– По правде говоря, я и сам не понимаю, просто такое у меня чувство. Минутами я пугаюсь, а в другие минуты мне ничуть не страшно и совсем спокойно на душе. – Он взглянул на девочек, их золотистые волосы блестели в свете лампы. – Я тебе сперва не говорил. Это случилось четыре дня назад.
– Что?
– Мне приснился сон. Что скоро все кончится, и еще так сказал голос. Совсем незнакомый, просто голос, и он сказал, что у нас на Земле всему придет конец. Наутро я про это почти забыл, пошел на службу, а потом вдруг вижу, Стэн Уиллис средь бела дня уставился в окно. Я говорю – о чем замечтался, Стэн? А он отвечает – мне сегодня снился сон, и не успел он договорить, а я уже понял, что за сон. Я и сам мог ему рассказать, но Стэн стал рассказывать первым, а я слушал.
– Тот самый сон?
– Тот самый. Я сказал Стану, что и мне тоже это снилось. Он вроде не удивился. Даже как-то успокоился. А потом мы обошли всю контору, просто так, для интереса. Это получилось само собой. Мы не говорили – пойдем поглядим, как и что. Просто пошли и видим, кто разглядывает свой стол, кто руки, кто в окно смотрит. Кое с кем я поговорил. И Стэн тоже.
– И всем приснился тот же сон?
– Всем до единого. В точности то же самое.
– И ты веришь?
– Верю. Сроду ни в чем не был так уверен.
– И когда же это будет? Когда все кончится?
– Для нас – сегодня ночью, в каком часу не знаю, а потом и в других частях света, когда там настанет ночь – земля-то вертится. За сутки все кончится.
Они посидели немного, не притрагиваясь к кофе. Потом медленно выпили его, глядя друг на друга.
– Чем же мы это заслужили? – сказала она.
– Не в том дело, заслужили или нет, просто ничего не вышло. Я смотрю, ты и спорить не стала. Почему это?
– Наверно, есть причина.
– Та самая, что у всех наших в конторе?
Она медленно кивнула.
– Я не хотела тебе говорить. Это случилось сегодня ночью. И весь день женщины в нашем квартале об этом толковали. Им снился тот самый сон. Я думала, это просто совпадение. – Она взяла со стола вечернюю газету. – Тут ничего не сказано.
– Все и так знают. – Он выпрямился, испытующе посмотрел на жену. – Боишься?
– Нет. Я всегда думала, что будет страшно, а оказывается, не боюсь.
– А нам вечно твердят про чувство самосохранения – что же оно молчит?
– Не знаю. Когда понимаешь, что все правильно, не станешь выходить из себя. А тут все правильно. Если подумать, как мы жили, этим должно было кончиться.
– Разве мы были такие уж плохие?
– Нет, но и не очень-то хорошие. Наверно, в этом вся беда – в нас ничего особенного не было, просто мы оставались сами собой, а ведь очень многие в мире совсем озверели и творили невесть что.
В гостиной смеялись девочки.
– Мне всегда казалось: вот придет такой час, и все с воплями выбегут на улицу.
– А по-моему, нет. Что ж вопить, когда изменить ничего нельзя.
– Знаешь, мне только и жаль расставаться с тобой и с девочками. Я никогда не любил городскую жизнь и свою работу, вообще ничего не любил, только вас троих. И ни о чем я не пожалею, разве что неплохо бы увидеть еще хоть один погожий денек, да выпить глоток холодной воды в жару, да вздремнуть. Странно, как мы можем вот так сидеть и говорить об этом?
– Так ведь все равно ничего не поделаешь.
– Да, верно. Если б можно было, мы бы что-нибудь делали. Я думаю, это первый случай в истории – сегодня каждый в точности знает, что с ним будет завтра.
– А интересно, что все станут делать сейчас, вечером, в ближайшие часы.
– Пойдут в кино, послушают радио, посмотрят телевизор, уложат детишек спать и сами лягут – все, как всегда.
– Пожалуй, этим можно гордиться – что все, как всегда.
Минуту они сидели молча, потом он налил себе еще кофе.
– Как ты думаешь, почему именно сегодня?
– Потому.
– А почему не в другой какой-нибудь день, в прошлом веке, или пятьсот лет назад, или тысячу?
