I wasnt going to eat anything, either.
Jason opened the wide, stainless-steel fridge. Help yourself.
Zoe took a can of Sprite. I reached in and grabbed a can of diet Dr Pepper. Thanks.
He closed the fridge door. The action made him step closer toward me. Instinctively I lurched backward, banging my hip against the counter in my effort to avoid contact.
Jason frowned. I didnt mean to scare you.
I forced myself to meet his gaze. You didnt. Scare me? No. Repulse me? Yes.
He looked as though he wanted to say something else, but then a small group of people burst into the kitchen. They were all in our class, though one of the girls was a junior.
Hey, Jay, wheres the beer? one of the guys asked.
Jason went to get it for them, and I took that as my opportunity to escape. Zoe and I followed the music and conversation downstairs into a large finished basement that had the biggest television Ive ever seen and a pool table. Patio doors opened up to the backyard, where there was a pool and hot tub. There were kids in each.
Zoe turned to me. This house is fricking amazing.
Yeah, I agreed through clenched teeth. The house was gorgeous.
Hey, theres Anna and Caitlin. Want to go say hi?
Yeah. I meant it. I was happy to see the two of them, and not just because there was safety in numbers.
The two girls looked just as happy to see us, and they immediately started talking about how theyd been practicing what they learned in class.
I think my mother thought we were killing each other, Anna joked. We almost busted the lamp in my room.
I laughed. I was glad they came. Having them there eased my anxiety. That anxiety came back, however, about an hour later when I saw Drew Carson hovering around the girl Id recognized as a junior earlier, who was now so drunk she could barely stand up.
A hot prickly sensation ran up the back of my neck, followed by a shiver of ice down my spine. For months Id thought about what I would do in that very situation. Id imagined myself walking up to him and beating him stupid. I imagined myself being the girls savior. Once, I even imagined myself going full-on Kill Bill on them. Never had I imagined myself just standing there, frozen to the spot and shaking with anger. How could I just stand there and not do anything?
I couldnt. With my can of soda in handbecause I was not about to set it downI started walking toward them. Zoe, Caitlin and Anna were right behind me. Zoe said my name, but it sounded like she was talking to me from the far end of a tunnel.
What was I going to do? Smash my soda can into his face? Kick him? At that moment he hadnt done anything wrong. Of course that was the moment I remembered Gabriel telling me I couldnt fight all four of them.
Suddenly, my path was interrupted by Jason. I hadnt even seen him approach. One second I had my sights set directly on Drew, and the next Jason was there, blocking me.
You okay, Angie? I heard him ask the girl.
Shes had too much to drink, Drew said with a smirk. She just needs to lie down for a bit. She can use your room cant she, Jay?
I froze. This cannot be happening. Drew could not be planning to rape this poor drunk girl. Even though I knew him to be the worst kind of monster, I couldnt believe how easily it seemed to come to him.
Actually, Jason said, glancing at me. I think Angie needs to go home. Im going to put her in a cab. He took the girl by the arm and pulled her away from Drew, who had a stupefied look on his face.
The girls and I exchanged glances as Jason steered Angie past us. He had his cell phone to his ear. I heard him ask for a cab.
Drew had been cock-blocked by one of his best friends. His face twisted into a combination of anger, petulance and disappointment. It made me smile.
I followed Jay and Angie, needing to make sure he actually did send her home and didnt take her upstairs instead.
I stood at the opposite end of the hall, near the stairs, and watched. Jason held the girl up, and when the cab arrived, he took her outside and put her in it. I moved closer to the open door so I could watch him pay the cabbie and close the car door.
He spotted me before I could duck away, so I stayed where I was rather than run, as I wanted. I watched him step inside the house, closing the door behind him.
He looked at me. Did you follow me to make sure I sent her home?
Yes. I had no trouble meeting his gaze.
His fists clenched at his sides. I. Am. Not. A. Monster.
I tilted my head as I looked at him. Are you trying to convince me of that? I asked. Or yourself? And then I turned on my heel and went back to my new friends. Just because hed sent one girl home didnt mean he and his friends didnt have another victim picked out.
And it didnt change what hed done to Magda.