Im an only child. She glanced over at him. And I dont really have a lot of friends, Serena explained. Ive always been a bit of a loner. She shrugged indifferently. He could see that talking about the past troubled her. I know. It sounds pathetic, but I grew up with parents who were always on one movie set or another. When I was with either my mom or dad on set, I had a tutor, and I hung around adults all day long. When I was at home, I played with the housekeeper. I just never figured out how to make friends. Or maybe I never wanted friends.
Who do you hang out with now? When youre not working on a movie?
Theres Ben. But mostly my dogs.
And they dont look good in the dresses? Ryan teased.
I have five dogs, she said, giggling. And I would have had them as attendants, but the wedding planner wouldnt allow it. Theyre all rescues. They live at my country house outside London. My housekeeper takes care of them when Im gone. Do you have dogs?
One. Duffy. He lives with my sister, Dana, most of the time, but he stays with me or my brothers when were home.
You should get more dogs. One is not enough. Lots of dogs need adopting.
He held out his hand to her again, to help her over a steep spot on the path. But this time, he didnt let go. The track widened and they were able to walk side by side up a gentle rise, their pace slowing. In the distance, Ryan heard the sound of water.
I think were getting close. Serena pulled him along the path, and a few moments later, they emerged into a clearing. A soft gasp slipped from her lips and she sighed. They stood at the edge of a clear pool. Above him, water cascaded off a rock cliff and tumbled into the far edge of the pool. Its beautiful.
Ryan had become a bit jaded when it came to natural beauty. Hed seen some of the most extraordinary sights in the world, and hed always felt the need to rank them in order of perfection, rather than simply enjoy the sight. This was different. He could relax and enjoy what he was seeing. It is bloody awesome.
Good job, she said, bumping his shoulder with hers. She started toward the edge of the pond. Do you think if we climb up there, we could jump into the water?
Theres supposed to be a spot for that on the right, he explained, dropping his day pack. But maybe we ought to leave the jumping for another day. If you crack your head, Id have to carry you out of here and
You promised me adventure. I want adventure.
All right, but first we should make sure the pool is deep enough.
She tugged her T-shirt over her head, and to Ryans surprise, she wasnt wearing a bikinishe was wearing a lacy black bra. Her shorts came off next, revealing a leopard-print thong. To his great relief, she didnt remove anything else, and he drew a shaky breath as she walked toward the edge of the pool.
Serena turned around and motioned to him. Come on.
He had made a promise to himself, and Ryan Quinn always kept his promises. He yanked off his T-shirt and followed her. She grabbed his hand and pulled him into the water with her, gliding out into the center of the pool, their fingers still linked.
Let me check the depth. Ill be right back, he said. Ryan dove beneath the surface, moving down, away from the light. The water was clear, though, and he could easily gauge the distance to the bottom of the pool. He came to the surface, beneath the rock ledge. It looks good.
She swam over to him. Im glad I have you to look after me.
Just doing my job, miss.
And you do it so well.
Serena crawled out of the pool and began to scale the rocks to the right of the waterfall. Ryan climbed up behind her, watching to make sure her footing was secure along the way. She moved with an easy grace and a confidence that surprised him. That was becoming a pattern with Serena. She was always surprising him.
When they reached the ledge, Serena held out her hand. We have to jump together, she said.
All right, Ryan said. You count it down.
She drew a deep breath. Three. Two. One.
They leaped off the twenty-foot ledge and fell into the pool, the water rushing up and over them as they broke the surface. Ryan lost his hold on Serenas hand but felt her body brush against his as he kicked toward the light. She was laughing when he came up in front of her.
Ryan stared into her pretty face, noticing the droplets of water clinging to her lashes. He reached out and smoothed a strand of hair off her cheek, and she turned into his touch, her eyelids fluttering.
Every instinct urged him to kiss her, to take advantage of the moment and forget all that was keeping them apart. But she was engaged, and until she told him differently, he intended to respect that.
