I looked askance at him.
«Have you finished, Dr. Freud?
Cameron laughed.
«I wonder how you've become our boss, you're such a dick sometimes.»
«I became the chief because I am always a dick and because I am the most intelligent of you all.»
Cameron stood up and smiled at me.
«Sure, boss, believe it. We can meet at the King tonight, we take a beer and catch up with the others.»
I looked at Cam going away and for a second I was tempted to stop him and tell him that I wanted his brother. Then I shook my head. Shit, that boy would make me crazy. I had to have more sex, maybe that was why I could not stop thinking about him. If I had had sex with another man, one with whom I could be without paranoia, I would have vented a bit and I would have not thought about Ash. Being with him was not possible and moreover it was ridiculous that I was so obsessed. And then, I had much else to think about.
I grabbed the phone and called the number I had recorded only a few days before. Ryan answered at the second ring.
«Hello!»
«Ryan, it's Sean. I have just spoken with Cameron, and he told me that everything is ok.»
«Yes everything is ok. We delivered the goods as agreed. Now we just wait for our friends to even notice that they were screwed. Are you ready?»
«We will be.»
«Well, just because the Devils will know that you have fucked up the goods and have delivered it on their behalf, will break a big mess.»
«We had to take risks if we want to come out of the closet. Up to now they have sent on the street only the last recruits, if we want to take the big boys then we have to stand tall and create a little casino.»
«I know, I was there when we came up with this brilliant plan, remember?»
«I do not think I will ever forget the day when me and your boss shook hands.»
Ryan laughed again.
«What's it like being on the other side of the fence?»
«In the end we were always on the same side, only with different methods», I answered to him.
«Yeah, and that's the only reason why we are now working together. I have to go now. Do not get shot, Sean. Connor will never forgive it to you.»
«Did I miss something between you and one of my Shadows?»
«Not your fucking business, my friend. I'll be in contact.»
I greeted him and put away the phone. I hated to wait.
I was going to go home to work a little in the workshop when I saw Ash. He was with some friends, they were entering the B & B, a fast food restaurant frequented by teenagers. I swallowed as I watched him. As it annoyed me to admit it, he was still a teenager and for no reason would have to return to my bed even though every fiber of my being was screaming that it was there that he had to be. In my bed, with me next to him. Trying to dismiss the thought I stood up. I did not need to torture me again and I had more important things to think about. Too bad that my cock does not think the same way.
On Friday evening the King was filled with boys and girls from sixteen to thirty years. All they wanted was to socialize and have fun to start in a better way the weekend. The next day there would be no school, many would not have worked, and everyone could go home later. It was a safe place and it was our lair. We had helped the owner when, a few years before, had been blackmailed by a gang from another neighborhood and to thank us he kept us always the best table in a corner of the room where we had a compete view of the entire room. It was on a mezzanine floor over the other tables and a small dance floor and you could see anyone who entered. When I arrived that evening, the others were already all there.
I stood watching them for a minute before reaching them, they were engaged in a conversation and they were all laughing. If you watched them you could just see some guys a bit dark, amusing themselves all together, but I did not escape the details of each of them. Axel, as always was next to Colin. He watched him as if he was always saving him from an impending tragedy. I was amused to note how he gravitated around him attracted like a magnet without being able to admit that there was something more than friendship between them. Colin loved him but it was not a secret to anyone, no one except Axel. Colin probably would have already left the city if it was not that he could not abandon him. Often Cam and I were wondering what it would take for them to realize they love each other, but Axel told everyone he was straight, went with women, and every time it happened, Colin became silent and absent.
Connor was instead the most cheerful of them all. He was our eyes and our ears. He was the one who put me in contact with Ryan. I had the secret belief that many of the leaks that we had in the last few months were just the work of Ryan. Connor was secretive about his private life, and never introduced anyone because he knew that we knew him so well that we had only to look once to see if his companion was just a fuck of an evening or something more.
Then there was Cameron. My best friend, my right arm and more than once my consciousness. He was resting on the sofa with the new conquest. Thinking about it, it was already some weeks that Cam took her to the King. I liked Elise. She was tiny and with a skin so clear to make it seems like a porcelain doll, but she could put in place anyone who bothered her. Cameron had sweated seven shirts to be able to have a date with her, it had become a matter of principle for him and when he had gained it, we all thought that, as usual, he left her soon after fucking her. But apparently, Elise was damn smart and Cam seemed to be increasingly fascinated by her.
