9
Lord Buchan studied his youngest son carefully. Tom was twelve now, clever, cheeky and precocious. He was standing in front of his father looking at this moment extremely sheepish. Well, boy, did you do it? the earl sighed. They had been here before. With his eldest brother now in the army and Harry at university, Tom had been left at home with his sisters to be tutored by their mother. Agnes was a brilliant woman and she had taught all her children in turn, imbuing in them her own passion for learning as well as her strict religious views, and yet here was Tom, still running wild in the streets, this time caught stealing from a stall in the Grassmarket below the great castle walls. His excuse, given with passionate indignation, was not a denial but an explanation that there could be no crime for he had stolen from a rich man, who could well afford the loss, to give to a poor one. Lord Buchan sighed. The boy had no idea that, had he been a poor man himself, he would have faced the direst penalties for what he had done. Only a substantial bribe had bought off the indignant stallholder, a bribe they could not afford. Poverty, though, was relative. His paltry two hundred pounds a year would be an undreamed of fortune to the would-be recipient of his sons intended largess.
I am sending you away, Tom. Mr Buchanan shall be your tutor and you will go to Kirkhill to learn discipline and study until you are ready to go to the High School. He did not add that they could not afford to send him to the school, otherwise he would have been there already. David and Harry were the lucky ones. Money had been scraped together for their education and now for Davids commission in the army, and enough for Harry to study law, but for this third son, probably the brightest of them all, there was little left in the coffers.
Tom looked down at his feet. He managed to master his conflicting emotions; relief that he was not to be beaten; horror at the thought of a tutor of his own and delight that he would once more be in the country. He loved the old tower house of Kirkhill, with the Brox Burn, the broad wild valley of Strathbrock and its distant views of the Pentland Hills, the River Almond less than an hours walk away. There he would be able to study all the things which fascinated him most, botany and birds and animals, and when the rain streamed down the windows he could read his way through the mildewed books which remained abandoned in the library.
The summer went much as Tom had planned. He enjoyed enormously his lessons in the improvised schoolroom above the stables. Mr Buchanan, though strict, was a brilliant teacher; he was inclined to allow the boy his head between lessons, identifying, as Toms father had done, a streak of brilliance there that he believed would be best channelled by allowing the boy free rein as far as possible.
When the end of Toms exile came it was unexpected and deliriously exciting. His brother Harry rode out from Edinburgh with the news.
We are giving up the flat in Edinburgh. Its too expensive, Harry said candidly as he sat with Tom over a plate of scones, spread with butter from the mains. He had brought a letter for Mr Buchanan, who sat near them reading it, his expression thoughtful. Papa has taken a house in St Andrews and you are to attend the high school there. Mama is pleased with the development, he hesitated for only a fraction of a second, a hesitation into which Tom read a multiplicity of meanings, and we are to go at once. On the far side of the table Mr Buchanan looked from one boy to the other with quiet satisfaction. Neither noticed. Anne is not coming with us, Harry added wistfully.
Tom looked up. He had stuffed another scone into his mouth and was chewing with much enjoyment. What is she going to do? Has Mama found her a husband? he asked when at last he could speak.
Shes going to Bath.
Bath? Tom stared at his brother in astonishment. In England?
She has been writing to Lady Huntingdon about the church and God and stuff, and she is going to go and help with all that. Harry waved his hand in the air expansively. Mama thinks she will be happier there. I heard her tell Papa that Anne is not made to marry. He frowned, catching sight of Mr Buchanans expression as he glanced up from his letter. Well see her often, he hurried on. Papa says perhaps well go and visit her. Both boys were fond of their eldest sister. She was kind and amusing and had mothered them in ways for which their real mother had little inclination.
Once the plan was voiced it all happened very quickly. Mr Buchanan left for a position at Glasgow University. Friends and servants were left behind with fond farewells and promises of an eventual return. The familys furniture and clothes and belongings were loaded onto a ship at Leith and sent off to Fife ahead of them, and before the autumn gales had set in they were ensconced in their new home.
