So when I saw an advert for a nurse to work at a boarding school in the Alps, I thought all my wishes had come true. It not only seemed to fit all my requirements, they also even offered me a chalet in the middle of a ski resort. What more could a nurse with half a dozen ski seasons behind him ask for?
I applied and after a phone interview, background and police check (Id be living and working with children, after all) I was offered the job.
Walking into my new office on that first day with Mr Driscoll, the headmaster, made me forget about big city life almost immediately.
The southern wall of the school consisted of a window looking out onto towering peaks over 3000 metres, the highest already capped with snow, despite only being late August. I felt a pang of guilt thinking the view was even better than what I was used to back in New Zealand.
Yes. I knew Id made the right decision for me and my budding family. I felt this could be home.
Youre free to do as you see fit, Mr Driscoll said as he showed us around the clinic. My colleagues in crime, Justine and Michaela, glanced at me in surprise. None of us had ever worked in a boarding school before; we had all come from the frontline of the nursing profession, used to being surrounded by large teams. We had taken the leap from the Accident and Emergency to an elite boarding school. We had a clean slate.
Justine was from Alaska. She had spent the last ten years in emergency medicine and had come over with her husband who had a job as a maths teacher at the school.
Michaela was from Minneapolis and specialised in paediatric emergency medicine. She had also come with her husband; they had always wanted to live in Europe.
With your combined experience, I trust youll do a great job, Mr Driscoll added. And with that, he left us to it. The school was to be our playground.
On our first day at work, we found out that we were alone; alone and in charge of 400 students, some of the worlds most privileged children. There was no on-site doctor lurking in the background who we could turn to for help; no alarm button to press when things turned sour; no oxygen, no intravenous access, none of the equipment that Id gotten used to having on hand, ready for instant use.
The 400 children came from over fifty nationalities, and while the majority spoke English to a high standard at least ten per cent knew little or none of the language. Other than English, the next most common tongue was Russian.
The other nurses and I were to be responsible for keeping the children healthy, taking care of them when they were ill or hurt, helping them to get along with each other, counselling them through lifes hurdles, and arming them with the knowledge that comes from being an old woman or old man who has made it this far in life without too many major screw-ups (the fact that were not even grey doesnt seem to matter to the kids).
I was looking forward to the challenge. No longer would I have to deal with shootings, stabbings, heart attacks, strokes, violent drunks or demented, incontinent or suicidal patients. Instead, I was going to be looking after fit, young, healthy teenagers. How hard could that be?
The parents had spent a fortune to send their kids here: 100,000 euros per child per year. I assumed they would be hardworking, motivated, intelligent, considerate, good-natured, balanced individuals
However, as youll discover over the course of this book, Im not always great with assumptions.
Marcuss jewels
Why didnt you tell me? Marcus cried, whipping up his tracksuit bottoms to hide himself from the family crowd gathered outside.
I bundled Marcus out the office, into the car and off to the local doctors office. Thankfully, Dr Fritzs surgery is in the centre of the village, only a five-minute drive away.
Proximity and willingness alone made Dr Fritz the unofficial school doctor. In addition to running a full-time GP practice, he was also our first port of call if there was an issue the nursing staff felt needed a doctors opinion, and we would make an appointment at his office and send the child along. Even on his time off, it was not uncommon for him to see our students if the matter was urgent. Dr Fritz was also there if a student needed specialist help, as he knew who the closest and best experts were, and referrals were made through him.
Like all born and bred mountain men, Dr Fritz is a no-nonsense man. Hes also one of the hardest working GPs Ive ever met. He is always there during the day or available in the middle of the night, no matter what, and it wasnt unusual for him to put in an eighty-hour week.
He even has the unique quirks that often come not only with living in an isolated mountain village, but being the only GP for a whole community.
He was happy to see Marcus straight away. Pain in the testicles can be very serious. Torsion (a twisted spermatic cord) is a surgical emergency. Within minutes, the doctor had Marcus lying on the examination table.
He began his assessment as all doctors do, by examining the whole person and not just the affected part, and gradually worked his way to Marcuss testicles. I had wondered if he was going to glove-up as he doesnt always, and in this case didnt, although he was completely professional in his exam. At one point Marcus raised an eyebrow and gave me a worried look, but he kept quiet. It isnt wise to question any man who has your nuts resting in the palm of their bare hands.
Once the examination was over, Dr Fritz arranged for an ultrasound scan to take place as soon as possible.
I do not think it is a torsion, he explained, but we need to be sure. We were standing by the reception desk, as he turned the pages of his diary. He licked the index finger of his right hand to turn another page the same hand hed just used to feel Marcuss testicles.
I glanced at Marcus to see if he had noticed, and saw him staring at the doctors hand, his mouth hanging open. He leant towards me and whispered in an appalled tone, He just tasted my balls.
Dr Fritz does wear gloves when strictly necessary, has always been proper and he did wash his hands, but not before the ultrasound had been arranged. Where other doctors usually wear gloves when examining warts, fungusy toes, and the like, Dr Fritz doesnt. I dont agree with Dr Fritz sometimes, but he is completely trustworthy if a little unprofessional you wouldnt get away with it in most places, and in a way, that shows just how unique this little community is.
This was the first of many peculiarities I would eventually come across while working with the doctor.
As for Marcus, the ultrasound showed that he had a hydrocele, or a little cyst full of fluid, attached to his left testicle, that is absolutely harmless. Marcus calmed down a great deal once he realised his balls werent going to drop off, and the pain settled with some ibuprofen.
As first weeks go, this was pretty ridiculous but, as I was to find out, this was just the beginning.
