Hannah believed her brother. She just didnt know what to do about it. Rather than face the humiliation of continuing to try, shed taken a break from actively pursuing a dating life.
But her heart had never gotten the message. It continued to yearn and burn to know what she was missing.
Which had nothing to do with this meeting, darn it. Guys, come on now, we
Romance... Tara said dreamily. Sweet nothings, slow dancing, and long-stemmed roses. I want the whole enchilada.
Try a good steamy novel then, Hannah suggested, determined to move on. They have guaranteed happy endings. She leaned over to tap her pencil on their supposed list of goals, which at the moment included only oneLose Single Status. We have to get serious here.
But really, who was she to begrudge her friends needing more, just because shed always failed at it? Just because her whole life was the Norfolk Inn, that didnt mean it had to be the same way for them. Yes, it was a dream come true for all of them to work together at their own business, but neither Alexi nor Tara ever put work ahead of their own personal lives.
Hannah did. She just didnt know how to do anything else.
Maybe they were right. Maybe it was time for a change. A new attitude. She was older, wiser too. Certainly she could do anything she set her mind to.
After this meeting.
So...its settled? Alexi asked them. Were all going for it? Most important goal for the summer, lose single status?
Count me in, Tara said. Hannah?
Well
Just third the motion, would you?
All she had to do was say the words. Put voice to the need deep inside her, that shed love to find someone to go out with, someone she could trust enough to lose more than her single status to.
Besides, Alexi and Tara looked so excited about the prospect of summer, and of finding someone.... How could she disappoint them? She could just agree, and then forget about it. I give, she said. Can we finish discussing the business now?
How about we up the ante first? Alexi suggested. Whoever gets unsingle doesnt have to clean toilets all summer. Seeing as how Im going to win and all.
Maybe our goal should be to hire the maid weve been promising ourselves, Hannah suggested instead, but both Tara and Alexi shook their heads.
Were doing good, but not that good, not yet, Tara reminded her. Its not in the budget until next spring.
So... Alexis eyes sparkled. What do you guys think about the toilet challenge?
Its sort of high-school, isnt it? Tara asked.
Which had Alexi laughing again. So naturally, youre in.
Are you kidding? Tara grinned. And miss this? Of course Im in. Like I have to worry about losing anyway.
Not when we have Hannah in the mix for the handicap.
They both looked at her with warm, loving amusement and she cast a glance heavenward. Just because I dont date a lot
Honey, you dont date at all.
Well you wouldnt if you had my bad luck.
Yes, I would, Alexi said, her face suddenly serious. Id try. You just havent found the right one yet, someone who makes you feel special.
Absolutely, Tara agreed. You cant give up.
But Hannah had given up. It was far easier on both her heart and ego. In todays day and age, she said as primly as she could, we have to be careful.
Careful yes, Tara corrected. Alone, no.
I said Id do it. And she would, just so they could get on with their work stuff. She didnt want a relationship; she didnt have the time or inclination. And anyway, if she was going to set a goal for herself, it would be something easier.
Something personal.
She wanted to lose her virginity.
To us then. Alexi held out her hand. Tara placed hers in it, and with reluctance, so did Hannah.
Good luck, ladies, Alexi said as they shook.
I declare this meeting concluded. May the best woman win.
Okay, great. Hannah raised her pad of paper. Now back to business.
Alexi and Tara sighed but settled in, mostly to humor her. It didnt matter; Hannah was glad to be back on track.
And yet for the next hour, while they discussed finances and services, all she could think about was...what if shed been too hasty in assuming she would lose their challenge?
What if she could really do it, really actually manage to meet her personal goal of losing her virginity? She could just dip her toe into romance, so to speak, then get back to her life.
Nice dream, but impossible, given reality.
There was no man in sight begging for her body.
* * *
HANNAH STOOD ALONE in front of the freshly scrubbed kitchen sink, having just happily run herself ragged cleaning up the evenings meal for their very full house.
Out the window to the right, the sun slowly disappeared over the Pacific Ocean. The colors exploded, and she stood there riveted by the sight.
