Sounds like you still care about this guy.
No. Yes. Not in the way that you think. Things didnt gowell in the end. And that pretty much ended it for me. But that doesnt mean that its easy. The hurt is all tangled up with the good stuff and the bad stuff. She squeezed her eyes shut, as if looking in instead of out. Love is complicated. When it ends, its even more so.
She was a soft touch with a marshmallow center. He could just see how she must have felt. It would be easy to judge, easy to measure out what had happened in black-and-white. But hed learned the hard way that life wasnt like that, that she was right. Everyone had problems, most people did their best, and when relationships didnt work out, the ending of them hurt like nothing else.
He could see how affable she was. Hers was a goodness that he would guess didnt come and go, but remained even when the going got tough. She was no holiday Christian, and she was no fair-weather friend, either. It was his guess that she had a big, forgiving heart.
When she opened her eyes, she gave another shoulder shrug. My sisters tell me thats part of healing and moving on. But this love thing is painful when it ends.
It can be. I think that depends on the two people involved.
She nodded, as if thinking that over. I guess.
So this guy, hes the one you were hoping to marry. When she nodded once, he could see more of what she wasnt saying. She had been deeply in love with him. She had wanted a future with him. That had to really have hurt her, especially remembering what Ephraim had said. There went your dreams and life plan with him.
Not exactly. That makes me sound as if everything hinged on him. I was just hoping, is all. It wasnt sadness on her face so much as regret. She squared her shoulders, and that regret vanished. And now Im on a path I didnt expect to have to turn onto.
Maybe its a better one.
Maybe. She smiled at him, truly smiled.
Just at that second his heart clicked, and he was in like with her. How about that?