Im taking over the team. Gage sighed. Temporarily. Helena, youre covered in blood. Youve burned yourself out handling that much power at once. I dont even know what the hell you just did, but it had to have fried your circuits. He said the last very quietly and Faine realized he wasnt the only one whod been amazed at what Helena had done.
In case you havent noticed, a riot is brewing. We need to get Molly out of here, along with the rest of the group. We need to be sure Tosh, Delilah and Parrish Carroll are all okay, along with all the Others who work here at the capitol.
Caspar has already gotten on making sure Sato and everyone else is all right. You are not all right.
Ive called to have a car sent over immediately. Before Helena could argue with Gage any further, Cade Warden stepped forward. Ms. Jaansen, Im in your debt for what you just did. I can see the physical toll as well. How about we get you back to the house where you can rest? Then you can have your needs tended by Others instead of humans.
Thats probably best. Gage nodded.
Faine held her tighter. Unless she needs a hospital, in which case, your need for privacy can be hanged. Youre not going to sacrifice her for that. I wont allow it.
Things got very still for long moments. Even Helena stopped trying to move. Cades brow rose, but a smile fought at the corner of his mouth. Yes, yes, Faine knew hed made a declaration on several levels, but he didnt care. There was no way hed allow Helenas needs to be shunted to the side.
Id never allow that either. Gage put an arm around Mollys shoulders. Shes my friend and my boss. But shell be more comfortable in private, and treated by our own people. If it turns out she needs more care, well get it for her. I swear to you.
Agent Anderson came jogging over along with several other FBI agents and cops. The rest fanned out, immediately getting to work. Jesus. Is everyone all right?
Helena coughed on the poisonous black smoke from the wreckage and Faine stepped away so she could breathe easier, Anderson following as he did.
Put me down, Helena ordered. But he heard the pain in her words and ignored her.
Agent Anderson, as you can see, Ms. Jaansen was injured while she protected the crowd from the explosion. She needs to be back at the home were staying in so she can rest. We need to get all our people out of here. Faines jaw was clenched so tight he was sure it creaked when he spoke.
Anderson nodded, paling as he took Helena in. Come on. Well talk to you all while we drive you over. Do we need to stop at the hospital?
I dont need a doctor.
Faine didnt know if he agreed with that point, but for the time being he let it go because he wanted her out of there and that was happening.
Molly and Gage first. Helena gave him a look that dared him to argue. Be sure she doesnt need to go to the hospital. Shes still healing from the last time.
Shes fine and she will be very cross with you if you dont get your butt into that car right now. Molly gave Helena a stern look and Helena snorted.
Its my job to protect you.
And you did. Emotion bled into Mollys voice. You did. Please. For me?
That seemed to do the trick and she allowed herself to be loaded into one of the SUVs Cade Warden had brought to the curb.
Anderson spoke to one of the officers on the scene and he loaded in with them, one of his cars following the group.
You can wait until shes resting before you question her.
Anderson sent him a look but Faine just ignored it. Hed done all the order taking he was going to for the time being. Helena was fragile in his arms, bloody, trembling, the glass shimmering in her hair, and he had to clamp down the urge to let his beast take over and rampage through that crowd back there to find who did this.
Helena started speaking. I dont know much. We came out from the hearing. Id called about ten minutes before to have the cars brought around. Her face changed. Goddess, the drivers. Someone needs to check to see if theyre
Anderson interrupted. My people are on the scene now. Ill let you know what we find. But you cant do anything about it. Just relax and keep talking.
The protesters were yelling, shoving. I was focused on that. I missed the signs until I was too close. Until we were all too close.
Faine saw that she took it personally. As if it were her fault.
Christ, Helena. Youre one person. You were dealing with the most emergent threat, all those people shoving around. Gage held Mollys hand like he planned to never let her go.
I should have seen it. Its my job. Helenas words were lost in a flurry of hacking coughs. Anderson handed her a moistened handkerchief. She continued coughing until Faines ribs hurt just listening to it.
The smoke is toxic. Its better out than inside you. Anderson shrugged at Faines look. Ive worked more than my fair share of bomb scenes.
She took a drink from a bottle of cold water. I saw something off. Felt it. But then the air sort of sucked away. I think the bomb was under the passenger side, front. Thats where the blast seemed to come from.
You should have died, being that close. Your, um, powers protected you?
