Вирджиния Вулф
Дом с привидениями. Уровень 2 / A Haunted House
Дизайн обложки Анастасии Орловой
© Матвеев С. А., адаптация, комментарии, словарь, 2023
© ООО «Издательство АСТ», 2023
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A Haunted House
A ghostly couple went from room to room. They were lifting something here and opening something there.
Here we left it, she said.
And he added,
Oh, but here too!
Its upstairs, she murmured.
And in the garden, he whispered.
Quietly, they said, or we shall wake them.
But you didnt wake us. Oh, no. Theyre looking for it. Theyre drawing the curtain, one may say and read on a page or two. They found it. You can be certain. And you may rise and see: the house is empty, the doors are open. Only the wood pigeons are bubbling. The hum of the threshing machine[1] is sounding from the farm.
What did I come in here for? What did I want to find? My hands were empty. Perhaps its upstairs then?
The apples were in the loft. The garden was still. Only the book slipped into the grass.
But they found it in the drawing-room. No one saw them. The window panes reflected apples, reflected roses. All the leaves were green in the glass. When they moved in the drawing-room, the apple only turned its yellow side. Yet, the moment after, when the door was opened, something spread about the floor. Something hung upon the wallswhat? My hands were empty. The shadow of a thrush crossed the carpet. From the deepest wells of silence the wood pigeon drew its bubble of sound.
Safe, safe, safe, the pulse of the house beat softly. The treasure buried; the roof the pulse stopped. Oh, was that the buried treasure?
A moment later the light faded. Out in the garden then? So fine, so rare, the beam always burnt behind the glass. Death was the glass. Death was between us. It came to the woman first, hundreds of years ago. It left the house. It sealed all the windows. The rooms were darkened. He left it, left her. He went North, went East. He saw the stars in the Southern sky. He came back to the house beneath the Downs.
Safe, safe, safe, the pulse of the house beat gladly. The Treasure is yours.
The wind moved the trees. Moonbeams splash and spill wildly in the rain. But the beam of the lamp falls straight from the window. The candle burns stiff and still. The ghostly couple is wandering through the house. They are opening the windows. They are whispering not to wake us. They seek their joy.
Here we slept, she says.
And he adds,
And we kissed each other.
And woke in the morning
Silver between the trees
Upstairs.
In the garden.
When summer came
In winter snowtime.
The doors were shutting. The doors were gently knocking like the pulse of a heart.
They come nearer. They cease at the doorway. The wind falls. The silver rain slides down the glass. Our eyes darken. We hear no steps beside us. We see no lady who spreads her ghostly cloak. His hands shield the lantern.
Look, he breathes. They sleep. Love upon their lips.
They are holding their silver lamp above us. They are watching us long and deeply. They are standing near us.
The wind drives straightly. The flame stoops slightly. Wild beams of moonlight cross both floor and wall. Then they meet and fall upon the faces. The faces are pondering. The faces search the sleepers. The faces seek their hidden joy.
Safe, safe, safe, the heart of the house beats proudly.
Long years he sighs.
Again you found me.
Here, she murmurs, we were sleeping. We were reading in the garden. We were laughing, rolling apples in the loft. Here we left our treasure.
Their light lifts the lids upon my eyes.
Safe! safe! safe! the pulse of the house beats wildly.
I wake up and cry:
Oh, is this your buried treasure? The light in the heart.
Kew Gardens
From the oval flower-bed there rose perhaps a hundred stalks. They were spreading into the leaves. They were unfurling at the tip red or blue or yellow petals. The petals were marked with spots. From the red, blue or yellow gloom of the throat emerged a straight bar. The petals were voluminous enough to feel the summer breeze. When they moved, the red, blue and yellow lights passed one over the other[2]. The light fell either upon the smooth, grey back of a pebble, or, the shell of a snail with its brown, circular veins, or falling into a raindrop. The breeze stirred briskly overhead. The colour was flashed into the air above, into the eyes of the men and women. These men and women walked in Kew Gardens in July.
The figures of these men and women walked past the flower-bed with a curiously irregular movement. The man was about six inches in front of the woman. He was strolling carelessly. She was turning her head to see that the children were not too far behind. The man walked in front of the woman purposely. He wished to go on with his thoughts.
Fifteen years ago I came here with Lily, he thought. We sat somewhere over there by a lake. I begged her to marry me. It was hot. The dragonfly was circling round us. I remember the dragonfly and her shoe with the square silver buckle at the toe. All the time I spoke. I saw her shoe. It moved impatiently. I knew what she was going to say. She was in her shoe. And my love, my desire, were in the dragonfly. If the dragonfly settles there, on that leaf, she will say Yes at once. But the dragonfly went round and round. It never settled anywhere. Of course not, happily not. And now I am walking here with Eleanor and the children. Tell me, Eleanor, do you ever think of the past?