Chapter OneLuke
Luke
I have a confession to make: before seeing the school vacancy, I had never planned on working with children. But I figured it wouldnt be too hard. Id learned some of the general rules during my years in the emergency room; developed the hunches that seep into the core of any nurse or doctor who spends their life looking after others.
A screaming child is a good thing, although not for ones ears. It means a set of functioning lungs and an airway that is clear. A child that fights as you struggle to put in an IV or suck some blood is also a good sign, it means their illness hasnt sapped too much of their life force. A child that is quiet, a child that doesnt put up a fight, is a concern. Their illness has begun to overthrow their natural survival instincts.
Luke was quiet. He was nine years old and one of the youngest children at our school. He was also one of my earliest patients.
The junior school consists of about sixty children, an almost even split of boys and girls from ages 912, and while they do sometimes mingle with the high school kids, they live and study separately. They do, however, share the same nurse. I see the little ones and the big ones.
Whats wrong? I asked as I ushered a pale, sunken Luke into the examination room. He mumbled a reply and I asked him to speak a little louder.
I feel sick, he managed, his chin resting on his chest, his eyes staring blankly at the ground.
The words Im sick dont really help a lot, but he wasnt up to giving me a more useful answer. To investigate, I phoned up the people in charge of his dorm to get a bit of background.
Hes had a bit of a cough, Mrs Pierce his dorm parent explained. I didnt realise he was so sick. He was running around with the others playing football this morning. Im so sorry.
The people in charge of the dorms are usually a married couple of any age, but often with their own children, and theyre the heart of all boarding schools, wherever they may be. They act as a parent to these children, hence the title.
Mrs Pierce sounded defensive, but she had no need to be. Kids are renowned for bouncing off the walls one minute, then being deathly sick the next. They reach that tipping point where their reserves are finally exhausted and their body suddenly catches onto the idea that its unwell.
With Luke I, at least, had a starting point a cough and a runny nose. He also had a high temperature, 39.9. I was worried, not because of his illness, but because it was up to me to make the call on what to do. I could make the five-minute drive to the doctors office, but Dr Fritz is a busy man. He has a whole village to take care of, and I cant go running to him every time a child has a high fever. To help me decide, I did what I would do if triaging someone in the emergency room. I got as much data as possible.
No headache, no neck stiffness, no rash and no photophobia (sensitivity to light) plus a probable cause for his fever, that is, a cough and runny nose; probably a simple cold.
Lungs clear, with good air entry on both sides with no wheezes, crackles or signs of respiratory distress and his pulse and blood pressure were fine. But he oozed misery. His body ached and shivered. Im so cold, he mumbled.
Its normal to feel cold when your temperature is up. Sometimes its the first sign you notice when someone is sick; youll find them nestled under two duvets with a hot water bottle, trying to warm up, and when you check their temperature, its very high.
Youre going to stay with us for a bit, I explained as I led him through to the sick bay. We have sixteen beds for 400 kids. The most sick get the beds, while the not so sick stay in their dorm where their dorm parent takes care of them. Luke probably had a simple cold, but such a high temperature needed to be monitored.
Please dont take it away! Luke screamed, horrified that Id removed the duvet and replaced it with a thin blanket. It was the most hed reacted since being admitted. Its cruel, watching him shiver, and it didnt help when I placed a cool compress on his forehead. But he was only nine years old and did as told.
Over the next couple of hours, the combination of cooling measures, paracetamol and half a litre of water brought his temperature back down to 37.2, and his actions showed.
Can I watch a movie? is a sign that a child is getting better. I set him up with something to watch. Once the movie was over, this was followed by Im bored. I love those words. Theyre almost as good as Im hungry. Sure signs of recovery.
All the same, I kept Luke in the health centre that night. Illness comes in waves, and Luke didnt disappoint. His temperature went up and down, dragging his body along for the ride, but by the following morning he was feeling good again, and after a day with no fever or body aches, he was sent back to his dorm.
Why had I been so worried? Why had I even considered sending him to the doctor? I knew he had a simple cold, and I know that children are adept at taking onboard very high fevers.
It was because I was the one making the ultimate decision, although it did help having two experienced colleagues to turn to. But I was the one making the decisions, especially late at night or on the weekend, and deciding if a fever was benign, or a sign of something more sinister, even life threatening, and I was the one going to sleep at night wondering what if?. There were no doctors in the background to run a reassuring eye over him, and no blood tests to see how his white blood cells were holding the fort, or inflammatory markers to see how much of a battering his body was taking. I was using my senses and basic observations to make what seemed like a simple call.
But nothing is simple, and in medicine, the simplest decisions dont happen without a lot of thought. This is my job now. Im the decision maker, the responsible one. Its terrifying.
Learning the basics
Shit, I thought to myself as yet another girl burst into tears. That was three already this morning. What the hell was I doing? Am I some sort of monster?
No, I was just doing what I had done for the last half dozen years triaging the students as if this were an A&E department.
My nose is blocked, said Marie. I handed her a box of tissues and moved on to the next patient.
I feel dizzy, said Sarah. Blood pressure fine, pulse steady and strong, no medical history of note, but skipped breakfast treated with banana and told to return to class.
Ive got a cough, said Isabelle. Chest clear, cough non-productive, dry, had only for 24 hours, no fever, otherwise well, and has not coughed once in the last thirty minutes shes been in the waiting room told to take some cough syrup if it comes back, no treatment at present.
Marie hadnt made it out to the hallway before the flood of tears began again. I stood and watched helplessly as she sat back down between Sarah and Isabelle, who instantly put their arms around her. For teenage girls, tears are contagious, and within moments the three of them were weeping quietly, hands entwined, consoling each other with mumbled words and the occasional glance in my direction, pleading with their eyes for some sign of compassion from me.