I damn sure wanted it to be over. Youre like a dangerous drug, and Im an addict.
His hands were smoothing her tumbled hair out of her eyes. His lips kissed her brow lightly. Then he pulled her fully against him, so that she was pressed against his long, hard length. Again-he felt so right.
While he petted her hair, she poured out the details of her past week in a jumble-the male members of the crew jamming the set to ogle her, a dissatisfied Sam shouting commands, the alienation shed felt every night in her lonely L.A. hotel room when shed longed for him to call.
I know people think I have a glamorous life, but sometimes it just feels lonely. One minute Im onstage admired by thousands. Then Im home alone-or vilified in the press. She buried her lips against the warm hollow of his neck. Edward couldnt stand my crazy life, and I dont think you will be able to stand it, either. Im good at acting, at fantasy onstage. But so far, ever since we parted fifteen years ago, Ive never been able to hold on to anything real.
Just promise me you wont act when youre with me, he said roughly.
She nodded.
She nodded.
I dont want to look at your face and wonder if youre using an emotion you felt for someone else to make something work for us.
Id never do that.
Okay, then. His mouth fastened on hers with a passion that soon spiraled out of control. He stripped her, stripped himself and flung their clothes on the floor. Then he mounted her, his knees wide. Straddling her thighs, he cupped her breasts.
She ran her hands down his lean torso. How she loved the way his body was hard and warm; how every part of him was gorgeous.
He breathed in rapid pants, and she was just as hot for him.
He kissed her with such desperate urgency she could only imagine he felt as she did. A foil wrapper rustled. Then, with his condom in place, he thrust inside her, each stroke deeper and harder than the last. She clung, arching her pelvis to meet his. Relentlessly, he took her higher and higher until, at the end, he clutched her close. When he shuddered and ground his hips against hers, she cried his name again and again, her release glorious.
For a long time afterward, their bodies spent, they clung. An hour or so later she awoke to find herself still wrapped in his arms. Never had she felt closer to anyone.
This is where I belong, she thought, refusing to consider the secrets she still hadnt told him.
Some time later he began to kiss her with a feverish need that fueled her own desire into an instant blaze. He licked his way down her slim body, exploring secret feminine places until she felt she was so hot and tremulous even her bones might melt.
Dont stop, she thought. Dont ever stop
After she recovered from the most shattering climax of her life, he made love to her again. Then they napped and made love again, and maybe again. She lost count.
Needs shed never experienced before made themselves known. Their bodies spoke to each other in a dark, sweet language only they understood. They said things and did things theyd never done before. Things they could only do now because trust was building between them.
They played erotic games, with tied hands and blindfolds. Sometimes their love was rough, but mostly it was gentle. For an endless time, Summer lived in a sensual universe she shared only with Zach. It was nearly dawn when she drifted to sleep in his arms once again.
She felt changed, as if shed been reborn within the dazzling magic of his love.
At eight oclock sharp, his phone and doorbell rang at the same time.
They sprang up groggily, laughing when they realized it was morning.
Zach grabbed for his phone, cursing when it wouldnt stop ringing.
Its Bob! How the hell could I have been so crazy as to ever tell him eight?
She giggled. You wanted me gone, remember.
Strange how that seems a lifetime away.
He spoke much too curtly to Bob then, who said he was surrounded by paparazzi.
Poor guy, she said after he hung up.
Ill apologize. But later. Hes too busy keeping the screaming horde at bay. Zachs gleaming eyes met hers sheepishly. Now that were up, we might as well make the most of it.
First, Im going to go downstairs and take a shower, brush my teethpresent a more civilized-
He laughed and grabbed her hand, preventing her from squirming across the sheets and running downstairs. I dont want civilized! I want the wicked wanton I had last night all over again, only wilder.
Not possible.
Im going to prove to you that youre wrong. Youre going to stay right here where you belong. Under me. In my arms.
Unable to deny him anything in that moment, she lay back and waited for him to again turn their world into a fiery wonderland that was theirs alone.
Nine
Summer Wallace Steps Out With Billionaire Zach Torr!
What the hell do you think youre doin, boy?
Nick slapped a newspaper with the two-inch headline onto Zachs desk, covering the blueprint hed been studying.
When Zach looked up, Nick began to read him the article in a low, sarcastic voice.
It seems the thirty-one-year-old actress known for her light comedy roles has revamped herself. Shortly after pirated film clips from Dangerous Man exploded all over the internet, Wallace was seen on Torrs arm at the ground-breaking ceremony for his new casino. The couple has a scandalous history. She once charged Torr with-
What is this? Read-aloud time?