Gage interrupted. Her powers protected everyone all around us. She . . . Witches have reservoirs of power, she pulled hers up too fast, she did it to shove as much as she could back at the blast to protect everyone. Not just our people, but the humans on those steps. That sort of thing is harmful. Shes bleeding because she burst capillaries with the exertion. She needs to rest. To restore her magick and let her body heal itself.
Faine wanted to kiss Gage for that defense of Helena.
Thank you. For what you did. You may not hear it from humans, though its clear you were a hero today. But youll hear it from me. Anderson leaned forward to touch Helenas knee and before he knew it, Faine found himself cutting off a possessive growl at the human male.
Helena raised a brow even in her exhausted state. Hed have to talk with her. Later, when she wasnt on the verge of collapse.
* * *
ONCE Anderson had gone, Molly tutted and fussed while Gage looked on, amused. You need to get cleaned up. Ive laid out a robe in the bathroom. Are you sure you dont want to go to the hospital? They have Others on staff. I know this from the last time we were bombed here. Molly handed her the glass of juice Helena had already half drained. She obediently finished it.
She returned in less than a minute with more juice and pushed it Helenas way.
Molly, you know I adore you, but girl, back up or I am going to lose my mind. Helena waved her away.
Fine. But Im calling your mother to see who we can speak to around here who will help you get yourself recharged. Molly sniffed and before Helena could argue, she left the room.
What did you do? Gage hefted himself up onto the bathroom counter as Helena attempted to clean her face.
Faine sighed and took the cloth from her, washing the soot away and getting it wet again. He gently pushed her hands back. Hush and let me work. Ive been dressing field wounds longer than witches have been in the New World.
She rolled her eyes, but held still as he dabbed at her skin.
What do you mean? I protected you all, thats my job.
Gage blew out a breath. I have never seen a spell like that, Helena. Ever.
Oh. That. Well, all right, I suppose youve experienced your magick building, growing, since the Magister, right?
Gage nodded.
Since I was young, a big part of my power has been sort of intuitive. I havent had to learn spells the same way others do. I just sort of knew what I needed and then I did it. Since the Magister, my magick has . . . leapt to me in a wholly new way. Its easier to call it no matter the place. But there are less filters so it comes hard and fast unless I regulate it. I knew I needed a lot to hold that energy from the blast back. Theres no Font here like there is in Gennessee or Owen territory and I was worried about siphoning from any witches around me. So I yanked it hard from the air and the earth. It was so much.
Faine grimaced. Are you going to be all right? Did you do permanent damage?
No, Ill be fine. Im crispy and if I had to do any major magick just now Id be fucked. But rest will restore me.
More than that, how did you do it? Sure, you can call more power, but that spell was awe-inspiring. You . . . what?
I just . . . I knew I needed to block the blast somehow. I didnt have a physical shield or a wall to hide behind. It occurred to me that it was physics, thats all magick is anyway. I just used energy to push back at the energy of the blast. The opposite of the wave from the explosion so it repelled. I dont know if I could do it again in the same way, only that if I had to do something similar in the future, I could.
Can you teach me? Do you think it could stop a bullet?
I dont know about a bullet. But I think I can help you visualize a wall of energy. I dont know your gifts that well and like I said, its not spellwork, not completely. I knitted something together on the fly but that was to focus my power in one spot and keep it from feeding back and harming me.
You mean like bleeding from the nose and mouth? Faine wanted to shake her and order her to never, ever do such a thing again. But he knew she would. And that she could was apparently a big deal. She was a warrior like he was. Just a few days ago he accepted it, but now the stakes were higher, and his feelings? Well, theyd adjusted and deepened, which made it far more difficult to accept that shed put herself in danger.
When I was young I got nosebleeds all the time. My dad says its because I have a poor sense of moderation. Her smile was wry and he sighed, charmed.
I think I can teach you to spool the power better. Still quickly, but with more control. Gage nodded. As for my gifts? Theyve been growing, as yours seem to have. I can sense intent. I knew there was danger in that crowd. Mortal danger. But I couldnt see it as the cars.
You both chose the obvious dangers and focused, which is the way it should be. There are so many things to constantly be aware of, you can only examine so many at once. Faine shrugged. It was true. Yes, theyd missed the cars being a possible threat, but in their place hed have done the same. He had done the same.
I need to check in with the people at the garage here. I instituted a policy and its been in place for months now. All vehicles are monitored in the garage and theyre examined on entry and exit for physical issues as well as spellwork that isnt mine or anyone elses from my team.