– Может быть, потому, что еще никогда не бывало такого дня – девятнадцатого октября тысяча девятьсот шестьдесят девятого года, а теперь он настал, вот и все. Такое уж особенное число, потому что в этот год во всем мире все обстоит так, а не иначе, – вот потому и настал конец.
– Сегодня по обе стороны океана готовы к вылету бомбардировщики, и они никогда уже не приземлятся.
– Вот отчасти и поэтому.
– Что ж, – сказал он, вставая. – Чем будем заниматься? Вымоем посуду?
Они перемыли посуду и аккуратней обычного ее убрали. В половине девятого уложили девочек, поцеловали их на ночь, зажгли по ночнику у кроваток и вышли, оставив дверь спальни чуточку приоткрытой.
– Не знаю… – сказал муж, выходя, оглянулся и остановился с трубкой в руке.
– О чем ты?
– Закрыть дверь плотно или оставить щелку, чтоб было светлее…
– А может быть, дети знают?
– Нет, конечно, нет.
Они сидели и читали газеты, и разговаривали, и слушали музыку по радио, а потом просто сидели у камина, глядя на раскаленные уголья, и часы пробили половину одиннадцатого, потом одиннадцать, потом половину двенадцатого. И они думали обо всех людях на свете, о том, кто как проводит этот вечер – каждый по-своему.
– Что ж, – сказал он наконец. И поцеловал жену долгим поцелуем.
– Все-таки нам было хорошо друг с другом.
– Тебе хочется плакать? – спросил он.
– Пожалуй, нет.
Они прошли по всему дому и погасили свет, в спальне разделись, не зажигая огня, в прохладной темноте, и откинули одеяла.
– Как приятно, простыни такие свежие.
– Я устала.
– Мы все устали.
Они легли.
– Одну минуту, – сказала она.
Поднялась и вышла на кухню. Через минуту вернулась.
– Забыла привернуть кран, – сказала она.
Что-то в этом было очень забавное, он невольно засмеялся.
Она тоже посмеялась, – и правда, забавно! Потом они перестали смеяться и лежали рядом в прохладной постели, держась за руки щекой к щеке.
– Спокойной ночи, – сказал он еще через минуту.
– Спокойной ночи.
The Exiles 1949
Their eyes were fire and the breath flamed out the witches' mouths as they bent to probe the caldron with greasy stick and bony finger.
"When shall we three meet again In thunder, lightning, or in rain?"
They danced drunkenly on the shore of an empty sea, fouling the air with their three tongues, and burning it with their cats eyes malevolently aglitter:
"Round about the cauldron go;
In the poison'd entrails throw…. Double, double, toil and trouble;
Fire bum, and cauldron bubble!"
They paused and cast a glance about. "Where's the crystal? Where the needles?"
"Here!"
"Good!"
"Is the yellow wax thickened?"
"Yes!"
"Pour it in the iron mold!"
"Is the wax figure done?" They shaped it like molasses adrip on their green hands.
"Shove the needle through the heart!" "The crystal, the crystal; fetch it from the tarot bag. Dust it off; have a look!" They bent to the crystal, their faces white.
"See, see, see…"
A rocket ship moved through space from the planet Earth to the planet Mars. On the rocket ship men were dying.
The captain raised his head, tiredly. "We'll have to use the morphine."
"But, Captain-"
"You see yourself this man's condition." The captain lifted the wool blanket and the man restrained beneath the wet sheet moved and groaned. The air was full of sulphurous thunder.
"I saw it-1 saw it." The man opened his eyes and stared at the port where there were only black spaces, reeling stars, Earth far removed, and the planet Mars rising large and red. "I saw it-a bat, a huge thing, a bat with a man's face, spread over the front port. Fluttering and fluttering, fluttering and fluttering."
"Pulse?" asked the captain.
The orderly measured it. "One hundred and thirty."
"He can't go on with that. Use the morphine. Come along, Smith."
They moved away. Suddenly the floor plates were laced with bone and white skulls that screamed. The captain did not dare look down, and over the screaming he said, "Is this where Perse is?" turning in at a hatch.
A white-smocked surgeon stepped away from a body. "I just don't understand it."
"How did Perse die?"
"We don't know, Captain. It wasn't his heart, his brain, or shock. He just-died."
