Vulnerable.
Yeah. Okay, sure. She let out a careful breath and gave him a thin, empty smile-no dimples, this time. Listen, thanks for lunch. She opened the door, slid her legs out, then looked back at him. And good luck finding her-the person youre looking for. She got out of the car.
He was in a quandary, letting her go. He wondered if this was what a fisherman would call letting the fish run. If it was, he decided he didnt have the nerve for it. He had her hooked, he was sure of it. Had her almost literally in his hands. Yet, short of bodily kidnapping her, he couldnt reel her in. Not yet, anyway. He couldnt bear to let her walk away from him, but at this point, what choice did he have?
The funny thing was, he was pretty sure she didnt want to walk away from him, either. If she was Brenna Fallon, as he was dead certain she was, her insides had to be a mess right about now. Hed just dropped a hand grenade into her life. She had to have a million questions she was dying to ask but couldnt, not without admitting who she was. Or, to use another one of those damn poker analogies that seemed to be everywhere lately, folding.
Again, he couldnt be sure, since he hadnt watched her play very much, but he had an idea Billie Farrell didnt fold very often.
Shed paused, standing in the V of the open car door, and in that moment he heard himself say, Im going to be around awhile
She ducked down to give him her knowing half smile. Right-for your sisters wedding.
He gave her back a huff of unamused laughter. If you really want to hear the story, come by my hotel after work. Ill buy you a drink-or you can buy me one.
A drink?
A beermartinisomething with an umbrella in it-hell, I dont care.
Her smile broadened. How bout a Diet Coke?
Whatever turns you on, he heard himself say, and it wasnt something he was in the habit of saying.
Where are you staying? Her voice was both husky and breathless, and the frisson of awareness took another meander across his skin.
He gave her the name of his hotel, a good-size one located well off the Strip. She nodded. I know where it is. She straightened and firmly closed the door.
Holt watched her walk away, watched a stiff November wind lift the blond feathers of her hair to catch the desert sunlight. And, after a while, let go of the breath he didnt know hed been holding.
He was driving back to his hotel when his cell phone rang. Since he wasnt a big fan of people who tried to talk on their cell phones and drive at the same time, he picked it up and glanced at it to see if it was somebody he could ignore. When he saw who it was, he thumbed it on, said, Hang on a minute and pulled into a strip mall parking lot. He turned into the first vacant spot he came to and turned off the motor, then picked up the phone again.
Brooke-
Have you seen her? Is it her? Her voice was high and anxious, on the edge of tears.
Ive just come from having lunch with her-
Oh God
-and, to be perfectly honest, I cant be sure. She says shes not your sister, but
Now her voice dropped to a husky mutter. I dont understand.
Holt sighed deeply. Look, Im pretty sure Billie Farrell and Brenna Fallon are one and the same. Shes probably got her reasons for not wanting to admit it. I imagine it wasnt easy being on her own at fourteen. Shes learned to be careful about who she trusts.
Did you tell her- Brooke expelled a breath in an impatient hiss and reined herself in. Yes, okay. But the pictures I gave you-has she changed so much? Her voice was wistful, close to tears again.
He ran a weary hand over his eyes; he was beginning to feel the effects of a night without sleep. Hard to tell. If I could just see her eyes He gave a huff of frustrated laughter. But she wouldnt take off the damn dark glasses.
Brooke laughed, too, a small gulp. I know, I keep watching the poker game over and over, screaming at the TV screen, Dammit, Bren, take off the damn sunglasses!
There was a long pause, and then she said softly, She has very distinctive eyes, Holt. Not like mine, or Corys. Hers areI guess theyre what you call hazel. But theyre sort of golden, actually. Almost the same color as her hair.
According to Cory, Holt said, those are your mothers eyes. Your brother Matt has them, too.
Billie was in her bathroom, huddled under the warm shower spray, trying to think.
Shed asked for the afternoon off, pleading illness, and since shed never done such a thing before, ever, her boss had not only given it to her, but had expressed his concern for her health.
Probably just a bug-one of those twenty-four-hour flu things, Billie had told him. And the truth was, she did feel kind of sick to her stomach.
She didnt know what to do. She really had not seen this coming. The thing with Miley, yeah; she always had suspected her past would come back to haunt her one day. She just hadnt thought the ghosts would come from so far in her past.
Every instinct she had was telling her to get the heck out of Dodge-shed even gotten her old suitcase down out of the overhead storage in her parking garage, but had left it sitting empty beside the back door. Because what was the point? Holt Kincaid had managed to find her once, and hed surely find her again, no matter where she ran. She couldnt go back on the streets where she could vanish into the legions of anonymous dispossessed; she wasnt fourteen anymore-she was a grown-up member of society, fully documented and therefore traceable.