Finally I was there. Taciturn and always a little pissed off at the world, I would have liked to get out and make a completely different life, but when my parents were killed, every dream for the future had been buried and replaced by a desire of revenge.
The bastards would pay for all they had done to our neighborhood and to our families. We had been in a hurry to take revenge and totally disorganized we had lost one of ours. They even paid for it!
When reached the others we greeted everyone with only a nod. I sat next to Connor who wasted no time to update me.
«The cargo was delivered, Sean, everything went as planned. The Devils should meet the buyers in two days, and when they do it they will have a nice little surprise.»
«Are we sure that they do not notice before that we fucked up the goods?»
«No, but they should control the whole thing to notice right away and it will not be so because it is already packed.»
«It will not be enough, Connor. This delivery will take out only small fish. I want Lucas. I want that bastard rot in hell.»
«And I want the same thing. We need to be patient.»
«I know. It's just that we have waited so long and I'm tired I have to wait more.»
«We have to do things right Sean, or it will backfire us.»
I nodded and watched him with a half smile.
«With Ryan is everything right?»
«All right.»
My smile widened further.
«Do you have to say something, Connor?»
«No, but if you want I can tell you to mind your fucking business,» he answered me.
I laughed while Connor got up flipping the bird. I exchanged a few words with the others. Every Shadow was ready to face the mess the Devils would have discovered when they found that they have been fooled, but we still had two days before the outbreak of the confusion, and that night we all don’t want to think too much and enjoy the evening.
At King you could find everything. Women interested in men or in other women, men interested in other men or women, so I began to look around. I wanted someone to fuck for driving Ash out of my mind, anyone would be fine that night, but apparently my karma wanted to play some more, because the only person that caught my attention was Ash.
3
Washed out tight jeans and white shirt wrapped to his chest and arms. When had Ash put on that wicked body? It seemed that these dresses were sewn on his skin. The artfully disheveled hair made my hands itch to the desire to stuffing them with my fingers and tighten them while I plundered his mouth. Those lips and that angelic smile were a temptation which rekindled my cock instantly.
Shit, it was not possible that I had fucked up until this point. I was watching him while friends embraced him and laughed with him, making him the good wishes. He reciprocated every hug and every smile, and I felt jealous of each one.
«Sean, I go away with Elise. Ash will celebrate until morning at least, and I do not want to know what he will do. I trust him and I know he will not do shit. Besides, I think he has got a boyfriend.»
I turned to Cam that with a smile was watching his brother.
«What makes you think so?»
«Last night by chance I saw a hickey on his neck.»
For a moment I missed my breath. I did not remember having made him a hickey, but there were many things I did not remember. Ash had told me that we had touched and kissed, but for me the memories were still confused between dream and reality. Except for what had happened in the shower. What I remember is perfectly clear, every caress, every moan, every desire I had while he was in my arms.
Cameron went away and I stood like an idiot staring at Ash wishing what I could not have. Then he looked up and his eyes were on mine. His smile spread more and gave me a slight nod. I did not answered, I only looked at him. I was not an insecure man and always knew what I wanted, I knew how to bring a man or a woman when I wanted to fuck, but with him I was totally helpless, baffled by all that he made me feel, devastated by what he made me want.
I kept telling myself that I should spend the evening to look for a man to vent my desires, and instead I could only go from angry to trying to breathe when my cock threatened to get out of my pants while I was looking at him. Ash was definitely making me pay for my refusal. After that initial smile, he had not look at me once, or so it seemed. He continued to flirt with a guy who certainly had at least my age.
He placed his hands on his hips as Ash danced the small runway with sensual moves, shaking that sinful ass I wanted for myself. When they were not dancing, he fished some ice from a glass and he rubbed it on his neck, laughing, while the idiot looked at him, biting his lips. I could bet that his cock was hard and that if he could he would have fucked Ash immediately. The bastard was getting closer and closer and I could not stop watching.
The others had vanished. Who was left and who was on the dance floor or at the bar drinking and chatting, probably they had also told me something before I they leave, but my attention was only for him. That damn kid that reduced me to a pile of desire and anger that was about to explode.