I cant believe you made that jump, he said, swimming away from her. I guess you were right to ask for an adventure guide.
Uh-oh. She reached beneath the surface and, a moment later, raised her hand, her torn bra dangling from her fingertips. This didnt survive the fall, she said, tossing it onto the shore.
Ryan groaned inwardly. Was she tempting him on purpose? You shouldnt have done that, he warned.
Serena looked at him, a quizzical arch to her eyebrow. Everyone on the planet has seen me naked, Quinn. Im sure you looked me up on Google and found the pictures.
What pictures?
The pictures. Of me and one of my former boyfriends, having a bit of a romp on a yacht in the Mediterranean. She frowned. You havent seen them?
Nope.
Her gaze narrowed and she observed him suspiciously. How much do you know about me?
I know that youre an actress and you have a movie coming out after Christmas and youre getting married before the movie comes out.
Have you ever watched one of my films? she asked.
Ryan winced, then shook his head. I plan on watching them all when I get home. But right now...no, not a one.
Youre lying.
I dont go to the movies much. At least not in the last seven or eight years. I spend most of my time in places that dont have television or movie theatresor running water.
Turn around, she said, pointing at him. Right now. Turn around.
Ryan did as he was told. He heard splashing behind him and he smiled. He didnt have to see her; he could imagine exactly what she looked like, emerging from the pool, almost naked, her wet body gleaming in the shafts of sunlight that broke through the cover of the trees.
Though he had vowed to fight the temptations of her body, Ryan risked a glance, then immediately regretted it. She stood on the shore, her back to him. His gaze skimmed her body from her shoulders to the sweet curves of her backside, then along her shapely legs. She was like some water nymph, a creature from a magical world.
He felt his body react, so Ryan spun away and swam toward the waterfall. He dove beneath the surface and stroked hard until he reached the edge of the pool, trying to forget the image burned in his brain.
All right, she called. Im decent.
Ryan turned around and swam back to the other side of the pool. Thank you.
Sorry, she said. I usually dont have any inhibitions when it comes to nudity. When youve gone starkers on the big screen, theres not much mystery left.
All right, she called. Im decent.
Ryan turned around and swam back to the other side of the pool. Thank you.
Sorry, she said. I usually dont have any inhibitions when it comes to nudity. When youve gone starkers on the big screen, theres not much mystery left.
I can just imagine, he murmured.
* * *
THEY SPENT THE entire afternoon at the waterfall. Ryan retrieved the picnic basket from the Jeep and they opened a bottle of wine and sat on a blanket at the edge of the pool, watching the sunlight sparkle across the surface of the water.
Its been a perfect day, Quinn, Serena murmured, drawing her knees up to her chest and fixing her gaze on her handsome companion. I cant remember the last time I had so much fun, doing something I wanted to do. She paused, then reached out and placed her hand on his arm. Thank you.
I try to please, Ryan said.
I wish we could stay here. You could build us a nice little hut right over there. I could raise some chickens. We could have a simple life.
You dont have to stay here to have a simple life, he suggested.
There were times when Serena thought that Ryan understood her perfectly. And then, there were moments like this one, when she realized they lived in completely different worlds.
Ben, on the other hand, understood the life of a professional actor, the choices shed had to make, the difficulties of being a celebrity. Thats one of the reasons why shed agreed to marry him.
Tell me about this man of yours, Ryan said, stretching out on the blanket. He lay on his side and watched her silently, as if he were able to read her mind.
I dont want to talk about Ben, Serena said, shaking her head.
Youre marrying him in a few weeks. Id think youd want to talk about him. Or the wedding. Or your plans for the future.
She didnt want to argue with him if he was determined to force the issue. All right, what do you want to know? Ask me anything. I can tell you about the flower arrangements and the groomsmens gifts. I can describe my dress and
Why are you not wearing your ring? Ryan said, pointing to her hand.
II left it in my room, she said. I didnt want to lose it.
Is that the real reason?
