Her first thought had been to find Mirandas husband, Pug, for while she knew she was not really his late wife, she still possessed all of Mirandas memories and emotions. For the very first time, a demon appreciated the concept of love as mortals understood it, and felt the pain of separation from her husband and sons; or rather Mirandas husband and sons.
The demon in Mirandas form knew the memories had been grafted on to its own, and how: another ploy by the Trickster God, Kalkin. Yet they were so vivid, both the good and the bad, that it was impossible to remain objective about the life imprinted over her own. Child possessed mere days of memory, while Mirandas stretched well beyond a century. Her false human identity overwhelmed her true demon consciousness. The same held true for Nakor, as the demon known as Belog now thought of himself, although his demon memories were years longer than Childs. But while Nakor had possessed abilities, Belog had only possessed knowledge, so his inability to access Nakors tricks was not a particular source of frustration to the demon-turned-human.
He found it amusing that Nakor was by nature far more patient and content to accept things as they were than Miranda; if a woman over a century old could be called youthfully impetuous it was Miranda.
One thing became truer by the day: their human consciousnesses were slowly displacing the demonic, and both had begun to feel as if they had somehow simply died human and reawakened in these new bodies. If anything had eased Nakors annoyance at his changed status, it had been the wry amusement he felt watching Mirandas complete frustration over hers.
Lacking the ability to transport themselves to Sorcerers Isle magically, they had been forced to seek another means of conveyance. So a ride on a supply wagon had been purchased, allowing the former demons to discuss their situation as they slowly wended their way southward. To the others travelling in this tiny caravan they looked like nothing out of the ordinary, no more unusual than any pairing of an attractive middle-aged woman with an odd-looking old man, Keshian by his garb and complexion. With the war underway, there were many people on the road, some moving northward, away from the pending Keshian assault, others south, towards potential riches.
Nakor and Miranda had both lived a very long time, and had known many wars, and so neither was surprised by the flow of people towards the coming bloody conflict. There was always a direct relationship between risk and reward in wartime.
Over the years both of them had witnessed wars fought by armies outnumbered by their camp followers: prostitutes, gamblers, weapons sellers, armour makers, tailors, skinners, bowyers, food suppliers, all willing to risk harm, even death, in exchange for a possible windfall of gold. Mirandas memory even recalled one bold and enterprising farmer who had rushed his small herd of cattle to an invading armys quartermaster and sold it for gold, mere hours before the commander ordered his riders out to forage for food; he had managed to sell what they would have pillaged anyway. Miranda had always wondered what had become of that farmer.
Despite the odd musings created by memories that were at once familiar yet new, the attention of the two demons-turned-human was drawn to the south, where the afternoon sky was thick with smoke clouds above the city.
The wagon slowed and the driver turned and said, Looks like Ylith has fallen.
Miranda said, There may be fires, but that doesnt mean its fallen. If the gates had been breached, wed see a flood of retreating people streaming past us now.
Well, Im going to wait and see. No risk in pausing, said the old teamster, but a lot of risk in blundering forward.
Miranda jumped down from the back of the wagon and saw that the other teams in the small caravan had also pulled over to the verge of the road. Ill tell you what, said the demon in human form. Well wander down and take a look and if we dont come back She saw the face of Nakor grinning. Assume the worst.
They set off down the road at quick pace and when they were out of earshot, Nakor laughed loudly. Assume the worst?
Well, I wasnt going to tell him we werent coming back, and if he wants to sit there waiting for someone to blow the all-clear, hes picked the wrong trade.
They moved rapidly, their demonic strength and endurance extant under their human appearance. Miranda and Nakor, as they now thought of themselves, had no idea why they were here, even if they knew Kalkin was behind their existence. But they trusted that it was for a reason and an important one, and they knew that to uncover that reason, the most logical place to begin was where the most powerful practitioners of magic resided: Sorcerers Isle.
Moreover, though she said nothing to Nakor, Miranda ached to see her family. In her memory she had just withstood a brutal demon attack on her home and had successfully driven them off with her husband, son, and the other magicians when a wounded demon had leapt from feigned death and ripped out half of her neck, causing almost instantaneous death. The shock of the attack had made the details vague and since Nakor had died before the invasion, she had no witness with whom to speak. She didnt know if her husband had survived, though she counted it likely, nor how her children fared. She needed to know, and it was slowly becoming an overwhelming urge.
