I smacked his shoulder. It hurt my hand. Jacob Black, dont you ever do that again! Promise me you wont.
No way. I havent had that much fun in months.
So help me, Jake
Oh, get a grip, Bella. When am I ever going to see him again? Dont worry about it.
I got to my feet, and he caught my hand as I started to walk away. I tried to tug free.
Im leaving, Jacob.
No, dont go yet, he protested, his hand tightening around mine. Im sorry. And . . . okay, I wont do it again. Promise.
I sighed. Thanks, Jake.
Come on, well go back to my house, he said eagerly.
Actually, I think I really do need to go. Angela Weber is expecting me, and I know Alice is worried. I dont want to upset her too much.
But you just got here!
It feels that way, I agreed. I glared up at the sun, somehow already directly overhead. How had the time passed so quickly?
His eyebrows pulled down over his eyes. I dont know when Ill see you again, he said in a hurt voice.
Ill come back the next time hes away, I promised impulsively.
Away? Jacob rolled his eyes. Thats a nice way to describe what hes doing. Disgusting parasites.
If you cant be nice, I wont come back at all! I threatened, trying to pull my hand free. He refused to let go.
Aw, dont be mad, he said, grinning. Knee-jerk reaction.
If Im going to try to come back again, youre going to have to get something straight, okay?
He waited.
See, I explained. I dont care whos a vampire and whos a werewolf. Thats irrelevant. You are Jacob, and he is Edward, and I am Bella. And nothing else matters.
His eyes narrowed slightly. But I am a werewolf, he said unwillingly. And he is a vampire, he added with obvious revulsion.
And Im a Virgo! I shouted, exasperated.
He raised his eyebrows, measuring my expression with curious eyes. Finally, he shrugged.
If you can really see it that way . . .
I can. I do.
Okay. Just Bella and Jacob. None of those freaky Virgos here. He smiled at me, the warm, familiar smile that I had missed so much. I felt the answering smile spread across my face.
Ive really missed you, Jake, I admitted impulsively.
Me, too, his smile widened. His eyes were happy and clear, free for once of the angry bitterness. More than you know. Will you come back soon?
As soon as I can, I promised.
6 SWITZERLAND
AS I DROVE HOME, I WASNT PAYING MUCH ATTENTION TO the road that shimmered wetly in the sun. I was thinking about the flood of information Jacob had shared with me, trying to sort it out, to force it all to make sense. Despite the overload, I felt lighter. Seeing Jacob smile, having all the secrets thrashed out . . . it didnt make things perfect, but it made them better. I was right to have gone. Jacob needed me. And obviously, I thought as I squinted into the glare, there was no danger.
It came out of nowhere. One minute there was nothing but bright highway in my rearview mirror. The next minute, the sun was glinting off a silver Volvo right on my tail.
Aw, crap, I whimpered.
I considered pulling over. But I was too much of a coward to face him right away. Id been counting on some prep time . . . and having Charlie nearby as a buffer. At least that would force him to keep his voice down.
The Volvo followed inches behind me. I kept my eyes on the road ahead.
Chicken through and through, I drove straight to Angelas without once meeting the gaze I could feel burning a hole in my mirror.
He followed me until I pulled to the curb in front of the Webers house. He didnt stop, and I didnt look up as he passed. I didnt want to see the expression on his face. I ran up the short concrete walk to Angelas door as soon as he was out of sight.
Ben answered the door before I could finish knocking, like hed been standing right behind it.
Hey, Bella! he said, surprised.
Hi, Ben. Er, is Angela here? I wondered if Angela had forgotten our plans, and cringed at the thought of going home early.
Sure, Ben said just as Angela called, Bella! and appeared at the top of the stairs.
Ben peered around me as we both heard the sound of a car on the road; the sound didnt scare methis engine stuttered to a stop, followed by the loud pop of a backfire. Nothing like the purr of the Volvo. This must be the visitor Ben had been waiting for.
Austins here, Ben said as Angela reached his side.
A horn honked on the street.
Ill see you later, Ben promised. Miss you already.
