What manner of man is this, or what manner of creature is
it in the semblance of man? I feel the dread of this horrible place
overpowering me; I am in fear in awful fear and there is no
escape for me; I am encompassed about with terrors that I dare
not think of.…
15 May. Once more have I seen the Count go out in his liz-
ard fashion. He moved downwards in a sidelong way, some hun-
dred feet down, and a good deal to the left. He vanished into
some hole or window. When his head had disappeared, I leaned
out to try and see more, but without avail the distance was too
great to allow a proper angle of sight. I knew he had left the
castle now, and thought to use the opportunity to explore more
than I had dared to do as yet. I went back to the room, and tak-
ing a lamp, tried all the doors. They were all locked, as I had
expected, and the locks were comparatively new; but I went
down the stone stairs to the hall where I had entered originally.
I found I could pull back the bolts easily enough and unhook
the great chains; but the door was locked, and the key was gone!
That key must be in the Count’s room; I must watch should his
door be unlocked, so that I may get it and escape. I went on to
make a thorough examination of the various stairs and passages,
and to try the doors that opened from them. One or two small
rooms near the hall were open, but there was nothing to see in
them except old furniture, dusty with age and moth-eaten. At
last, however, I found one door at the top of the stairway which,
though it seemed to be locked, gave a little under pressure. I
tried it harder, and found that it was not really locked, but that
the resistance came from the fact that the hinges had fallen
somewhat, and the heavy door rested on the floor. Here was an
opportunity which I might not have again, so I exerted myself,
and with many efforts forced it back so that I could enter. I
was now in a wing of the castle further to the right than the
rooms I knew and a storey lower down. From the windows I
could see that the suite of rooms lay along to the south of the
castle, the windows of the end room looking out both west and
south. On the latter side, as well as to the former, there was a
great precipice. The castle was built on the corner of a great
rock, so that on three sides it was quite impregnable, and great
windows were placed here where sling, or bow, or culverin could
not reach, and consequently light and comfort, impossible to a
position which had to be guarded, were secured. To the west
was a great valley, and then, rising far away, great jagged moun-
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tain fastnesses, rising peak on peak, the sheer rock studded with
mountain ash and thorn, whose roots clung in cracks and crev-
ices and crannies of the stone. This was evidently the portion
of the castle occupied by the ladies in bygone days, for the fur-
niture had more air» of comfort than any I had seen. The win-
dows were curtainless, and the yellow moonlight, flooding in
through the diamond panes, enabled one to see even colours,
whilst it softened the wealth of dust which lay over all and dis-
guised in some measure the ravages of time and the moth. My
lamp seemed to be of little effect in the brilliant moonlight^ut
I was glad to have it with me, for there was a dread loneliness
in the place which chilled my heart and made my nerves tremble.
Still, it was better than living alone in the rooms which I had
come to hate from the presence of the Count, and after trying a
little to school my nerves, I found a soft quietude come over me.
Here I am, sitting at a little oak table where in old times pos-
sibly some fair lady sat to pen, with much thought and many
blushes, her ill-spelt love-letter, and writing in my diary in short —
hand all that has happened since I closed it last. It is nineteenth,
century up-to-date with a vengeance. And yet, unless my senses
deceive me, the old centuries had, and have, powers of their j
own which mere «modernity» cannot kill.
Later: the Morning of 16 May. God preserve my sanity, for
to this I am reduced. Safety and the assurance of safety are
things of the past. Whilst I live on here there is but one thing
to hope for, that I may not go mad, if, indeed, I be not mad al-
ready. If I be sane, then surely it is maddening to think that of
all the foul things that lurk in this hateful place the Count is
the least dreadful to me; that to him alone I can look for safety,
even though this be only whilst I can serve his purpose. Great
God! merciful God! Let me be calm, for out of that way lies
madness indeed. I begin to get new lights on certain things which
have puzzled me. Up to now I never quite knew what Shake-
speare meant when he made Hamlet say:
«My tablets! quick, my tablets!
«Tis meet that I put it down,» etc.,
for now, feeling as though my own brain were unhinged or as
if the shock had come which must end in its undoing, I turn to
my diary for repose. The habit of entering accurately must help
to soothe me.
The Count’s mysterious warning frightened me at the time; it
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frightens me more now when I think of it, for in future he has
a fearful hold upon me. I shall fear to doubt what he may say!
