But there are keys out there you cant account for? Sean asked. In all likelihood therell be keys for this house in the hands of others?
I suppose so, Bridgeman agreed.
Then well need a list of anyone who might have keys to the house: the estate agent you used, the previous owners, the removal company you hired anyone who has access to the house.
Fine, Bridgeman reluctantly agreed, but thatll take time. What are you going to do to find our son now?
Sean nodded his head slightly, looking around at the faces watching him expectantly. I need to see the boys bedroom. I need to see it alone.
Its upstairs, Celia Bridgeman told him without hesitation, her pale lips trembling. On the second floor. Along the hallway on the right.
Thank you, Sean replied and headed for the exit. Ill be back in a few minutes, he told them, although he was mainly talking to Sally. The relief of being on his own, away from the parents torment, guilt and anger felt immediately liberating as he headed for the stairs, stopping for a while to look around him, his eyes drifting towards the front door the nanny had sworn shed locked. He believed her, but the front door somehow wouldnt let him look away, as if it held answers to the questions firing inside his head. But the answers wouldnt come. His mind was awhirl with distractions: the office move, Assistant Commissioner Addis, Thomas Keller still awaiting sentencing The mental clutter was robbing him of the very thing that set him apart.
Work through the evidence, he told himself, looking at the windows he could see and noting they were all in good condition with security locks fitted and in place. The door, he told himself. Someone came in through that door, in through it in the middle of the night and took the boy away. But how, who and why? Still nothing particular stirred in his subconscious, no early ideas of who or what he could be about to hunt. He felt a rising panic at the thought of no longer being able to see or feel what the people he had to find and stop had seen or felt.
There was an alarm, but it wasnt working did you know that? A man lives in the house, but he was away did you know that? Have you been watching the family and if so, for how long? He waited for answers or ideas, some coldness in the pit of his stomach that would tell him the darkness within him was beginning to stir the malevolence that could lead him straight to the front door of whoever took the little boy. You dont even know for sure hes been taken yet, he reminded himself as he began to climb the stairs, careful not to touch the mahogany bannister that clearly hadnt been polished for a day or so. Did you touch this bannister? In your excitement to reach the boy, did you forget yourself and touch the bannister? Did you leave me your fingerprints here, hiding amongst the prints of the family, the nanny, the cleaner? What did it feel like to be inside this warm house with its comforting sounds and smells so different from the cold, empty street outside?
Shit, he whispered as still nothing happened no flash of inspiration or horror of realization, just blackness. If youre hiding somewhere, George, he said, a little louder than a whisper, now would be a really good time to show yourself.
As he stepped on to the first floor landing his eyes again swept over his surroundings: more oil paintings and Tiffany lamps, good quality carpet under his feet deadening the sound of his footsteps, stretching out in front of him and seemingly spreading into three of the four rooms he could see, the fourth of which he assumed would be a bathroom, the carpet giving way to floor tiles. He began to walk along the landing towards the staircase that continued its way upwards at the other end, but the scent of the mother leaking from the first room he passed made him stop and look around, checking he was still alone. Did the carpet feel good under your feet silencing your footsteps? Did it reassure you? He moved to the bedroom where he knew the mother slept and moved slowly inside, breathing her in as he studied the room her clothes tossed on the chaise longue for someone else to tidy and the bed only slept in on one side. Stuart Bridgeman had been away the previous night, but Sean felt only a fading presence of the father in the room, as if hed stopped sleeping here days or weeks ago. Maybe he never had, just using it to store his clothes for appearances sake to keep the sad truth from the children? Did you come in here? Did you stand where I am now and watch her while she slept watching her chest rise and fall hypnotized by her beauty? But you didnt come for her, did you? Again the answers evaded him. He scratched his forehead and left the room, passing what was indeed a bathroom, a room used as an office and another made up as a spare bedroom, but almost overly tidy and sterile. Was this where Stuart Bridgeman spent his nights making the bed immaculately every morning before the children, nanny or cleaner could discover it had been used quickly moving his used clothes into the master bedroom to complete the illusion? Probably, Sean decided, but what did it mean? What, if anything, did it have to do with Georges disappearance?
