but he is still taking his English lessons, Im afraid. Apparently they are going very badly. In any case, you know that China invaded Tibet in 1950, and that the Dalai Lama escaped to India in 1959?
Yes, that sounds familiar.
Yes. And during those years, and ever since then too, many Tibetans have moved to India to get away from the Chinese, and closer to the Dalai Lama. India took us in very hospitably, but when the Chinese and Indian governments had their disagreement over their border in 1960, the situation became very awkward for India. They were already in a bad way with Pakistan, and a serious controversy with China would have been He searched for the word, waggling a hand.
Too much? Anna suggested.
Yes. Much too much. So, the support India had been giving to the Tibetans in exile
Rudra Cakrin made a little hiss.
Small to begin with, although very helpful nevertheless, Drepung added, shrank even further. It was requested that the Tibetan community in Dharamsala make itself as small and inconspicuous as possible. The Dalai Lama and his government did their best, and many Tibetans were relocated to other places in India, mostly in the far south. But elsewhere as well. Then some more years passed, and there were some, how shall I say, arguments or splits within the Tibetan exile community, too complicated to go into, I assure you. I can hardly understand them myself. But in the end a group called the Yellow Hat School took the offer of this island of ours, and moved there. This was just before the India Pakistan war of 1970, unfortunately, so the timing was bad, and everything was on the hush-hush for a time. But the island was ours from that point, as a kind of protectorate of India, like Sikkim, only not so formally arranged.
Is Khembalung the islands original name?
No. I do not think it had a name before. Most of our sect lived at one time or another in the valley of Khembalung. So that name was kept, and we have shifted away from the Dalai Lamas government in Dharamsala, to a certain extent.
At the sound of the words Dalai Lama the old monk made a face and said something in Tibetan.
The Dalai Lama is still number one with us, Drepung clarified. It is a matter of some religious controversies with his associates. A matter of how best to support him.
Anna said, I thought the mouth of the Ganges was in Bangladesh?
Much of it is. But you must know that it is a very big delta, and the west side of it is in India. Part of Bengal. Many islands. The Sundarbans? You have not heard?
Their pizzas arrived, and Drepung began talking between big bites. Lightly populated islands, the Sundarbans. Some of them anyway. Ours was uninhabited.
Did you say uninhabitable?
No no. Inhabitable, obviously.
Another noise from Rudra Cakrin.
People with lots of choices might say they were uninhabitable, Drepung went on. And they may yet become so. They are best for tigers. But we have done well there. We have become like tigers. Over the years we have built a nice town. A little seaside potala for Gyatso Rudra and the other lamas. Schools, houses hospital. All that. And sea walls. The whole island has been ringed by dykes. Lots of work. Hard labour. He nodded as if personally acquainted with this work. Dutch advisors helped us. Very nice. Our home, you know? Khembalung has moved from age to age. But now He waggled a hand again, took another slice of pizza, bit into it.
Global warming? Anna ventured.
He nodded, swallowed. Our Dutch friends suggested that we establish an embassy here, to join their campaign to influence American policy in these matters.
Anna quickly bit into her pizza, so that she would not reveal the thought that had struck her, that the Dutch must be desperate indeed if they had been reduced to help like this. She thought things over as she chewed. So here you are, she said. Have you been to America before?
Drepung shook his head. None of us have.
It must be pretty overwhelming.
He frowned at this word. I have been to Calcutta.
Oh I see.
This is very different, of course.
Yes, Im sure.
She liked him: his musical Indian English, his round face and big liquid eyes, his ready smile. The two men made quite a contrast: Drepung young and tall, round-faced, with a kind of baby-fat look; Rudra Cakrin old, small and wizened, his face lined with a million wrinkles, his cheekbones and narrow jaw prominent in an angular, nearly fleshless face.