She loved it here. It was calm, peaceful. Perfect.
To the left, she could see the quaint main street of Avila. All the galleries and specialty shops had their lights on, welcoming. Inviting. Tourists were hustling down the street, shopping, eating, enjoying themselves.
As were their own guests. Their land was only an acre, but it was a fabulous acre, complete with the lodge, a small restaurant, an ice-cream and gift shop, spa, barbecue area, wildflower gardens and eight suitesthough they only used five for visiting guests. The other three belonged to Tara, Alexi and herself.
Alexi ran the restaurant with amazing talent for both cooking and charming the guests out of huge tips. Tara handled the books with the fierceness of Attila The Hun, and since Hannah had a way with both greenery and sweetnessor so shed been toldshe worked the wildflower gardens and ran the ice-cream and gift shop.
She could think of nowhere else shed rather be, and was looking forward to the wonderful summer months ahead...unless of course, she was on toilet duty.
Oh God, shed almost forgotten.
Shed agreed to the unsingle challenge.
A half-hysterical laugh escaped her. It was so out of her league she might as well wish for a trip to the moon. And anyway, how bad could it be cleaning the bathrooms every single day, for three entire months?
Pretty bad.
Darn, she needed a man. Not just any man either, she wanted him to be kind and sensitive. Passionate. She wanted him to desire her.
That she also wanted him to be an incredible lover went without saying.
Oh, and then she wanted him to go away.
She laughed at herself, and then shrieked in surprise at the shadow of a man behind her.
Excuse me, he said, coming into the kitchen. I
He broke off abruptly and stared at her in surprise.
She understood perfectly. Her heart was inexplicably in her throat, she could hardly breathe, because she recognized that voice, recognized the boy who was now a man. Itd been ten years, but that low, husky tone was indelibly printed in her mind.
Alexis older brother, Zach Thomas.
The first boy shed ever had a crush on.
She understood perfectly. Her heart was inexplicably in her throat, she could hardly breathe, because she recognized that voice, recognized the boy who was now a man. Itd been ten years, but that low, husky tone was indelibly printed in her mind.
Alexis older brother, Zach Thomas.
The first boy shed ever had a crush on.
Hed changed, was her first thought. Lord, hed changed.
Then a grin broke across his face, and she had her second thoughtshe hadnt realized her toes could really curl.
Hannah? Is that you?
Whatwhat are you doing here? Oh gee, wonder why she couldnt catch a man. But she was truly stunned to see him since only six weeks ago hed nearly been killed in the line of duty, shot down by some gangbanger.
Alexi had taken the news very hard, and it had been Hannah who held her best friend while she cried during that first agonizing telephone call. I thought you were still recuperating, she added. Are you okay? Should you be up and about?
Yep to both, especially since Ive only one week left on my first vacation in ten years. He grinned again, and it quite simply took her breath.
It was all coming back to her, the horribly humiliating teenage infatuationwhich had absolutely not been reciprocated. Hed been kind to her, yes, and as she was a friend of his baby sister, hed also been indulgent and protective.
But other than that, Zach had been far, far out of her reach; too wild, too gorgeous, too everything. Avila had smothered him, hed hated the tight confines, the lack of adventure.
Which had been everything she loved about the peaceful, sedate town.
Then hed left her world to become a cop of all things, and they hadnt seen each other since.
Why should they?
He lived the wild, exciting life hed always wanted and she...she lived hers the way shed always wanted, with a few exceptions. Okay, one exceptionher lack of a love life, which of course brought all sorts of erotic images to mind, images best not thought about at the moment.
Why? Because Zach was standing right in front of her looking a bit wicked, definitely gorgeous, and just a tad dangerous. He was back and her tummy had gone all tight, her toes were still curled and all sorts of currents were racing through erogenous zones she hadnt even known existed.
Because of one simple smile.
Damn Alexi and Tara for putting thoughts of wild sex in her mind.
Toilets, she reminded herself. Eleven of them in the inn. They were hers.
