Clearer than the sharp, small ghosts of the past that she saw was the shiv-twist memory of fear as she saw him jump.
They had been lovers then for less than a year, still burningly conscious of one anothers bodies. When he had sought the dragons lair, more than anything else Jenny had been aware of the fragility of flesh and bone when it was pitted against steel and fire.
She shut her eyes; when she opened them again, the silken pictures were gone from the flame. She pressed her lips taut, forcing herself to listen without speaking, knowing it was and could be none of her affair. She could no more have told him not to gonot then, not nowthan he could have told her to leave the stone house on Frost Fell and give up her seeking, to come to the Hold to cook his meals and raise his sons.
John was saying, Tell me about this drake.
You mean youll come? The forlorn eagerness in Gareths voice made Jenny want to get up and box his ears.
I mean I want to hear about it. The Dragonsbane came around the table and slouched into one of the rooms big carved chairs, sliding the other in Gareths direction with a shove of his booted foot. How long ago did it strike?
It came by night, two weeks ago. I took ship three days later, from Claekith Harbor below the city of Bel. The ship is waiting for us at Eldsbouch.
I doubt that. John scratched the side of his long nose with one scarred forefinger. If your mariners were smart theyll have turned and run for a safe port two days ago. The storms are coming. Eldsbouch will be no protection to them.
But they said theyd stay! Gareth protested indignantly. I paid them!
Gold will do them no good weighting their bones to the bottom of the cove, John pointed out.
Gareth sank back into his chair, shocked and cut to the heart by this final betrayal. They cant have gone
There was a moments silence, while John looked down at his hands. Without lifting her eyes from the heart of the fire, Jenny said softly, They are not there, Gareth. I see the sea, and it is black with storms; I see the old harbor at Eldsbouch, the gray river running through the broken houses there; I see the fisher-folk making fast their little boats to the ruins of the old piers and all the stones shining under the rain. There is no ship there, Gareth.
Youre wrong, he said hopelessly. You have to be wrong. He turned back to John. Itll take us weeks to get back, traveling overland
Us? John said softly, and Gareth blushed and looked as frightened as if he had uttered mortal insult. After a moment John went on, How big is this dragon of yours?
Gareth swallowed again and drew his breath in a shaky sigh. Huge, he said dully. How huge?
Gareth hesitated. Like most people, he had no eye for relative size. It must have been a hundred feet long. They say the shadow of its wings covered the whole of Deeping Vale.
Who says? John inquired, shifting his weight side-ways in the chair and hooking a knee over the fornicating sea-lions that made up the left-hand arm. I thought it came at night, and munched up anyone close enough to see it by day.
Well He floundered in a sea of third-hand rumor.
Ever see it on the ground?
Gareth blushed and shook his head.
Its gie hard to judge things in the air, John said kindly, pushing up his specs again. The drake I slew here looked about a hundred feet long in the air, when I first saw it descending on the village of Great Toby. Turned out to be twenty-seven feet from beak to tail. Again his quick grin illuminated his usually expressionless face. It comes of being a naturalist. The first thing we did, Jenny and I, when I was on my feet again after killing it, was to go out there with cleavers and see how the thing was put together, what there was left of it.
It could be bigger, though, couldnt it? Gareth asked. He sounded a little worried, as if, Jenny thought dryly, he considered a twenty-seven foot dragon somewhat paltry. I mean, in the Greenhythe variant of the Lay of Selkythar Dragonsbane and the Worm of the Imperteng Wood, they say that the Worm was sixty feet long, with wings that would cover a battalion.
Anybody measure it?
Well, they must have. Exceptnow that I come to think of it, according to that variant, when Selkythar had wounded it unto death the dragon fell into the River Wildspae; and in a later Belmarie version it says it fell into the sea. So I dont see how anyone could have.
So a sixty-foot dragon is just somebodys measure of how great Selkythar was. He leaned back in his chair, his hands absentmindedly tracing over the lunatic carvingsthe mingled shapes of all the creatures of the Book of Beasts. The worn gilding still caught in the chinks flickered with a dull sheen in the stray glints of the fire. Twenty-seven feet doesnt sound like a lot, til its there spitting fire at you. You know their flesh will decompose almost as soon as they die? Its as if their own fire consumes them, as it does everything else.
Spitting fire? Gareth frowned. All the songs say they breathe it.
Aversin shook his head. They sort of spit itits liquid fire, and nearly anything it touchesll catch. Thats the trick in fighting a dragon, you seeto stay close enough to its body that it wont spit fire at you for fear of burning itself, and not get rolled on or cut to pieces with its scales whilst youre about it. They can raise the scales along their sides like a blowfish bristling, and theyre edged like razors.