He threw his arm around Angelas neck and pulled her face down to his height so that he could kiss her enthusiastically. After a second of this, Austin honked again.
Bye, Ang! Love you! Ben shouted as he dashed past me.
Angela swayed, her face slightly pink, then recovered herself and waved until Ben and Austin were out of sight. Then she turned to me and grinned ruefully.
Thank you for doing this, Bella, she said. From the bottom of my heart. Not only are you saving my hands from permanent injury, you also just spared me two long hours of a plot-less, badly dubbed martial arts film. She sighed in relief.
Happy to be of service. I was feeling a bit less panicked, able to breathe a little more evenly. It felt so ordinary here. Angelas easy human dramas were oddly reassuring. It was nice to know that life was normal somewhere.
I followed Angela up the stairs to her room. She kicked toys out of the way as she went. The house was unusually quiet.
Wheres your family?
My parents took the twins to a birthday party in Port Angeles. I cant believe youre really going to help me with this. Bens pretending he has tendonitis. She made a face.
I dont mind at all, I said, and then I walked into Angelas room and saw the stacks of waiting envelopes.
Oh! I gasped. Angela turned to look at me, apologies in her eyes. I could see why shed been putting this off, and why Ben had weaseled out.
I thought you were exaggerating, I admitted.
I wish. Are you sure you want to do this?
Put me to work. Ive got all day.
Angela divided a pile in half and put her mothers address book between us on her desk. For a while we concentrated, and there was just the sound of our pens scratching quietly across the paper.
Whats Edward doing tonight? she asked after a few minutes.
My pen dug into the envelope I was working on. Emmets home for the weekend. Theyre supposed to be hiking.
You say that like youre not sure.
I shrugged.
Youre lucky Edward has his brothers for all the hiking and camping. I dont know what Id do if Ben didnt have Austin for the guy stuff.
Yeah, the outdoors thing is not really for me. And theres no way Id ever be able to keep up.
Angela laughed. I prefer the indoors myself.
She focused on her pile for a minute. I wrote out four more addresses. There was never any pressure to fill a pause with meaningless chatter around Angela. Like Charlie, she was comfortable with silence.
But, like Charlie, she was also too observant sometimes.
Is something wrong? she asked in a low voice now. You seem . . . anxious.
I smiled sheepishly. Is it that obvious?
Not really.
She was probably lying to make me feel better.
You dont have to talk about it unless you want to, she assured me. Ill listen if you think it will help.
I was about to say thanks, but no thanks. After all, there were just too many secrets I was bound to keep. I really couldnt discuss my problems with someone human. That was against the rules.
And yet, with a strange, sudden intensity, thats exactly what I wanted. I wanted to talk to a normal human girlfriend. I wanted to moan a little bit, like any other teenage girl. I wanted my problems to be that simple. It would also be nice to have someone outside the whole vampire-werewolf mess to put things in perspective. Someone unbiased.
Ill mind my own business, Angela promised, smiling down at the address she was working on.
No, I said. Youre right. I am anxious. Its . . . its Edward.
Whats wrong?
It was so easy to talk to Angela. When she asked a question like that, I could tell that she wasnt just morbidly curious or looking for gossip, like Jessica would have been. She cared that I was upset.
Oh, hes mad at me.
Thats hard to imagine, she said. Whats he mad about?
I sighed. Do you remember Jacob Black?
Ah, she said.
Yeah.
Hes jealous.
No, not jealous . . . I should have kept my mouth shut. There was no way to explain this right. But I wanted to keep talking anyway. I hadnt realized I was so starved for human conversation. Edward thinks Jacob is . . . a bad influence, I guess. Sort of . . . dangerous. You know how much trouble I got in a few months back. . . . Its all ridiculous, though.
I was surprised to see Angela shaking her head.
What? I asked.
Bella, Ive seen how Jacob Black looks at you. Id bet the real problem is jealousy.
Its not like that with Jacob.
For you, maybe. But for Jacob . . .
I frowned. Jacob knows how I feel. Ive told him everything.
Edwards only human, Bella. Hes going to react like any other boy.
