He didnt exactly remember how he reached for her, how his hands happened to curve on the swell of her shoulders, slide down, slide around her back to pull her into him. Yet he knew the exact moment, the exact sensation, when her hands reached up to lock behind his neck.
He could have sworn shed been sending him keep-off, no-trespassing messages-yet if she didnt want to be kissed, she sure acted as if she did. Her arms swooped around his neck and she came up on tiptoe.
There was one more brief millisecond when he remembered all the reasons why this was a bad idea, but once she was that close, all rational bets were off. In a blink his mind turned to mush. Electric, excited mush.
He hadnt kissed anyone in a while. He hadnt kissed a woman this way in years. Hadnt wanted to. He thought it was long gone from his life, from his heart-that pull, that wonder, that wildness. He didnt know why it had to be her, didnt care.
She tasted like magic. Sweet, soft, alluring. Unforgettable. That pale-blond hair sifted through his fingers. Her head tilted back, accepting his kiss, inviting more than the graze of his mouth. Her lips asked to be taken. He answered.
One tentative kiss melted into another stronger one, another richer one, and then another that lost all track of time and space. His tongue found hers. Her heartbeat was suddenly racing, chasing, against his. Her arms nested tighter around his neck, and his hands molded down her spine, down to her fanny, pulling her closer to him.
Silver rain shivered down. Candles flickered. Shadows whispered of loneliness and old hurts and need. Shed been hurt. Shed been lonely. She needed. And maybe those were secrets she never meant to reveal to a stranger, but she didnt tell him anything. She just kissed him back, wildly, freely, intimately.
Cameron thought he was a man who took gutsy risksbut she was the brave one, the honest one, revealing so much. Something in her called him. Something in him answered her with a huge, nameless well of feeling that hed never known he had.
He raised his head suddenly, feeling shocked and disoriented and unsettled. Her eyes were still closed, lashes lying like kitten whiskers on her cheeks, but when she finally looked at him, her eyes were luminous and her mouth wet and trembly.
He raised his head suddenly, feeling shocked and disoriented and unsettled. Her eyes were still closed, lashes lying like kitten whiskers on her cheeks, but when she finally looked at him, her eyes were luminous and her mouth wet and trembly.
I never meant he started to say.
She gulped in a breath. Its all right. I didnt think you did.
It was the storm.
I know.
It was the moonlight.
I know.
I need you to know you can trust me. The last thing in hell I wanted was to make you worried Id-
Im not worried. Im thirty-four, Cameron. Too old to trust someone I barely know. But also way too old to make more of a kiss than what it was.
You said it exactly. That was just a kiss. He added, Right?
Right, she said firmly. Well just mark this down as a moments madness and forget all about it.
Five
Violets bedside telephone rang just after five in the morning. She jolted awake like a kicked colt. Mental images of her mom and dad or her sisters in an accident flashed through her mind in a panic as she fumbled for the phone. No one called this early unless there was a dire emergency-or unless someone had the sensitivity of an ox.
She clapped the receiver to her ear and recognized Simpsons voice.
Her pulse climbed back down from the worry stratosphere. Her ex-husband-like PMS and rain-could always be counted on to show up at the most inconvenient time. Insensitive should have been his middle name.
Were you asleep? he asked, his tone warmly ebullient.
Me? Heavens, no. Why tell the truth? He wasnt worth it.
Good. Because I didnt want to wake you. I just couldnt seem to resist calling. Vi, Livie had the baby.
As if someone slapped her, Violet instinctively braced against the headboard. Congratulations.
A son this time. Were going to name him John Edward, but Livie wants to call him Ed, after me.
You got your son, she said.
Yeah. Pride colored his booming baritone-pride that hed never felt for her. Or with her. Almost nine pounds. Twenty-two inches.
Hell be playing football before you know it.
Yeah, in fact-
I hope Livies okay, and Im happy youve got a son, Ed. She hung up, plunking down the receiver before he had a chance to continue the conversation.
For a second she had the oddest trouble catching her breath. The east window was open, letting in cool, rain-freshed air. Outside, nothing stirred in the pre-dawn light. Even the bugs were still snoozing. The sky was paler than smoke, the sunrise nothing more than a promise this early, but last nights violent storm had completely washed away.
Remembering the storm made her also remember how soundly shed been dreaming until the telephone call. The dream pictures were still vivid in her mindimages of tumultuous kisses from a Scotsman named Lachlan, backdropped by Scottish lakes and moors and mist, her running naked and uninhibited through a moss-carpeted forest and Lachlan catching her.
