I have not got piggy eyes. They did not light up.
But hes exactly what you want, Adèle said. Admittedly, hes not much like anything in the life of Maria Stuart. But hes just what you need for casting in peoples teeth.
He never looks at me anyway, Lucile said. He thinks Im a child. He doesnt know Im there.
He knows, Adèle said. Go through, why dont you? She gestured in the direction of the drawing room, towards its closed doors. Bring me a report. I dare you.
I cant just walk in.
Why cant you? If theyre only sitting around talking, they cant object, can they? And if theyre not well, thats what we want to know, isnt it?
Why dont you go then?
Adèle looked at her as if she were simple-minded. Because the more innocent assumption is the one that you could be expected to make.
Lucile saw this; and she could never resist a dare. Adèle watched her go, her satin slippers noiseless on the carpets. Camilles odd little face floated into her mind. If hes not the death of us, she thought, Ill smash my crystal ball and take up knitting.
CAMILLE WAS PUNCTUAL; come at two, she had said. On the offensive, she asked him if he had nothing better to do with his afternoons. He did not think this worth a reply; but he sensed the drift of things.
Annette had decided to employ that aspect of herself her friends called a Splendid Woman. It involved sweeping about the room and smiling archly.
So, she said. There are rules, and you wont play by them. Youve been talking about us to someone.
Oh, Camille said, fiddling with his hair, if only there were anything to say.
Claude is going to find out.
Oh, if only there were something for him to find out. He stared absently at the ceiling. How is Claude? he said at last.
Cross, Annette said, distracted. Terribly cross. He put a lot of money into the Périer brothers waterworks schemes, and now the Comte de Mirabeau has written a pamphlet against it and collapsed the stocks.
But he must mean it for the public good. I admire Mirabeau.
You would. Let a man be a bankrupt, let him be notoriously immoral oh, dont distract me, Camille, dont.
I thought you wanted distraction, he said sombrely.
She was keeping a careful distance between them, buttressing her resolve with occasional tables. It has to stop, she said. You have to stop coming here. People are talking, theyre making assumptions. And God knows, Im sick of it. Whatever made you think in the first place that I would give up the security of my happy marriage for a hole-and-corner affair with you?
I just think you would, thats all.
You think Im in love with you, dont you? Your self-conceit is so monstrous
Annette, lets run away. Shall we? Tonight?
She almost said, yes, all right then.
Camille stood up, as if he were going to suggest they start her packing. She stopped pacing, came to a halt before him. She rested her eyes on his face, one hand pointlessly smoothing her skirts. She raised the other hand, touched his shoulder.
He moved towards her, set his hands at either side of her waist. The length of their bodies touched. His heart was beating wildly. Hell die, she thought, of a heart like that. She spent a moment looking into his eyes. Tentatively, their lips met. A few seconds passed. Annette drew her fingernails along the back of her lovers neck and knotted them into his hair, pulling his head down towards her.
There was a sharp squeal from behind them. Well, a breathy voice said, so it is true after all. And, as Adèle puts it, in the crude technical sense.
Annette plunged away from him and whirled around, the blood draining from her face. Camille regarded her daughter more with interest than surprise, but he blushed, very faintly indeed. And Lucile was shocked, no doubt about that; that was why her voice came out so high and frightened, and why she now appeared rooted to the spot.
There wasnt anything crude about it, Camille said. Do you think that, Lucile? Thats sad.
Lucile turned and fled. Annette let out her breath. Another few minutes, she thought, and God knows. What a ridiculous, wild, stupid woman I am. Well now, she said. Camille, get out of my house. If you ever come within a mile of me again, Ill arrange to have you arrested.
Camille looked slightly overawed. He backed off slowly, as if he were leaving a royal audience. She wanted to shout at him What are you thinking of now? But she was cowed, like him, by intimations of disaster.
IS THIS YOUR ULTIMATE INSANITY? dAnton asked Camille. Or is there more to come?
Somehow he does not know how he has become Camilles confidant. What he is being told now is unreal and dangerous and perhaps slightly he relishes the word depraved.