I grimaced. I didnt have a response to that.
She patted my hand. Hell get over it.
I hope so. Jakes going through kind of a tough time. He needs me.
You and Jacob are pretty close, arent you?
Like family, I agreed.
And Edward doesnt like him. . . . That must be hard. I wonder how Ben would handle that? she mused.
I half-smiled. Probably just like any other boy.
She grinned. Probably.
Then she changed the subject. Angela wasnt one to pry, and she seemed to sense I wouldntcouldntsay any more.
I got my dorm assignment yesterday. The farthest building from campus, naturally.
Does Ben know where hes staying yet?
The closest dorm to campus. Hes got all the luck. How about you? Did you decide where youre going?
I stared down, concentrating on the clumsy scrawl of my handwriting. For a second I was distracted by the thought of Angela and Ben at the University of Washington. They would be off to Seattle in just a few months. Would it be safe then? Would the wild young vampire menace have moved elsewhere? Would there be a new place by then, some other city flinching from horror-movie headlines?
Would those new headlines be my fault?
I tried to shake it off and answered her question a beat late. Alaska, I think. The university there in Juneau.
I could hear the surprise in her voice. Alaska? Oh. Really? I mean, thats great. I just figured youd go somewhere . . . warmer.
I laughed a little, still staring at the envelope. Yeah. Forks has really changed my perspective on life.
And Edward?
Though his name set butterflies fluttering in my stomach, I looked up and grinned at her. Alaskas not too cold for Edward, either.
She grinned back. Of course not. And then she sighed. Its so far. You wont be able to come home very often. Ill miss you. Will you e-mail me?
A swell of quiet sadness crashed over me; maybe it was a mistake to get closer to Angela now. But wouldnt it be sadder still to miss out on these last chances? I shook off the unhappy thoughts, so that I could answer her teasingly.
If I can type again after this. I nodded toward the stack of envelopes Id done.
We laughed, and it was easy then to chat cheerfully about classes and majors while we finished the restall I had to do was not think about it. Anyway, there were more urgent things to worry about today.
I helped her put the stamps on, too. I was afraid to leave.
Hows your hand? she asked.
I flexed my fingers. I think Ill recover the full use of it . . . someday.
The door banged downstairs, and we both looked up.
Ang? Ben called.
I tried to smile, but my lips trembled. I guess thats my cue to leave.
You dont have to go. Though hes probably going to describe the movie for me . . . in detail.
Charlie will be wondering where I am anyway.
Thanks for helping me.
I had a good time, actually. We should do something like this again. It was nice to have some girl time.
Definitely.
There was a light knock on the bedroom door.
Come in, Ben, Angela said.
I got up and stretched.
Hey, Bella! You survived, Ben greeted me quickly before going to take my place by Angela. He eyed our work. Nice job. Too bad theres nothing left to do, I would have . . . He let the thought trail off, and then restarted excitedly. Ang, I cant believe you missed this one! It was awesome. There was this final fight sequencethe choreography was unbelievable! This one guywell, youre going to have to see it to know what Im talking about
Angela rolled her eyes at me.
See you at school, I said with a nervous laugh.
She sighed. See you.
I was jumpy on the way out to my truck, but the street was empty. I spent the whole drive glancing anxiously in all my mirrors, but there was never any sign of the silver car.
His car was not in front of the house, either, though that meant little.
Bella? Charlie called when I opened the front door.
Hey, Dad.
I found him in the living room, in front of the TV.
So, how was your day?
Good, I said. Might as well tell him everythinghed hear it from Billy soon enough. Besides, it would make him happy. They didnt need me at work, so I went down to La Push.
There wasnt enough surprise in his face. Billy had already talked to him.
Hows Jacob? Charlie asked, attempting to sound indifferent.
Good, I said, just as casual.
You get over to the Webers?
Yep. We got all her announcements addressed.
Thats nice. Charlie smiled a wide smile. He was strangely focused, considering that there was a game on. Im glad you spent some time with your friends today.
Me, too.