He left the room behind and climbed to the second floor and the childrens bedrooms, his foot finding a loose floorboard and making it creak loudly. Did you step on the creaking stair? Did it make you freeze with panic or fear? Or did you know it was there and avoid it? But how could you know it was there? He could feel the ideas, even possible answers straining to break free, but the weeds of his everyday responsibilities and life kept strangling his newly flowering strands of thought. Finally he lifted his foot, the returning floorboard making the same loud creaking that would have been magnified ten-fold in the dead of the night. No one came in here in the middle of the night and stole the boy, he almost chastised himself as he strode up the final few stairs and along the hallway. Im letting things from the past fuck with my head. Theres no mystery here just a little boy whose jokes gone too far. The doors and windows are locked. No one came in here and the boy couldnt have left, so hes here somewhere inside this house. He reached Georges room and unceremoniously pushed the door wide open, the sense of excitement that they would soon find the boy hiding instantly replaced by a deep sense of coldness. He felt as if he was stepping into a murder scene where the shattered soul of the victim still lingered, only there was no body, just an awful feeling of emptiness, as if the boy had never been there in the first place and the room was little more than a mock-up of a childs room: the silhouettes of clouds printed on the powder-blue wallpaper, the train mobile above the bed with its matching bedclothes. The duvet remained on the floor where the mother had thrown it, along with a dozen or so teddy bears and other soft toys. More toys were neatly stacked on the shelving units and play table. But none of it seemed real any more it felt surreal, just like so many other crime scenes hed seen. And although the answers to his questions failed to come, the sickness in his stomach told him something had happened to the little boy. But what?
He crouched down and picked up a small brown bear similar to one his youngest daughter Mandy kept in her bed and tried not to think of how hed feel if anything ever happened to either of his daughters. Sadness and rage swelled inside him at the mere possibility, but a sudden feeling of another presence in the room made him spin around and forget his fearful imaginings. Celia Bridgeman stood in the doorway, both hands clasped over her heart, her eyes red and her skin pale as her lips opened and closed as if she was trying to speak but couldnt. You all right? Sean asked and regretted it.
No, she answered faintly. I dont feel very well. She staggered a little into the room, Sean catching her by the elbow and forearm as he led her to the bed to sit, cringing at the possible forensic evidence he may be complicit in destroying. He watched her trying to catch her breath, breathing in and out a little erratically, but it was enough to put a little colour back into her lips and face. He gave her some time and space. Its like a dream, she told him, or I should say a nightmare like its not really happening. It cant be happening, can it? He must be here somewhere, she continued, panic sweeping over her again as she tried to get to her feet.
Sean placed a hand on her shoulder, preventing her from standing. I need to look for him, she pleaded, her red eyes swelling with fear and tears. I have to keep looking.
Well all look for him, Sean promised, but you need to help me help you.
I feel sick, she told him, jumping to her feet and rushing from the room. A few seconds later he heard the sound of her retching in a nearby bathroom, retching that seemed to go on for a long time, before he heard the sound of a toilet lid closing and the flushing of water. She returned to the bedroom looking like a ghost, walking past him and sitting on the bed without speaking, lifting a floppy-eared rabbit from the floor and holding it tight to her chest while she stared at the wall opposite.
Feel a little better? Sean asked, keen to get her talking before she went catatonic on him.
Not really, she responded.
I have some difficult questions that need answers, he warned her. Theyre best asked when your husbands not here.
Stuart? she asked in a conciliatory tone. Dont worry about Stuart hes just scared and angry. He always reacts like that when he feels something is beyond his control.
I understand, Sean assured her.
You said you had questions.
Keys, he began. Is there anyone no ones mentioned who could have keys to the house?
Not that I know of, she answered.
Anyone who shouldnt have keys to the house but does?
I dont understand.
I need to know if both your children are yours and your husbands genetically?
Yes, she answered, confusion etched into her face. Why?
Most children who are abducted are abducted by their estranged fathers, he told her. If there was one and he had keys to the house, then
There isnt, she stopped him. How could you even think that? Im his mother and Stuarts his father, she insisted, but Sean sensed some doubt in her voice and her eyes.