The captain felt the doctor's wrist, which changed to a hissing snake and bit him. The captain did not flinch. "Take care of yourself. You've a pulse too."
The doctor nodded. "Perse complained of pains-needles, he said-in his wrists and legs. Said he felt like wax, melting. He fell. I helped him up. He cried like a child. Said he had a silver needle in his heart. He died. Here he is. We can repeat the autopsy for you. Everything's physically normal."
"That's impossible! He died of something
The captain walked to a port. He smelled of menthol and iodine and green soap on his polished and manicured hands. His white teeth were dentifriced, and his ears scoured to a pinkness, as were his cheeks. His uniform was the color of new salt, and his boots were black mirrors shining below him. His crisp crewcut hair smelled of sharp alcohol. Even his breath was sharp and new and clean. There was no spot to him. He was a fresh instrument, honed and ready, still hot from the surgeon's oven.
The men with him were from the same mold. One expected huge brass keys spiraling slowly from their backs. They were expensive, talented, well-oiled toys, obedient and quick.
The captain watched the planet Mars grow very large in space.
"We'll be landing in an hour on that damned place. Smith, did you see any bats, or have other nightmares?"
"Yes, sir. The month before our rocket took off from New York, sir. White rats biting my neck, drinking my blood. I didn't tell. I was afraid you wouldn't let me come on this trip."
"Never mind," sighed the captain. "I had dreams too. In all of my fifty years I never had a dream until that week before we took off from Earth. And then every night I dreamed I was a white wolf. Caught on a snowy hill. Shot with a silver bullet. Buried with a stake in my heart." He moved his head toward Mars. "Do you think, Smith, they know we're coming?"
"We don't know if there are Martian people, sir."
"Don't we? They began frightening us off eight weeks ago, before we started. They've killed Perse and Reynolds now. Yesterday they made Grenville go blind. How? I don't know. Bats, needles, dreams, men dying for no reason. I'd call it witchcraft in another day. But this is the year 2120, Smith. We're rational men. This all can't be happening. But it is! Whoever they are, with their needles and their bats, they'll try to finish us all."
He swung about. "Smith, fetch those books from my file. I want them when we land."
Two hundred books were piled on the rocket deck.
"Thank you, Smith. Have you glanced at them? Think I'm insane? Perhaps. It's a crazy hunch. At that last moment I ordered these books from the Historical Museum. Because of my dreams. Twenty nights I was stabbed, butchered, a screaming bat pinned to a surgical mat, a thing rotting underground in a black box; bad, wicked dreams. Our whole crew dreamed of witch-things and were-things, vampires and phantoms, things they couldn 't know anything about. Why? Because books on such ghastly subjects were destroyed a century ago. By law. Forbidden for anyone to own the grisly volumes. These books you see here are the last copies, kept for historical purposes in the locked museum vaults."
Smith bent to read the dusty titles:
"Tales of Mystery and Imagination, by Edgar Allan Poe. Dracula, by Bram Stoker. Frankenstein, by Mary Shelley. The Turn of the Screw, by Henry James. The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, by Washington Irving. Rappaccini's Daughter, by Nathaniel Hawthorne. An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge, by Ambrose Bierce. Alice in Wonderland, by Lewis Carroll. The Willows, by Algernon Blackwood. The Wizard of Oz, by L. Frank Baum. The Weird Shadow Over Inns-mouth, by H. P. Lovecraft. And more! Books by Walter de la Mare, Wakefield, Harvey, Wells, Asquith, Huxley-all forbidden authors. All burned in the same year that Halloween was outlawed and Christmas was banned! But, sir, what good are these to us on the rocket?"
"I don't know," sighed the captain, "yet."
The three hags lifted the crystal where the captain's image flickered, his tiny voice tinkling out of the glass:
"I don't know," sighed the captain, "yet."
The three witches glared redly into one another's faces.
"We haven't much time," said one.
"Better warn Them in the City."
"They'll want to know about the books. It doesn't look good. That fool of a captain!"
"In an hour they'll land their rocket."
The three hags shuddered and blinked up at the Emerald City by the edge of the dry Martian sea. In its highest window a small man held a blood-red drape aside. He watched the wastelands where the three witches fed their caldron and shaped the waxes. Farther along, ten thousand other blue fires and laurel incenses, black tobacco smokes and fire weeds, cinnamons and bone dusts rose soft as moths through the Martian night. The man counted the angry, magical fires. Then, as the three witches stared, he turned. The crimson drape, released, fell, causing the distant portal to wink, like a yellow eye.