What did he want her to say? Did he want her to admit that she was attracted to him? No, she finally said. I guess I just wanted to forget the wedding for an afternoon.
Are you having doubts?
She laughed softly, then covered her face with her hands. Its too late to have doubts, Quinn. I cant back out now. Everything is planned. And I already have a reputation as a reckless nitwita reputation that was well earned when I was younger. But thats not me now. People are just starting to take me seriously.
Is that why you said yes?
I also really wanted to believe I was in love and that I could finally have something...normal. That I wouldnt be alone anymore.
So call it off, Ryan said.
She couldnt look at him. If she did, she wouldnt be able to resist him any longer. She was fighting so hard against this attraction. It should be easy, but there was something so comforting about him. Though she barely knew him, Serena sensed that she could trust him.
My life would be a shambles if I did. She sat up, drawing a deep breath and gathering her resolve. Im going to get married. And in a year or two, if it becomes impossible to carry on, Ill get a divorce. No one will be surprised. Hollywood marriages never work out the first time.
And thats what you think you deserve? Ryan asked.
No. But its my fault I let it get this far. Its a runaway train now. I cant stop it without the entire thing going off the rails. So many people will be upset with me.
But its your life, Ryan said. You do what makes you happy.
How many people are really happy with their lives? We all make sacrifices and compromises, Serena said. Are you completely happy with your life, Quinn?
Ryan considered her question for a long moment. Not entirely, he said. But Im planning to make some changes. He cursed softly, shaking his head. So, where should we put this hut? Over there? Or there?
Serena lay down, stretching out opposite him and meeting his gaze. Why arent you happy?
There have been lots of changes lately.
Like?
Both of my brothers are settling down and getting married. Im not real happy with my job. I need a change, but I cant afford to do what I want to do. And then, my brothers are trying to talk me into climbing Everest, and Im not real keen on the idea.
Isnt that what you do?
My father was a climber and he died on Everest. They found his body last spring and were supposed to go up there to retrieve his personal effects. But its opening a lot of old wounds that never completely healed.
Wow, she murmured. And I thought my wedding problems were bad.
She placed her hand between her and Ryan, her fingers splayed across the blanket, just inches from his face. Serena wanted to touch him, to run her hand over his face. Her fingers trembled and a moment later, Ryan covered her hand with his.
It was such a simple point of contact, and yet it seemed even more intimate than a kiss or a caress. How much longer could she fight this attraction to him? It was wrong, yet it felt right. But was it real? Was she just transferring her hopes for normalcy and belonging from Ben to Ryan? Or was there something between them that went beyond a sexual attraction? That was the question Serena couldnt answer.
Its feels so odd when you touch me, she murmured, her gaze fixed on his hand. He drew his hand away, but she caught his fingers and laced them through hers. Am I cheating?
I dont know, Ryan said. Are you?
I feel like I am.
Then we should stop, Ryan said.
She yanked her hand away and sat up. Youre right. We should probably go. Its getting late and the girls are going to wonder where we are. Miles is probably ready to call the local police.
Would it make it easier if I left Fiji? Ryan asked. I can. Ill call one of my brothers, and he could be on a plane in a few hours, to take over. I can assure you, theyre not nearly as charming as I am.
Serena knew she ought to accept his offer. It was the only safe thing to do. But in her heart, she didnt think it would make a difference. Shed already started down this roadthe road away from Ben and toward Ryanand with every step, she was more determined not to turn back.
No, she said. We can control our impulses. But maybe we should make sure that we dont spend a lot of time alone.
Youre right, he said. If the girls dont want to come along, well bring Miles.
Its a plan, she said.
There is one thing Id like to say before we leave.
Do I want to hear it? Serena asked.
Probably not. But Im going to say it anyway. You deserve to be happy. You deserve everything good in life, and you shouldnt settle for anything less.
So you think I should call off the wedding, Quinn?
I cant tell you to do that, Ryan said.
Of course you can, Serena countered. Just say it. Say Serena, call off the wedding. Its not that hard. Everyone has an opinion.