Here was his gray-white cascade of beard, here his broad-brimmed hat and the kerchief knotted at his neck. He was utterly like his likeness. He smiled bemusedly at Lucas. His face was like brown paper that had been crushed and smoothed again. His eyes were bright as silver nails.
Hello, he said. Lost something?
Lucas had gone searching for money and found Walt. A vast possibility trembled in the air.
He answered, Stout as a horse, affectionate, haughty, electrical, I and this mystery, here we stand.
Walt expelled a peal of laughter. Whats this? he said. You quote me to myself?
His voice was clear and deep, penetrating; it was not loud, but it was everywhere. It might have been the voice of a rainstorm, if rain could speak.
Lucas struggled to answer as himself. What he said was, The earth, that is sufficient, I do not want the constellations any nearer, I know they are very well where they are, I know they suffice for those who belong to them.
How extraordinary, Walt said. Who are you, then?
Lucas was unable to tell him. He stood quivering and small at Walts feet. His heart thumped painfully against his ribs.
Walt squatted before Lucas. His knees cracked softly, like damp twigs.
Whats your name? he asked. Lucas.
Lucas. How do you come to know my verse so well?
Lucas said, I am the mate and companion of people, all just as immortal and fathomless as myself; they do not know how immortal, but I know.
Walt laughed again. Lucas felt the laughter along his own frame, in his skeleton, as an electrified quake, as if Walt were not only laughing himself but summoning laughter up out of the earth, to rise through the pavement and enter Lucas by the soles of his feet.
What a remarkable boy you are, Walt said. How remarkable to find you here.
Lucas gathered himself. He said, I wonder if I might ask a question, sir?
Of course you may. Ask away. Ill answer if Im able.
Sir, do the dead return in the grass?
They do, my boy. They are in the grass and the trees.
Only there?
No, not only there. They are all around us. They are in the air and the water. They are in the earth and sky. They are in our minds and hearts.
And in the machines?
Well, yes. They are in machinery, too. They are everywhere.
Lucas had been right, then. If hed harbored any doubts, here was the answer.
Thank you, sir.
Tell me of yourself, Walt said. Where do you come from? Are you in school?
Lucas couldnt find a way to answer plainly. What could he tell Walt, how account for himself?
He said at length, Im searching for something, sir.
What are you searching for, lad?
He could not say money. Money was vital, and yet now, standing before Walts face and beard, under the curve of his hat, it seemed so little. Saying money to Walt would be like standing in Catherines hallway, blazing with love, and receiving a lambs neck and a bit of potato. He would have to say what the money was for, why he needed it so, and that task, that long explanation, was more than he could manage.
He could say only, Something important, sir.
Well, then. We are all searching for something important, I suppose. Can you tell me more exactly what it is you seek?
Something necessary.
Do you think I could be of any help?
Lucas said, You help me always.
Im glad of that. Do you hope to find this precious thing on Broadway?
Ive found you, sir.
Walt drew up more laughter from the earth. Lucas felt it throughout his body. Walt said, Im hardly precious, my boy. Im an old servant, is all I am. Im a vagrant and a mischief-maker. Do you know what I think?
What, sir?
I think you should walk far and wide. I think you should search Broadway and beyond. I think you should search the entire world.
What, sir?
I think you should walk far and wide. I think you should search Broadway and beyond. I think you should search the entire world.
That would be hard for me, sir.
Not all at once, not in a single night. I suspect youre something of a poet yourself. I suspect youll spend your life searching.
Lucass heart caught. He needed the money now. He said, Oh, I hope not, sir.
Youll see, youll see. The search is also the object. Do you know what I mean by that?
No, sir.
You will, I think. When youre older, you will.
I need, sir-
What do you need?
I need to know which way to go.
Go where your heart bids you.
My heart is defective, sir.
Its not in the least defective. You can believe me on that account.
Lucas flinched. He thought he might weep. He hoped Walt couldnt see the tears rising in his face.
Walt said softly, Would you like me to give you a direction?
Oh, yes, sir. Please.
All right, then. Go north. Go up to the edges of the city and beyond. Go see where the buildings diminish and the grass begins.
Should I?
Its as good a way as any. If you want instructions, I give them to you. I hereby tell you to walk north.
Thank you, sir.
Will you come here tomorrow? Walt asked. Will you meet me here at the same time tomorrow night and tell me what youve found?
Yes, sir. If youd like.
Id like it very much. I dont meet someone like you every day.
