You had to be terrified, Mom. Maddie took her hand.
Petrified. Literally, since I couldnt move. For an instant, I couldnt believe what I saw. I just stared at the man, the murderer. It was like something out of someone elses life. Belles gentle face twisted with agony. Then he pointed the gun at me.
He tried to shoot you? Jack bit out.
He aimed, and all I could think about were my precious babies. I had to keep you safe. Conviction rang in her soft voice. I got us away from there as fast as I could, although how was a mystery. I shook so hard, I could hardly run. I dashed back into the doctors office, fearing all the while the murderer would follow us in and finish the job. That fear haunted me until the police arrived.
And from there it happened so fast. Brian took over the story. The marshals whisked the three of you away...we hardly had time to really say goodbye.
There were a lot of things I meant to say and couldnt, Belle confessed, as if they were the only two in the room. Im so sorry, Brian. I hope you know
I know. Solemn, understanding, the low notes in his words held the ring of truth. It was a long time ago. We just werent meant to be.
Exactly. It was a hard truth to face. A lifetime separated her from Brian. Their divorce was so very long ago, making them both different people now.
I dont understand. Violet spoke up, ripping Belle out of her thoughts. She realized all five children watched her breathlessly.
Its a lot of information all at once. Her palms went damp and she gave a little push away from the table. Why was she trembling? Because the whole truth wasnt out there. Shed kept a piece of it back. Not wanting to talk about it, she gestured toward the food. No ones eating. Lupitas feelings will be hurt. You know the pride she takes in her cooking.
So this was what you were keeping from us all along? Jacks handsome face compressed into hard lines. Every time I asked about our father. Every time you refused. You could have told us the truth. All you had to do was to say we were in the Witness Protection Program.
You could have told us, Dad. Maddies gentle chiding felt like the first tumble of an avalanche before it crashed down a mountain and destroyed everything.
What if the twins couldnt understand? Belle worried. What if they blamed her?
They wouldnt be wrong to do so. She steeled her spine, determined to face the consequences of her long-ago decisions. Consequences she knew would hurt if they ever came to light.
Yeah, Dad, at least we would have known, Grayson chimed in. You let us believe Sharla was our real mother.
You were so young, too young to understand, dont you see? Brian stood up, towering above them. His dark hair tumbled over his forehead as he surveyed each child. It was hard for me to look at you every day and realize your twin was out there somewhere in the world and not knowing where. I wanted to tell you, but Violet and Jack were witnesses, too, and safer with your mother if nobody knew. It was a decision we made out of love, you have to understand that.
Thank you. Belle thought the words, and although she didnt say them, she knew Brian heard them.
We get it. Jack spoke first. But we arent children anymore, Mom. You could have told me all about this. Or do you think I wouldnt have understood?
I was afraid you would try to find your father and your twin. She squeezed Maddies hand and then Violets. Did the girls know how much she loved them? I couldnt risk your safety. When we moved back to Texas from Washington State, I figured we were all right as long as we kept the past buried.
But I unearthed it, Maddie chimed in. And Im not sorry we found each other, Violet.
Me, either, Violet seconded, sharing a look with her twin.
It did Belles heart good to see the girls together. And the boysso responsible and capable and, when she glanced at Jacks face, so gloomy. Yes, it was time to be fully honest. In truth, I feared you might blame me for taking you away.
It wasnt your fault, Carter spoke up. She loved that boy, too. Shed only known him a short time, but hed already made a lasting impression on her heart. In many ways, he reminded her so much of his father. You did what you had to do. Sometimes thats the way life is. You made the best of a bad situation. You moved away from Dad. You kept everyone safe. It couldnt have been easy to leave your kids behind.
Yes, she definitely loved that boy. It killed me. Im so sorry, Maddie. Grayson. Having to leave you was the hardest thing Id ever done.
Why didnt you take us with you? A muscle jumped along Graysons jawline. You could have done it. You took two kids into witness protection. Two more wouldnt have been difficult.
Yes, Mom. Why did you go without us? A flash of pain misted Maddies eyes.
Belles undoing. Tears rose in a burning lump in her throat, and she couldnt speak. She couldnt answer because how could they understand? What if they turned away from her? What if she lost them again? She didnt think she could take it.
She left you behind because I loved you both so much, Brian answered. When our marriage failed, your mother knew how devastated I was, because she was just as devastated. Id lost too much. I couldnt bear to lose all of my children, as well. Your mother suggested this solution. He breathed deeply. Thats Belle, thats who she is. You dont blame her. If you have to be angry at someone, then youre angry at me. Got it?
We got it, Dad. Graysons answer resonated low and deep.
Yes, Dad, Maddie answered.
No wonder you were always so sad, Mom. Violets grip tightened around her fingers. You tried to hide it, but sometimes at night when Id get up to get a drink of water, Id see you sitting alone in the shadows.
I hate it if I made it harder for you, Mom. Jacks apology sounded torn from him. I wish Id known. I never would have argued with you, you never would have fallen off the horse
I should have trusted you with the truth, both of you. She could see that now. It was too dangerous, and it hurt too much to look at what Id lost. Going forward and keeping the past where it belonged was safer.
And now look where that has brought us. Brians words snared her attention. Together again. Your mothers right. Lupita went to a lot of trouble to pack this lunch, so wed better enjoy it. Eat up. Dont worry...everything is going to be all right. Ill make sure of it.
The surge of gratitude rippled through her. Brian was a man of his word, she knew. Hed do his best to make sure their children were safe. Somewhere out there was David Johnson, the man whod threatened her in the courtroom, the man who had mercilessly committed murder in cold blood and could have killed Belle and maybe Jack and Violet, too.
Wherever he is, keep him away from my children, Lord, please. No matter what, keep them safe. She sent the silent prayer heavenward as the conversation turned to the latest news at the ranchapparently the hired hand Emmett Potter and Lupitas niece Carolyn were still dating. Belle smiled, glad to still be in the loop with things at home. After telling the truth, her children were still here, lovingly gathered around her and in no small part due to Brian. She owed him for that. Huge. Big-time. He really had grown into the man shed always known he would be.
* * *
Thanks, Doctor. Brian glanced over his shoulder down the hall of Ranchland Manor, distracted by the echo of laughter from Belles room. Sounded like the kids were having a good time saying their goodbyes. He turned his attention back to Belles doctor. I appreciate your time.
No problem. Ill take your recommendation into consideration. Doc Garth flipped through Belles chart. I cant say I havent been tempted. Shes one of the most motivated patients Ive seen.
Thats Belle. Wistfulness ached in his chest. The two of them werent meant to behe knew thatbut he respected her. He wanted to help her. She may recover more completely at home. Its not as if shes lacking in people to care for her there.