Tom was delighted that at last he would be going to school, little realising that one of the reasons for his parents move from Edinburgh was, at the strong recommendation of his tutor, to save enough money to pay his fees. He enjoyed St Andrews. He began to study at the university, taking classes in mathematics and natural philosophy and attending Richard Dicks school of Latin with Harry. He learned to dance, he watched the soldiers on parade and the ships in the harbour, and he explored the countryside and the coastline at every opportunity, striding out with his thumb stick and a bag of food over his shoulder in all weathers. He loved the sea; the waves crashing onto the rocky shore throwing spume high into the air, the roar of the water echoing in the ruins of the castle and the gaunt skeleton of the ancient cathedral that rose so starkly above the cliffs. He shivered as he stood looking out across incalculable distances, setting his shoulders against the long-dead voices that called out from the ancient stones around him.
In the cliff below the spot where he was standing his mother had laid claim to the cave where, so the story went, St Rule had landed on the shores of the ancient kingdom of Fife, bringing with him the precious relics of St Andrew, relics long ago lost to the furies of John Knox and his reformers. The cave was a dark, mysterious place but his mother had had it transformed with seashells, and chairs and tables, and, after she had had steps cut into the cliff to make it easier to reach, she held tea parties there. He disapproved. In some secret place within his soul he thought of the cave as sacred, and besides he knew the locals thought his mother mad. Not that she worried about such things; she had no time for St Andrew, nor for the opinion of her neighbours.
It was here he met the boy. Sheltering in the cave when his mother was busy elsewhere and the icy winds had driven everyone off the streets, Tom caught sight of a lad about his own age, standing by the entrance, looking out to sea. Hey! Tom called. He ran to catch him up, but the boy was ahead of him, jumping down the cliff path towards the rocks below the castle. The boy stopped as he reached the sand, glancing back over his shoulder, waiting for Tom, then he ran on, his hair wet with the rain, his jacket flying open in the wind.
He never found out the boys name but they played together often, exploring the ruins of the castle and the cathedral, the boy leading him down hidden steps to the sea gate, running along the great curtain wall, balancing high above the sea, climbing off the stones and leaping down the stairs by the postern gate. They spent hours together scrambling on the ruins, on the cliffs, chasing along the sands at low tide, until the reluctant scholar was recalled to his books by his tutors.
It was the day that Harry came to find him and bring him home that he last saw his friend.
Mama has sent me to fetch you, Harry called. We have visitors from the south with messages from Anne.
Tom had been throwing stones into the sea, laughing, competing with the other boy as to who could throw them furthest, skimming them above waves that for once were calm.
Ill have to go! he called, turning.
The boy had gone. He left no footprints in the sand.
Who were you talking to? Harry enquired as they jogged down South Street towards their house.
No one. Tom managed to look nonchalant as he stopped to empty some stones from his shoe. I was shouting at the gulls.
He knew Harry didnt believe him, but he didnt care.
He was happy and excited; not for one moment did he realise that he was about to be given the first great shock and disappointment of his young life.
I can no longer afford your fees! Lord Buchan was striding up and down the room, his daughters letter in his hand. Tom was standing before him white-faced. I am sorry, Tom. If there was another way I would take it, I promise you.
But the university! You promised! I am already going to lectures
No. Its not possible and we cant stay here after all. I am sorry. The fees for your brothers have taken every penny we have. The earls face was grey with worry and fatigue. You must understand, Tom, that as the youngest your needs have to come last. David will inherit the title when my time comes; and Harry will go into the law. We have to find another way forward for you, and Anne has suggested we join her in Bath. She has a house there, thanks to her friend Lady Huntingdon, and she feels your mother and I could be of use to her in spreading the message about Methodism. He glanced at his sons face; the devastation he saw there was a physical blow. I am sorry, Tom. I know how much store you set by continuing your studies and going on to a profession.
And Harry? Tom asked. Is he to go to Bath too?
No. His father shook his head. He will visit us, when he can, but he will remain here at St Andrews. I have managed to find him somewhere to lodge.