I never knew that, Gareth breathed. Wonder and curiosity lessened, for a moment, the shell of his offended dignity and pride.
Well, the pity of it is, probably the Kings champions didnt either. God knows, I didnt when I went after the dragon in the gorge. There was nothing about it in any book I could findDotys and Clivy and them. Only a few old granny-rhymes that mention dragonsor drakes or worms, theyre calledand they werent much help. Things like:
Cock by its feet, horse by its hame,
Snake by its head, drake by its name.
Or what Polyborus had in his Analects about certain villages believing that if you plant loveseedthose creeper-things with the purple trumpet-flowers on themaround your house, dragons wont come near. Jen and I used bits of that kind of loreJen brewed a poison from the loveseed to put on my harpoons, because it was obvious on the face of it that no fiddling little sword was going to cut through those scales. And the poison did slow the thing down. But I dont know near as much about them as Id like.
No. Jenny turned her eyes at last from the fires throbbing core and, resting her cheek upon her hand where it lay on her up-drawn knees, regarded the two men on either side of the book-cluttered table. She spoke softly, half to herself. We know not where they come from, nor where they breed; why of all the beasts of the earth they have six limbs instead of four
Maggots from meat, quoted John, weevils from rye, dragons from stars in an empty sky. Thats in Terens Of Ghosts. Or Caerdinns Save a dragon, slave a dragon. Or why they say you should never look into a dragons eyesand Ill tell you, Gar, I was gie careful not to do that. We dont even know simple things, like why magic and illusion wont work on them; why Jen couldnt call the dragons image in that jewel of hers, or use a cloaking-spell against his noticenothing.
Nothing, Jenny said softly, save how they died, slain by men as ignorant of them as we.
John must have heard the strange sorrow that underlay her voice, for she felt his glance, worried and questioning. But she turned her eyes away, not knowing the answer to what he asked.
After a moment, John sighed and said to Gareth, Its all knowledge thats been lost over the years, like Luciards Firegiver and how they managed to build a breakwater across the harbor mouth at Eldsbouchknowledge thats been lost and may never be recovered.
He got to his feet and began to pace restlessly, the flat, whitish gray reflections from the window winking on spike and mail-scrap and the brass of dagger-hilt and buckle. Were living in a decaying world, Gar; things slipping away day by day. Even you, down south in Belyoure losing the Realm a piece at a time, with the Winterlands tearing off in one direction and the rebels pulling away the Marches in another. Youre losing what you had and dont even know it, and all that while knowledge is leaking out the seams, like meal from a ripped bag, because there isnt time or leisure to save it.
I would never have slain the dragon, Garslay it, when we know nothing about it? And it was beautiful in itself, maybe the most beautiful thing Ive ever laid eyes on, every color of it perfect as sunset, like a barley field in certain lights you get on summer evenings.
But you mustyou have to slay ours! There was sudden agony in Gareths voice.
Fighting it and slaying it are two different things. John turned back from the window, his head tipped slightly to one side, regarding the boys anxious face. And I havent yet said Id undertake the one, let alone accomplish the other.
But you have to. The boys voice was a forlorn whisper of despair. Youre our only hope.
Am I? the Dragonsbane asked gently. Im the only hope of all these villagers, through the coming winter, against wolves and bandits. It was because I was their only hope that I slew the most perfect creature Id ever seen, slew it dirtily, filthily, chopping it to pieces with an axit was because I was their only hope that I fought it at all and near had my flesh shredded from my bones by it. Im only a man, Gareth.
No! the boy insisted desperately. Youre the Dragonsbanethe only Dragonsbane! He rose to his feet, some inner struggle plain upon his thin features, his breathing fast as if forcing himself to some exertion. The King He swallowed hard. The King told me to make whatever terms I could, to bring you south. If you come With an effort he made his voice steady. If you come, we will send troops again to protect the northlands, to defend them against the Iceriders; we will send books, and scholars, to bring knowledge to the people again. I swear it. He took up the Kings seal and held it out in his trembling palm, and the cold daylight flashed palely across its face. In the Kings name I swear it.
But Jenny, watching the boys white face as he spoke, saw that he did not meet Johns eyes.
