– Let's hope that will survive.
Roman looked at Larisa, and that at him. It seemed that they thought about same. About professor, delivering at Larisa. Professor Eduard Velyaminovich. It had to help. He is a professor, and knows about nurseries about diseases Bol somebody. Yes, it has to help. Larisa asked.
– Tell the doctor if I bring mine the boy to hospital, you to object you do not awake?
The doctor said.
– I strongly object. The child will not be able to postpone a trip.
– Then I would like to invite the expert.
The doctor pricked up the ears.
– What expert?
– Professor who delivered at me.
– That ж. – the doctor heaved a deep sigh. – If you do not trust us?. – It made a pause, having kind of taken offense at these words. – Call the professor.
Here Larisa understood that she told nonsense. She that unwillingly, told the doctor that he is incompetent in the work. Well, it can and so? Who knows?
Leaving hospital, Larisa took Roman by hand. She did not know what to do to it? How to arrive in this situation? But this was not that problem, about which it should have worried. Suddenly seemed to it that in the distance, somewhere behind trees flew whose that shadow. Past shadow. It outright frightened her. On all body ran the chill developing into a fever. It nestled on Roman, but here having again seen this shadow. Something in it was ominous, something otherworldly, something terrifying. Larisa unexpectedly screamed, and having flinched, looked at Roman with scaredly terrifying eyes.
That, having immediately looked at it, scaredly asked.
– What is with you?
Having recovered, Larisa tone as if someone to death frightened her, answered with faltering tone.
– Anything. – her eyes exhaled horror. – I as it should be. – here she recovered, and having shaken added. – I in a full order.
– And seemed to me?
– What it seemed to you? – Larisa questioned, and immediately answered. – I in a full order. – then she added. – Let's go, in MONICA to call us. They went along the corridor and thought of something. It is difficult to understand what they spoke about. They discussed whether to call professor Eduard Velyaminovich or not. What they solved I do not know, but having left hospital to them there was a following. What I will tell you now of.
Chapter-3
Revival of Hope
They went down from steps of hospital. Larisa watchfully looked back, and without having seen anybody, thought that it only came in dream to her more than nothing. She did not know that or who it was? Whose that shadow? Terrible, cold, empty. A shadow of the person who perhaps is already dead. And she can was mistaken? She hoped that she was mistaken, and this not the ghost of the past. This only the played imagination her imagination. But she was mistaken. The shadow, pursued its all road, she as though knew where she lived. And here, having opened an apartment door, and having entered it. It changed clothes of footwear and having put on house-shoes, passed to the room. What their surprise when they saw in the room сидящею on a sofa of the person was. He watched TV. The channel which was switched on, this Nat Geo Wild channel: HD. On it there was a program about animals. Roman and Larisa carefully approached the person sitting on a sofa, and having bypassed a sofa saw that this was a woman, and not just the woman, before Roman sat his late mother. The hope revived. But how it is possible? Nadezhda died? He was at its funeral? Without knowing what to tell, he pronounced only the unique word.
– Mother? Did you as appear here?
Having grinned as if with a jeer, the woman answered.
– What, was not expected? – then it turned the head to Larisa. – Well hi Larisa! Did not expect me to see?
Larisa was dumbfounded. It was shocked. The woman sitting before it was dead!? Besides, they already buried her! It lay in a grave. But whether it lay in it? Who was this woman? Who is she?
Roman did not know what to do to it? Before it his mother sat! Living person, not the ghost. But if it not the ghost? If his mother Nadezhda is real, then who lies there, at the cemetery, in a grave? Who that person who lies there? And the coffin can it is empty? Maybe a funeral took place without dead man? This question haunted it.
Here unexpectedly Roman exclaimed.
– MOTHER!!! – he was glad and confused at the same time. I am glad because he saw the mother again. The only native person in this life. Yes, she was for it the native person. He did not appreciate it earlier. Considered that it only one in this world, and nobody is necessary to it. He will live one this life. Now he was glad! I am glad that sees the mother. Now, when from considered it died, it here. He uncertainly added – this you?
That steamed.
– And whom you wanted to see here? – with irony and a sneer Nadezhda told. Then it it is derisive and in too time it is ironic. – Dead man? – in its voice sounded a certain note of laughter. – I am not dead! I am alive! Zhivey is no place. – then she addressed Larisa. – And you considered me the dead woman? – she grinned. – You were told, it is necessary to pay for everything. – then she looked the novel, and with a jeer in a voice told. – Do you watch Roman whom you married? It otet me to kill, it is good that I was warned.
