Larisa feeling that she is right, she shamed Nadezhda.
– What? There is nothing to tell you? What became silent? Language withered? You see, I am right!
The hope could not answer, it having kind of taken offense at itself that she could not object to it, sniffed, and having turned away from Larisa, sat down on a sofa, and having crossed hands on a breast, having begun to cry, told.
– I am not a tyrant, I wanted that to my son it was good, and all the rest is not important. – then she added. – All that did was for the benefit of family. – She heaved a deep sigh. – Not to you to judge me, to you. – on these words she became silent. She has nothing more what to tell. It was … What was? However, each woman knows this state in which the Woman has nothing to parry the opponent, and she broken and humiliated remains extreme. Extreme in eyes only the debater, but also in the opinion of the native person.
Roman and Larisa exchanged glances. Larisa did not expect that everything so will be? That Nadezhda will return from the next world, and will only return, and it will appear here, in this apartment, in this room. Will prove as usual the case.
But whether all this is real? All that happens to them? As Nadezhda could survive, at the same time she was buried. How in general it is possible? The way of the dead man to lift from a grave and to recover it is not created yet? All this from area of a fantasy? However, if who read A. Belyaeva. "The HEAD of PROFESSOR DOUEL", it is possible to assume that perhaps in the future it will be possible? To recover the person. But we will return to reality. In the following chapter I will tell you about it. Let's begin with when Larisa and Nadezhda briskly talked then paralyzed Nadezhda. So, we will begin. But before we will look what is done by Roman. He listened to Nadezhda and did not understand what in general occurs? Why it is possible. For it all this was as a dream. A dream in which its nightmare was shown. Subconscious nightmare his subconsciousness. He sat down on a sofa, embraced mother, and having clung to her, told.
– I understand you. – He looked at Larisa and added. – Larisa understands you too, but understand also you us, we should live separately. You understand that it is impossible, to live together.
– The hope tenderly looked at the son and told.
– Of course I understand you and therefore I leave. Live as you know. – then she reminded. – But you remember, you are married. Not to a gozha to lead a double life. – then she grinned, and having looked at Larisa, added. – You want happiness, but whether will bring you happiness these the relation? – She looked at the watch. Midday. She told. – It is time for me, I have to go.
So, on it Nadezhda having said goodbye to Roman and Larisa, left. It went to a door, and having left the apartment closed behind itself a door. Having left one sitting on a sofa and little the understanding two people. Larisa and Roman.
At this moment Roman jumped from a sofa, and ran to a door. He opened a door and having jumped out in a corridor shouted one word. – MOTHER. – but it was not any more. It disappeared also mysteriously as well as appeared.
So, now we learn how Nadezhda was hospitalized and who is guilty of it? So, we will begin.
Chapter-4
Tragic meeting
So, we will begin with the moment when Larisa came home to Roman. He called by it the address once, invited to come, but then Larisa refused to pay to it a visit, she hurried on the last electric train. Well, can do it was all to the best? It then did not meet Nadezhda. Nobody knows, than then this meeting of two absolutely different women would end? However, this meeting took place. As Roman presented it to the wife Vera, it of course was not. And could not be. Larisa was such silly woman so to come to absolutely unfamiliar family and to tell., no, it is simple to demand that Roman married it. No. Of course, it was not. And what really happened there? What occurred it that Nadezhda got a heart attack and the paralysis which followed it? Now we learn it. So …
There was a clear day. People, in which city of Moscow their preogromny quantity that even Moscow went out of MKAD, there was along the street a woman. It was beautiful. However, she was always a beauty, but today it looked best of all. It had an excellent mood! Yes anyhow? The gynecologist had it today, and that told it a joyful message. She is pregnant. Term, about three weeks. Yes, this joyful news to any woman, the truth if this child desired, but not a fruit of a single petty intrigue which you will also not remember more. Yes, this woman was happy. She was happy this pregnancy! All the life she wanted to have children. But it was impossible. Single sex contradicted its all female nature. She considered that the child had to is conceived in love. It is not casual at all. She considered that all nature human existence, its kernel, has to be only in sincere and serene love. Love first of all to that person who will always be near the loving person. Never will bring it, will never betray, will never tell a bad word. It will always be near it. Always, to the most death. Then, he has to love society in which he lives. Let it be not ideal, but it is society in which society all of us live.