Faine sighed; the female was flat-out insane. Why dont you take a shower first? Then you can eat out in the garden and sleep. You can call and bark orders at people and have them brought here while you eat. She started to argue and he held a hand up. Im saying youre the leader of this team. You will be needed again, as will your magick. Youre depleted right now, you said so yourself. So get back to 100 percent first and then get back out there. You can deal with the car and your people while you handle getting yourself taken care of.
Gage nodded. Hes right. Dont make me go over your head and have The Gennessee overrule you.
Molly has to stay in for the rest of the day then. And I need you to call Toshs office to be sure hes all right, as well as any Others who work at the capitol.
Gage nodded. We can do that. He hopped down and headed for the door. You amazed me today. Ive seen some amazing magickafter all, I was there watching Meriel and her mother stop the Magister. What you did today ranks up there.
Helena blushed as he left the room.
Do you need help showering? Faine asked.
One of her brows went up. You offering?
Dont poke at me right now. Im not all right. My beast is more agitated than the man.
She paused, he could tell, trying to figure out what to say. Im fine, thank you for offering. I can stand long enough to take a shower. But if you would ask the chef to make me something high in protein and green vegetables, Id appreciate that.
He sucked in a breath but didnt stop himself from pressing a kiss to her forehead. When she asked for his help it always did things to his system. Ill be listening for you. Just yell if you need help. I mean it.
She nodded and he left before he could say or do anything else.
Chapter 9
SHE knew Lark would call. The only surprise was how long it took. Shed showered, spoken with her team about the car, mourned two whod been killed, eaten, been fussed over by Faine and Molly and escaped finally by going to sit out in the middle of the raised beds in the garden to recharge.
Shed scowled everyone away and finally had returned inside, finding a small sitting room and settling on a couch with a blanket, reading her mail and taking calls.
Helena answered her sisters call with, Im all right.
The only reason I am not on a plane to you right now is because of that. Gage has been keeping me updated but I figured youd had long enough and I needed to hear your voice.
Helena smiled, touched at that.
Christ, Hellie, what the hell? Car bombs? Do you think we should pull the plug and bring people home?
Im going to take the next few hours to think on that. I ate some lunch and sat in the garden for an hour. My nose isnt bleeding anymore and my teeth havent fallen out, so Im counting that as a win.
Dont joke. This is serious. You could have died. Larks voice was stern, but the fear bled through.
Yeah, like when you got shot. Twice. Saving the world.
Goddamn, were fucking awesome, huh? Tension broken, Lark soldiered on. Whats the situation with the cars? I know there is simply no way you didnt have a process in place to check the undercarriage of any and all vehicles you use.
I do. Though it was nice that her sister knew that of her. There were two SUVs. Both were checked thoroughly before they left here. Both were in a secure garage. I went through the security footage for the last twenty-four hours and theres nothing. No one approached either vehicle until this morning when we left and then when they came back they were checked and checked again when they left to retrieve us. Theres a checkpoint at the gates at the capitol too and the cars were clear.
What the fuck?
Somewhere between those gates and the drive near the building where we were at the hearing our drivers were stopped, shot in the head, left in a Dumpster and the attackers took over. There are cameras everywhere but, conveniently, several were out of commission for a few hours today. The anger rushed through her again at the thought.
Are you kidding me?
They dont care. I wanted to hold out as long as I could, you know? A lot of humans are good people like Tosh. But this other stuff? Bombings and attacks and bills to put us in camps? Thats not right, damn it. Cameras being turned off so my drivers could be murdered? Its like a movie plot, for gods sake!
Lark sighed heavily. We receive death threats on a daily basis now. Its . . . Ive forgotten what it was like before.
Helena understood. She nearly had too.
Both those men, humans according to Anderson, were killed in the blast. The second car was also bombed, but half the vest he wore malfunctioned so the blast wasnt as large. Theyd moved to the passenger seat to get closer to us when we came down to load everyone in. I suppose we should be thankful they detonated before I reached the door.
I hate this. Hate it. Gage told me you pulled some mighty magick out of your tool bag today. He said hed never seen anything like it and that you nearly fried yourself doing it.
Honestly? I dont know where it came from. Only that it happened. Im glad for it and a headache is a price Im willing to pay for that result.
Yeah? And if youd died?
Its my job to protect people. If that means I die doing it, well, I signed on for that. You know youd do better at this than me, but theres no one else so Im doing the best I can.
What the hell are you talking about? Do you really think that? That Id believe anyone was better suited for this job than you? Youre the only one I trust to oversee it all.