Mr. Edgar Allan Poe stood in the tower window, a faint vapor of spirits upon his breath. "Hecate's friends are busy tonight," he said, seeing the witches, far below.
A voice behind him said, "I saw Will Shakespeare at the shore earlier, whipping them on. All along the sea Shakespeare's army alone, tonight, numbers thousands: the three witches, Oberon, Hamlet's father. Puck-all, all of them-thousands! Good Lord, a regular sea of people."
"Good William." Poe turned. He let the crimson drape fall shut. He stood for a moment to observe the raw stone room, the black-timbered table, the candle flame, the other man, Mr. Ambrose Bierce, sitting very idly there, lighting matches and watching them bum down, whistling under his breath, now and then laughing to himself.
"We'll have to tell Mr. Dickens now," said Mr. Poe. "We've put it off too long. It's a matter of hours. Will you go down to his home with me, Bierce?"
Bierce glanced up merrily. "I've just been thinking-what'll happen to us?"
"If we can't kill the rocket men off, frighten them away, then we'll have to leave, of course. We'll go on to Jupiter, and when they come to Jupiter, we'll go on to Saturn, and when they come to Saturn, we'll go to Uranus, or Neptune, and then on out to Pluto-"
"Where then?"
Mr. Poe's face was weary; there were fire coals remaining, fading, in his eyes, and a sad wildness in the way he talked, and a uselessness of his hands and the way his hair fell lankly over his amazing white brow. He was like a satan of some lost dark cause, a general arrived from a derelict invasion. His silky, soft, black mustache was worn away by his musing lips. He was so small his brow seemed to float, vast and phosphorescent, by itself, in the dark room.
"We have the advantages of superior forms of travel," he said. "We can always hope for one of their atomic wars, dissolution, the dark ages come again. The return of superstition. We could go back then to Earth, all of us, in one night." Mr. Poe's black eyes brooded under his round and luminant brow. He gazed at the ceiling. "So they're coming to ruin this world too? They won't leave anything undefiled, will they?"
"Does a wolf pack stop until it's killed its prey and eaten the guts? It should be quite a war. I shall sit on the side lines and be the scorekeeper. So many Earthmen boiled in oil, so many Mss. Found in Bottles burnt, so many Earthmen stabbed with needles, so many Red Deaths put to flight by a battery of hypodermic syringes-ha!"
Poe swayed angrily, faintly drunk with wine. "What did we do? Be with us, Bierce, in the name of God! Did we have a fair trial before a company of literary critics? No! Our books were plucked up by neat, sterile, surgeon's pliers, and flung into vats, to boil, to be killed of all their mortuary germs. Damn them all!"
"I find our situation amusing," said Bierce.
They were interrupted by a hysterical shout from the tower stair.
"Mr. Poe! Mr. Bierce!"
"Yes, yes, we're coming!" Poe and Bierce descended to find a man gasping against the stone passage wall.
"Have you heard the news?" he cried immediately, clawing at them like a man about to fall over a cliff. "In an hour they'll land! They're bringing books with them-old books, the witches said! What're you doing in the tower at a time like this? Why aren't you acting?"
Poe said: "We're doing everything we can, Blackwood. You're new to all this. Come along, we're going to Mr. Charles Dickens' place-"
"-to contemplate our doom, our black doom," said Mr. Bierce, with a wink.
They moved down the echoing throats of the castle, level after dim green level, down into mustiness and decay and spiders and dreamlike webbing. "Don't worry," said Poe, his brow like a huge white lamp before them, descending, sinking. "All along the dead sea tonight I've called the others. Your friends and mine, Blackwood- Bierce. They're all there. The animals and the old women and the tall men with the sharp white teeth. The traps are waiting; the pits, yes, and the pendulums. The Red Death." Here he laughed quietly. "Yes, even the Red Death. I never thought-no, I never thought the time would come when a thing like the Red Death would actually be. But they asked for it, and they shall have it!"
"But are we strong enough?" wondered Black-wood.