Who was this woman? She was called Larisa. recently it was with the person loving it, and the result did not keep itself waiting long. Here it is a fruit of her pure and serene love. Her future child who is in her belly. Now, going along the new Arbat, she could not think of anything, only of pregnancy. It went to theatrical school, to common people the received name PIKE. The Boris Shchukin Theatre Institute how many left it remarkable actors, now many of them drop. Vanish in the native school, in the PIKE.
But let it pass, with school. Now in it there are occupations. Let's look what is done now by Larisa?
She approached the lane where to be the Pike, and having turned into the yard, saw Roman standing with flowers, waiting for it. It was in high spirits today. The matter is that the day before it it is made accidentally understood that on the presentation on which it was. Was together with Larisa, some unclear in the way there was his wife Vera, and learned about everything. Yes, I will tell you? Situation? However, Roman long was not upset. In the end of the ends Vera all the same would learn the truth. It is better earlier, than later, whether a lie? Of course, it is the truth. To carry weight freight on heart very hard, the truth then to tell then this truth, much more difficult. But when it is the person will make, he will feel true simplification not only on heart, but also in the soul.
Roman unexpectedly for himself fell in love with Larisa. Fell in love with that without understanding, and now when Larisa reported to him about the pregnancy, Roman was in the seventh heaven! Larisa was happy too. It was her firstborn. The child conceived on love. But. Always there is but, in any of a situation, and it, but was nearby. Belief – Roman's wife how to be with it? They together lived many years, and hardly Roman will divorce Vera. Silence. Both of them looked at each other a loving look and were silent. They had nothing to speak each other. All of them understood without words. Yes, always easily we read love language, as well as language of hatred and contempt. Contempt for the person whom you hate. You hate with all the heart, you hate all heart, all interiors of the body. I write it as Larisa learns what is hatred and contempt. Now Roman suggested to go to his mother, and to tell everything to her about them. But Larisa had no time now to go together with Roman to it home that he acquainted her with the mother. She assured it that today hours in six, it will come to it home. Also settled upon that.
In the evening, hours in six, the call to a door was distributed. The melody of a nightingale calmed to a shower living in this apartment Nadezhda. Already advanced in years, it did not take out noise of the daily city and therefore it exchanged on not brisk street. The greens, silence, only some cars passing on this street reminded that Nadezhda lives in the city. Do you ask in what part of Moscow she lived? Station Veshnyaki. Between the station and the subway. The wood, greens, birdies sing. What else is necessary to the person?
The door was opened by Nadezhda. Having looked at Larisa, she asked.
– You to whom? – and these words were pronounced so carelessly and cold that Larisa understood if there is a conversation with this woman, then it will be quite rigid. The matter is that Roman was late, he told the mother that today to them Larisa will come, and all of them together have to discuss all current situation.
Larisa was presented.
– My name is Larisa. – then she asked – And Roman houses?
The hope answered also cold, as well as began a conversation with Larisa.
– He is out. – then she asked. – And to you it, what for?
Larisa answered.
– He asked me to come.
The hope carefully asked.
– And?
Here became Larisa finally clearly that she is an undesirable guest here. On the person of Hope everything was clear. She considered it the true evil. Body furuncle, a cancer tumor which needs urgently to be removed.
Larisa just told.
– We should talk?
– To talk? – Nadezhda grinned. – About what?
Larisa immediately told.
– It will be a question of Roman.
The hope pricked up the ears. She did not expect that Larisa who came to it will dare to cross a threshold of her house.
– About Roman? – as if without understanding Nadezhda told. And what? "With my son everything is all right" – she told so as if she did not understand at all what was meant by Larisa when she told that it will be a question of Roman? – with my son everything is all right. We have nothing with you to speak about it.
Larisa told the convincing tone.
– No, is about what, believe.
The hope frowned, and with clean that on is a jeer asked.
– Well and about what with you to speak to me?
Here Larisa blurted out.
– About the child.
The hope choked. Then thought.
"Yes as she dares? To come to me to the apartment and to say that she is pregnant. She is pregnant, and me what? Well she became pregnant what it? Each woman will give rise sooner or later what to a tut of it"?
Here Larisa added.
– Father Roman, your son.