Helena swallowed hard. Lark, thats not the best idea.
Her sister cursed beneath her breath. Oh shut up. If youre going to bring up the haven thing, just stop.
You can pretend it doesnt matter, but it was my decision to send the witches to the havens. And that got them killed. All those lives in my hands and theyre dead.
It wasnt the choice that killed them, Helena. What happened was so much beyond what any of us could combat. Were all of us fucking treading water here.
When the Magisters attacks got worse, and more and more Others were turning up missing and dead, The Gennessee called together the Full Council and they decided to send the most vulnerable witches in the Clan to the havens. Havens were safe spots, well away from the city, guarded. Helena had been the deciding vote to send the witchessupposedlyout of harms way. Until one of the smaller havens in Indio had been discovered and all twenty-two witches there, including five children, had disappeared.
One glaring fact remained. But you didnt make that choice.
Lark sucked in a breath. I could have, though. It was a perfectly reasonable choice to make. It could have easily been me. You didnt make the wrong choice. Hell, how many Others died when the Magister manifested? Huh? I didnt stop it in time. We lost a lot of people, Helena. We did the best we could. You and me, we had the weight of all those lives on our shoulders and we did all we could with what we had.
And it hadnt been enough. Helena had to live with that knowledge every day.
Lark broke into her thoughts. I know we havent had enough time to talk about all this stuff. We need to. But I want to be face-to-face when we do. I want to be able to knock out a few bottles of wine and hash everything out. Thats not happening anytime soon, but it will. Just know that. In the meantime, you have to stop blaming yourself for what happened at the haven. You are the person I trust more than anyone else to do this. I mean that.
Tears came, surprising her. All the hard-won walls shed built against the well of emotion and fear crumbled at the edges. Oh goddess, not now. She just couldnt. Didnt want to talk about the haven thing anymore. There was nothing to be done about it. It was over and the shame of her failure would hopefully make her a better hunter. Ill call you when I learn more. Rebecca is having a phone conference with Meriel and some of the other witches about whether or not continuing this road show is viable. Im sure youll hear when I do, but Ill check in when I know anything.
Lark paused and Helena knew she wanted to say more. But thankfully, she didnt. All right. I love you. Please be safe.
I love you too. She hung up and with a groan, heaved herself up from the couch. She had work to do.
Faine seemed to appear out of nowhere, scowling at her and blocking her exit from the room. Sit back down. What can I get for you?
I need to work.
You need to rest.
Youre not the boss of me.
Thank heavens. I cant imagine what a shitty job that would be. Youre disobedient and reckless and you take on far more than youre responsible for.
She didnt know how it happened, but suddenly she found herself gasping on a sob and a flood of tears.
He softened, a sad smile marking his lips. Come on. He took her hand and led her to her room, pulling her blankets back. In.
Please go away. She tried to pull the covers up over her head, but he lay down next to her, pinning her in place with the bed coverings, the heat of him soothing as well as discomfiting.
Im not going anywhere. Just let it go. Get it all out. He settled in, pulling her into his arms. The power of it, of letting go and being taken care of, soothed, was nearly overwhelming. And then his magick rose, teasing hers just when she wasnt sure she was capable of even the most basic of spells.
She didnt have the energy to hold him back and hold herself together at the same time. His power was warm and wild, it seemed to rush through her veins, teasing her senses, enticing, seducing.
She opened her eyes to peek at him and found him staring at her, a look of wonder stamped on his features.
I never expected you.
What? She wiped her face with the edge of her sleeve. No doubt she was red and puffy and her hair was a mess because she had jammed it into a ponytail after her shower.
Youre more than I ever imagined youd be. He snorted, leaning close to kiss each eyelid. So tender. You take so much on and you do it with such power and ability that no one would know how fragile you are just underneath.
Great. On top of everything else, Im fragile.
No. Helena, youre magnificent. Youre the finest female I have ever beheld in my entire existence. And believe me, Ive seen a lot in many worlds. You are strong. Righteous. Courageous. Today, you nearly killed me when you pulled that spell together. But you did it and you did it because thats what you do. You protected your people and even those humans whod just been insulting you because youre that person.
She closed her eyes, willing the newly sprung tears to go away.
It is all right to cry sometimes. You dont need to hide in the shower, or pretend to be above it. It doesnt make you less of a warrior.
Her eyes snapped open.
