The children watching this absurd laughed, but Lopukhova heard nothing. She conducted Larisa and, thinking that it − is Vika, told her the following:
− you behaved badly, and I want to adopt her. As I will be able to make it if you − the disobedient girl, and disobedient are not necessary to me.
Larisa looked back. She saw Alice observing all this situation from outside. It seemed that nobody saw it. Alice sat on a bench one and looked at Larisa leaving afar.
Next day Alice sent from orphanage in the specialist institution which studies similar cases of children's mentality. But I nevertheless am sure that instead of Alice they took absolutely other child, and Alice left. It disappeared from a look. Having left behind only reminiscence.
As for Larisa, she was adopted by Lopukhova. After Alice ceased to use on Lopukhova the force, she told Larisa:
− Vika was adopted, I would like that you became me if not the daughter, then younger sister.
− Why I?
− Larisa, – beginning to smoke a cigarette, with care there began Nina Mikhaelovna, – I cannot have children and therefore I work in orphanage. All of you are my children, but I would like to have the lawful daughter. – She made an inhaling, and continued. – To me you attracted with Vika here. Frankly speaking, I wanted to adopt both of you, but my financial position does not allow me to adopt more than one child. – She made a pause, made an inhaling and continued. – Yes, I am not ideal. Here you see, I smoke. But believe me, it will not prevent me to love you. – She made an inhaling again. – Think, you would like to live how you live now, or will go with me? At me the house with the site, clean air what else it is necessary for life?
Larisa agreed. But before she asked:
− Tell why the first Vika, but not I?
Nina Mikhaelovna told nothing distinct. She shrugged shoulders and told only one:
− I do not know. You to liking to me both, but why first Vika, but not you?. – Nina Mikhaelovna finished smoking a cigarette and, having extinguished it, told. – I ask, do not call me Nina Mikhaelovna.
− And how to me to call you?
− Just Nina, – Nina Mikhaelovna answered, – or just mother.
There passed time, Larisa grew up, blossomed, graduated from the institute and went to work as the junior trainee.
Somehow time she met the girlfriend on orphanage. This was Vika. She invited her to herself to the apartment, Larisa agreed. Yes, whatever you may say? Life cheerful piece. One gives everything, to others − nothing. And happened to Vika, she was lucky! She extended the lottery ticket and won. Now she was married to one businessman, gave birth to him to three daughters and lived happily. Driving about on the city on Peugeot, she did not work anywhere, went on expensive shops and salons, directing maraft and spending the money earned with the husband. The husband always took it with himself abroad, and there she had a rest, had a rest after receptions on which the husband took it. And what from life still it is necessary? Walk, have fun and sing.
Larisa told about the life. She did not complain of her, and was grateful to her that the destiny reduced it with Nina. She made of her the person. The hardworking, not afraid of difficulties woman. And when Vika took an interest as at Larisa of business on the family front, she told that she got acquainted recently with the young man who to it is nice.
Vika immediately blurted out:
− It is nice? – she began to smoke a cigarette. – Well and its zakhomutayta, in what a problem?
− In anything, – she heaved a deep sigh, and then admitted: – I am still a virgin.
Having heard this recognition, Vika was surprised. She never before for the life saw anybody that at this age not to lose virginity. She lost it after her stepbrother, having come home is not able to connect two words at all and being angry very much because his girlfriend remained not satisfied with him, he drove all the rage on Vick, and that for the first time learned that such violence and sex. She became pregnant and in five months lost the child. Unplanned and undesirable pregnancy was interrupted. Unfortunately, the tyrant was not attracted to the answer, and Vika was told that if she does not want problems, then she will tell nothing, and for it she will remain in this family and it will not be sent to the street, to orphanage where life is worse, than at them. Vika agreed to be silent, she did not want neither on the street, nor in orphanage. She wanted to live, live as she wanted, to have money and the power. After this case she swore that more nobody will disturb it, nobody will touch it without it on that izvoleniye. Now she will choose, GDE, KOGDA, I SKEM? to do to it in this life, life full of violence and the conflicts.
Somehow time she accidentally got on a fashion show and there met Robert. They were similar at each other, only one distinguished them: Robert was rich, and Vick is absent −. But she solved this problem. She became pregnant from it, at the same time claimed and he saw it that Vika was a virgin. How so did it turn out? Probably, this act happened when at women monthly? And Vika can thought up what else, goodness knows? But everything ended with a wedding. Obviously, Robert never learns who the father of her children. It? Someone else? And if he nevertheless learns? It is unlikely he will want to lose the state and to give it to other people's children. Told this story of the biography of Vick to Larisa.