I ambled toward the kitchen, looking for busy work. Unfortunately, Charlie had already cleaned up his lunch. I stood there for a few minutes, staring at the bright patch of light the sun made on the floor. But I knew I couldnt delay this forever.
Im going to go study, I announced glumly as I headed up the stairs.
See you later, Charlie called after me.
If I survive, I thought to myself.
I shut my bedroom door carefully before I turned to face my room.
Of course he was there. He stood against the wall across from me, in the shadow beside the open window. His face was hard and his posture tense. He glared at me wordlessly.
I cringed, waiting for the torrent, but it didnt come. He just continued to glare, possibly too angry to speak.
Hi, I finally said.
His face could have been carved from stone. I counted to a hundred in my head, but there was no change.
Er . . . so, Im still alive, I began.
A growl rumbled low in his chest, but his expression didnt change.
No harm done, I insisted with a shrug.
He moved. His eyes closed, and he pinched the bridge of his nose between the fingers of his right hand.
Bella, he whispered. Do you have any idea how close I came to crossing the line today? To breaking the treaty and coming after you? Do you know what that would have meant?
I gasped and his eyes opened. They were as cold and hard as night.
You cant! I said too loudly. I worked to modulate the volume of my voice so Charlie wouldnt hear, but I wanted to shout the words. Edward, theyd use any excuse for a fight. Theyd love that. You cant ever break the rules!
Maybe they arent the only ones who would enjoy a fight.
Dont you start, I snapped. You made the treatyyou stick to it.
If hed hurt you
Enough! I cut him off. Theres nothing to worry about. Jacob isnt dangerous.
Bella. He rolled his eyes. You arent exactly the best judge of what is or isnt dangerous.
I know I dont have to worry about Jake. And neither do you.
He ground his teeth together. His hands were balled up in fists at his sides. He was still standing against the wall, and I hated the space between us.
I took a deep breath, and crossed the room. He didnt move when I wrapped my arms around him. Next to the warmth of the last of the afternoon sun streaming through the window, his skin felt especially icy. He seemed like ice, too, frozen the way he was.
Im sorry I made you anxious, I muttered.
He sighed, and relaxed a little. His arms wound around my waist.
Anxious is a bit of an understatement, he murmured. It was a very long day.
You werent supposed to know about it, I reminded him. I thought youd be hunting longer.
I looked up at his face, at his defensive eyes; I hadnt noticed in the stress of the moment, but they were too dark. The rings under them were deep purple. I frowned in disapproval.
When Alice saw you disappear, I came back, he explained.
You shouldnt have done that. Now youll have to go away again. My frown intensified.
I can wait.
Thats ridiculous. I mean, I know she couldnt see me with Jacob, but you should have known
But I didnt, he broke in. And you cant expect me to let you
Oh, yes, I can, I interrupted him. Thats exactly what I expect
This wont happen again.
Thats right! Because youre not going to overreact next time.
Because there isnt going to be a next time.
I understand when you have to leave, even if I dont like it
Thats not the same. Im not risking my life.
Neither am I.
Werewolves constitute a risk.
I disagree.
Im not negotiating this, Bella.
Neither am I.
His hands were in fists again. I could feel them against my back.
The words popped out thoughtlessly. Is this really just about my safety?
What do you mean? he demanded.
You arent . . . Angelas theory seemed sillier now than before. It was hard to finish the thought. I mean, you know better than to be jealous, right?
He raised one eyebrow. Do I?
Be serious.
Easilytheres nothing remotely humorous about this.
I frowned suspiciously. Or . . . is this something else altogether? Some vampires-and-werewolves-are-always-enemies nonsense? Is this just a testosterone-fueled
His eyes blazed. This is only about you. All I care is that youre safe.
The black fire in his eyes was impossible to doubt.
Okay, I sighed. I believe that. But I want you to know somethingwhen it comes to all this enemies nonsense, Im out. I am a neutral country. I am Switzerland. I refuse to be affected by territorial disputes between mythical creatures. Jacob is family. You are . . . well, not exactly the love of my life, because I expect to love you for much longer than that. The love of my existence. I dont care whos a werewolf and whos a vampire. If Angela turns out to be a witch, she can join the party, too.