So, what will become of me? Tom managed to keep his voice steady. He took a deep breath. I suppose it will be the army, like David? Could he imagine himself as a soldier? The idea had never crossed his mind, but that was the traditional destiny of a younger son.
His father gave him a look of deep compassion. Commissions in the army cost money, Tom. But we will face that decision when we must. Anne has many friends and contacts in Bath. I am sure something will turn up. I am praying every day that God will provide for you. He smiled at the boy, well aware that Tom was fighting back tears. His heart ached for his precocious youngest son.
On his last day in St Andrews, Tom went back to the castle to look for his friend. A fierce wind had arisen, tearing at his jacket, threatening to push him off the cliffs, screaming through the ruins, streaking the sky with rain. Huge waves rolled in over the rocks, smashing themselves against the foot of the cliffs, hurling spray high into the sky. Tom looked round helplessly. Where was he? Somehow he had thought the boy would be here, but there was no sign of him in the remains of the courtyard or beneath the tower or in the shelter of the remaining walls.
His shoulders slumped with disappointment as he stood looking out at the wild sea, its distances shrouded with bellying cloud. His friend was one of the dead. He had always known that, always recognised that the boy must have drowned in the sea and that his longing for companionship and the life he had so cruelly lost so young had brought him back to the shore. May God bless you, he whispered. I shall miss you.
10
No, of course I didnt try it. When Harriet rang Ruth the next morning, she laughed. This is me youre talking to, Hattie. I do not, never would, try to summon ghosts.
She looked round the room with a shiver. Even in the mornings the kitchen was such a gloomy place with its high ceilings and shadowed corners, and she was beginning to hate it.
There was a moment of silence as Harriet considered what to do next. Giving up was obviously not an option. Pity, but dont worry. I looked up some stuff about Dion and how she contacted ghosts last night. As far as I can gather, she and her companions meditated.
Im not the right person to try this, Ruth said firmly.
Yes, you are. Youre perfect. Youre a relation of his. You must have some sort of link. Besides, your father could do it and he didnt believe in it either and he loathed the man. Harriet was not going to be thwarted that easily. Let me read it up some more then Ill call you back, OK?
Ruth spent the morning tidying up, going through the drawers in the dining room and the sitting room. Then later she went upstairs. On the first landing she stopped and listened. It was very cold up there and strangely still. It was as though there was a tangible presence in the silence of the house. Timothy? Is that you? She knew it couldnt be, but it felt as though there was someone there listening to the silence with her. She could feel the heavy sadness, the pall of loneliness. Daddy? she whispered at last. One by one she went into the rooms, looked round, then moved on. In her fathers room she paused a little longer, her eyes drawn to his empty bed. It was stripped now, but, unable to bear the sight of it with her father gone, she had thrown a tartan rug over it. It did nothing to dispel the emptiness of the room. Daddy? she whispered again.
There was no reply.
The top landing was dully lit from the skylight. She could hear the rattle of rain on the glass above her head. Almost reluctantly she went into the back room and pulled open the cupboard doors. There was nothing left in there now except for some old newspapers on the top shelf. She reached up to them, and then, feeling something more substantial underneath them, stood on tiptoe to drag everything down off the shelf.
There were three large brown envelopes beneath the papers, tied together with thin pieces of ribbon. She carried them over to the divan, surprised at how heavy they were and, sliding off the ribbon, teased one open. On the envelope was one word: COPIES. It contained a substantial collection of letters, all in the same handwriting, which was faded, old fashioned, with a marked slope to the right. She felt a leap of excitement. The letters appeared to have been copied from originals addressed to various people over quite a long period. The top one was headed Walcot. She slid the letters carefully back into the envelope and, gathering them all up, turned back towards the stairs.
The radio and some strenuous house cleaning did nothing to dispel the lonely gloom of the house. Even the letters failed to tempt her and at last she reached for her phone.
Finlay was at home. Ill come and fetch you about five, he said at once. Come for supper and stay the night.
Ive already looked, Finlay said, as he pulled away from the kerb. He had noticed the nervous way she glanced over her shoulder. I cant see him.
She gave a grim smile. Hes not going to give up that easily, though, is he.