The lavender was only a symbol, though. Camille knew full well that Pete was welling into a crisis, in both her mind and her heart. But where she didnt seem able to handle Pete, she was determined to handle the things she could. The lavender, for one. For another, she was determined to set the cottage to rights-all things thrown out from her old life, a keeper pile established, the cottage cleaned up for real. And then
Well, then she needed to make decisions about her life.
Shed been coasting long enough. And if she still wasnt sure where to aim from here, she resolved to stop babying herself.
By the time she reached the cottage porch, her arms ached from the weight of the two laundry baskets. She used her elbow to open the screen doorbut then startling her, she heard a mewling sound from somewhere in the living room.
Killer must have heard the same sound, because he immediately initiated a howl worthy of a banshee.
Shut up, you dolt.
Sometimes he obeyed. This morning, he didnt seem inclined, so she bribed him outside with a dog cookie and closed the door-the fresh air had been welcome on this warm morning, but she couldnt hear herself think with all Killers howling. And then she turned around to face the towel-draped cage on the floor.
Warily she pulled off the towel, and discovered a mournfully panicked cat. At least, she thought it was a cat. It looked like a pumpkin run over by a tar truck, with a torn ear, a gimpy leg and a face only its mother could have loved.
Oh, no, she said. Dream on. This is not happening.
The cat prowled a circle in the cage, mewling pitifully.
No, she said. Practice it. Because its the only word youre going to hear from me. Fuming, she stormed into the kitchen, slammed a bowl on the counter and foraged in the fridge. Almost nothing was in there, no surprise, but there happened to be a couple slices of cheese and the leftovers from a sandwich the day before.
When she came back to the cat, she snarled, Ill feed you. Because youre obviously hungry. But youre not staying here. Ive got one dog Im not keeping now. There isnt a prayer in the universe that Ill take on a cat, so forget it.
The minute she opened the cage, she assumed the cat would fly out, and either hide or dive for the food. Instead the mangy, hairy thing immediately started up a thunderous purr and tried to climb on her lap, nuzzling her nose into Camilles tummy.
Obviously she had to pet her, but she still put the truth on the line. I hate cats. Even before, when I was a nice person, cats were just never my thing. Thats just the way it is.
The cat, who weighed somewhere around three ton, circled her lap and then settled down, eyes closed, claws kneading Camilles skin through jeans. Probably drawing blood. She showed no signs of getting up. The torn ear looked scabby. It was a monster-sized cat, but Camille could still feel its ribs underneath all that matted long hair. The face looked as if someone had thrown black and orange paint on it in blotches.
Look. Youre not staying on my lap. Youre not staying here at all, Camille said irritably.
No response.
Okay. Look. You can have something to eat and you can nap here for a few minutes. Then thats it. So dont get too settled in.
Still, no response. Camille waited. And waited. But the cat showed no inclination to stop purring, much less to move, so eventually she shifted her onto a chair.
Faster than spit, she grabbed her car keys from the kitchen, jogged outside and snarled, Killer, come with me. The dog enthusiastically jumped in the front seat and sat down, shooting her a look of complete commiseration. Yes, she said, thats exactly what I was thinking. What low-down varmint would do this to me? What pond scum? What worm-brained, conscienceless, stone-headed
Cam was still frothing insults when she pulled into Petes drive. With Killer by her side, she marched to the back door like a soldier on a mission, shoulders arched, spine stiff. She pounded on the back door with a fist, then stepped in and yoo-hooed.
It wasnt as if she didnt know the MacDougal house. The Campbell household had been female to the core, where Petes family had been testosterone based. The guys likely wouldnt recognize the sound of their own doorbell, so she didnt hesitate to walk in and yoo-hoo. Still, when no one instantly answered, she propped her hands on her hips and looked around.
Nothing much had changed since Petes mom was alive. Newer appliances, but his mom had always been tuned to a practical channel. The kitchen reflected a floor prepared to cope with mud; the back hall had plenty of stow space for hats and boots; the table was big enough to serve serious-sized platters. Nothing inside had seen wax in a decade. Nothing needed wax. The coffeemaker was a size to give caffeine highs to a platoon, the glasses and silverware sturdy.
It struck her as odd, how shed always felt more comfortable here than in the house she grew up in-but undoubtedly that was because of the decor, not the company.