Who knows when Ill have a whole week to myself again, he said, leaning back against the doorjamb and studying her in an openly assessing way. Ive been promising Alexi Id come ever since the three of you opened this place.
And hed finally come.
Right now, tonight. Just as shed decided maybe she should lose her virginity once and for all. At the thought of losing it with this tall, leanly muscled, rugged man shed once known, she nearly slid to the floor in a boneless mass of jelly.
Its nice to be here, he said, still smiling, still gorgeous.
Darn him.
Well, its nice to have you, she said, meaning it more than he could know. Alexi had been so worried about him, theyd all been. Hed nearly died, yet it seemed so surreal to think of that when he was standing there in the flesh, looking so...so alive. Are you really okay? she asked softly.
Yeah, Im really okay...or I will be after I sleep for a week. He shook his head as he studied her. Its hard to believe how long its been. Youve... His gaze dipped downward slowly, past the ever-so-lovely apron she worenot!all the way to her sandals, then slowly back up again. Youve gone and grown up on me, Hannah.
Oh boy. So had he.
He was still big, still powerfully built, standing there with the casualness of someone totally at ease anywhere. There was a toughness to him that reminded her of what he did for a living, an edge that hadnt been there before, a dangerous one, tempered with restraint.
But it was just Zach. She knew him. Or she had. He dressed the same, in a simple polo shirt and faded, soft-looking jeans.
Nothing else looked soft though, not those long, powerful legs or
A warm flush stole over her and she guiltily jerked her gaze up to meet his, and found herself just as fascinated by what she found there.
His mouth might still be curved in that sexy, slow, lazy smile, but he wasnt amused, not really. In fact, Hannah would have bet her next paycheck that those fine lines fanning out from his baby blues were from exhaustion, maybe even pain. So was the slight slump to his mile-wide shoulders. His dark, silky-looking hair was on the wrong side of long, curling over his collar, and disheveled, as if hed run his fingers through it often.
But it was the faint shadows beneath his eyes that grabbed her, and the tense way he held himself in spite of his smile, as if he were close to keeling over. He didnt look like the decorated cop she knew he was. He looked tired, almost brooding, and unsettled.
Are you sure youre okay?
Confirming her suspicions, he yawned. Im just really beat, he said simply, rubbing a hand over his face. Long drive, long day. Six weeks out of commission and Im out of shape.
He didnt look out of shape to her, not then, and not now when he stretched, the movement slow and unconsciously sensual. Hannah found her gaze glued to all those long limbs and fabulous muscles, her mouth suddenly dry.
I really need a bed, he told her.
Unbidden images flashed through her mind; silk sheets, bare, hot skin pressed against more bare, hot skin; long, drugging kisses... Oh my.
Could she really do it? Could she really make love with him?
As he stretched again, he let out a low, rough sound from deep in his throat.
Oh yeah. She could. Definitely. Um... Does Alexi know youre here? An idea stirred, formed. Never mind, she said. Just sit. Gently, she pressed him into a chair, her hands burning from just touching his broad, exhausted shoulders, her mind racing with the possibilities. Ill go get you a room.
Sounds good.
She hoped he still felt that way in a few moments, because no matter whose brother he was, there wasnt a room to be had.
Which brought her to her plan. Her crazy plan.
Her how-to-get-un-virginal plan.
CHAPTER 2
SO BONE-WEARY he could hardly climb the stairs, Zach shouldered his duffel bag and headed toward the room Hannah had just given him.
Hannah.
Itd been ten years since hed set sight on her, a very long time given shed been fourteen when hed left. Fourteen and gangly and awkward, terribly self-conscious in a way that to his own nineteen years had seemed...well, very young.
Still, whenever hed thought of Avila, a small part of him had always wondered if shed kept that sweet smile, if she still had freckles dancing across her nose, if shed ever grown into her long, skinny legs.
If he wasnt so tired, he might have acknowledged that he now had the answers to those burning questions.
Yes, she still had that sweet, contagious smile, the one that made her green eyes shine like jade.