Roman did not understand what Nadezhda speaks about? He knew nothing about it. He was discouraged. He understood nothing. Then he took an interest at Larisa.
– What does she speak about?
Larisa shrugged shoulders.
– I do not know. – she told, on her face there was a surprise and misunderstanding. She did not assume that Nadezhda will be alive, and Alice betrayed it. She told that everything will execute, and did not keep the word. Now she hated Alice, hated for the fact that she betrayed it. Larisa took an interest. – You about what?
The hope grinned and having risen from a sofa, approached Larisa, and in an ear whispered.
– You know about what.
Of course Larisa knew about what Nadezhda did not finish speaking. What held back. She wanted it to recognize, but she knew what Nadezhda spoke about. But it was paralyzed? It could not move. She in general was not mobile. Larisa saw how Roman suffers, could not make the decision. Yes this decision was it is not easy to make. It was necessary to solve, to kill Nadezhda and to alleviate her suffering or until the end of life to doom her to torture. Long life a plant which will destroy only the life, but also life of close people, Roman and Vera. And when at Larisa the child was born, everything was over. Roman would throw Larisa, and that remained one. Larisa could not allow it. Then there was Alice, and she with her concluded the devil bargain. Which was in that Alice killed Nadezhda, and that in turn to pay off Alice. But what price? She did not know it. Only now she understood what was meant by Alice.
The belief knew about this situation with Nadezhda too. After Roman told Vera about what to him was advised by the doctor, that met Larisa, and told that Roman needs support now that to them you should not look for guilty of the incident with all of them now. The novel needed their help, and they came to the general opinion. What yet not to be resolved a situation with Nadezhda, they will not argue that now it is better for Roman.
So, it also occurred. Vera and Laris did not begin to argue these heavy minutes for Roman. They thought that all this to end. Both of them wanted a fast solution, Alice was an exit.
In the previous book it was told who such Alice? Alice is the character created by human mentality, his loneliness. Larisa felt lonely. It was one, all the life, and did not want to remain alone. Obviously therefore it had Alice's image. Girls who are always with us. Our the second I. I to which it is possible to talk.
Roman understood nothing? Why Nadezhda here? Who then is buried in a grave? These questions were left without answer. He told.
– I understand nothing. – then he fainted.
Laris stared at Roman, then having recovered screamed, and having fallen to a floor, having inclined before it, began to pull it shoulders, kind of bringing him round.
– Yes that it occurs? – she looked at Nadezhda and in despair screamed that was urine. – You is dead! You ghost Oh, damn! – on her eyes tears appeared. It had a hysterics. She screamed. – Yes that from us it is necessary to you, the Devil you a pobera!? Leave us alone! Let's us live! – on beggarly looked at Nadezhda. – I beg!
The hope looked at Larisa and Roman, and she did not feel sorry for them at all. Both of them betrayed it. Death wished it.
Roman, her son, wanted not to be only dependent on it. Not to clean after it the vessel, to hold down itself on eyelids a chain. They were united by only one, to be happy. That Larisa wanted to get rid of her because she wanted happiness, purely women's happiness. Love and family, and for it could kill somebody. Larisa grinned. In it there was no sympathy at all. There was nothing human.
The hope looked at Larisa and Roman, and to it became disgustingly sickening. She saw before herself, not the son, and his mother of his children, and two is perfect strangers to her the person. People who such were not. In their eyes there was only hatred and rage. The hope told.
– As I am sorry you. You, two. I see how you hate me, want that I quickly died! What? perhaps and to happen, but before … – the Hope ominously grinned, appear, that she just about and will spit them in a face. Then she told. – Live. What you for people such? You wish death to the person who in fact made nothing bad. I only wished happiness to the son. And what mother wishes bad to the son? In my opinion, only нелюдь, and that to seek to give to the child happiness! And you? – here she made a pause, and heaved a deep sigh. – it agrees. – she told. Perhaps I not the best mother, all are not ideal. But unless you Roman is ideal? Do you say that you loved Nina, but why you married Vera? What? It so fascinated you what you and about Nina forgot? – Nadezhda reproached the son. – maybe you never loved Nina? And can?. – here she for a second faltered, it was occurred by a thought that Roman wanted from it only sex. Sex more than anything. And this sexual inclination, it took for love, and the love actually was not. Only sexual inclination. The hope grinned. – Here you see, – she told. – You did not love Nina. If you love it, then you would not change it on trust. Love? In a concept the mankind is not present love, only sexual inclination, and only. – then, kind of in manual to Roman, Nadezhda said. – Here I see that me you have nothing to tell. There is nothing to object me. I mean it is right.