Why do you ask, Simon?
Because I think of the past. I think of Lily. I might have married her. Well, why are you silent?
Simon, doesnt one always think of the past, in a garden with men and women? They are lying under the trees. Arent they ones past, those men and women, those ghosts under the trees? Ones happiness, ones reality?
For me, a silver shoe buckle and a dragonfly.
For me, a kiss. Imagine six little girls. They were sitting before their easels twenty years ago, down by the lake. They were painting the water-lilies, the first red water-lilies. And suddenlya kiss. A kiss on the back of my neck. And my hand shook all the afternoon. So I couldnt paint. It was so precious! The kiss of an old grey-haired woman with a wart on her nose. It was the mother of all my kisses all my life. Come, Caroline, come, Hubert.
They walked on past the flower-bed. Soon they diminished in size among the trees. Soon they looked transparent.
In the oval flower-bed the snail appeared. It moved very slightly in its shell. Then it began to labour over the crumbs of earth. It had a definite goal in front of it. Brown cliffs with deep green lakes in the hollows, flat, blade-like trees, round boulders of grey stone. All these objects lay across the snails path. Before the snail decided to go further there came the feet of other people.
This time they were both men. The younger of the two was calm. He raised his eyes. He fixed them very steadily in front of him. His companion spoke. The elder man was walking curiously and shaky. He was jerking his hand forward. He was throwing up his head abruptly. These gestures were irresolute and pointless. He talked almost incessantly. He smiled to himself. He again began to talk. The smile was an answer. He was talking about spirits. He was talking about the spirits of the dead. The spirits, he said, were even now telling him odd things about their experiences in Heaven.
The ancients knew Heaven as Thessaly, William. Now, after the war, the spirits are rolling between the hills like thunder.
He paused, smiled, jerked his head and continued:
You have a small electric battery and a piece of rubber to insulate the wire. Isolate? Insulate? Well, well skip the details. The little machine stands by the head of the bed. It stands on a neat mahogany stand. All arrangements are properly fixed by workmen under my direction. The widow applies her ear. She summons the spirit. Women! Widows! Women in black
Here he saw a womans dress in the distance. In the shade, it looked a purple black. He took off his hat. He placed his hand upon his heart. He hurried towards her. He was muttering and gesticulating feverishly. But William caught him by the sleeve. William touched a flower with the tip of his walking-stick. The old man looked at it in some confusion. He bent his ear to it. Then he began to talk about the forests of Uruguay. He visited them hundreds of years ago in company with the most beautiful young woman in Europe. He was murmuring about forests of Uruguay, tropical roses, nightingales, sea beaches, mermaids, and women drowned at sea. William was moving him aside.
Then came two elderly women of the lower middle class. The first woman stout and ponderous. The other woman was nimble. They scrutinized the old mans back in silence. After that they went on their very complicated dialogue:
Nell, Bert, Lot, Cess, Phil, Pa, he says, I say, she says, I say, I say
My Bert, Sis, Bill, Grandad, the old man, sugar,
Sugar, flour, kippers, greens,
Sugar, sugar, sugar.
The ponderous woman looked at the flowers, with a curious expression. So the heavy woman came to a standstill opposite the flower bed. She ceased even to pretend to listen to what the other woman was saying. She stood there. She was swaying the top part of her body slowly backwards and forwards. She was looking at the flowers. Then she offered to have some tea.
The snail decided to creep beneath the leaf. There was a point where the leaf curved high enough from the ground.
Two other people came past outside on the turf. This time they were both young, a young man and a young woman.
Lucky it isnt Friday, he observed.
Why? Do you believe in luck?
They charge sixpence on Friday.
Whats sixpence anyway? Isnt it worth sixpence?
Whats itwhat do you mean by it?
O, anythingI meanyou know what I mean.
Long pauses came between each of these remarks. They were uttered in toneless and monotonous voices. The couple stood still on the edge of the flower bed. They pressed the end of her parasol deep down into the soft earth. Who knows what precipices are concealed there? Who knows what slopes of ice dont shine in the sun on the other side? Who knows? Who saw this before? She wondered what sort of tea they gave you at Kew. He pulled the parasol out of the earth with a jerk. He was impatient to find the place to have some tea, like other people.
Come along, Trissie. Its time to have our tea.
Wherever does one have ones tea? she asked.