I moved only when I realized he was going away and that this bastard was leaving behind. I knew he would go in the bathroom and anger mounted inside me with the force of a hurricane. I do not give a shit if he was celebrating his birthday, I did not give a fuck even if that was his boyfriend. The day before he had been in my bed, in my shower and told me he want me, now probably he is going to have sex in a toilet with an idiot who did not even know.
I knew I should leave him alone. I was the one to tell him that among us there could be anything and I felt like a little girl betrayed by her first love, but my reasoning powers seemed completely gone when I entered the room, opening the door. Damn, I was pissed. The boys there looked at me and hurried to leave the room, they knew that I would not hurt any of them, but they also knew that when I was angry they had to keep a safe distance. Ash had to be in one of the bathrooms and while clenched my fists trying to calm myself not to make a scene in a crazy hysterical style, one of the doors opened and he came out quiet. Alone. He looked around and smiled at me.
«Do you kicked everyone out of the bathroom?»
I stared at him but did not move while he went to the sink to rinse his hands. Another door opened and another guy came out calmly, but quickly leave the bathroom just after looked at me.
«What the fuck are you doing Ash?» I asked him with a snarl.
«What the fuck do you want to be doing in a bathroom Sean? I pissed and now I wash my hands,» he replied smiling.
«Do not get too smart with me, boy. I'm not really in the mood for tricks .»
«What tricks do you mean? And stop with this story of the little boy!»
«Where's your boyfriend? He's waiting outside?»
«Oh, I see. My brother asked you to control me and you're doing everything like a snarling guard dog? Well, you can tell him that I've been a good boy. Me and that guy we danced, flirted a little bit and stop. He went off with his friends, and I will reach them when we have completed this kind of scene.»
I approached him, relieved that the idiot would not have touched him, but still excited because my body could not stop to remember him as he moved on the track.
«You are playing with fire, Ash,» I said, lowering my voice.
«I'm not doing anything, Sean. Until a few days ago you don’t give a fuck if I was or was not with someone and you feel now right to break my balls? You were clear yesterday and although I don’t like it, I do accept it. Now l I’ll be clear with you. I'm eighteen, I'm not a child, and I do whatever I want with who I want. If you and my brother don’t agree, it is your problem. Moreover, do you have nothing better to do than control myself while he fucks his girlfriend?»
Amused I approached him and pushed him into one of the bathrooms.
«I do not think your brother has taught you to speak to other people in this way ...»
Those lips, those damn lips were like the call of a siren. He was pissed off and his breathing quickened and damn ... I wanted him so much. Having tasted him only had made me hungrier.
«What the heck do you want, Sean? You want me to go home by midnight like Cinderella? Do you want my ass remaining chaste? Well you arrive a bit later for that.» Ash snapped.
Anger and jealousy came back loud and pushed my desire of him to the limit. I shoot up him pasting my mouth to his. I knew I wanted him, I felt it, but he pushed me away. His eyes blazed and fuck he was even more beautiful so surprised and angry.
«I will not kiss you only to be rejected, Sean. I want you, but I know that then your paranoia will be back. I may be only eighteen but I'm not so stupid to hurt myself.»
Without another word he passed near me and left the room leaving me with an hard cock and an open mouth like a fool. I had vastly underestimated him.
When I came out of the bathroom I looked for him with my eyes. He was sitting at the table with his friends with a beer in front. I tried to look inside of me for all the good reasons that were supposed to convince me to stay away from him and turn my attention to someone else, when the King’s doors burst open and a young girl began screaming for help. I went running toward her, and when she saw me he looked at me with big brown eyes full of tears.
«Two guys..., down the road are beating my brother ...»
Axel and Colin were close to me and just a look between us was enough. I retrieved the gun that I kept tied to the ankle and I released the safety catch. We ran to the end of the alley and saw two boys intent to take another kick. They did not hear us coming and when we were close enough, I pointed the gun and screamed.
«Let him go or I'll blow your head off!»
In my peripheral vision I saw Axel and Colin also point their guns and advance slowly. I was not sure if the two bastards were not armed, but it was too late to think about it. They turned, raising their hands, laughing.