"How strong is strong? They won't be prepared for us, at least. They haven't the imagination. Those clean young rocket men with their antiseptic bloomers and fish-bowl helmets, with their new religion. About their necks, on gold chains, scalpels. Upon their heads, a diadem of microscopes. In their holy fingers, steaming incense urns which in reality are only germicidal ovens for steaming out superstition. The names of Poe, Bierce, Hawthorne, Blackwood-blasphemy to their clean lips."
Outside the castle they advanced through a watery space, a tarn that was not a tarn, which misted before them like the stuff of nightmares. The air filled with wing sounds and a whirring, a motion of winds and blacknesses. Voices changed, figures swayed at campfires. Mr. Poe watched the needles knitting, knitting, knitting, in the firelight;
knitting pain and misery, knitting wickedness into wax marionettes, clay puppets. The caldron smells of wild garlic and cayenne and saffron hissed up to fill the night with evil pungency.
"Get on with it!" said Poe. "I'll be back!"
All down the empty seashore black figures spindled and waned, grew up and blew into black smoke on the sky. Bells rang in mountain towers and licorice ravens spilled out with the bronze sounds and spun away to ashes.
Over a lonely moor and into a small valley Poe and Bierce hurried, and found themselves quite suddenly on a cobbled street, in cold, bleak, biting weather, with people stomping up and down stony courtyards to warm their feet; foggy withal, and candles flaring in the windows of offices and shops where hung the Yuletide turkeys. At a distance some boys, all bundled up, snorting their pale breaths on the wintry air, were trilling, "God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen," while the immense tones of a great clock continuously sounded midnight. Children dashed by from the baker's with dinners all asteam in their grubby fists, on trays and under silver bowls.
At a sign which read SCROOGE, MARLEY AND DICKENS, Poe gave the Marley-faced knocker a rap, and from within, as the door popped open a few inches, a sudden gust of music almost swept them into a dance. And there, beyond the shoulder of the man who was sticking a trim goatee and mustaches at them, was Mr. Fezziwig clapping his hands, and Mrs. Fezziwig, one vast substantial smile, dancing and colliding with other merrymakers, while the fiddle chirped and laughter ran about a table like chandelier crystals given a sudden push of wind. The large table was heaped with brawn and turkey and holly and geese; with mince pies, suckling pigs, wreaths of sausages, oranges and apples; and there was Bob Cratchit and Little Dorrit and Tiny Tim and Mr. Fagin himself, and a man who looked as if he might be an undigested bit of beef, a blot of mustard, a crumb of cheese, a fragment of an underdone potato-who else but Mr. Marley, chains and all, while the wine poured and the brown turkeys did their excellent best to steam!
"What do you want?" demanded Mr. Charles Dickens.
"We've come to plead with you again, Charles;
we need your help," said Poe.
"Help? Do you think I would help you fight against those good men coming in the rocket? I don't belong here, anyway. My books were burned by mistake. I'm no supernaturalist, no writer of horrors and terrors like you, Poe, you, Bierce, or the others. I'll have nothing to do with you terrible people!"
"You are a persuasive talker," reasoned Poe. "You could go to meet the rocket men, lull them, lull their suspicions and then-then we would take care of them."
Mr. Dickens eyed the folds of the black cape which hid Poe's hands. From it, smiling, Poe drew forth a black cat. "For one of our visitors."
"And for the others?"
Poe smiled again, well pleased. "The Premature Burial?"
"You are a grim man, Mr. Poe."
"I am a frightened and an angry man. I am a god, Mr. Dickens, even as you are a god, even as we all are gods, and our inventions-our people, if you wish-have not only been threatened, but banished and burned, torn up and censored, ruined and done away with. The worlds we created are falling into ruin. Even gods must fight!"
"So?" Mr. Dickens tilted his head, impatient to return to the party, the music, the food. "Perhaps you can explain why we are here? How did we come here?"
"War begets war. Destruction begets destruction. On Earth, a century ago, in the year 2020 they outlawed our books. Oh, what a horrible thing-to destroy our literary creations that way! It summoned us out of-what? Death? The Beyond? I don't like abstract things. I don't know. I only know that our worlds and our creations called us and we tried to save them, and the only saving thing we could do was wait out the century here on Mars, hoping Earth might overweight itself with these scientists and their doubtings; but now they're coming to clean us out of here, us and our dark things, and all the alchemists, witches, vampires, and were-things that, one by one, retreated across space as science made inroads through every country on Earth and finally left no alternative at all but exodus. You must help us. You have a good speaking manner. We need you."