You said, Camille protested, that when you wanted to get on terms with Gabrielle you cultivated her mother. Its true, everybody saw you doing it, boasting in Italian and rolling your eyes and doing your tempestuous southerner impersonation.
Yes, all right, but thats what people do. Its a harmless, necessary, socially accepted convention. It is not like, it is a million miles from, what you are suggesting. Which is, as I understand it, that you start something up with the daughter as a way of getting to the mother.
I dont know about start something up, Camille said. I think it would be better if I married her. More permanent, no? Make myself one of the family? Annette cant have me arrested, not if Im her son-in-law.
But you ought to be arrested, dAnton said humbly. You ought to be locked up. He shook his head
THE FOLLOWING DAY Lucile received a letter. She never knew how; it was brought up from the kitchen. It must have been given to one of the servants. Normally it would have been handed straight to Madame, but there was a new skivvy, a little girl, she didnt know any better.
When she had read the letter she turned it over in her hand and smoothed out the pages. She worked through it again, methodically. Then she folded it and tucked it inside a volume of light pastoral verse. Immediately, she thought that she might have slighted it; she took it out again and placed it inside Montesquieus Persian Letters. So strange was it, that it might have come from Persia.
And then, as soon as the book was back on the shelf, she wanted the letter in her hand again. She wanted the feel of the paper, the sight of the looped black hand, to run her eye across the phrases Camille writes beautifully, she thought, beautifully. There were phrases that made her hold her breath. Sentences that seemed to fly from the page. Whole paragraphs that held and then scattered the light: each word strung on a thread, each word a diamond.
Good Lord, she thought. She remembered her journals, with a sense of shame. And I thought I practised prose
All this time, she was trying to avoid thinking about the content of the letter. She did not really believe it could apply to her, though logic told her that such a thing would not be misdirected.
No, it was she her soul, her face, her body that occasioned the prose. You could not examine your soul to see what the fuss was about; even the body and face were not easy. The mirrors in the apartment were all too high; her father, she supposed, had directed where to hang them. She could only see her head, which gave a curious disjointed effect. She had to stand on tiptoe to see some of her neck. She had been a pretty little girl, yes, she knew that. She and Adèle had both been pretty little girls, the kind that fathers dote on. Last year there had been this change.
She knew that for many women beauty was a matter of effort, a great exercise of patience and ingenuity. It required cunning and dedication, a curious honesty and absence of vanity. So, if not precisely a virtue, it might be called a merit.
But she could not claim this merit.
Sometimes she was irritated by the new dispensation just as some people are irritated by their own laziness, or by the fact that they bite their nails. She would like to work at her looks but there it is, they dont require it. She felt herself drifting away from other people, into the realms of being judged by what she cannot help. A friend of her mother said (she was eavesdropping, as it happened): Girls who look like that at her age are nothing by the time theyre twenty-five. The truth is, she cant imagine twenty-five. She is sixteen now; beauty is as final as a birthmark.
Because her skin had a delicate pallor, like that of a woman in an ivory tower, Annette had persuaded her to powder her dark hair, and knot it up with ribbons and flowers to show the flawless bones of her face. It was as well her dark eyes could not be taken out and put back china blue. Or Annette would have done it, perhaps; she wanted to see her own dolls face looking back. More than once, Lucile had imagined herself a china doll, left over from her mothers childhood, wrapped up in silk on a high shelf: a doll too fragile and too valuable to be given to the rough, wild children of today.
Life for the most part was dull. She could remember a time when her greatest joy had been a picnic, an excursion to the country, a boat on the river on a hot afternoon. A day with no studies, when the regular hours were broken, and it was possible to forget which day of the week it was. She had looked forward to these days with an excitement very like dread, rising early to scan the sky and predict the weather. There were a few hours when you felt Life is really like this; you supposed this was happiness, and it was. You thought about it at the time, self-consciously. Then you came back, tired, in the evening, and things went on as before. You said, Last week, when I went to the country, I was happy.