What was she going to do? What could she do?
It was at that point in her panic that shed headed for the shower. She did some of her best thinking in the shower.
So. What were her options?
Running would always be her first choice, but in this case, probably a bad one. Not only would it be futile, at best only postponing the inevitable, but there was the thing about brothers. Holt Kincaid had said brothers.
Admit it, Billie, youre dying to know what thats about.
And, the man with the answers is dying to tell you.
So why dont you do it? Go see the man, buy him that drink-or let him buy you one-and see what he has to say. What are you afraid of?
Afraid?
That did it. She turned off the water and yanked back the shower curtain. Grabbed a towel and scrubbed her skin rosy and her hair into layers of spikes, every movement jerky with anger. If there was anything in the world Billie hated, it was being afraid. She was done with being afraid. Done long ago with feeling scared and helpless. Knowledge was power, right? These days, Billie Farrell was all about having the power. Which meant she had to have the knowledge.
And the man with the knowledge was Holt Kincaid.
The ringing telephone dragged Holt into consciousness from the depths of a sound and dreamless sleep. He groped first for his cell phone, then realized it was the room phone that was making the racket.
What the hell? he thought. A glance at the alarm clock on the nightstand told him it was three oclock in the afternoon, since it was obviously daylight. Too early for Billie to be off work. He picked up the receiver and growled, Kincaid.
Hey, you up for that drink?
Billie? He sat up and swung his legs over the side of the bed, scrubbing the sleep out of his eyes. Where are you?
In the lobby. Whats the matter, did I wake you up?
Yeah, wellI didnt get much sleep last night. He was wide awake now, and his heart was going a mile a minute.
So you coming down, or what?
Yeah, sure. Give me five minutes.
Okay, I guess Ill be in the bar. Want me to order for you?
Make it the coffee shop, Holt said, swallowing a yawn. You can order me a cup of coffee-black.
As he lurched into the bathroom to splash water on his face and run a comb through his hair, he was wondering one thing: Would Billie be wearing her sunglasses?
In the parlance of Vegas, he was willing to lay odds on it.
Billie would have given a lot to be able to keep her heart from pounding when she saw Holt Kincaid standing in the entrance to the coffee shop. But although shed learned to control a good many of her bodys natural reflexes, pulse rate wasnt one of them.
Schooling her visible movements to be slow, careful, deliberate, she picked up her Coke and took a sip, then watched over the rim of the moisture-beaded glass as he spoke to the hostess, who pointed him toward the table where she was sitting. She smiled as she saw the hostesss body language change in the subtle and indefinable ways of a woman in the presence of a very attractive man.
He was attractive, no denying that. Wearing the same slacks, jacket and open-at-the-neck dress shirt hed had on this morning, he didnt look quite so out of place in the hotel restaurant as he had wandering among the potted plants at the garden center. But no matter what kind of setting he found himself in, she thought, Holt Kincaid wasnt a man to fade into the woodwork.
The hostesss eyes followed him as he zigzagged his way across the almost-empty dining room, and so did Billies. When he pulled out the chair opposite her, she saw that he had a bedspread wrinkle across one cheek, and something in her chest did a peculiar little flip.
Another thing she hadnt learned to control-yet. She definitely needed to work on that.
Holt settled into the chair and reached for the cup of coffee steaming on the table in front of him, gave her a little nod of greeting and drawled, Miss Billie.
Wow, she said, lifting her eyebrows, that didnt sound like California.
He drank coffee, grimaced and set it down. I said I live in L.A. I was born and raised in Georgia.
Really. You dont have an accent. Usually.
I left the South behind fairly early on. It still crops up now and again, I guess.
Most people would have missed the slight flinching of the soft skin around his eyes when he said that, but Billie didnt. And she thought, Aha. Hes got ghosts in his past, too.
She filed the knowledge away for future reference.
Sorry about your nap, she said, and her eyes kept coming back to the wrinkle mark on his cheek. She had the strongest desire to reach out and touch it. Why did it seem so poignant to her? Something about that mark on the supercool, iron-hard Clint Eastwood clone brought to mind images of unexpected innocenceor vulnerability.
He regarded her while he drank coffee, then said, I wasnt expecting you this early.
Well, here I am. She lifted a shoulder, not about to concede how badly she wanted what he had to give her. Billie didnt give her opponents that kind of advantage over her, not if she could help it.
Holt didnt say anything, just watched her over the rim of his coffee cup. She fought down impatient anger and said lightly, You were going to tell me a story.