When I had written in my diary and had fortunately replaced
the book and pen in my pocket I felt sleepy. The Count’s warn-
ing came into my mind, but I took a pleasure in disobeying it.
The sense of sleep was upon me, and with it the obstinacy which
sleep brings as outrider. The soft moonlight soothed, and the
wide expanse without gave a sense of freedom which refreshed
rne. I determined not to return to-night to the gloom-haunted
rooms, but to sleep here, where, of old, ladies had sat and sung
and lived sweet lives whilst their gentle breasts were sad for their
menfolk away in the midst of remorseless wars. I drew a great
couch out of its place near the comer, so that as I lay, I could
look at the lovely view to east and south, and unthinking of
and uncaring for the dust, composed myself for sleep. I suppose
I must have fallen asleep; I hope so, but I fear, for all that fol-
lowed was startlingly real so real that now sitting here in the
broad, full sunlight of the morning, I cannot in the least believe
that it was all sleep.
I was not alone. The room was the same, unchanged in any
way since I came into it; I could see along the floor, in the brilliant
moonlight, my own footsteps marked where I had disturbed the
long accumulation of dust. In the moonlight opposite me were
three yo-ung women, ladies by their dress and manner. I thought
at the time that I must be dreaming when I saw them, for,
though the moonlight was behind them, they threw no shadow
on the floor. They came close to me, and looked at me for some
time, and then whispered together. Two were dark, and had
high aquiline noses, like the Count, and great dark, piercing eyes
that seemed to be almost red when contrasted with the pale
yellow moon. The other was fair, as fair as can be, with great
wavy masses of golden hair and eyes like pale sapphires. I seemed
somehow to know her face, and to know it in connection with!
some dreamy fear, but I could not recollect at the moment howl
or where./All three had brilliant white teeth that shone like pearls
against the ruby of their voluptuous lips. There was something f
about them that made me uneasy, some longing and at thej
same time some deadly fear. I felt in my heart a wicked, burn-
ing desire that they would kiss me with those red lips. It is not
good to note this down, lest some day it should meet Mina’s eyes
dnd cause her pain; but it is the truth jThey whispered together,
and then they all three laughed such a silvery, musical laugh,
but as hard.,as though the sound never could have come through
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the softness of human lips. It was like the intolerable, tinglii _
sweetness of water-glasses when played on by a cunning hand.
The fair girl shook her head coquettishly, and the other two
urged her on. One said:
«Go on! You are first, and we shall follow; yours is the right
to begin.» The other added:
/’jHe is^.young_and steragjJtkCTeareJuaaesJoj^jjsaJi^I lay
quietTlooking out under my eyelashes in an agony of~delightf ul
anticipation. The fair girl advanced and bent over me till I
could feel the movement of her breath upon me. Sweet it was
in one sense, honey-sweet, and sent the same tingling through
the nerves as her voice, but with a bitter underlying the sweet,
a bitter offensiveness, as one smells in blood.
I was afraid to raise my eyelids, but looked out and saw per-
fectly under the lashes. The girl went on her knees, and bent
over me, simply gloating. There was a deliberate voluptuousness
which was both thrilling and repulsive, and as she arched her
neck she actually licked her lips like an animal, till I could see
in the moonlight the moisture shining on the scarlet lips and on
the red tongue as it lapped the white sharp teeth. Lower and
lower went her head as the lips went below the range of my
mouth and chin and seemed about to fasten on my throat.