As night came on the rain increased, the wind throwing it like sea-breakers against the walls of the Hold. Johns Aunt Jane brought up a cold supper of meat, cheese, and beer, which Gareth picked at with the air of one doing his duty. Jenny, sitting cross-legged in the corner of the hearth, unwrapped her harp and experimented with its tuning pegs while the men spoke of the roads that led south, and of the slaying of the Golden Dragon of Wyr.
Thats another thing that wasnt like the songs, Gareth said, resting his bony elbows amid the careless scatter of Johns notes on the table. In the songs the dragons are all gay-colored, gaudy. But this one is black, dead-black all over save for the silver lamps of its eyes.
Black, repeated John quietly, and looked over at Jenny. You had an old list, didnt you, love?
She nodded, her hands resting in the delicate maneuverings of the harp pegs. Caerdinn had me memorize many old lists, she explained to Gareth. Some of them he told me the meaning ofthis one he never did. Perhaps he didnt know himself. It was names, and colors She closed her eyes and repeated the list, her voice falling into the old mans singsong chant, the echo of dozens of voices, back through the length of years. Teltrevir heliotrope; Centhwevir is blue knotted with gold; Astirith is primrose and black; Morkeleb alone, black as night The list goes onthere were dozens of names, if names they are. She shrugged and linked her fingers over the curve of the harps back. But John tells me that the old dragon that was supposed to haunt the shores of the lake of Wevir in the east was said to have been blue as the waters, marked all over his back with patterns of gold so that he could lie beneath the surface of the lake in summer and steal sheep from the banks.
Yes! Gareth almost bounced out of his chair with enthusiasm as he recognized the familiar tale. And the Worm of Wevir was slain by Antara Warlady and her brother Darthis Dragonsbane in the last part of the reign of Yvain the Well-Beloved, who was He caught himself up again, suddenly embarrassed. Its a popular tale, he concluded, red-faced.
Jenny hid her smile at the abrupt checking of his ebullience. There were notes for the harp as wellnot tunes, really. He whistled them to me, over and over, until I got them right.
She put her harp to her shoulder, a small instrument that had also been Caerdinns, though he had not played it; the wood was darkened almost black with age. By daylight it appeared perfectly unadorned, but when firelight glanced across it, as it did now, the circles of the air and sea were sometimes visible, traced upon it in faded gold. Carefully, she picked out those strange, sweet knots of sound, sometimes two or three notes only, sometimes a string of them like a truncated air. They were individual in the turns of their timing, hauntingly half-familiar, like things remembered from childhood; and as she played she repeated the names: Teltrevir heliotrope, Centhwevir is blue knotted with gold It was part of the lost knowledge, like that from Johns scatterbrained, jackdaw quest in the small portion of his time not taken up with the brutal demands of the Winterlands. Notes and words were meaningless now, like a line from a lost ballad, or a few torn pages from the tragedy of an exiled god, pasted to keep wind from a crackthe echoes of songs that would not be heard again.
From them her hands moved on, random as her passing thoughts. She sketched vagrant airs, or snatches of jigs and reels, slowed and touched with the shadow of an inevitable grief that waited in the hidden darkness of future time. Through them she moved to the ancient tunes that held the timeless pull of the ocean in their cadences; sorrows that drew the heart from the body, or joys that called the soul like the distant glitter of Stardust banners in the summer night. In time John took from its place in a hole by the hearth a tin penny whistle, such as children played in the streets, and joined its thin, bright music to hers, dancing around the shadowed beauty of the harp like a thousand-year-old child.
Music answered music, joining into a spell circle that banished, for a time, the strange tangle of fear and grief and dragonfire in Jennys heart. Whatever would come to pass, this was what they were and had now. She tossed back the cloudy streams of her hair and caught the bright flicker of Aversins eyes behind his thick spectacles, the pennywhistle luring the harp out of its sadness and into dance airs wild as hay-harvest winds. As the evening deepened, the Hold folk drifted up to the study to join them, sitting where they could on the floor or the hearth or in the deep embrasures of the windows: Johns Aunt Jane and Cousin Dilly and others of the vast tribe of his female relatives who lived at the Hold; Ian and Adric; the fat, jovial smith Muffle; all part of the pattern of the life of the Winterlands that was so dull-seeming at first, but was in truth close-woven and complex as its random plaids. And among them Gareth sat, ill at ease as a bright southern parrot in a rookery. He kept looking about him with puzzled distaste in the leaping restlessness of the red firelight that threw into momentary brightness the moldery rummage of decaying books, of rocks and chemical experiments, and that glowed in the childrens eyes and made amber mirrors of the dogswondering, Jenny thought, how a quest as glorious as his could possibly have ended in such a place.