There was the oddest thrill of excitement in her voice.
She was trailing her parasol, turning her head this way and that way. She was forgetting her tea. She was wishing to go down there and then down there. She was remembering orchids and cranes among wild flowers. She was remembering a Chinese pagoda and a crimson bird.
Thus one couple after another passed the flower-bed. Then this couple disappeared in green blue vapour. How hot it was! So hot that even the thrush hopped like a mechanical bird. It hopped, in the shadow of the flowers, with long pauses between one movement and the next.
Yellow and black, pink and white, men, women, and children appeared for a second upon the horizon. Then they wavered and sought shade beneath the trees. They were dissolving like drops of water in the yellow and green atmosphere. They were like thick waxen bodies of candles. Voices. Yes, voices. Wordless voices. They were breaking the silence suddenly with such depth of contentment, such passion of desire.
There was no silence. All the time the motor omnibuses were turning their wheels. They were changing their gear. They were like a vast nest of Chinese boxes. The voices cried aloud. The petals of myriads of flowers flashed their colours into the air.
Monday or Tuesday
Lazy and indifferent, the heron passes over the church beneath the sky. White and distant, the sky covers and uncovers. The sky moves and remains. A lake? A mountain? Oh, perfectthe sun! Ferns then, or white feathers, for ever and ever.
We are desiring truth. We are awaiting it. We are laboriously distilling a few words. A cry starts to the left. Another cry starts to the right. Wheels strike divergently. Ever desiring truth. The dome is red. Coins hang on the trees. Smoke trails from the chimneys; bark, shout, cry Iron for saleand truth?
Mens feet and womens feet, black or gold-encrusted. This foggy weather, sugar? No, thank you. The commonwealth of the future. The firelight is darting. The firelight is making the room red. Black figures and their bright eyes. Outside a van discharges. Miss Thingummy drinks tea at her desk.
Leaves. Silver-splashed. Home or not home. Gathered, scattered, squandered, swept up, down, torn, sunk, assembled leavesand truth?
Now to recollect by the fireside on the white square of marble. Words are rising from ivory depths. They shed their blackness, blossom and penetrate. The book fell down. In the flame, in the smoke, in the momentary sparks, the marble square pendant, minarets beneath and the Indian seas, stars glinttruth?
Lazy and indifferent the heron returns. The sky veils the stars; then bares them.
An Unwritten Novel
Such an expression of unhappinessand ones eyes were sliding above the papers edge to the poor womans face. Its almost a symbol of human destiny. Life is what you see in peoples eyes. Life is what they learn, though they want to hide it,what? Life is like that. Five faces oppositefive mature facesand the knowledge in each face. Strange, though, how people want to conceal it! Marks of reticence are on all those faces. Lips are shut. Eyes are shaded. Each one is trying to hide or stultify his knowledge. One smokes. Another reads. The third checks his pocket book. The fourth stares at the map. The fifth does nothing at all. Thats terrible. She looks at life. Ah, my poor, unfortunate woman, play the game!
She looked up. She shifted slightly in her seat and sighed. As if she apologizes and at the same time says to me,
If you knew!
Then she looked at life again.
But I know, I answered silently.
I was glancing at the Times.
I know everything.
Peace between Germany and the Allied Powers was yesterday officially ushered in at ParisSignor Nitti, the Italian Prime Minister.
A passenger train at Doncaster was in collision with a goods train.
We all knowthe Times knowsbut we pretend that we dont.
My eyes crept over the papers rim. She shuddered. She twitched her arm queerly to the middle of her back. She shook her head. Again I dipped into my great reservoir of life.
Take what you like, I continued, births, deaths, marriages. The habits of birds, Leonardo da Vinci, the Sandhills murder, high wages and the cost of living. Oh, take what you like, I repeated, its all in the Times!
Again with infinite weariness she moved her head from side to side. Then it settled on her neck.
The Times was no protection against her sorrow. The best thing was to fold the paper. It made a perfect square, crisp, thick, impervious even to life. I glanced up quickly. She pierced through my shield. She gazed into my eyes. Her twitch denied all hope. Her twitch discounted all illusion.
So we rattled through Surrey and across the border into Sussex. The other travellers left. Apart from us, only one of them stayed. Soon we were alone together. Here was Three Bridges station. We drew slowly down the platform. We stopped.
Was he going to leave us? At that instant he roused himself. He crumpled his paper contemptuously. He burst open the door, and left us alone.
The unhappy woman addressed me, palely and colourlessly. She talked of stations and holidays. She talked of brothers at Eastbourne, and the time of year. It was, I forget now, early or late. But at last she breathed,