Zach wadded the paper and pitched it into the trash. Ive seen it already. Read it already.
And hed been sickened to have the most beautiful thing in his life described in such cheap terms.
You said you saw her again for the publicity, yes? Was her two-day sleepover a publicity stunt, as well?
Thats my business, and hers-not yours! And certainly not the damn newspapers!
Then date another woman.
Zachs voice was meticulously polite. Look, I intend to. In the future. Right nowIll be seeing more of Summer.
No way in hell could he give her up now.
Tell me youve got more sense than to start up with her again. You know as well as I do that shes a liar to the core of her rotten soul, yes? You had to sneak around with her in high school because her step-daddy thought you was trash. Then look what they done to you, those high-and-mighty folks, first chance that they got.
Zach remembered too well. He still wasnt sure about what had been real back then between him and Summer. Hell, he wasnt sure what was real now. But he wanted to find out.
People dont change, boy. Shes probably stepped on a lot more folks to get where she is. You gonna end this or not?
Or not.
Since he couldnt reassure Nick, Zach fixed his gaze on the blueprint. The tension between them built until Martin knocked on the door of the trailer.
Petes here, Martin said. He thinks he sees a way to get what you want done and not go over budget.
Great. Zach turned on Nick. Im busy as hell. Ive got things to do here. The costs on a project in Houston are going through the roof, so Ive got to fly home ASAP. You and I-well catch up later, okay?
Im not finished here, no. That little gal proved what she was fifteen years ago, yes. All that she ever worries about is whats good for her. She dont care about you. She never did. She never will.
Flushing with dark embarrassment to have interrupted his bosss personal conversation, Martin backed out of the trailer.
Zachs face grew stony. Look, Nick, Ive dated a lot of women since Summer. Cant a guy fool around?
Not with her, you cant, no. Youre not just playing with fire. Shes nuclear.
Zach clenched his fist around his pencil, letting go of it right before it snapped. Youre right. Youre right.
Which is why youre madder than hell, yes.
Stay out of this, Nick.
Grabbing the blueprint, Zach stormed past Nick and out of the trailer.
No! No! No! Earth to Miss Wallace! Paulo, Summers stage director, was bouncing up and down as he bounded toward her, his face purple.
You still havent got it! Quit thinking about your personal love triangle and listen to me!
Summer blinked first. Then she blushed. She was sick of the ceaseless teasing shed had to endure due to all the news stories.
Sorry. Rubbing her forehead, she fought to concentrate on what Paulo was saying.
Paolo was actually a very insightful, inspiring director, one of the rare ones who really understood actors. Still, it wasnt easy for her to take direction. She was too worried about her fragile new start with Zach and about how she would tell him about the baby. She was concerned about how all the media attention impacted him, as well. Again, the sex had been glorious. Again, shed felt shed shared everything with him in bed. But once theyd separated and the stories about them had hit full force, hed erected the old walls between them. So, she was no closer to feeling the time had come for her to confide in him.
Hed called her once, texted her twice. All three times her heart had leaped with joy. Even as his husky, but oh-so-controlled tone had made her remember all the thrilling things theyd done to each other-against the wall, on the floor, in the bed, on the chair-shed sensed his emotional withdrawal.
In Bonne Terre, after their night together, shed felt so close to Zach. Hed seemed easy, open. But now he was unreachable. Really, she couldnt blame him. He wasnt used to life in a fishbowl. Hed said hed hated the stories that had linked them for years.
Rehearsals were difficult during the best of times and trying to give birth to a character could be exhausting. Summers head, back and feet ached from the effort. Distracted by Zach and the media storm, shed found the rehearsals this week to be sheer torture.
She would think about him and break character, lose her bearing. Another actor would say a line, and she would just stare at them, lost. The entire cast was out of patience with her, as she was with herself.
She needed to get a grip before she sabotaged the show completely. At night, when she was alone in her apartment eating takeout, her obsession was worse.
She would try to imagine living with Zach as an ordinary couple in a house with a garden and a picket fence, try to envision holidays with Gram and Tuck, dinners with friends, shared vacations, dark-haired children that looked just like Zach.
But, always, her vision would pop like a bubble as an inner voice taunted her.
Zach has his life and you have yours. Youre still keeping your secrets. He values his privacy, and you can never have total privacy. So-just enjoy what you have now.