Within minutes of leaving the woodlands, they started down a gentle sloping road and could clearly see the city. The fire appeared to rage beyond the city, perhaps on the docks or through some ships near the quayside, for although a canopy of smoke hung over Ylith, no pillars of soot and ash rose within the walls. Still, the defenders of the city were vigilant, and as Miranda and Nakor approached the gate, they were challenged from the wall.
Whos there? The voice sounded very young and not terribly confident.
Travellers, answered Miranda. She glanced at Nakor who grinned at her statement of the obvious. Who seek shelter.
The gates are to stay shut. Commanders orders.
Were hardly an invading force from Kesh, said Miranda.
He looks Keshian, said the owner of the high-pitched voice, now obviously a boy wearing an ill-fitting helm as he leaned out between two merlons to point at Nakor.
I travel a lot! shouted Nakor, his grin widening.
Miranda said, This may prove difficult.
You want to just leap up there? asked the short gambler.
Miranda looked dubious. I might be able to, but could you?
Im more nimble than I look, said Nakor, his grin fading as if she had hurt his feelings. Then the smile returned. Besides, it would terrify the boy.
Looking up at the downturned face above them, Miranda shouted, When will the commander order the gates open to travellers?
I dont know, answered the boy. He kept glancing over his shoulder as if expecting someone to arrive and tell him what to do.
Why dont you run off and find someone to ask? said Miranda, and the boy nodded and vanished from sight.
I was about to say that, said Nakor with a relieved expression.
Glancing around, Miranda wrapped her arms around her as if chilled, though the air was balmy. Its so difficult at times.
Nakor nodded. I think the longer we abide in this realm, the more these memories will begin to feel like our true ones, and the memories we have of our home realm will fade to nothing.
Miranda nodded. I sometimes struggle to remember being Child. She looked for a moment at Nakor, once Belog the Archivist of King Dahun, Demon Lord of one of the five most powerful realms in the Fifth Plane of existence. My earliest recollections of my mother, and even those of meeting you, are fading and becoming dream-like.
Nakor grinned. One thing remains constant: no matter the realm in which we find ourselves, or what manner of being we become, life will be a struggle. He shrugged. That, in its own way at least, is reassuring.
What you told me- She shook her head as if struggling to find the correct context. What Nakors memories She sighed in resignation. What you told me in the Dasati realm about Mirandas father, do you think that will happen to us?
Nakor cocked his head slightly as if pondering the thought for a moment, then said, If you mean do I think we shall die once our purpose here is over ? Again he shrugged. I can only speculate. There are differences. From what Pug and I surmised, Macross memories were overlaid on a dying Dasati, and his life extended through the Trickster Gods intercession, but the Dasati was verging on death already. We on the other hand, despite our appearances, are still demons in the prime of our power, thanks to your generosity in our home realm.
You mean in not devouring you?
Among other things, said Nakor with a widening grin. It is the nature of our race to view most things as a struggle, combat or a transaction, but now that we have all these human memories and emotions I remember The last thing Nakor thought was how interesting his life was. The grin broadened. And that, I must say, was an understatement. For an instant the grin faded. If only all of these humans understood how wondrous their lives could be This being that Im becoming, this Nakor, had amazing travels and experiences. The people he knew and loved. He was silent for a moment, then said, What a powerful thing that is: love. I think Dahun attempted to engender that in our people; I think that is why your mother gladly gave her life for yours.
Mirandas head tilted to one side slightly, the one remaining gesture that was purely Childs.
From my Belogs point of view, I have been given the gift of anothers lifetime, the feelings, experiences, knowledge From Nakors point of view, his life just got more interesting. Im sure we have a purpose. He narrowed his gaze and said, Kalkin may be many things, but even the gods have their limits, and for him to take the trouble to cheat, as he called it, and play hob with what is and is not permitted across the realms He nodded once emphatically. No, we are not here because of a whim. We are here to do something vital.
Love is one of the reasons I must find Pug, said Miranda. Just to see him Her eyes welled up with tears and she wiped them away. Damn, I know these arent my memories, but they feel like they are.
Nakor said, So many questions.
You seem delighted about that, she said regaining her composure.
Always. Learn a simple answer and, well, its over; but a really good question, he winked, now, thats worth something. Then his expression darkened. We need to find out why Kalkin did this to us, changed us and gave us those memories.