He stared at me silently through narrowed eyes.
Switzerland, I repeated again for emphasis.
He frowned at me, and then sighed. Bella . . . , he began, but he paused, and his nose wrinkled in disgust.
What now?
Well . . . dont be offended, but you smell like a dog, he told me.
And then he smiled crookedly, so I knew the fight was over. For now.
Edward had to make up for the missed hunting trip, and so he was leaving Friday night with Jasper, Emmett, and Carlisle to hit some reserve in Northern California with a mountain lion problem.
Wed come to no agreement on the werewolf issue, but I didnt feel guilty calling Jakeduring my brief window of opportunity when Edward took the Volvo home before climbing back in through my windowto let him know Id be coming over on Saturday again. It wasnt sneaking around. Edward knew how I felt. And if he broke my truck again, then Id have Jacob pick me up. Forks was neutral, just like Switzerlandjust like me.
So when I got off work Thursday and it was Alice rather than Edward waiting for me in the Volvo, I was not suspicious at first. The passenger door was open, and music I didnt recognize was shaking the frame when the bass played.
Hey, Alice, I shouted over the wailing as I climbed in. Wheres your brother?
She was singing along to the song, her voice an octave higher than the melody, weaving through it with a complicated harmony. She nodded at me, ignoring my question as she concentrated on the music.
I shut my door and put my hands over my ears. She grinned, and turned the volume down until it was just background. Then she hit the locks and the gas in the same second.
Whats going on? I asked, starting to feel uneasy. Where is Edward?
She shrugged. They left early.
Oh. I tried to control the absurd disappointment. If he left early, that meant hed be back sooner, I reminded myself.
All the boys went, and were having a slumber party! she announced in a trilling, singsong voice.
A slumber party? I repeated, the suspicion finally settling in.
Arent you excited? she crowed.
I met her animated gaze for a long second.
Youre kidnapping me, arent you?
She laughed and nodded. Till Saturday. Esme cleared it with Charlie; youre staying with me two nights, and I will drive you to and from school tomorrow.
I turned my face to the window, my teeth grinding together.
Sorry, Alice said, not sounding in the least bit penitent. He paid me off.
How? I hissed through my teeth.
The Porsche. Its exactly like the one I stole in Italy. She sighed happily. Im not supposed to drive it around Forks, but if you want, we could see how long it takes to get from here to L.A.I bet I could have you back by midnight.
I took a deep breath. I think Ill pass, I sighed, repressing a shudder.
We wound, always too fast, down the long drive. Alice pulled around to the garage, and I quickly looked over the cars. Emmetts big jeep was there, with a shiny canary yellow Porsche between it and Rosalies red convertible.
Alice hopped out gracefully and went to stroke her hand along the length of her bribe. Pretty, isnt it?
Pretty over-the-top, I grumbled, incredulous. He gave you that just for two days of holding me hostage?
Alice made a face.
A second later, comprehension came and I gasped in horror. Its for every time hes gone, isnt it?
She nodded.
I slammed my door and stomped toward the house. She danced along next to me, still unrepentant.
Alice, dont you think this is just a little bit controlling? Just a tiny bit psychotic, maybe?
Not really. She sniffed. You dont seem to grasp how dangerous a young werewolf can be. Especially when I cant see them. Edward has no way to know if youre safe. You shouldnt be so reckless.
My voice turned acidic. Yes, because a vampire slumber party is the pinnacle of safety conscious behavior.
Alice laughed. Ill give you a pedicure and everything, she promised.
It wasnt so bad, except for the fact that I was being held against my will. Esme brought Italian foodthe good stuff, all the way from Port Angelesand Alice was prepared with my favorite movies. Even Rosalie was there, quietly in the background. Alice did insist on the pedicure, and I wondered if she was working from a listmaybe something shed compiled from watching bad sitcoms.
How late do you want to stay up? she asked when my toenails were glistening a bloody red. Her enthusiasm remained untouched by my mood.