Yes, I heard you that night at my house. And it broke my heart because you are so strong and yet, you dont think you can lean on anyone else. Just for a little while. He tipped her chin so she was looking into his eyes. You can lean on me. You can cry and know I respect you. You can cry and know Ive fallen apart a little after a battle like the one youve been waging for months. Everyone has to break a little or theyll break all the way.
Why?
He thumbed her tears away and she was instantly sorry shed asked because she wasnt sure she could handle the answer.
I think you know. But thats all right, Ill give you the words because I need to say them out loud. Make my declaration.
Declaration?
He laughed at her reaction. Scared?
Youre sort of scary.
His grin made her less afraid of what hed say and more interested in what hed look like naked.
Im very scary. But not to you. I want you to lean on me because I want you. I want all of you, Helena Jaansen. Since the first time I met you I knew you were special. And everything Ive seen since has only confirmed that. I thought it was a passing fancy at first. Youre beautiful and powerful. A male like me finds those qualities fairly irresistible. He grinned again and she groaned.
He stole a kiss and with it her breath.
I was in Seattle and with Molly while you had your own job to do, but then our paths kept crossing. And I got to know you. I saw through your prickly demeanor and the quite frankly bizarre way you keep all your clothes and shoes color coordinated and arranged according to length, height, whatever. Youre trying to control things in a world utterly out of control. And you are doing it with all your might and that, Helena, is why I cannot get you out of my head. You are singular. You are the female I was meant to find and love.
Love? Listen here, buster, I have a horrible track record with love. Also Ive only known you a few months.
That witch you were engaged to was a fool. It doesnt mean you have a horrible track record. It means you hadnt found the right male until now. As far as being too soon to love you? Pah.
She laughed, unable to resist being delighted. Pah?
Pah. He nodded his head once. Youre a thing of light and magick. You are not human. Dont cling to what they cant see because they refuse to look with something other than their eyes. Im not human. Im not young or inexperienced either. Ive loved before. And that love wasnt anything compared to what you make me feel every time I think about you. Months Ive watched you fight. Ive watched you give orders. Ive watched you make passionate arguments about things you believed in. Ive watched you protect and defend and Ive watched you break apart when you couldnt save people. Its so intimate, that glimpse I get every once in a while when your defenses are down and you let me in. I know what I feel. I know what I want. I want you. And I know you want me. I know how you watch me. I tasted your desire when you kissed me. Each time youve kissed me. Theres no reason to pretend otherwise. Its a waste of time.
She struggled to keep up. Struggled to make sense of how she felt. Of the truth in his words and her bone-deep fear that if she trusted them shed end up hurt far worse than anything shed ever felt before.
Fear that shed fail at this like shed failed those witches at the haven.
He was different. On every level. She knew from Lark that Lycian males put the alpha in alpha male. That was a lot to manage, even if it came in a package that looked as good as the one looming over her, blanketing her in all those feel-good hormones that were designed to part a girl from her underpants.
You cant run scared from me, you know. First, youre too dominant for that. Second, youre too honest for it. Third, Im a predator and that only makes you hotter to me. A flash of his grin and though she was going to groan she only managed a breathy sound. Last, youre a highly sensual being and you know just exactly how it will be between us physically.
Her heart stuttered as he traced a fingertip down her chest, between her breasts, down to her belly button, circling it slowly.
And because you feel it too. This magnetic thing between us. This thread that pulls us together each time were near each other.
She opened her mouth to deny it but couldnt. She was drawn to him on so many levels.
His smile changed and tightened things low in her belly. I locked the door. And I think I know something else that will help you get your energy back up.
She gulped.
I know this momentary reprieve from your bossiness is just thattemporary. So I figure its best to divest you of your clothing before you start arguing.
Chapter 10
HE waited to see if she was on board and she didnt argue, thank the heavens.
She was hurt and he wanted to go slow, reined himself in the best he could as he got to his knees and started to pull his shirt off.
But he should have known Helena would have her own ideas. Quicker than hed expected, she grabbed his wrist, moving to get to her knees facing him. No. I want to.
She leaned in close, breathing him in at his neck, sending gooseflesh skittering over his skin. After hed laid himself bare before her, after hed seen those walls of hers break and the tears come, he needed this more than he could articulate. Needed to connect with her on a whole new level.
Have at it. Even to his own ears, his words were breathy and a little shaky. She rendered him into a nervous, needy mass. Even with Lydia it hadnt been like this.
She pulled his shirt up and off, tossing it to the side, skimming her palms over his chest. I love these. She pressed kisses over his marks. Four hundred years of your life, all over your skin.