The call from her ex-husband had certainly wilted that dream.
She pushed away the sheet and stood up, not awake yet-or wanting to be-but knowing she didnt have a prayer of going back to sleep. Not after that call. She tiptoed around the room, gathering clothes, not turning on a light, not wanting to wake Cameron down the hall.
It wasnt hard to navigate, even in the darkness. Unlike the rest of the house, which shed jam-packed with girl stuff, shed redone two of the upstairs bedrooms completely differently. One shed turned into an office. For the other, her childhood bedroom, shed bought a Shaker bed and dresser, painted the walls a virgin white, bought a plush white carpet, and called it quits.
Family and friends would find the decorating strange, she knew. All her life shed gone for lots of color and oddball style and stuff, yet, especially right after the divorce, the barren room suited her in ways shed never tried to explain-not to friends, not even to family.
Now, though, the point was that she could easily find her way around the room even in the darkat least, if it wasnt for the cats tripping her. On the rare occasions she woke up this early, the cats usually ignored her and continued sleeping, but maybe they sensed how suddenly rattled she felt-possibly because of remembering Camerons totally unexpected and very real kisses the night before. Possibly because of her ex-husbands call.
Ed hadnt called out of meanness. Violet had figured out a long time ago that Ed was far too unimaginative to be deliberately mean. He undoubtedly believed shed want to know that his second child had been born, the son hed wanted so much. No one knew more than Violet how much hed wanted a son.
Downstairs, lights were on all over the place-shed forgotten about losing power the night before. Forgotten almost everything when that sassy upstart Scotsman had pulled her into his arms.
She pulled on mud boots, a patchwork light jacket over her long denim skirt. Her hair was hanging in a wild heap down her back, but she didnt care. She neededsomething. Air. A slap of morning. Some way, somehow, to catch her breath. She hadnt been all that upset about those kisses from Cameron until her ex had called.
Now, she felt all churned up. A young rabbit hopped across the grass, trying to evade her bodyguard contingent of cats-none of whom could catch road kill, they were all so fat and lazy, but the baby bunny didnt know that.
Violet aimed for the front door of the Herb Haven, then changed her mind and headed for the greenhouses. There were two. The newest one shed built herself, a couple years ago, but by this time in the summer, it was almost empty. Plants were all outside, either transported to the nursery or for sale in the business.
The original greenhouse, though, had been her mothers. It wasnt as high-tech as the new one, the heating and cooling and watering systems not even half as efficient. But her moms sacred pruning shears were still hung on the wall, as was the old French apron she used to wear. Violet could remember the three sisters chasing up and down the aisles while Margaux potted and fussed with plants-her mom had always been the kind of mother who encouraged kids to get their hands dirty, to get into life, not just watch from the bleachers. Her sisters had often gone off with their dad into the fields. Not her.
Shed loved hanging out with her mom, loved watching Margaux nurturing and babying each flower, each herb, as if it alone were precious to her. She loved to dry the herbs, to watch her mom create artistic arrangements, to hear her mother insist that she needed to listen to each plant to understand what it needed. Her mom was a life lover, emotional about everything, an unrepentant romantic, a woman to the core. Margaux, in fact, was the only one who knew the real reason shed divorced Simpson.
Of course, if Violet started remembering that ghastly memory, how Margaux had wrapped her up in a long, rocking hug and tried to soothe her like a child, shed burst out crying. She didnt mind crying. She did it regularly, but it was just too darn early for that kind of heavy emotion, so she pushed up her sleeves and started puttering. In the heat of summer, there wasnt much left here in the greenhouse, either, but she still had some experiments going.
She plucked dry leaves, smelled the soil for health, and was just uncoiling a long skinny hose to mist-water her babies when she heard the door swing open. Cameron stood there, looking as devilish and sexy as he had the night before. In spite of the cool morning, his shirt was unbuttoned and he was wearing jeans so old and worn they cupped his bitsy butt and long, lean legs.
She plucked dry leaves, smelled the soil for health, and was just uncoiling a long skinny hose to mist-water her babies when she heard the door swing open. Cameron stood there, looking as devilish and sexy as he had the night before. In spite of the cool morning, his shirt was unbuttoned and he was wearing jeans so old and worn they cupped his bitsy butt and long, lean legs.