Yes, Nadezhda was right. The rights in everything. For her son Roman, the love was not. There was only a sympathy and sex. Practically nobody knows what is love. The love is the sacrifice made by someone for the sake of something. To protect the loved one having offered itself. Theory that victim donation and love this two different forms, this mistake. Self-sacrifice and love not of a razdelima. Many people itself offered themselves for the sake of something? For the sake of love to fine! Let's not list all these delights of life, for and for the sake of what it is possible to offer itself. All to come down to one. The love is a self-sacrifice of one person in relation to another. Who can brag now that he loves someone? This person is capable to offer himself for the sake of another? On this question there is no answer. Even century people will sympathize each other, considering that this love. But they are capable to offer themselves for the sake of love, hardly?
Larisa анализировав a situation understood that Nadezhda tests both of them, and perhaps wants to enrage them. As for Roman, he perhaps would also agree with Nadezhda, but he considered that this so. He loved Nina, and now cannot forget her. After so many years of life with Vera, he always remembered Nina. But who knows? Whether she understood it? On this question we never learn the answer.
Laris told.
– You are wrong. Roman loved Nina.
The hope grinned, and ironically added.
– And married another.
At this time Roman did not sustain and as if blew up.
– ENOUGH!!! – he cried out. – I speak to you enough!!! – then he addressed mother. – really for such person? Not minutes of rest? You mistreated me when Nina was alive, and now reproach me that I did not love her! I loved it! Loved as without knowing who! And she loved me! Loved selflessly, all heart. – here he made a pause, and added. – And you mother to me broke life! And not only my life, but also life of my child.
The hope was silent. It was not what to tell. She was really involved in the fact that Nina and Roman left, but they would leave if Roman really loved Nina, a question?
The hope told again.
– If you love it, you did not leave it. You would marry it.
Roman objected.
– And I also did not leave it. – then he emphasized. – this it left me.
The hope was surprised.
– Left? – then she emphasized. – means did not love?
Roman heaved a deep sigh and began to cry. Began to cry bitter tears. Then he exclaimed.
– I did not leave it! It left me to save our child!!!
In it it is a high time, to Larisa's patience the end came. She listened to Nadezhda, and was terrified how it was possible to be such cruel woman. Stories of the Novel about the mother there was nothing in comparison with what she saw now. This was the woman, and the monster. The monster in full sense of it a word.
– STOP!!! ENOUGH!!! Really for family such? – she shouted that was urine. – Look at yourself! You, Roman? You have to honor the mother what she would not be. And YOU that? Her Chait, as soon as it is possible! – then she spat to it in a face and added. – Poddonok. I am sorry that I am mother of your children. – It closed up to it hot slap in the face. Her eyes burned with rage and hatred. And she through clenched teeth hissed. – I hate. – then her rage passed to Nadezhda. – And you? What did you make for the son? Deprived of it the right for luck? Married him to Wicky.
Here Nadezhda steamed.
– This not your business.
Larisa did not agree.
– No, this my business. I am mother of his children. Has to know about it everything. From stories of the Novel I understood that you the cruel man. But …
The hope killed it
– What but?
Larisa spoke.
– Terransha!
The hope is quiet told.
– Means you consider me terranshy? "It is a pity that you so think of me. – she spoke. – I am not a terransha, I am only a mother".
Larisa told.
– Yes, you mother, but made you happy the son?
This question was rhetorical, but also in too time is not present. Tell whether Roman could be happy? He already answered this question.
The hope steamed.
– Happy? And unless happiness not in money? Everything can be bought for money.
– And happiness?
The hope grinned.
– Same happiness.
– But whether Roman was happy?
The hope told.
– I all that did was for the benefit of family.
Here Larisa grinned. She knew that it is only an excuse self-justification of the person who has nothing to tell. She waved away.
– It only words, you never nothing did for family. All of you do only for yourself! Nobody is necessary to you, only you are. All of you do for yourself for anybody Bol.
Having heard these reproaches in the address, Nadezhda did not find words to state her all that she thinks of it. She wanted to state everything in a face, but at her as if language was gone from a mouth, and the mouth as if stuck together. Therefore it seemed that she only lowed, without having uttered a uniform sound.