Here Nadezhda stood. It was in full confusion. If she still hoped that this woman will leave while the going is good that she will manage to show the door it, and to tell Roman that it did not come, then here was absolutely differently. According to her, Larisa was only the impudent maid who deigned to come to it home and to say that her son the father of her child? It had enough impudence to say directly it all this directly? Here is the BOUGH! The BOUGH also is.
Larisa asked permission to enter the apartment to talk in a quiet situation.
Nothing remained to Nadezhda how to invite her to the apartment where they had a serious conversation.
But before we will look how there lives Nadezhda. She lived in three to the apartment. Ancient furniture, the nineteenth century was not bad combined with an interior. One of rooms was a study of Nadezhda. In it there was a table book racks on which there were many books. The books relating to history and philosophy. The matter is that she was a teacher, the dean of the historical and philosophical university in one of the cities being the USSR. The second room was sleeping. In it there was a bed, the TV, and other. The third room was a drawing room. Nadezhda received guests in it.
Having passed to the living room, Larisa asked.
– It is possible to sit down?
To sit down was where. The big table standing in the middle of the room, seemed as it is impossible the best in order that at it to hold negotiations.
The hope cold answered.
– And I have a choice? Of course you sit down. – then she grinned. – Not to stand to us really?
Larisa sat down at a table, and Nadezhda opposite to her. She told.
– I listen.
Larisa asked.
– Tell, you it is aware of our situation with Roman?
The hope steamed.
– Of course it is aware. My son always tells me about the problems.
– Means you know …
– That you is pregnant. – Nadezhda killed it. – Of course I know. And what? Now you will file a lawsuit against alimony? Yes. – It showed to Larisa a fig. – Not for this purpose I raised it that some there whore enticed from us alimony? – will not leave, still it is necessary to prove that this his child. And that will oversleep with all there, and then look for who could provide the degenerate.
Larisa having quietly listened to Nadezhda, told.
– I am not a whore. Roman's child. This will confirm any analysis of DNA.
– Aha? – With a hated look Nadezhda looked at Larisa. – Analysis of DNA, here laughter! Yes it and can be forged.
Larisa immediately steamed.
– It you about?
The hope hesitated. It was visible that she hides something? Something that concerned it one. It, and more than anybody.
Larisa assumed.
– Means you gave birth your words to the degenerate?
The hope grew hysterical. – Do not dare to call my son the degenerate! – on her face there was a rage in a resnicker with hatred and rage. – You, whore! – then she added. – Not the degenerate, he has my son the father.
Larisa did not sustain. She tried to be courteous, but this conversation left much to be desired. The hope apprehended Larisa in bayonets, she felt in it threat for the little son, for the Roman. She as could, bellowed.
– And you do not call me the whore, and my child the degenerate! – then it steamed. – I am not a whore! I just fell in love with your son.
The hope grinned.
– Did you fall in love with it? How it is strange to hear it from you Larisa? You do not love it, you just want it. – she made a pause. – I do not know who the father of your child, but if it he, my son, then I do not envy you. He is married. He is married long ago, and he is not going to get divorced because of a love petty intrigue.
Larisa immediately asked a question.
– You are confident in it?
The hope assured.
– On all hundred.
Larisa smiled. In her smiles there was something ominous. Hope could not understand that it wants to tell this ominous smile to it now. She for a second felt ill at ease. She felt that Larisa wants to tell something, something that never concerned her, something that she always knew, but was afraid to admit it to herself.
Larisa knew that this news to Nadezhda was not news about which she did not know. She, of course, well knew about her, but preferred not to extend to this subject. Larisa told.
– And Roman said to me that he wants children, and I will give him them.
These words shocked Nadezhda. She knew about a problem in their family, but this problem was only in their house. Out of limits of their walls, nobody was able to afford it to take out.
The hope immediately steamed.
– His wife will take care of it.
Here Larisa unexpectedly asked.
– You are confident in it?
At this moment, Nadezhda understood that Larisa knows everything. Roman told it that Vera will never give birth to him the child. It was really impossible? On Vera's assurance, she could not give rise. But his mother knew what put not in Vera, matter in Roman at all. But, whereas it promoted new life? It remained a question number one.
The hope assured Larisa again.
– On all hundred.
Larisa immediately steamed.