Larisa, listening to this story with bated breath, could not believe that she is capable of it. It was it in wildness. She could not believe that Vika was capable of it, and said in low tones.
− But same deception? How could you go to it?
Vika only grinned.
− Deception? No, I call it not deception, but benefit for myself, – made the next inhaling, enjoying cigarette smoke, she told: – No matter, that there who thinks of me, – she told. – The main thing that children are happy and will not need anything. And all the rest – it otmakhnut a hand, – so, one illusion of the better life. Who told that in marriage happiness?
Larisa shrugged shoulders.
− Well?
− you have no children yet, – Vika continued, – and when you have them, you remember my words. The main thing − is children, and for the sake of them mothers will be ready to do anything that they were happy and did not need anything not that we.
Larisa did not argue with Vika, she understood that in something she is right. Start up not in everything, but in the main thing, this main thing. The main thing, is children, and for the sake of them mothers will be ready to do anything that they were happy, and did not need anything. These words were a synonym maternal happiness what woman would not be.
But we will return to the apartment to Vika, the conversation of two women got new turn. Vika offered Larisa the following:
− you Know, today we have a party whether you want to take a walk at it? "Maybe you will find somebody?" – Vika ambiguously told. – Nobody knows who knows?" Maybe destiny to smile to you?
− Is not present, − Larisa answered. – Parties not for me.
− Why?
− I consider that, at these parties only dirt and platitude, and more than nothing.
− And you, so not such?
− What not such? – Larisa did not understand. – You it about what?
Vika answered the following:
− the Virgin of twenty two years living by the rules. See what girlfriend that tell, all not so. – On her face there was a hated grin. It seemed that she will begin to hate the interlocutor finally. – You live by rules and in poverty. Unless it is life? – she told with a smile. – Look at yourself, poverty! Do you say now that all that I made − incorrectly? And be at you such chance, you would grasp it, and all your correctness will appear in a toilet bowl. – She for nervousness began to smoke a cigarette. – You do not know what is the real life, and would know, so did not speak, – it finished the level speech. Then added, kind of encouraging her. – Happy you Larisk! – and then kind of in accidentally asked. – Do you have everything for happiness?
Larisa heaved a deep sigh. She could not admit that she is happy: she was unfortunate. To it, as well as all women, there was a wish for simple love and happiness. The truth her happiness was in becoming as this woman, successful and beautiful. Larisa envied it, she wanted that she to it as well as Vika, smiled happiness, and she did not run for work any more, and would stay at home with kids, to drive about worldwide at the expense of the husband. But she never would admit to nobody it, even under terrible torture of death.
−Да, – Larisa lay, and heaved a deep sigh. – I have everything.
But by the form it was not so. She was unfortunate, and it could be caught in her look.
− Is not present, – with full confidence Vika said. – You are unfortunate. You see me, want the same what and I, the authorities. Not happiness, namely the power and that to prove it to you, you have to remain on a party. Agree?
Larisa purely out of female curiosity took an interest.
− There though there will be decent guys?
Vika smiled.
− I Assure you, there will be everything: both binge, and guys for every taste. Choose − I do not want.
Party. What can be told about it? Party as party. Guests listened to music, had fun. Someone sang something on a karaoke. Someone retired to the bedroom. Men spoke about business, policy, about financially unstable situation in the world. One of attendees said that now the financial position is not stable, hardly somebody will want to run business with someone now. The second man did not agree with the opponent, he said that the financial position is stable today and that he invested money in one enterprise and waits for profit. On what the third opponent said that it is the best of all to invest money in the business and with anybody not to deal. All opponents agreed with this thesis.
But we will return to Larisa. Where it? One sits, misses. It was not interesting to it to be present at similar parties. She agreed to go to her only as agreed upon the girlfriend. She nevertheless wanted to find happiness, but how to find it? Larisa did not know it. Here the elderly man sat down at its table, it seemed to it disgusting and disgusting. His face was not pleasant to it, on the contrary, it expressed a toshnotvornost. Understand it as you want, I write as I see and I perceive this or that person. All of us are different, and not to me to judge other people if they cause in me contempt and disgust. But we will continue. Having sat down at my little table, he looked round and asked:
− I here never saw you, you the acquaintance Vicki or her husband, Robert?