I dont want to stay up. We have school in the morning.
She pouted.
Where am I supposed to sleep, anyway? I measured the couch with my eyes. It was a little short. Cant you just keep me under surveillance at my house?
What kind of a slumber party would that be? Alice shook her head in exasperation. Youre sleeping in Edwards room.
I sighed. His black leather sofa was longer than this one. Actually, the gold carpet in his room was probably thick enough that the floor wouldnt be half bad either.
Can I go back to my place to get my things, at least?
She grinned. Already taken care of.
Am I allowed to use your phone?
Charlie knows where you are.
I wasnt going to call Charlie. I frowned. Apparently, I have some plans to cancel.
Oh. She deliberated. Im not sure about that.
Alice! I whined loudly. Cmon!
Okay, okay, she said, flitting from the room. She was back in half a second, cell phone in hand. He didnt specifically prohibit this . . . , she murmured to herself as she handed it to me.
I dialed Jacobs number, hoping he wasnt out running with his friends tonight. Luck was with meJacob was the one to answer.
Hello?
Hey, Jake, its me. Alice watched me with expressionless eyes for a second, before she turned and went to sit between Rosalie and Esme on the sofa.
Hi, Bella, Jacob said, suddenly cautious. Whats up?
Nothing good. I cant come over Saturday after all.
It was silent for a minute. Stupid bloodsucker, he finally muttered. I thought he was leaving. Cant you have a life when hes gone? Or does he lock you in a coffin?
I laughed.
I dont think thats funny.
Im only laughing because youre close, I told him. But hes going to be here Saturday, so it doesnt matter.
Will he be feeding there in Forks, then? Jacob asked cuttingly.
No. I didnt let myself get irritated with him. I wasnt that far from being as angry as he was. He left early.
Oh. Well, hey, come over now, then, he said with sudden enthusiasm. Its not that late. Or Ill come up to Charlies.
I wish. Im not at Charlies, I said sourly. Im kind of being held prisoner.
He was silent as that sunk in, and then he growled. Well come and get you, he promised in a flat voice, slipping automatically into a plural.
A chill slid down my spine, but I answered in a light and teasing voice. Tempting. I have been torturedAlice painted my toenails.
Im serious.
Dont be. Theyre just trying to keep me safe.
He growled again.
I know its silly, but their hearts are in the right place.
Their hearts! he scoffed.
Sorry about Saturday, I apologized. Ive got to hit the sackthe couch, I corrected mentallybut Ill call you again soon.
Are you sure theyll let you? he asked in a scathing tone.
Not completely. I sighed. Night, Jake.
See you around.
Alice was abruptly at my side, her hand held out for the phone, but I was already dialing. She saw the number.
I dont think hell have his phone on him, she said.
Ill leave a message.
The phone rang four times, followed by a beep. There was no greeting.
You are in trouble, I said slowly, emphasizing each word. Enormous trouble. Angry grizzly bears are going to look tame next to what is waiting for you at home.
I snapped the phone shut and placed it in her waiting hand. Im done.
She grinned. This hostage stuff is fun.
Im going to sleep now, I announced, heading for the stairs. Alice tagged along.
Alice, I sighed. Im not going to sneak out. You would know if I was planning to, and youd catch me if I tried.
Im just going to show you where your things are, she said innocently.
Edwards room was at the farthest end of the third floor hallway, hard to mistake even when the huge house had been less familiar. But when I switched the light on, I paused in confusion. Had I picked the wrong door?
Alice giggled.
It was the same room, I realized quickly; the furniture had just been rearranged. The couch was pushed to the north wall and the stereo shoved up against the vast shelves of CDsto make room for the colossal bed that now dominated the central space.
The southern wall of glass reflected the scene back like a mirror, making it look twice as bad.
It matched. The coverlet was a dull gold, just lighter than the walls; the frame was black, made of intricately patterned wrought iron. Sculpted metal roses wound in vines up the tall posts and formed a bowery lattice overhead. My pajamas were folded neatly on the foot of the bed, my bag of toiletries to one side.