"I repeat, I am not of you, I don't approve of you and the others," cried Dickens angrily. "I was no player with witches and vampires and midnight things."
"What of A Christmas Carol?"
"Ridiculous! One story. Oh, I wrote a few others about ghosts, perhaps, but what of that? My basic works had none of that nonsense!"
"Mistaken or not, they grouped you with us. They destroyed your books-your worlds too. You must hate them, Mr. Dickens!"
"I admit they are stupid and rude, but that is all. Good day!"
"Let Mr. Marley come, at least!"
"Nor
The door slammed. As Poe turned away, down the street, skimming over the frosty ground, the coachman playing a lively air on a bugle, came a great coach, out of which, cherry-red, laughing and singing, piled the Pickwickians, banging on the door, shouting Merry Christmas good and loud, when the door was opened by the fat boy.
Mr. Poe hurried along the midnight shore of the dry sea. By fires and smoke he hesitated, to shout orders, to check the bubbling caldrons, the poisons and the chalked pentagrams. "Good!" he said, and ran on. "Fine!" he shouted, and ran again. People joined him and ran with him. Here were Mr. Coppard and Mr. Machen running with him now. And there were hating serpents and angry demons and fiery bronze dragons and spitting vipers and trembling witches like the barbs and nettles and thorns and all the vile flotsam and jetsam of the retreating sea of imagination, left on the melancholy shore, whining and frothing and spitting.
Mr. Machen stopped. He sat like a child on the cold sand. He began to sob. They tried to soothe him, but he would not listen. "I just thought," he said. "What happens to us on the day when the last copies of our books are destroyed?"
The air whirled.
"Don't speak of it!"
"We must," wailed Mr. Machen. "Now, now, as the rocket comes down, you, Mr. Poe; you, Coppard; you, Bierce-all of you grow faint. Like wood smoke. Blowing away. Your faces melt-"
"Death! Real death for all of us."
"We exist only through Earth's sufferance. If a final edict tonight destroyed our last few works we'd be like lights put out."
Coppard brooded gently. "I wonder who I am. In what Earth mind tonight do I exist? In some African hut? Some hermit, reading my tales? Is he the lonely candle in the wind of time and science? The flickering orb sustaining me here in rebellious exile? Is it him? Or some boy in a discarded attic, finding me, only just in time! Oh, last night I felt ill, ill, ill to the marrows of me, for there is a body of the soul as well as a body of the body, and this soul body ached in all of its glowing parts, and last night I felt myself a candle, guttering. When suddenly I sprang up, given new light! As some child, sneezing with dust, in some yellow garret on Earth once more found a worn, time-specked copy of me! And so I'm given a short respite!"
A door banged wide in a little hut by the shore. A thin short man, with flesh hanging from him in folds, stepped out and, paying no attention to the others, sat down and stared into his clenched fists.
"There's the one I'm sorry for," whispered Blackwood. "Look at him, dying away. He was once more real than we, who were men. They took him, a skeleton thought, and clothed him in centuries of pink flesh and snow beard and red velvet suit and black boot; made him reindeers, tinsel, holly. And after centuries of manufacturing him they drowned him in a vat of Lysol, you might say."
The men were silent.
"What must it be on Earth?" wondered Poe. "Without Christmas? No hot chestnuts, no tree, no ornaments or drums or candles-nothing;
nothing but the snow and wind and the lonely, factual people…."
They all looked at the thin little old man with the scraggly beard and faded red velvet suit.
"Have you heard his story?"
"I can imagine it. The glitter-eyed psychiatrist, the clever sociologist, the resentful, froth-mouthed educationalist, the antiseptic parents-"
"A regrettable situation," said Bierce, smiling, "for the Yuletide merchants who, toward the last there, as I recall, were beginning to put up holly and sing Noel the day before Halloween. With any luck at all this year they might have started on Labor Day!"
Bierce did not continue. He fell forward with a sigh. As he lay upon the ground he had time to say only, "How interesting." And then, as they all watched, horrified, his body burned into blue dust and charred bone, the ashes of which fled through the air in black tatters.