Lucas said, Achild said
Walt joined him, and they spoke together. They said, What is the grass? fetching it to me with full hands; how could I answer the child? I do not know what it is any more than he.
Good night, sir.
Good night, Lucas. I hope youll come back tomorrow. Ill be here, waiting.
Thank you, sir.
Lucas turned and walked away. He went north, as Walt had told him to. He strode up Broadway, past the stores and hotels. Presently he turned and saw that Walt stood watching him. Lucas raised his hand in salute. Walt returned the gesture.
He had gone looking for money and found Walt instead. Walt had sent him north.
Lucas continued up Broadway. He went past Union Square and farther, until the grand buildings dwindled and there were fewer and fewer people, until fields spread out around him, lit here and there by the lights of farmers cottages and more brightly by the windows of important houses, houses of brick and limestone, that stood proudly in the flatness and quiet. He passed like a ghost along the road, which was sometimes paved and sometimes not. He passed a house of particular grandeur, with a stone front and a white portico. He saw within (they did not draw their curtains, so far away) a regal woman in a white gown, lifting a goblet of ruby wine, standing before a portrait of herself in the same gown. A man came and stood beside her, a man in a waistcoat. His chin came to a sharp point no, his beard was the color of his skin, and the hair on his head was the color of his skin. Lucas thought the man would appear in the portrait, too, but he did not. The man spoke to the woman, who laughed and gave him her goblet to drink from. In the portrait, she continued looking out serenely.
Lucas watched them. The dead might be present and absent like this, in the world but not of the world. The dead might wander as Lucas wandered, past the windows of strangers, looking in at a woman and a picture of a woman.
He left the man and the woman and the womans picture. He passed other houses. Through another window he saw the crown of a chair and a framed mirror that showed him the crystal drippings of a chandelier. He saw a farmers wife pass out of her door and pause, gathering her shawl. He saw an opossum that walked as he did, along the road. The opossum went alongside him with her quick, humping gait, unafraid, like a companion, for fifty or more paces, then slipped away, pausing to show him the pale, articulate line of her tail.
Lucas went as far as Fifty-ninth Street, and stopped before the gates of the Central Park. He had heard about the park but had never been there before. Behind the low stone wall were trees and blackness and the sound trees made. He lingered outside, and then, hesitantly, as if he might be trespassing, he went in.
The park was faintly lit near the gates, by the streetlamps of Fifty-ninth Street, but beyond that it rolled on into deep shadow. Here by the entrance were grass and the trunks of the nearest trees, which were small, newly planted. They might have been men transformed into trees, lifting their wooden arms, displaying the leaves that had burst forth from their slowed and altered flesh. Farther in, the grass went from bright green to deep jade, and the trunks of the remoter trees were pewter, then iron, then black. Beyond the jade-black grass and the black trees it was pure dark, as if the entrance to the park were a ring of forest that surrounded a lake of black, filled with the rustle of leaves and an unnameable, underlying sound that must have been insects and something else. Beyond the visible woods lay the sound of some limitless attention.
Lucas wondered if this might be where the dead resided, the dead who were not caught up in machinery. Here was grass, here were trees. Here was a rustling, alert silence far from the world of the living, with its lights and its music, its windows full of goods. Lucas gathered his courage and went forward, as he might have dived into water of uncertain depth and coldness, water that might or might not harbor fish and creatures that were not fish but lived in water, creatures that would be eyes and teeth and sudden movement. He had never seen such dark. It was never so, not even in the bedroom with the lamp extinguished, not even when he closed his eyes.
The park as Lucas walked into it, however, was not as dark as it had appeared. It was not pitch-dark. The grass beneath his feet was impenetrably black but steady; the trees were black but lesser black, their shapes discernible against a field of blackness. He felt as if he carried with him some faint illumination, a candle that was his own seeing and hearing, his human presence.
Something was here, among the trees. It deepened as he walked into it.
Presently he arrived at a stone balustrade, with a broad, curving staircase descending on either end. He went down the stairs. And there, in the middle of a dark plaza, stood an enormous figure. It spread its wings, touched faintly by moonglow. Its face was canted down, toward Lucas. It seemed for a moment that he had found the parks avenging mother, the entity that waited, watching and listening, that had dreamed the park into being and did not like to have its sleep interrupted. Lucas trembled. He made as if to turn and run, though he thought that if he did, the figure would stir its wings, take flight, and snatch him up as easily as a terrier takes a rat.