Now she had outgrown Sunday treats; the river looked always the same, and if it rained, and you stayed indoors, that was no great disaster. After her childhood (after she said to herself, my childhood is over) events in her imagination became more interesting than anything that happened in the Duplessis household. When her imagination failed her, she wandered the rooms, listless and miserable, destructive thoughts going around in her head. She was glad when it was time for bed and reluctant to get up in the mornings. Life was like that. She would put aside her diaries, consumed with horror at her shapeless days, at the waste of time that stretched before her.
Or pick up her pen: Anne Lucile Philippa, Anne Lucile. How distressed I am to find myself writing like this, how distressed that a girl of your education and refinement can find nothing better to do, no music practice, no embroidery, no healthy afternoon walk, just these death-wishes, these fantasies of the morbid and the grandiose, these blood-wishes, these images, sweet Jesus, ropes, blades and her mothers lover with his half-dead-already air and his sensual, bruised-looking mouth. Anne Lucile. Anne Lucile Duplessis. Change the name and not the letter, change for worse and worse for its much less dull than better. She looked herself in the eye; she smiled; she threw back her head, displaying to her advantage the long white throat that her mother deems will break her admirers hearts.
Yesterday Adèle had begun on that extraordinary conversation. Then she had walked into the drawing room and seen her mother slide her tongue between her lovers teeth, knot her fingers into his hair, flush and tremble and decline into his thin and elegant hands. She remembered those hands, his forefinger touching paper, touching her handwriting: saying Lucile, my sweet, this should be in the ablative case, and I am afraid that Julius Caesar never imagined such things as your translation suggests.
Today, her mothers lover offered her marriage. When something blessed event, however strange comes to shake us out of our monotony then, she cried, things should happen in ones.
CLAUDE: Of course I have said my last word on the matter. I hope he has the sense to accept it. I dont know what can have led him to make the proposal in the first place. Do you, Annette? Once it might have been a different story. When I met him at first I took to him, I admit. Very intelligent but what is intelligence, when someone has a bad moral character? Is basically unsound? He has the most extraordinary reputation no, no, no. Cant hear of it.
No, I suppose you cant, Annette said.
Frankly, that he has the nerve Im surprised.
So am I.
He had considered sending Lucile away to stay with relations. But then people might put the worst construction on it might believe she had done something she shouldnt have.
What if ?
If? Annette said impatiently.
If I were to introduce her to one or two eligible young men?
Sixteen is too young to marry. And her vanity is already great enough. Still, Claude, you must do as you feel. You are the head of the household. You are the girls father.
ANNETTE sent for her daughter, having fortified herself with a large glass of brandy.
The letter. She clicked her fingers for it.
I dont carry it on my person.
Where then?
Inside Persian Letters.
An ill-advised merriment seized Annette. Perhaps you would like to file it inside my copy of Les Liaisons Dangereuses.
Didnt know you had one. Can I read it?
No indeed. I may follow the advice in the foreword, and give you a copy on your wedding night. When, in the course of time, your father and I find you someone to marry.
Lucile made no comment. How well she hides, she thought with the help of only a little brandy a most mortifying blow to her pride. She would almost like to congratulate her.
He came to see your father, Annette said. He said he had written to you. You wont see him again. If there are any more letters, bring them straight to me.
Does he accept the situation?
That hardly matters.
Did it not seem proper to my father that I be consulted?
Why should you be consulted? You are a child.
I might have to have a chat with my father. About certain things I saw.
Annette smiled wanly. Ruthless, arent you, my dear?
It seems a fair exchange. Luciles throat was constricted. On the precipice of these new dealings, she was almost too frightened to speak. You give me time to think. Thats all Im asking for.
And in return you promise me your infant discretion? What is it, Lucile, that you think you know?
Well, after all, Ive never seen my father kiss you like that. Ive never seen anybody kiss anybody like that. It must have done something to brighten your week.
It seems to have brightened yours. Annette rose from her chair. She trailed across the room, to where some hothouse flowers stood in a bowl. She swept them out, and began to replace them one by one. You should have gone to a convent, she said. Its not too late to finish your education.