When no one answered after a second yoo-hoo, she turned around, thinking shed search out the bounders in the barns-but then Ian yelled a welcome. Petes dad caned through the door with a huge wreath of a smile. A gnarled hand scooped around her shoulder and trapped her in a hug. There now, Camille, I havent seen you in a blue moon. Got a mug of coffee with your name on it, just isnt poured yet.
I didnt come for- She couldnt get that thought out, before both the boys thundered down the stairs.
Camille! Hey! You never came to visit us before!
I didnt exactly come to visit-
She just couldnt get a word in. First Sean pounded her on the back, then Simon. Ian took off with her sweater. A box of doughnuts was shoved in front of her-well, part of a box, anyway. There seemed to be two left, not looking too scarily stale. Coffee splashed over the side of the mug. Ians sneaky grin reminded her of his sons-too much so.
We dont fuss much in this house. Paper towels do as well as napkins, you know? But you never were the kind to care about those kinds of things-
Well, no, of course not.
We told you, Gramps. She isnt like a regular woman.
Camille touched her forehead, thinking that if she heard that one more time, even one more small time, she might just shriek. Exactly. Like. A. Regular. Woman. Mr. MacDougal, Im really glad to see you, but honestly, all of you, I only came about the cat.
Cat? What cat?
Sean said swiftly, innocently, Dang. I wonder where Dad is.
Gramps, you should see what she did with Darby. Hes like this sweet old thing now-
The cat, Camille repeated firmly.
Both boys stole another look at each other. Yup, were gonna get Dad right away. Gramps, you talk to Cam, okay? Like make her have another doughnut, okay? Okay?
Okay, Ian said peaceably, and smiled across the counter at Camille as if hed been waiting years for her to finally visit. I remember you from when you were knee-high, Pete carrying you on his shoulders, walking to the bus stop.
Yeah? She heard a door open, Petes voice, the door closed, then the muffled sound of two cracked adolescent voices talking double time. The boys got me the cat, didnt they?
Sean? Simon? Ians jaw dropped as if such an idea shocked him speechless. Theyre sure taken with you, he said, as if the complete change of subject worked well for him.
Mr. MacDougal, Camille said warily, but he interrupted.
Just call me Ian. Youre practically family.
She intended to answer that, but her heart suddenly started thudding with such alarm that she could barely swallow. Family? Family? What in Gods name had the boys been telling their grandfather? What had Pete?
And then there was Pete loping toward her from the back study, flanked by his sidekicks. All three of them were wearing flannel shirts, holey jeans, and no shoes. Their feet-my God, apparently that size feet ran in the family. But never mind that; she could feel her pulse zooming off the chart just from seeing him again. It was enough to scare the life out of her.
MacDougal, she roared, I am not keeping that cat!
What cat? he asked amiably.
You know what cat. No one else in the county would have done that to me but you-
Um, wait a sec, Camille, Simon said honestly, The truth is-I would have.
The truth is, I would have, too. Sean added hastily, I didnt. And Simon didnt. And Gramps didnt. And Dad didnt. But in principle, we would have, because we know youre one of the few women on the planet who could actually love an animal the way we do. But the thing is, we just have so many animals around here that we cant adopt any more strays.
Our dad would kill us, Simon explained.
Especially since he finally agreed to the horse.
Pete lifted his eyes to the ceiling. I did not exactly agree to the horse.
Yes, you did, Dad, Both boys insisted, and their grandfather immediately took their side by saying, Peter, Im quite certain I heard you agree, myself.
Pete shook a finger at each of them, then wrapped his arm around Camilles shoulder and steered toward the door. Were leaving to discuss this so-called cat in some privacy.
Thats good, Dad!
Yeah, thats real good, Dad!
You go, Cam!
There was more of the same refrain, but once Pete closed the door, neither of them had to hear it. I suggest, he said, that we drive somewhere totally away from the hearing range of my back door.
Youve got that right. In fact, I suggest we go straight to my place so you can pick up the damn cat.
That makes sense, Pete said.
He didnt, of course, mean it. He managed to finagle the keys to Camilles car, but only because she blindly assumed he was one of the guys who had to drive. Which was true, but in this case, his male thing about driving had nothing to do with it. He needed her to go along, and she did that because she assumed they were driving to her cottage.
They werent. But his mind galloped around a mental racetrack, a thousand miles an hour, figuring out what to do from here. To get her away from the boys and his father-that was a given. But what to do with her then was a complete unknown.