− I am acquaintance Vicki, – Larisa told and added: – She invited me.
− And, clearly, – he told, and then it was presented. – My name is Victor, and you?
− Larisa.
− Very pleasantly Larisa.
− And me, Victor.
They got to talking. They had a lot of bigger, than it was possible to imagine. For example, both of them were single and lonely. But unlike Larisa Victor was a widower. His wife died in plane crash two years ago, and now it searching. Of course, he could marry, but nobody loved him, all needed only its money, and anything else.
Larisa almost told nothing about herself. She was afraid that she will tell superfluous and by that will bring Vika.
− Yes, you not the talkative woman? At you you will try to find out nothing.
− It is a complement?
− Certainly yes. – He took her wrist in the hand, and told. – You are beautiful! Such women are pleasant to me.
Larisa was flattered told. She seldom heard from men that she is a clever woman. Though if the man speaks to you about it, then he considers you the full silly woman. Larisa with care took an interest.
− What such? – and then added, kind of reproachfully: – Silly?
− That you? – Victor was surprised. – I meant nothing similar. What you the silly woman if you keep the mouth shut? Other girlfriend would blurt out everything about the girlfriend now, and you do not.
Larisa thought.
− It is a complement?
− If you want, then yes. – Then he suggested to walk. Here it already found what looked for. Larisa fascinated him. He, strangely enough, was happy that he got acquainted with it. Walking on streets of Moscow, they long spoke on interesting them equally topics. There came night, but they did not notice it. They walked on the night city and enjoyed each other conversation. But here they approached hotel. Already dawned.
− Dawns, – Victor told. – As time quickly flies. Did not manage to leave Robert's apartment as already dawns.
− Time, it quickly runs, will not even notice.
Victor agreed with it. He as nobody knew how time quickly flies. It runs, and do not keep up with it. Who knows how many to us it is released time? Some do not appreciate it, and some simply wave on it a hand and only in old age understand that time − this only thing that at them remained. Death, time stops and, eventually … the last hour, the end soon.
Biological clock has the time too. It much less, than life cycle of time therefore women hurry to become pregnant. They look for any ways it to make and, eventually, find. Whether there was something between Victor and Larisa, do not know. I think that the man the woman go to hotel not in order that to speak about something.
Larisa took an interest.
− you live here?
− Well you! For whom do you hold me? I live absolutely not here, just I arrived on affairs.
I do not know that Larisa felt then. Pain? Offense? Something else can. But she then told:
− I considered that all of you the decent person.
Victor grinned.
− And what you think, you really are pleasant to me? Do not forget the place, a knot. – He made a pause and asked: – Well you go? – Then he kind of with a smile added: − be not afraid, I will not offend.
Larisa immediately left the hotel foyer. She ran out on the street and ran somewhere in darkness. Down the street, badly lit with light. Here it stopped. She had no place to run more. It was at the dark deadlock. Around darkness, only there, in the distance, someone's shadow.
After this case Larisa never met Vika. For it it became the enemy No 1. To so set up the girlfriend? It is necessary to be true suky.
Chapter-5
Letters to …
Maybe this history took place, can and is not present? Can Larisa raped in the lane, and can and is not present? All this consigns to the past. Let's return to the present. What's next?
Roman came back home. He was angry. Being angry with itself, he could not understand how occurred as really happened. He overslept with the woman, with the trainee. That destroyed its marriage. Roman was angry with everything and on all. Who can understand these men? Than they think, having seen a female body? Some of them immediately conduct women in a bed, some only conduct them in restaurants, and they are necessary to some for the sake of numerous receptions to which you will not come without ladies. There are those who only sleep with them, without obligations, without something. Rum, or is just a way to give to her child his name? It is not known whether she was a virgin or not? And she can became pregnant from someone another, at the same time her virginity was not disturbed? It can be actually, and cases such took place in the history of medicine. Yes, doubts were proved. Roman did not know to whom and what to trust? He did not know in general as further to it to arrive, and wrote the letter of the mother.
The letter to mother
Hello, dear mother! How are you doing? How are you? I hope, you are healthy? Forgive that did not write you so long. It is a pity that you cannot arrive to me. Here it is good. However, if you want, then I will arrive to you to the village. I hope, economy as it should be.