Then she paused, and I could hear the churning sound of her
tongue as it licked her teeth and lips, and could feel the hot
breath on my neck. (Then the skin of my throat began to tingle
as one’s flesh does when the hand that is to tickle it approaches
nearer nearer, ft could feel the soft, shivering touch of the lips
on the super-sensitive skin of my throat, and the hard dents
of two sharp teeth, just touching and pausing there. I closed
my eyes in a languorous ecstasy and waited waited with beat-
ing heartj
JtJut aTthat instant, another sensation swept through me as
quick as lightning. I was conscious of the presence of the Count.,
and of his being as if lapped in a storm of fury. As my eyes
opened involuntarily I saw his strong hand grasp the slendef
neck of the fair woman and with giant’s power draw it back,
the blue eyes transformed with fury, the white teeth champing
with rage, and the fair cheeks blazing red with passion. But the
Count! Never did I imagine such wrath and fury, even to the
demons of the pit. His eyes were positively blazing. The red
light in them was lurid, as if the flames of heft-fire blazed behind
them. His face was deathly pale, and the lines of it were hard
like drawn wires; the thick eyebrows that met over the nose
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now seemed like a heaving bar of white-hot metal. With a fierce
sweep of his arm, he hurled the woman from him, and then
motioned to the others, as though he were beating them back;
it was the same imperious gesture that I had seen used to the
wolves. In a voice which, though low and almost in a whisper
seemed to cut through the air and then ring round the room
he said:
«How dare you touch him, any of you? How dare you cast
eyes on him when I had forbidden it? Back, I tell you all! This
man belongs to me! Beware how you meddle with him, or you’ll
have to deal with me.» The fair girl, with a laugh of ribald
coquetry, turned to answer him:
«You yourself never loved; you never love!» On this the
other women joined, and such a mirthless, hard, soulless laugh-
ter rang through the room that it almost made me faint to hear;
it seemed like the pleasure of fiends. Then the Count turned,
after looking at my face attentively, and said in a soft whisper:
«Yes, I too can love; you yourselves can tell it from the past.
Is it not so? Well, now I promise you that when I am done
with him you shall kiss him at your will. Now go! go! I must
awaken him, for there is work to be done.»
«Are we to have nothing to-night?» said one of them, with a
low laugh, as she pointed to the bag which he had thrown upon
the floor, and which moved as though there were some living
thing within it. For answer he nodded his head. One of the wo-
men jumped forward and opened it. If my ears did not deceive
me there was a gasp and a low wail, as of a half -smothered child.
The women closed round, whilst I was aghast with horror; but
as I looked they disappeared, and with them the dreadful bag.
There was no door near them, and they could not have passed
me without my noticing. They simply seemed to fade into the
rays of the moonlight and pass out through the window, for I
could see outside the dim, shadowy forms for a moment before
they entirely faded away.
Then the horror overcame me, and I sank down unconscious.
CHAPTER IV
JONATHAN BARKER’S JOURNAL continued
I AWOKE in my own bed. If it be that I had not dreamt, the
Count must have carried me here. I tried to satisfy myself on
the subject, but could not arrive at any unquestionable result.
To be sure, there were certain small evidences, such as that my
clothes were folded and laid by in a manner which was not
my habit. My watch was still unwound, and I am rigorously
accustomed to wind it the last thing before going to bed, and
many such details. But these things are no proof, for they
rnay have been evidences that my mind was not as usual, and,
from some cause or another, I had certainly been much upset.
I must watch for proof. Of one thing I am glad: if it was that the
Count carried me here and undressed me, he must have been
hurried in his task, for my pockets are intact. I am sure this
diary would have been a mystery to him which he would not
have brooked. He would have taken or destroyed it. As I look
round this room, although it has been to me so full of fear, it is
now a sort of sanctuary, for nothing can be more dreadful than
those awful women, who were who are waiting to suck my
blood.
18 May. I have been down to look at that room again in
daylight, for I must know the truth. When I got to the doorway
at the top of the stairs I found it closed. It had been so forcibly
driven against the jamb that part of the woodwork was splin-
tered. I could see that the bolt of the lock had not been shot, but
the door is fastened from the inside. I fear it was no dream, and
must act on this surmise.
ip May. I am surely in the toils. Last night the Count
asked me in the suavest tones to write three letters, one saying
that my work here was nearly done, and that I should start for
home within a few days, another that I was starting on the
next morning from the time of the letter, and the third that I
had left the castle and arrived at Bistritz. I would fain have
rebelled, but felt that in the present state of things it would
be madness to quarrel openly with the Count whilst I am so
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absolutely in his power; and to refuse would be to excite his sus-
picion and to arouse his anger. He knows that I know too much,
and that I must not live, lest I be dangerous to him; my only
chance is to prolong my opportunities. Something may occur
which will give me a chance to escape. I saw in his eyes something
of that gathering wrath which was manifest when he hurled that
fair woman from him. He explained to me that posts were few
and uncertain, and that my writing now would ensure ease of
mind to my friends; and he assured me with so much impressive-
ness that he would countermand the later letters, which would
be held over at Bistritz until due time in case chance would
admit of my prolonging my stay, that to oppose him would have
been to create new suspicion. I therefore pretended to fall in
with his views, and asked him what dates I should put on the
letters. He calculated a minute, and then said:
«The first should be June 12, the second June 19, and the
third June 29.»
I know now the span of my life. God help me!